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I wanna know what love is chp 17
"Dear Jules
I hope this letter finds you well, you said I should write you and I'm hoping you meant it. I again want to apologize for what I've done; there is no excuse good enough to justify my involvement in what we did to you. I don't deserve your forgiveness but I do hope that one day in the future you would find it in your heart to forgive me. I heard about what happened to my father, and though I'll miss him, the consequence for his actions are all is own. My childhood wasn't the greatest, but that's not important right now. I'm doing really good where I am, and large part of that is thanks to your father. For some reason, I can't seem to understand why he wanted to help me after what I had done to you. I don't want to take up too much of your time, I just wanted to write and say sorry again, and to tell you to please take care of yourself and keep in touch if you can.
Merry Christmas,
Jacob"
Jules read the letter over again, he didn't really know what to think about, he did tell Jacob to write him to tell him about his progress and how he was doing, but he didn't think he really would. Jules sympathized with Jacob, which was astounding to him, he didn't know why he felt sorry for the boy who raped him with his brother but something in Jules' heart said to keep Jacob at a distance but not to turn his back on him. The more Jules thought about it, it seemed like advice his mother would have given to him.
"So are you gonna write him back?" Damian asked.
"I don't know yet"
"I didn't want to bring you down today, but I thought you should see it"
"Thanks Dame, I think I will write him but not right now...and please don't tell anyone about the letter"
"You got it"
The rest of the Christmas holiday was great, Amy and her family along with her boyfriend came over for dinner and Jules was happy to see them, despite Aiden whom he ignored like he was a fly on the wall. Kodi came back just as dessert was being served; everyone was in the living room listening to Stellan play the piano when Kodi got in the mood to dance. He grabbed Jules and pulled him close and slow danced with him around the room, Jules was surprised at first but settled into the closeness and lost all sense of everyone else in the room as he stared off into Kodi's big brown eyes.
Kodi's intentions for dancing with Jules in front of everyone were romantic, but he also did it to make Aiden jealous and to keep him in his place and Jules was totally oblivious to it. He pulled Jules as close to him as he possibly could, keeping his arms wrapped tightly around him while whispering sweet nothings in his ear. Everyone's jaws hit the floor at the blatant show of affection, except for Stellan and Damian who smiled, just happy that Jules himself seemed happy. He deserved it.
Aiden however was not happy; he was sad and grew angry after seeing Kodi give Jules a gentle kiss. He wanted to get up and punch Kodi in the face, but knew it wouldn't get him anywhere good, so he got up and stalked off to sit in the next room. After the music ended, everyone seemed to engage in different conversations, Stellan asked to speak to Kodi in private but had to promise Jules he wasn't going to ream him after Jules gave him a cold glare. Jules ran upstairs to his room to grab his camera, as he got to the top of the stairs Aiden grabbed him and pulled him into his room and closed the door.
"What the fuck are you doing Jules?" Aiden asked, breathing heavily.
"What are you talking about Aiden?"
"What the fuck was that down stairs Jules? Was that just to try and piss me off or what? And what was that kiss about, how disrespectful of you to do something like that"
"Disrespectful...to who?...you?" Jules asked in shock and annoyance "Fuck you Aiden, you don't deserve my respect, you don't deserve fuck all from me"
"If not me, then to your father and your guests"
"Are you serious?" Jules said with a laugh "My father knows, and if my guests don't like it, they all can get the hell out but it seems like you are the only one who had a problem. The only reason you are here tonight is because my dad is here"
"What do you mean Stellan knows? What is there to know? Are you guys together?"
"Yup"
"Really?"
"Yes Aiden, we are"
"Why? ... Are you doing this just to get back me or to make me jealous? If so, I get it and I'm sorry Jules, please. I'm sorry and I love you and I only want to be with you"
"You had your chance Aiden and you blew it"
"Please, what if I came out and told everyone...would you take me back then"
"No"
"No?" Aiden asked shocked with his eyebrows raised high "Why not?"
