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I wanna know what love is Chp 6
DeMarco felt badly for the way he and the other guys had handled the situation with Jules; he knew it was a bad idea but didn't want to step out of line since he was the new friend in the situation. He now kicked himself for not doing what his heart told him to do days ago. With everyone still shocked at the news that Jules was going out on a date with Christian, DeMarco ran upstairs to talk to him while he got ready.
"Jules; I'm so sorry for how that went, you have every right to be upset with me"
"It's ok. I just don't like being kept in the dark about things that concern me. It makes me feel helpless and I hate it. I've had enough of feeling helpless"
"I understand, I won't do anything like that again I promise" he said. He paused a moment, not sure if he should continue with what he wanted to say "Um, this might not be a good time to talk about this, but since it does concern you I'd like to tell you why the situation with Jacob is different" Jules didn't want to talk about it right now, but he was curious as to why his father had made that decision without talking to him about it.
"Go on" he said while he searched through his closet for something to wear.
"He was forced to do what he did"
"Bullshit" Jules spat.
"No, seriously, he was, and according your father; Joshua didn't deny it" Jules gave him a confused look. "Jacob is gay. He said he had a major thing for you since before freshman year, but was afraid to say or do anything about it because of his dad and brother. He said he only messed with you this year because he came out to Joshua and Joshua told him if he didn't harass you that he would tell their dad, but he ended up coming out to him the day he got suspended. His brother and father forced him to do what they did."
Jules was in shock. He didn't know how to take in what DeMarco just told him. He had more than a clue that Jacob was gay, and knew that he was facing his own demons, but he never figured that was the reason for the change in him since they used to be friends. He shuttered to think of how a father could force his son to do something so heinous to a person who is the same way as his son. He was wanted to feel bad for Jacob, but his fragile state of emotions wouldn't allow him to do so at the moment.
"He wants to see you Jules; before he goes off to the detention camp"
"Why?"
"He wants to apologize, he doesn't want your forgiveness, he just wants to apologize"
DeMarco left Jules to think about what he had just heard and what he was going to do about it. He knew Jules was a strong kid, and he would be there for him whenever he needed. He just felt badly that he couldn't be there for his brother like he was for Jules, but it made him smile knowing that he was doing what his brother would have wanted him to do. He had to hurry and make it home, because like Jules; DeMarco had a date. He and Amy were becoming increasingly close; he really liked her. Not for the fact that she was beautiful or the head cheer leader, but for her sense of humor and her kindness. He was starting to really see himself with her.
Since he started at this new school, and through all the shit that Jules is going through, no one has yet to meet his mother. No one really thought anything about it because DeMarco is 18 and can come and go as he pleases. His mother is a professor at the university so she is always busy, but tonight is a big night. DeMarco is taking Amy to meet his mother for dinner.
At 7 pm on the dot, the door bell rang. Jules quickly ran to the door after shouting his goodbyes and left before his dad or his friends could make a scene. Christian took Jules to his favorite restaurant at Victoria Gardens and then to a movie and the mall. He was being a perfect gentleman and although Jules could never forget how he cheated on him, he was enjoying the attention he was getting. They went to see an action movie that Jules had been excited about since the previews came on TV. He had to stifle a laugh when Christian did the old yawn and stretch to put his arm around him. Christian pulled Jules into him and kissed him on the lips. It was soft and sweet. His kisses always made Jules' stomach flutter, Christian pulled away with a smile knowing he had caused the desired effect. He leaned back in and kissed Jules with more intensity, Jules met his kiss and slipped his tongue in his mouth. They made out for the rest of the movie and well past the rolling of the credits.
The ride back home was spent talking and laughing about the parts of the movie they actually managed to watch. Christian wanted to ask Jules more about the attack but decided he wouldn't in case it ruined the mood, so he told Jules about his plans to go to the military academy, West Point after high school. He was in his school's ROTC program and like Jules, was an A.P. student.
When he pulled into the rounded driveway, he cut off the engine and looked into Jules' eyes. Something about the look unnerved Jules. It brought him back to the reality that Christian was really just a douche bag, but before he could say or do anything Christian grabbed his face and kissed him. Caught off guard; Jules melted into the kiss as his apprehensive thoughts faded to the back of his mind. The kiss became more intense as they started grabbing for each other. Christian licked Jules' ear and kissed his neck, causing Jules to moan in pleasure that he hadn't felt in months. Christian grabbed Jules's hand and placed it on his crotch, Jules could feel Christian's already hard cock continue to grow thicker and it excited him. Christian started to Jules' shirt off when it snapped him back into reality.
"I can't" Jules said. "Why not? I know you loved it when we..." But Jules cut him off.
