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Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or in simpler terms, it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC, a real, successful American singing group, and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. If there are instances that it is similar to what happened in the real world, it doesn't mean that it's really true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...
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Help Me [a short fic]
"Nick, please..." JC pleaded. The two were talking in a secluded booth in a cafe in the suburbs of Florida. It was an unusual place for famous to meet but they need to go to a place where they can talk. And the comfort of their homes won't do any good. JC was so close in bursting into tears as he looked at Nick painfully.
"Josh, you know that I love you." Nick said filled with pain as well.
"Then we can fix this. We can survive this." JC said quickly interrupting Nick. "I don't know how to live without you anymore."
Nick sighed. They're not having problems in their relationship actually, but their managements have told them to break it up before a reporter finally puts two and two together. Their managements even threatened to sue them if they won't break up. "But what about management?" Nick asked.
JC just remained silent. He really didn't know what to do. He can't jeopardize their careers and as if they're soloist, they're not. They have friends that are also in danger in here. Even if both camps support their relationship, their careers will come first too. They've worked hard to reach their status and they're not yet ready to give it up because of JC and Nick.
"We have no choice. I can't let my bandmates suffer, and I know that you'll be hurt too once management pushes through with their threat." Nick's hand inched closer to Josh's and held it. "Everything will be okay." Nick knew that it was just a lie because everything won't be okay. He's already picturing himself depressed in his house with a bottle of Jack Daniels beside him.
"It's not gonna be okay." JC mumbled as the first tear fell from his eyes. He retracted his hand from Nick's hold and wiped it away. "I'll always love you." JC stood up and left Nick there. Nick knew that JC would be bawling any minute after that because he felt that way as well.
That was 2 years ago. The two bands were bigger than ever and some were venturing to their solo options. They knew that the group will always be there but they wanted to grow as a one-man act as well. More control, perhaps. Nick and JC were miserable after their forced break up. Their friends tried to console them but they know that it's no hope.
It was only music was keeping JC alive and passionate but the flicker in his eyes was gone. When they're not rehearsing or something NSYNC related, he'll just lock himself in his room wallowing in his sadness. Yeah, after 2 years, he was still sad. Still sad that Nick and him were not together. And now that NSYNC was in a hiatus after their Celebrity tour to give way to their personal stuff -- Justin's solo album, Lance's space trip, Joey's acting career, Chris' clothing line -- and for JC, well, left alone doing nothing.
It was one of those usual late nights alone for JC. A few more days and he was a year older. Feeling the solitude in his house, he just walked in his room and took his laptop to just get lost in the net. It has been weeks already since his lost trip to the net and he knew that there are lots that he has missed already.
While surfing for some things that would interest him, he passed at an article -- Carter song leaked in the net. He clicked the link and read the article.
Backstreet Boy Nick Carter finally comes out of the dark as he speaks up about his solo effort. After his little event in a club that got him a misdemeanor charge, rumors have been flying for past weeks about Nick Carter's silence about the things that's been going in his life and his solo album.
A track from his upcoming album was leaked in the internet a few days back. "Help Me", the title of the track has been receiving rave reviews from the people that have heard of it. "It wasn't intentional for the track to be released in net but I guess it turned up to be good for me. It would be like a sampler for my album that's gonna be out soon." Carter commented.
When asked about the track, Nick said, "Help Me is probably the track that is close to my heart. It's about a guy not knowing what to do about his feelings. Should he follow his heart or what? It's a great one." And when asked if the song was from experience or just inspiration, he answered that it was from experience. "I had a very good relationship 2 years ago and until now, I'm still sad that we had to break it off because of some circumstances. Maybe that person will hear it and really help me."
Jive hasn't commented about the details of Nick Carter's album but they did confirm that it's almost done and it might be released in September or October.
"Is it me?" JC asked himself. He searched "Help Me" over the net for hours until he found it and finally downloaded it.
I wish I could define All the thoughts that cross my mind They seem to big for me to choose I don't know which ones to lose And I've fallen down so far I think I'll never see your light Bouncing off of me Shining down here from your eyes
Chorus: Help me Figure out the difference Between right and wrong, weak and strong Day and night where I belong Help me Make the right decisions Know which way to turn lessons to learn And just what my purpose is here
It's like I got the signals crossed With messages I can't decode Half asleep never wide awake I'm on complete overload
I've got so much information here And nothin I can really grasp I should know the truth But I'm too afraid so I have to ask
Help me Figure out the difference Between right and wrong, weak and strong Day and night where I belong Help me Make the right decisions Know which way to turn lessons to learn And just what my purpose is here
I wanna know you More than anything I will meet you in my every dream you're there for me If you love me for who I am I'm no angel, just an ordinary man
Help me figure out why I'm stuck in the middle Trying to understand why I care, why it's such a riddle I got my eyes crossed, I'm thinking so hard And I know I'm missing the mark
Can you help me sort out all this information I'm just wracking my brain, paying attention But I'm still lost and at all costs, I (I) I gotta know (I gotta know)
Help me Figure out the difference Between right and wrong, weak and strong Day and night where I belong Help me Make the right decisions Know which way to turn lessons to learn And just what my purpose is here
Help me figure out why I'm stuck in the middle Trying to understand why I care, why it's such a riddle I got my eyes crossed, I'm thinking so hard And I know I'm missing the mark
Can you help me sort out all this information I'm just wracking my brain, paying attention but I'm still lost and at all costs, I gotta know
JC was already crying when the song ended. "I have to talk to him." JC wiped away the tears and clicked Nick's number in his speed dial. Yeah, it was still saved there. It rang a few times.
"Hey, It's Nick here. I'm not available at the moment so just leave a message after the beep. Thanks." Nick's prerecorded voice stated.
"Nick, it's JC. I know that I haven't talked to you for almost 2 years already. I heard your song and I really think that it's one of the best things I've heard." JC paused and took a deep breath. "And I want to tell you that I still love you and I don't care about what the world thinks. The last 2 years were pure hell and I don't want that anymore." JC stopped thinking of anything more to say but there was none. "I just have to say that. Bye Nick, I love..."
"Josh!" Nick exclaimed interrupting JC.
"Nick?" JC asked. He was feeling a little bit of nervousness but he's excited to hear Nick's voice once again. His heart was fluttering.
"I still love you too." Nick stated.
"Let's be together again, Nick. Please." JC pleaded.
"Josh, I want that too." Nick replied. A smile appeared in JC's face as a single tear fell. It's not about sadness anymore but joy. "Help me?"
"But just help me too." JC replied.
------------ End
"Help Me" Nick Carter.
That's my little short fic. Please send my feedbacks. Thanks! email is yr_ry_@hotmail.com
Oh! and What I See, Reformation and Crossed Paths is still there somewhere. :-)