"Ok, I'm going to break this down to you so you can understand this" Jules said calmly, but even still, Aiden knew his heart was about to get stomped on. "Aiden not only did you ruin any chance of us getting together, you ruined our friendship. You broke my heart, you've hurt me worse then anyone ever had and all it took was your simple action of not doing anything when Dante said those things about me. My trust in you is shattered and beyond repair, I will never be able to look at you the same which is really difficult because you used to be one of the most important people in my life, but you took that away...I forgive you because I'm that type of person but I don't want to have anything else to do with you, you are no longer worth my time, space and energy...do you understand what I'm trying to say?"
"But I...please Jules"
"It's a simple yes or no Aiden, I know I may seem really cruel right now but you should have known better...he cares for me in ways that I prayed you did, but you didn't"
"So we can't even be friends?"
"No, at least not anytime soon"
That was it, Aiden had been shattered and he only had himself to blame. He hung his head and softly shed tears as he walked out the room and down the stairs. Jules legs started to go weak and he had to sit down on the edge of his bed, he dreaded having that conversation and it took a lot out of him, it killed him to do it but Jules knew he had to. He started to cry, mourning the loss of a friendship that was created at what seemed a life time ago. He cried tears of sadness and relief as he started to push himself past Aiden's betrayal.
"Are you ok Jules?" Kodi asked standing in the doorway.
Jules couldn't answer, he looked up at Kodi and shrugged his shoulders and started to wipe the tears from him face. Kodi pulled him up and hugged him and kissed his tears away, bringing a smile to Jules's face. After everyone left for the night, Jules walked with Kodi hand in hand to the guest house, the both got undressed and climbed into bed. Kodi lay on his back and pulled Jules so half of him was lying across Kodi with their legs entwined.
"Merry Christmas Jules"
"Merry Christmas Kodi"
Jules reached up to give him a simple kiss good night but it turned into more then that, Kodi pulled Jules completely on top of him as they kissed more feverishly. Kodi sought after Jules's body with hands, caressing his back until he reached he reached Jules' perfectly round and firm globes. I grabbed the meaty cheeks and pulled Jules more up his body, Kodi was 6 feet and loved the fact that Jules was so small and easy to maneuver. He spread Jules' ass and began to lightly stroke at his entrance.
"Yes, touch it" Jules hissed while nibbling on Kodi's lips. He turned Jules over so he was on his back and licked his own fingers so he can play with Jules's hole while he shoved in tongue back in his lover's mouth. They kissed intently as Kodi laid on top of him and probed at his opening, now with three fingers, causing Jules to buck and moan in immense pleasure.
"Please Kodi, put it in me" Jules whimpered.
The begging sent Kodi into overdrive; he slid the bed further between Jules' already spread legs until he was faced with his pulsating pucker. Unable to resist it, Kodi licked the opening, savoring the taste.
"Yesss" Jules purred "More, oh fuck yes"
Kodi loved the encouragement, it made his already rock hard cock leak with his pre-cum. With both hands, he spread his ass wider and shoved the tongue deep into his lover; Jules gasped and arched his back off the bed. Kodi ate at his hole like it was a piece of cheesecake.
"Please Kodi, don't make me beg for it" he said with a grin as he grabbed Kodi's head and brought him up to kiss him again. Kodi laid on top of Jules again and wrapped the boy's legs around his waist; he lined up his cock with his lover's opening and slowly pushed into him.
"Fuuuucccckkkkk" Jules let out in a growl his Kodi entered him.
"Baby, you are so tight" Kodi gasped "It feels so good, I have never felt anything so good"
"Me either" Jules whispered as he bit his lip.
"I wanna make love to you Jules" he said as he pushed deeper into him. He brushed up against Jules's prostate, causing him to moan out loud and shiver at the same time. Jules grabbed Kodi's head and pressed his lips to his.
"You are making love to me" Jules said with their lips pressed together.
