This is a work of pure fiction, but based on the author's feelings,beliefs, and in some cases, experience. Come to think of it -- it mightnot be all that pure! There may be graphic sexual encounters at timesbetween males, so if this offends you, you are invited to retreat. If youare too young or it is otherwise illegal for you to be reading this kindof story, shame on you for reading it - - please stop here. If not, - -ENJOY!
Michael Timothy Headly -- That's me! (Sometimes ... Ronny)
Spike -- (Diane, my big sister)
Mary -- My mom
Tom -- My father.
Gilbert Blank -- Friend from Woodland
Joey Gray -- Gilbert's "little brother"
Bobby Pepper -- New friend
Arlo Gates - Orienteer
Randy Samson -- Arlo's roomie
James Samson (Jay) -- Randy's adopted brother and ... My Twin! (Shawn)
Blair -- New Roomie (Todd is his friend from high school)
Jacky -- one of five brothers and a sister: Jared, Jed, Jimmy, Jock and Julie
Jody -- Dude from Hurricane Harbor
... From Chapter 28:
"Well, it's like this, AJ. I really DID like it. You're a totally hot guy ... and ... I am NOT Jay! I really AM his twin brother, And you WILL please call me Mikey!" Then I stepped back and took his hand in mine. "Nice to meet you, AJ Rippey!"
Chapter 29
"You really know how to keep a guy confused ... er ... Mikey!" He said, smiling slightly. " - er -- you ARE Mikey now -- no more switching?"
"I am!"
"And ... you ARE gay ... right?"
"Queer as a three-dollar-bill!"
"What's that supposed to mean. There is no three-dollar-bill!"
"It's an expression I heard. A three-dollar-bill would be different ... right?"
"Yeah -- but - "
" -- and queer means different ... right?"
"Um -- it does?" He said. "I always thought it meant gay!"
"Naw! Gay means happy and carefree!" I said. Queer means different -- like guys who happen to be attracted to other guys. We're ... different -- queer!"
"Well, I definitely feel like I'm different! So ... why doesn't being gay make me happy?"
"I dunno. Most homos I know aren't too happy about it. But ... You'll get used to it. Maybe THEN you'll be more happy and feel ... less ... different!"
"Tell me this, James's twin brother, Mikey - are you always so full of it?"
"Full of ... `it'?"
"Yeah -- or did you just see me coming a mile away ... and know that you could play with me?"
"I couldn't play with you unless you wanted to be played with!" I quipped. "Haha! I guess I really AM full of it today!"
"I can see living here is gonna be a challenge -- fun -- but a challenge -- if I have to always be deciphering what you mean."
"What??!!" I exclaimed innocently. This boy is going to be fun!
"I'm kind of a simple boy ... well, obviously! But ... I'm kind of new to all this ... are you coming on to me?" He asked.
"In what way, Dude?" I grinned widely.
"It seems like maybe you want to ... play with me!"
"Like I said, in what way, Dude?"
"You KNOW what way!"
My smile faded. I looked intently into his deep blue eyes, and said, seriously, "Now who's coming on to who?"
"I -- don't know what to do." He said, turning scarlet.
"What do you WANT to do?
"If I knew that, I'd be doing it! I just came on both of us and now I'm woodied up again!"
"You didn't have to tell ME that!" I said, glancing down at the tent in his pants. I smiled. I sat on my bed. "C'mere." I patted the bed. He sat slowly, never taking his eyes from mine ... his GORGEOUS, but somewhat leery blue eyes.
"Let's not go too fast, AJ. I'm kind of attached to someone right now -- but we're kind of separated for awhile. I'd like to show you a few things, but -- let's go slow. It sounds like both Arlo and Jody are home. Let's just go out and see how their day has been, k?"
"Okay." He said. He looked a little disappointed. I kissed him sweetly. He responded by closing his eyes and opening his mouth. He was shaking again but in quite a different way this time. He breathed deeply and moaned quietly, as I caressed his tongue.
My eyes were closed as well and the distinct impression came to me: "AJ is okay. You can tell him I'm gay. I knew he was last year. Go for it ... with him -- if you both want it." I felt a deep ache in my heart.
"What -- what's wrong?" Asked AJ, opening his eyes and seeing my tears.
"Nothing. That was sweet!" I said. I smiled, covering my pain.
We went out to the front room. "So it looks like you and the new guy decided to room together." Said Arlo. "It's okay, Jody and I can handle rooming together."