"I just can't, not right now"
"But look what you did to me" pointing to his stiff dick with a smile on his face.
"I know. I'm sorry, but you are little buddy are going to have to wait"
"But what if I can't wait?" That was clearly the wrong thing to say and Christian realized it just as soon as the words left his mouth.
"If you can't wait, go have the boy who lives down the street from you suck your dick like he did before" Jules said as he got out the car.
"Babe I'm sorry, I didn't mean it" he shouted out the window.
"Now you're back at square one Christian, don't fuck it up" Jules said, matter-of-factly.
Christian was stunned by Jules' direct tone; he was always more the passive one in their prior relationship as Christian took the lead. He didn't like the change in Jules's demeanor, but figured he would start over and wait for Jules to be ready; it would pay off in the long run. He started his engine and watched Jules walk in the house. He waited until the porch light was turned off before pulling out of the driveway.
After entering, Jules reset the alarm and walked into the kitchen. He noticed the TV was on in the family room and walked in to see Aiden, lying barefoot on the couch watching a movie.
"What are you doing here? I thought you had a game tonight."
"I did. We won of course, but I just got here" Aiden said with a smile. Jules smiled back.
"Well congrats, but you didn't answer my question, and where is everyone?"
"Damian went to bed, he's still on New York time, and your dad left."
"Left where?" he asked nervously.
"You are usually asleep by now, but every day since Officer West vanished, your dad and his guys have been out trying to work out where he could have gone."
Jules felt suddenly relieved, "Ok, and why are you here instead of hanging out with your team? I mean, you're welcome here; this is your second home. I just don't want you to feel like you can't go be with your other friends because you feel you need to watch over me."
"But I do have to...you're my friend, more than that, you are like my little brother...and well there is something I needed to talk to you about, too, but I just don't..." he was starting to stammer, which embarrassed him as he turned two shades of red. Suddenly, Stellan walked through the back door with a distressed look on his face. Aiden was relieved for the distraction.
"How was your date son?"
"It was ok, but how are you? You look tired."
"I am tired, I haven't been sleeping much lately, but hopefully that will change"
"What do you mean?" Aiden asked.
Stellan went on to tell the boys about how the search was going for Jason West; his men had tracked him to Belize. Mr. West used every last favor he had in the world to travel such a distance in two weeks time. He had gone missing while Jules was still in his coma. Stellan's man track his whereabouts and are now waiting to spot him before picking him up, the only good thing about this ordeal is that the trial against the three has been moved up to next week, in hopes that they get him back in time. Jules was glad this was going to be over soon instead of having to wait months for the trial to come about.
Stellan went to his room to get some sleep while the boys went upstairs. Jules gave Aiden the choice of taking one of the guest rooms or sleeping in his room. He decided to sleep in Jules's room but had to take the pull-out couch since Damian was already asleep on his usual side of the bed. They talked briefly about the game and other plans for the weekend, Jules totally forgot that Aiden had wanted to talk to him about something and Aiden was ok with that. He built up his courage all evening to tell him but it left him as soon as he looked into his eyes.
Jules got undressed as usual and walked to his bathroom naked for his nightly ritual. He didn't think anything about being naked in front of Aiden. They were like brothers after all, and he didn't need to be shy around him. Aiden, however; couldn't remove his eyes from Jules' body, the body he had dreamed about and lusted after for a while now. His smooth neck that led down to thin, but defined shoulders and arms, his small pecs and flat stomach, the way his waist narrowed and how his ass was round and supple, and the way they sat on smooth legs, and his perfectly kept feet. Jules was his Adonis.
2 am like clockwork, Jules started screaming and shaking in a fitful nightmare. Aiden was startled out of his sleep and noticed Jules was screaming in his sleep. Just as Aiden got up to rush to Jules, Damian grabbed him and pulled him close. Jules woke up in a fit of tears after reliving his attack in his dreams. Aiden was worried and rushed to the other side of the bed and sat down next to Jules.
"How often does he have them?" he asked Damian, noticing that he moved into action like he had done it before. "Every night since he came home from the hospital"
Aiden climbed into the bed and snuggled up behind Jules, who still had his head on Damian's chest, and was crying himself back to sleep. He pulled the covers over them and held both Jules and Damian as they fell back asleep.
The date of the trial has now come and Mr. West has yet to be spotted. Stellan had his men drive Jules and his friends to the court house in blacked out SUV's and had them pull up to a back entrance. The outside of the court house was plagued with news crews and paparazzi, but they were not allowed in the court room because the parties involved were minors. Stellan had a field day with the reporter for the newspaper that had mistakenly printed Jules's name in the article. The reporter lost his job after having to print a formal apology, but the damage had been done, and everyone knew, especially people at school.