Kodi increased his pace a bit, pulling half way out and sliding all the back in, hitting Jules's prostate every time. They kept their lips pressed together and Jules clawed at Kodi's back like he was holding on for dear life and not wanting the ride to end. A massive orgasm was building inside of Jules and it was almost to the edge of overflowing, Jules was surprised by the sensation because he wasn't even touching his dick at all. He let his head fall back and enjoyed to rest of the ride, and with a few more pumps into his hole by Kodi, Jules came with a shout covering his stomach and chest with his own seed. His ass muscles spasmed from his intense orgasm around Kodi's cock which sent him over the edge to fill Jules with his cum.
"Amazing" Kodi said between breaths as he lay panting across Jules's cum soaked chest.
"Yes, you are amazing" Jules replied with his legs still wrapped his man. "Let's take a shower"
Kodi picked up his boy and carried him into the shower, the soaped themselves up and rinsed themselves off and then stood there kissing and nipping at each other's skin under the water, not being able to keep their hands off each other.
The holiday season was coming to an end with New Years Eve just around the corner. All the training Jules and Dustin put themselves through paid off because the both walked away with trophies and prizes in their divisions. Jules still hadn't told Dustin that he was officially with Kodi now and he new it wouldn't be right to keep him hanging on since he was a really good guy.
"So are things serious with you and him?"
"It's getting there" Jules replied.
"And so there's no chance with you and me?" he asked with a frown.
"Dustin, you are great...really. You have been a good friend and have been there for me from the moment you met me which is something that I needed and still need, but if I'm being honest with myself I know that I was only getting intimate with you because I was lonely and you had no problem showing me affection in public. I know that was wrong of me...but you deserve better. You are still my friend, one of my best friends now...at least I hope you are"
"Of course Jules, I'll always be your friend no matter what; you can always count on me"
"You deserve to be happy" Jules said with a knowing grin "And I know who can make you happy"
"Who?"
"Damian"
"I can't...he's like your brother...and, wouldn't it be weird?...plus...he doesn't like me"
"It would only be weird if you make it weird, I kind of talked to him about it, and he does fancy you a bit, but he was worried about what I would think about it"
"I don't know Jules" Dustin said slightly embarrassed.
"But I do know" Jules said "I'm going to have him call you and just let it flow from there"
January 1st came around and Jules decided he was going to go back to school, Stellan was heading back to New York to work on some important mission and Jules didn't really want to sit around the house by himself since Kodi was in college and the rest of his friends had school as well. Stellan and Jules had a long talk about the recent past and Jules was able to talk about how scared he was for his dad and pissed at the fact that he secretly assigned Kodi to be Jules protection. Stellan told Jules that he placed Kodi there because he his highly qualified to protect Jules despite his age even though Jules is fully capable of protecting himself. Stellan also told his son that he is working on something high volatile for the government and felt better if Kodi was there to be with him incase something happened.
The day Jules returned to school was the same day that Stellan, Liam and Damian returned back to New York. Jules hated being away from Damian more then he hated being away from his father, they promised to stay in touch like always and Damian also promised Dustin that they would be in constant contact as well. His first day back seemed like any other day; he parked in the student parking lot and made his way to meet up with DeMarco like he always did at school.
"It's been a while man" DeMarco said as he sat in the courtyard before first period.
"What do you mean; we see each other all the time"
"Yeah kinda, there are always people around and you are busy ignoring Aiden and everything you got going on. It hasn't been just us two in a while"
"Wow, I'm sorry. I don't really mean to neglect you like that but to be honest, you are always around Amy and although I love her to death all she wants to talk to me about is her brother, she can't take the hint that I'm over it"
"I understand, but you could at least make a little time for me" DeMarco said with a smirk and playfully punching Jules in the arm.
"Hey, you know my number and my address; you can come see me anytime you want to get away from the girlfriend"
The bell rang and the two friends walked to their first period class, right in front of the classroom door Jules was shoved into a wall. "Not this shit again" he thought to himself, he turned around to find Dante Monroe glaring at him and Aiden standing nervously behind him.