"I guess that's decided then." I said. "I just found out that AJ was one of Jay's team mates." I said.
"Oh! Wow!" Said Jody. "Does he know - "
I wasn't sure what he was going to say, so I finished it, " -- that Jay's gay?" AJ's eyes widened. "Yeah, AJ - And -- he knew you were when you guys wrestled."
AJ smiled sadly. "I guess sometimes it's hard to keep that a secret -- when two guys are wearing singlets and rubbing all over. So many times I told myself no! James is straight ... and so am I! Why do I react this way? Why didn't he?"
"I was scared out of my wits!" came into my head.
"He was probably too nervous." I said.
"Are you okay?" Arlo asked me.
"Why?"
"Twice in the past few minutes, you've kind of looked like you were in a trance and went white."
"Hmm. I feel fine." I said.
I'll have to try to control that!
"So, you said that your brother is in Australia now?" Said AJ.
"He was supposed to fly there yesterday -- unless his passport or visa wasn't in order."
That's right! If he IS down there already, he's transmitting from the other side of the world! This power is amazing!
"Hey guys," said Jody, "You wanna all go to Hurricane Harbor Friday night?" I can get passes for all of us. It's supposed to be a hot night! Good for the water park!"
"I'm in!" said Arlo.
"Cool!" Said AJ. "How much?"
"It's free to you guys. It's back to school night and I can bring as many as four. With you guys, - and Jacky -- that would be all of us! You in, Mikey?"
"I -- guess so. I have an open invite to Jay's parents Friday nights. But I guess I don't have to go every week!"
I called Jay's parents. "Jay left for his mission yesterday, didn't he?" I asked.
"Oh -- no, dear." Said his mom. "Some technical holdup prevented his going this week. They'll try again in a few days."
"Is there a problem?"
"No, dear, just some visa problems. They said it happens all the time. Why did you ask?"
"I just wondered. He can still send his thoughts to me. I wondered if it would work around that world."
"It's amazing to me that it works at all! I'm kind of jealous! He can't talk to us at all! I hope it isn't against mission rules! But if it works, then -- why not across the world?"
"I guess."
"Will you be coming to dinner Friday night?" She asked.
"I'd love to, but Friday night is back to school night at Hurricane Harbor, and Jody's getting free passes for all the guys in our room."
"That'll be fun. Why don't you ALL come for dinner? How many are in your room?"
"That's too many! There would be five of us!"
"Perfect! We'll have a spaghetti feed!"
"Um -- do you remember a kid named AJ -- on Jay's team?"
"AJ Rippey? Of course. He was a year ahead of AJ. Tops in his weight class. He was a little small, but used to spar with your brother. Do you know him?"
"He's one of our new room mates."
"We knew his parents. We hoped that he and Jay would become friends -- them wrestling together and all. Poor boy -- I'm afraid he isn't too active in Church. He fell away as soon as he was able to make his own decisions. He went to live with his uncle when his parents were killed in an auto accident. But he always seemed like a nice boy. We hoped that Jay could bring him back. They seemed to like each other, but -- for some reason, they also avoided being together."
Well, I guess I know why that was! And geez! His parents were killed!
"But anyway, bring them all -- or let me know one way or the other. We'd love to meet your friends."
I pushed my privacy button. "You guys want to go to the Samsons' for spaghetti before the water park?"
"Duh!" everyone said.
"I haven't seen Brother and Sister Samson since my graduation." Said AJ, excitedly. "I always liked them."
"They all seem to like that idea. What time?" I said to Jay's mom.
"We eat at six. But you can come any time."
<<Tell Mom I love her!>>
"Okay, we'll be there. Um -- Jay says he loves you!"
"He what? When?"
"Just a moment ago."
"Tell him we love and miss him very much."
<>
"He says he knows."
"I love you too, Mike."
<<I love you too, Mikey!>>
"Bye!" We both said.
"He's thinking to you again, isn't he?" Said Arlo. "That's why you get white and go into a trance!"
"Yeah -- it is." I admitted. Then we had to explain all of that to AJ and Jody.
"That is SOO cool!" Said Jody.
"So -- can he hear us right now?" Said AJ.
"I dunno -- maybe -- but I know he can hear what I think ... and maybe some of the things I hear go through my mind ... but -- he's better at this than I am." I said.
"Isn't that kind of intrusive?" asked AJ.
