Throughout my life I experimented with guys. Loved girls too. But as I got older just after High School I had a girlfriend and planned to be married the next year. But I meant a Married Man, by the way I was 19 yrs. at the time. We spoke and were friends. Didn't expect anything like that. I was in a rock band and he told us he was always looking for new talent. Little did I know the talent he was looking for was a cocksucker to service him whenever he wanted it. I was skeptical and told him that I didn't know him very well and that I hadn't done that in a while. He was at my house and my father, brother, and sister were gone for the weekend. He was big and strong in his 40's and I was thin and about 115 lbs. He over powered me and force me to suck his cock. I was scarred but had no choice. He face fucked me and I gagged but he didn't stop. He undid my belt and yanked my pants and underwear down to my ankles. Then he turned me over and held my head down into the carpet and told me to be still and he wouldn't hurt me. I couldn't move anyway. He put saliva on my butt hole and fingered some into my hole. It hurt too and that was just his finger. I forgot to mention his cock was at least 6 or 7 inches long and he was thick. He put the tip of his cock against my butt hole and pushed a little and I screamed and he just kept pushing slowly but never stopped. My God it hurt so bad. He finally got his dick in and layed right on top of me and started pumping slowly an then he started groaning and moaning. He was talking to me telling me I had a gorgeous soft tight ass. He said when he was about to cum I was to turn over and open my mouth wide. After he fucked me, it seemed forever. He pulled out and turned me over. He crouched over my face putting both of my arms down by my side.
He started jerking his dick off then he shot his load and it didn't seem to stop. So much cum he was drowning me, it went in my mouth and just overflowed and went down my face then he shot all over my face. He was still cumming and yelling at me to swallow then he jammed his big hard cock into my mouth. I tried not to let him because it was in my ass. He didn't care.
When he was done he said I was a natural and raping me was his fantasy and he planned to do it again but I wouldn't no when. It was going to be a surprise and he was going to bring his brother in law with him and I am going willing do what they wanted me to from now on I was his bitch. I was scarred but couldn't tell my father cause I knew he would hate me or be angry me. So, I never told anyong. He and his brother in law and another big black man saw me one friday night on a June warm night. He told me to get into the car in the back seat with his black friend cause this guy wanted a piece of young ass and a good blow job. He said he told them both how good I was. He said if you don't get into the car that they would force me into the car and the sex wouldn't be easy. I got in. He started driving and he told his black friend to try me out and told me to just let him do whatever he wants and be very good to him. So this guy stripped me himself. He couldn't wait for me to undress. As soon as he got me naked he bent me over where my face was against the side back window.
He began to put some gooey stuff on my butt hole then stuffed it into my ass with his finger, even his finger was big.
When I ever saw his cock I almost passed out with fear. He was fat as a good sized banana. He then told me to lick his big black cock like an ice cream cone. He told me he would let me drink his cum if I were good. That he didn't just let anyone suck his cock and especially drink his cream. He took me and layed me down on my side with my head in his lap and stuck his big cock into my mouth and held the back of my head and pumped his huge piece of meat into my mouth.
I didn't know why at the time but I started getting hard and excited. I then started sucking his cock willingly. He realized I was sucking is member passionately and he let go of my head and I just got hungry for it. I was playing with his balls, licking them, sucking on them. Oh my God I was enjoying myself and the turn on I realized was the submissiveness that I enjoyed. I became willing to service them anyway they wanted me too. That big black cock was the first black man I blew.but it wouldn't be the last. These were all straight married men.
Well when he got close to cumming he told me to lie down on my stomach with my butt in the air, so I did. I was still very nervous with the size of his dick. But, when he pressed his cock to my hole he gently pushed little by little and took a really long time eventually getting the head of his cock into my ass. It hurt as he stretched my hole wide. But a funny thing is it hurt so much but I enjoyed it. Only way I can explain it is it hurt but hurt good. I was erect through the whole thing. Then I could feel a flood of hot sticky cum hit my inside hard and seemed to never stop. He moaned loudly and said he really enjoy me and that I was a better fuck than his wife. It felt good that he appreciated. They drove me to a secluded beach and the other two fucked me in the mouth then my butt. By that time The Big black guy I will use John as his name stuck his cock back in my mouth and told me to suck him off and he actually cummed another large load into my mouth. Then something I never imagine they took a plastic spoon they had and spooned all the cum that was on my face an chest and told me to eat every drop not to waste it. I found my sexual desire which was being submissive and taking care of these men without anything in return and I started to love it. So from then on I have dabbled in sex with men. I know them well. They are my friends fathers and news soon got to them through those 3 guys that on a weekly basis was doing me.Anyway they passed me on to others.
One friday night my friend John the huge black man said he was having a party at a hotel a really nice one that there would be plenty of booze and that he invited 10 or 12 friends of his and that I would be the party. So I felt so honored that they liked me for how good a cocksucker I was and how they loved my little soft tight ass. It really turned me on too like you wouldn't believe. I showed up to the party the original guy that raped me actually trained me to be submissive. When I walked into the room there were more than 10 or 12 guys there were at least 20 to 25 guys drinking and smoking pot and feeling pretty good by the time I arrived. They said it was going to be a gangbang an that I would enjoy all the attention. I sucked and got fucked all night long infact, When I woke up the next morning still buzzed out from the night before, This guy still had his dick in my ass and one guy was sleeping with his wet cum soaked dick in my face. So I did what I did naturally I started cleaning his cock off with my mouth and he came too moaning and smiling at me. He said while I was serving him that that was the best waking up to a blowjob. He quickly cummed and I didn't miss a drop of his delcious creamy sticky warm juice. The guy with his dick in my ass woke up watching what was going on started pumping my ass and he came. Breakfast was a shor water glass fille with cum that all the other guy donated all morning. They gave it to me and John said this is for you. You were awesome so good we all feel that this is a token of our affection. So I said thankyou so much and I hope I was good to all of you last night and they watched me slowly empty that glass of cum into my mouth and down my through wit a gulping and slurping sound which gave them all a hard on again. They were all naked and still ready to go again. So they said one more for the rode, and I said it would be my pleasure guys I really loved it. So they bent me over the kitchen table spread my legs and each one of them took turns fucking my sore ass. They quickly deposited there cum into my willing ass. Then they told me to get on my knees and each of them told me to clean there dicks off with my mouth. I did it willingly. They were mmmmm good. I came to love being used for others pleasure, a real turn on for me till today. Married men that their wives won't suck their cocks or at least won't let them cum in there mouth or let them fuck them in their ass. So it doesn't happen everyday or every week but, when they need it they call my cell and I meet them where ever they want. I do it because I get pleasure from giving pleasure. Not one of these guys have any interest in doing anything to me except get a good blowjob and fuck whenever they need or want them. They are all to the best of my knowledge still married and very happy. I've been married a long time and have been bi all my life since the rape. I have a great sex life with my wife till today but every so often I will meet up with one of my appreciated friends and take care of their needs. We all stay in touch amd thats fine with me. I am 58 yrs old today and I don't look my age and I am told I still have a nice ass even at the gym by older men of course. I like older men because they know what they want and don't ask me but just take what they want and that is fine with me cause it makes my sex life with my wife even better. Of course she doesn't know anything about throughout the years and she doesn't need to. By the way for all your information I never had unsafe sex in my life not even when I originally raped. Condoms always no stress no wondering and no takin chances.
Thats my story you can believe it or not but I live it and love it. J.L.