"Did you just put your hands on me Dante?"
"What the fuck if I did faggot, what the fuck are you going to do about it?"
"Leave him alone asshole" DeMarco said stepping in front of Jules.
"I don't talk to fag lovers" he sneered at him "But that little dirty queer boy tried to force himself on Aiden, I seen it and he should have his ass kicked for it"
"What the hell are you talking about?" DeMarco said horrified, looking from Dante to Aiden is disbelief, DeMarco knew full well of the situation.
"And who is going to kick my ass Dante? You?...I'd drop you before you even realized what happened"
That set the 6'2 Dante off; he reared his fist back and aimed it right as Jules and in a matter of split second he was on his knees. Jules kicked him in the nuts to buckle him over, then hit him in the chest to bring him on his knees. Jules was so disgusted he didn't have anything else to say to Dante, but he was furious with Aiden. Yes he told him he wanted nothing more to do with him, but he didn't realize that he would just stand there again and allow Dante to say those things.
"You're a lousy piece of shit...just gonna stand there and you wonder why I want nothing more to do with you" Jules spat and Aiden before walking into class.
For the rest of the day all everyone could talk about was how big bad Dante Monroe was brought to his knees by little ol' Jules, he was aware that his actions were probably going to bring on retaliation from Dante and his friends, but Jules knew he would be able to handle himself if something happened.
It was lunch time and Jules decided he wanted to get off campus for lunch but he promised he would eat lunch with Caden and being a freshman, he wasn't able to leave campus for lunch. He met him in the cafeteria and told him that they were going to sneak the young friend off campus for lunch. After getting to the burger place and sitting down with their food, Jules seen John Fairbanks pull up in his truck and walk into the restaurant. Jules didn't want to cause a scene in public and Caden was starting to shake with nervousness at seeing John. Jules was about to tell Caden to bag up his food when John walked right up to their table.
"Can I talk to you guys?" John asked nervously. Jules didn't answer right away, but looked to Caden to see if he would be comfortable speaking with him. After a moment of thinking, Caden shrugged that it would be alright but Jules could tell that he was still a little nervous. Jules got up from his seat and sat down next to Caden and indicated for John to sit as well.
"I...I wanted to apologize, to the both of you. I'm sorry Caden for what I did to you, the guys really didn't want to but I pushed them into it and I only did it because Joshua ordered me to...I think at the time I was too stupid to realize that he couldn't get to me from prison if I refused him. And Jules I'm sorry for my dad, he thinks a lot like Joshua's dad and a big reason as to why I moved out and am now living with my grandparents"
"What do you mean?" Jules
"Well, I'm gay" John said, he was fidgeting and kept staring at his hands
"Wait, what?" Caden asked.
"I'm gay, I have known for a while and I've secretly been dating someone for a year now"
"Then why did you do all the shit you did even before Joshua went to prison?"
"Other then having my dad hate me?" he asked with a sigh "Jules, you weren't the only one Joshua bullied and sexually abused"
"I kind of figured he did the same thing to his brother when he found out that Jacob liked me" Jules said.
"He did it to me" John said flatly. Jules and Caden both were stunned into silence, this big brute football player just admitted to being bullied and molested by his so-called best friend.
"I know this isn't something anyone would ever lie about" Jules said "And I know it's hard to talk about so you don't have to tell us anything"
"Thank you, but I'm finally at a place where I can talk about it...at least talk about it with people who would understand" John said looking directly at Jules "Joshua found out about me and my boyfriend when I first started dating him, then he told me that he was going to tell my dad and everyone else if I didn't suck him off, it got worse because he wanted to do more. My boyfriend goes to a different school and I tried to keep Joshua satisfied so he would stay away from him. His father was sadist, he found out what Joshua was doing and thought it was funny, told Joshua to keep it up and make it hurt"
"I'm so sorry that happened to you" Caden said sincerely.