"We have no secrets. I never have any thoughts that he can't hear -- if he wants. But he mostly only tunes in when I am stressing out -- it seems to get his attention."
"I just dunno if ... um ... can he hear MY thoughts?" He asked again.
"I don't think so. Only mine -- it's a twin thing."
AJ relaxed a little after I told him that. I really never thought about the trust issue. From the first -- when I first met him, I had complete trust. I mean, hurting my brother would be like ... hurting myself!
Thinking this, I wondered if Jay was hearing those thoughts, but if he was, he didn't say anything to me.
"Are Y'all getting another esp from your brother?" Asked Arlo.
"What? Oh! no -- just thinking. Sorry. Anyway, He'll be on the other side of the world in a week or so. I doubt it will work that far."
"Where is he now?" Asked AJ.
"Prova, Utah."
"Hmmm -- still that's over 1000 miles away. Maybe it doesn't make any difference when it comes to thought transmission." Said AJ. The furrow on his brow let me know that he was still concerned. I found out later what was worrying him, as we were lying on our beds before going to sleep.
"You see, Mike, I just -- geez! I think you're a really -- um -- sexy and -- um neat guy. But -- um -- I just would be worried that your brother might be -- um -- like spying on us or something."
"Spying on us ... what?" I said.
"You know -- I mean -- if we decided to -- um -- do anything -- like -- well -- you know -- and - "
"Do anything?" Okay, I was being purposely dense! I want HIM to ask for it!
"Well, you know -- like we already did. Would your brother be watching us?"
"Well, like I said, he only seems to tune into me if he thinks I'm in danger or if I am stressed out. If he knew that I was -- um -- well, - um -- having sex -- I KNOW he wouldn't want to be there."
"How do you know?"
"Because I wouldn't want to. We think alike."
"As far as you know."
"AJ -- stop. I have a relationship of complete trust with my brother. I had the same with my sis. She and I are like this!" I said making the parallel sign. " We can tell each other anything. So it came easy to trust my twin."
"But you hardly know him."
"YOU know him, AJ!" I said, getting a little exasperated. "Don't YOU trust him?"
"I -- guess."
"I mean -- you wrestled him -- sparred with him. Did he do something to make you not trust him?"
"Look, I'm sorry. I DO trust him. But this ESP thing has me kind of spooked. I mean -- James and I were on the team together for two years -- and we saw each other at church all the time. Our parents were ... kind of ... friends. So I guess I trust him okay. It's just the ESP that has me spooked ... I guess."
"Well," I said, "I think it's kind of cool. G'night." I said abruptly.
I lay there for at least an hour, listening to AJ breath. His breathing didn't change any in that hour, so I knew he wasn't sleeping either. I dunno if we felt each other's frustration or what, but we both spoke at once:
"You still awake?" I said.
"Are you asleep?" He said.
"No" We said in unison. Then again in unison, "Look I'm sorry - " Then we laughed.
"You first." I said.
"Go ahead" He said. We laughed again. He continued. "I'm sorry I was a little paranoid."
"You WERE, weren`t you?" I replied. "Well, I'm sorry I shut you down like I did."
"Can I ... can I - "
Rather than finish his request, he got up and padded over to my bed. In the dim light coming in the window, I could see that he slept in boxers only. His compact wrestlers body, with rippling, lean muscles, was highlighted by the silhouette effect.
It was a warm night, so I know he could see me uncovered on my bed, also shirtless and in my sleep pants. I saw his face sweep my whole body before sitting on the floor next to my bed. I guess that is some kind of universal sign of subservience and/or unthreatening move. Dogs do it naturally and so ... in my experience ... do room mates!
"What's up, AJ?" I said.
"Aw, I just kind of feel badly about acting so weird earlier."
"I felt kind of out of line too. I usually am not that snippy. Sorry."
"Maybe we can ... do something to -- um -- I mean -- so I at least will -- um -- feel better going to sleep."
"Heh! You wanna kiss and make up?" I quipped.
"Mmmm -- maybe ... something like that."
Again I patted the bed. He scrambled up next to me. I pulled him on top of me. He laid his head on my chest. His featherweight body felt nice, next to mine, skin to skin. His mouth was right next to my titty, so he first licked it then sucked it. I moaned and rubbed his back. He moaned. "I -- I've never felt this -- um -- warm and -- um - "
I lifted him up to my face and kissed him. He awkwardly kissed me back. I rubbed his butt, pulling his genitals into my tummy. I kneaded his but muscles. After he moaned another time, I said to him, "You can do those things to me, you know?"