"That's horrible, I guess me of all people can understand what you are going through. He can't hurt you any more, him nor his father"
"Yeah, thanks to you and your dad, and then I show my gratitude by beating up Caden, but he told me he was going to get his dad to come after me if I didn't keep up his bullying in his honor"
"Well their bastard father is dead now" Jules said "But why are you living with your grandparents, if you don't mind me asking"
"After I seen you in the mall that day, I was sick by my father's behavior so when we got him I came out to him and told him everything that happened to me...he called me a sick freak and through me out"
"Holy shit, I'm sorry John" Jules said "Look, I can't speak for Caden but let's just put all of this behind us and start fresh"
"I would like that" John said.
"Yeah, me too" Caden said with a soft smile. That kid has a good heart.
"I came out to some of my friends at school today, most of them took it better then I was expecting. My boyfriend is out and very proud and it's only fair that I be as well" John said with a peaceful smile.
"Well I think this calls for a couples night" said Jules "How about you and your boyfriend come over to my place Friday night for food and games with me and my new boyfriend with Caden and his"
"Caden, you have a boyfriend?" John asked surprised.
"Um...yeah...we just started dating" he replied blushing to a deep scarlet red.
"And he's hot" Jules interjected "I set him up with one of my good friends"
"That's great, you deserve it and we'll be there" John said.
The beginning of the week started a little rocky with the incident with Dante, but it ended on a rather positive note. Connor and Caden joined Jules and Kodi for a night of pizza, beers and board games; they were also joined by John and his boyfriend Caleb Jennings who Jules actually knew because their mothers had been friends.
Since it was just Jules and Kodi now at the Barrett residence; they spent a lot of time getting to know each other as well as making love at every opportune moment, and since Jules slept every night wrapped in Kodi's arms with the necklace he gave him around his neck, Jules hadn't had any nightmares.
The following Wednesday as school ended, Jules walked out to his Range Rover and noticed there was someone leaning against it and the closer he got, he realized it was Dante. Jules slowed his step to take in his surroundings and saw that there were three more guys on the other side of the car. Jules realized he had two options and new none of them were very promising, he could turn around and try to run but he was close enough that they would catch him. The other option was to stand and fight the four rather large young men and try to hold them off until someone came to help, he took his cell phone out of his pocket and quickly hit the speed dial to ring Kodi's cell phone, who was at school a block away.
"I said you were going to get your ass kicked" Dante said as he advanced on him. Jules stuck his phone in his pocket before Kodi got a chance to answer; Jules just hoped he would be able to hear what was going on.
"And like I told you before, you aren't going to be the one to kick my ass and you know it, that's why you had to bring friends" Jules said stepping back to distance himself and prepare for attack. "Four big guys for little ol' me, that's hardly fair" he quipped with a smirk.
Dante stepped wide towards Jules and swung at him, Jules leaned to dodge the blow and swept his shin bringing Dante to his knee then slammed him in the face with his fist. Before Jules could step back and strike again, two of the other guys grabbed him and started wailing on him. He blocked as many of the blows as he could but brought his arms up to protect his head, doing so left his body open. Jules was punched in the stomach knocking the wind out of him and dropping him to his knees gasping for air, the three guys proceed to kick Jules while Dante struggled to get to his feet.
Two of the guys stepped back to help Dante to his feet, giving Jules and opening. Jules rolled to his side and kicked the guy closest to him in the knee hearing it snap and crunch, leaving the guy screaming in agony. One of the other guys ran at Jules before he had a chance to get up and tried to kick Jules in the stomach, but Jules caught his leg and began to punch him over and over in the nuts while screaming at him. All of the sudden Jules was kicked in the face, sprawling him out on the pavement.
Time seemed to slow down to Jules then, he could see that the Dante and the last guy was the only two standing and they were kicking him in his body but he was numb and couldn't really feel it anymore. His eyes fell to the side and noticed that a crowd had gathered watching, everyone seemed shocked with covered mouths but no one seemed to move to stop the beating.