"Oh! Yeah!" He giggled and kissed me with renewed vigor. "I like that part!" He said.
I grabbed his throbbing boner and said, "I kind of like this part!"
"Yeah, me too." He said, grinding it into my hand.
"Try to hang on a little longer this time, eh?" I said.
"Huh? Oh! Yeah -- I'll try. On the other hand maybe the best way to do that is to climb down off you."
He started to move. I grabbed his butt firmly and pulled him in tight. "Just be still, AJ." He went limp ... (well not ALL of him went limp!) I have something to tell you."
"What?"
"The reason my brother avoided more sparring with you is -- he was afraid of reacting like you did."
"Huh?"
"AJ -- I wasn't kidding: Jay is gay too."
"Nuh-uh!"
"Yeah-huh!" I averred. "And he knew you were gay."
"NUH-UH!"
"Yeah -- well he suspected it."
"So THAT'S why he avoided me!"
" No - the reason he avoided you was that he was afraid that you would notice his own reaction to you!" He was trying to deny he was gay -- even to himself. Knowing that you were ... and knowing that you got wood when you wrestled -- excited him. He didn't want you to know that ... but mostly ... HE didn't want to know it!"
"Oh my gosh! I felt the same way! I KNEW that he was straight and was so afraid he'd notice my boner."
"He noticed." I said.
"It was like -- if no one else noticed, I could still tell myself I wasn't -- this way."
"Exactly how he felt!"
"He told you all of that?"
"I -- yeah -- I mean -- oh! Um -- well, not in so many words. I just somehow knew it." I said, surprised, myself.
AJ suddenly cooled off and climbed off me. "Thanks for -- um -- talking -- and stuff." He said. he padded back to his bed.
I knew what was bothering him. He thought Jay was there with us. It was my turn to be the mongrel. I went and sat on the floor by his bed. He didn't say anything. "Hi." I said.
"Hi."
"AJ -- Jay wasn't there just now."
"He -- he -- wasn't?" He said. "Then how did you know all that stuff?"
"I dunno, I just knew ... but I do know when he's there. And when he's not. But he told me something else earlier today."
"What?"
"Jay told me he really likes you and wants me to go for it ... with you."
"What does that mean?"
"I'm not sure." I lied. I knew exactly what he meant: Jay was comfortable with me going all the way with AJ! "I think he wants us to -- um -- be friends."
"Just friends?"
"Well, maybe more than just friends. It's not that he wants us to be more -- but more like he's ... okay with it."
I sat there for a full five minutes while AJ thought about that. I started to get up when he said, "Wait!" I waited. "Don't go -- yet."
I waited some more. "Um -- climb on top of me."
"I don't want to crush you!" I said.
"I've had bigger guys on me than you!" he said, sarcastically.
I did as he asked. He put his lips on mine and kissed me deeply. Then he said "Thanks. I needed to do that. That was g'bye."
"G'bye?" I said. "Um -- okay. Um -- okay -- um -- g'bye!" I started to get off him. He pulled me back firmly, reminding me how strong his arms are.
"I was saying g'bye to James. I couldn't get him out of you -- I mean -- I just kept thinking you were him." He pulled me closer, as I had done with him -- squeezing my butt and kissing me deeper that he had earlier. He opened his eyes and looked into mine. "Mike?"
"Mikey!" I said.
"Just checking. What else can you teach me -- tonight?"
"I have an early class tomorrow. I better just sleep."
"OH." he said, clearly disappointed. Okay. I rolled off him -- but to the wall side of the bed. "What -- what -- gives?"
"I thought maybe we could just hang out together ... tonight. Turn around and -- back into me."
He did as told. I pulled him in close. "G'night, AJ."
With that settled, we both slept pretty soundly considering this was his first time sleeping spooned. He just slept away as I disconnected from him after my alarm went off. AJ is 1 ½ years older than Jay and me but seemed a couple years younger. Before I left, I came and asked if he needed to get up.
"My alarm is set. Thanks." He said. I wondered if he even remembered last night. "Wait!" He said as I opened the door. His arms went out and I quickly came back and I hugged and kissed him. "Thanks for last night." He kissed me back and went back to sleep.
Notes: Okay -- who is AJ in love with? (Like?) Is it Mikey or is it Jay? Comments always welcome to Steve at stevethomas535@hotmail.com. Thanks and ... love, Steve