Jules heard a blood curdling scream and looked to see Amy and DeMarco running to him and he was being kicked, he could feel blood pouring from his face. He tried to put up his hands to stop his friends from coming to him; he didn't want them involved or get hurt. Dante knelt down and turned Jules's head so he was looking at him, then punched him in the face and Jules was taken by the darkness...again.
Kodi was in Cal State San Bernardino's Campus Common with his friends when he got the call from Jules, he smiled when he seen his name pop up on caller ID, they couldn't go a day with calling or texting each other multiple times. The smile on his face faded when he answered his phone and heard the commotion on the other end. He took off in a sprint, leaving his friends without explanation. He ran out of the Campus Common and through the parking lot, he didn't bother to take his car, so he ran towards Cajon High School which was literally a block away.
Kodi got to the school and ran across the back campus to the student parking lot where he figured Jules would be. When he got to the parking lot, he spotted the crowd of watchers and has he got closer, he seen two guys kicking Jules who was laid out on the ground. He reached the scene just as Dante punched Jules in the face, he seen DeMarco running towards them as well but he got him first.
In a blind fury, Kodi launched himself at Dante. He grabbed the man and punched him in his eye then, kicked him in the stomach and then punched him in the jaw, making his neck snap and knocking him out. Kodi turned his attention to the last guy standing but he took off running before he could get to him. He turned back to Jules, who was now unconscious, bleeding and being cradled in Amy's arms. He took him from Amy and started to feel for vital signs, he felt a faint pulse and started to scream for someone to call 911 but no one moved, people either didn't care and was just watching the show or was too in shock to do anything. DeMarco pulled Jules' car keys from out of his pocket and told Kodi to pick him up and put him in the back seat.
Jules was in the emergancy room and they wouldn't let anyone go back to see him just yet. Kodi was pacing around the waiting room, nervous and frantic, he kept pulling at his hair like he wanted to yank it out. Amy sat in the corner crying while trying to comfort DeMarco who had completely lost it and broke down, he only had enough strength and sensibility to drive them to the hospital before he collapsed and sobbed. He kept moaning "why is it always him" and "why is it always me who finds him". This is the second situation where DeMarco witnessed the aftermath of an attack on his young friend.
Just then; Aiden and his mother stormed into the waiting room, Ms. Talley ran off to the nurse's station then they escorted her back to find out what was going on. Aiden stood there staring at his sister, shocked and not knowing what to say as he noticed Kodi pacing and DeMarco balling his eyes out. DeMarco calmed down enough to wipe his tears away and noticed that Aiden was standing in front of them.
"Did you know they were going to do it?" DeMarco yelled at Aiden, getting right up in his face. Amy stood up, shocked not knowing what to do and Kodi turned to face them when he heard DeMarco yelling "Answer me damnit...Did. You. Know?"
"Wha...what do you mean?" Aiden stammered.
"They are your friends" DeMarco yelled "I see you with them, Dante and his group. They jumped Jules and beat him bad and I wanna know if you knew they were going to do it. You were there the day Jules got into it with Dante and you stood there and did nothing like a punk. You knew didn't you?"
"They...they said they were going to do it, but I didn't think they really would, plus I knew Jules could take care of himself" Aiden stammered. Amy's eye got wide and Kodi began to violently shake as he stepped towards Aiden, but it was DeMarco's turn to throw a punch first as he hit him square in the jaw, knocking him flat on his ass. He got on top of him and punched him a few more times in the face. Amy was too shocked to move, Kodi came to his senses enough to pull DeMarco off the boy on the floor.
"This is all your fault" DeMarco spat at Aiden "You should be the one in the ER, not him"
(Author's Note)
Just when things are starting to look good for Jules, life has to throw him a fucked up curve ball...stay tuned...its not over yet.
Thanks for the emails everyone...keep them coming. eric.z.james@live.com
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