They filed into the court room and took their seats. Soon after, Joshua was brought in, wearing a bright orange jump suit. He sat at the defendant's table, turned towards Jules with an evil grin and blew a kiss at him. It freaked Jules out and he started to shake, willing himself not to have a panic attack in court. Damian on the other hand, was out of his seat and charging at Joshua, but was caught by Stellan before he got there. Joshua was startled by the boy he had never seen before running at him, and faced forward without looking back.
Court was called to order by the judge, Alexander Yancy. The name caused Jules to take notice of the judge. As he looked, he recognized him immediately as one of his mother's friends. He had been over to house several times for dinner. Jules looked over at his dad and was met with a look that said "don't say a word." With a nod, Jules understood what his father was trying to convey.
After a few preliminary words from the federal prosecutor, Jacob was brought in wearing an orange jump suit, just like his brother. He searched the room for Jules and found him sitting in the second row. He stared at Jules, hoping he would look up and their eyes would meet, but was heart broken when that didn't happen. Jacob was asked to stand and enter his plea after the prosecutor indicated to the judge that a deal had been met. Jacob then stood and gave his account of the day's events and how he was forced to do so under threat of his father and brother. Damian held Jules' hand and kept his arm around him to keep him from breaking down. Jacob finished what he had to say and was escorted from the court room.
It was Jules' turn to take the witness stand; the prosecutor had him recall what he remembered of that day. He recounted with great detail everything that happened to him. He didn't mention the nightmares it's caused him to have; he thought some things need to be private. He went on to explain his injuries and how he had to be kept in a coma. By the time the prosecutor was finished asking Jules questions, the jury was eating out of the palm of his hand. Joshua's lawyer tried to paint Jules as a sex crazed boy who seduced and confused Jacob and then beat him up in the hall, but the judge wasn't having it. It took fifteen minutes for the jury to come back with a guilty verdict.
Jules' security detail ushered him and has friends out the back of the court house to where their blacked out SUV's were parked. As they were about to pull off, Jules saw Jacob being escorted out the back of the court house towards a white van. "Better do this now or never" he thought to himself and had the driver stop the vehicle. Jules got out and was followed by two of his guards as he walked over to Jacob, who was waiting to be loaded in his van. They stared silently at each other for a few minutes. Jules could see the hurt and emotional pain Jacob was going through, but it was nothing compared to what he was going through himself.
"Is there something you wanted to say to me?"
"I...I'm so sorry Jules" he stammered "The truth is I have been in love with you since the 8th grade and I was happy being your friend. Then, when you came out I got scared because my dad and brother were so vocal about hating fags. I tried to avoid you, I really did, but I caught myself always looking for you at school just so I could see your face" he paused, tears falling down his face; Jules was totally shocked by what he was hearing.
"Then that time in the locker room" he continued "I just couldn't help myself and I wanted you, and I know you wanted me, too, because you let me do it and you had this huge smile on your face, and I was so happy that I made you smile. After that, I got scared again and that's why avoided you for three years. It killed me because I wanted to call you and talk to you, but I was stupid and scared. This year my plan was to avoid you and wait until my brother left for college and hope that you would be available, and I could treat you like I always wanted to." He paused again to wipe more tears. His escorts were getting impatient, so Stellan pulled them into a conversation to give the boys some privacy.
"But he caught me Jules, he caught me" he said. "Joshua caught me staring at a picture of you on my computer. I always stare at pictures of you. I tried to play if off but he figured me out and blackmailed me to mess with you. After we got suspended, I went home and told him I wouldn't do it anymore, so he told my dad and well...you know what happened after that." He breathed a sigh and looked down at his feet. He was too ashamed of himself to look Jules in the eye.
"I don't know what to say Jacob. I knew you liked me, and I wish you would have told me. I had a crush on you since the day we met and became friends. I would have kept your secret. Your actions can't be forgiven, if you loved me like you say you do, you shouldn't have allowed this to happen"
"I don't want your forgiveness, I can't even forgive myself. You can't hate me more than I hate myself right now. I'm so sorry Jules, I'm sorry I was a pussy and couldn't stand up to my dad and brother and I'm sorry I did this to you" he said behind tears.
Jules thought for a moment before speaking again.
"So I hear you're going to this camp out in the wilderness somewhere."
"Yeah, your dad set it up, but I don't know why. According to everyone, he is a really scary guy"
"Yeah, he can be scary"
"Will you thank him for me?" he asked with his eyes still cast towards the ground.
"Sure, I'll tell him...and Jacob," he said causing Jacob to look in his eyes "you can write to me and let me know how you're doing." Jacob nodded as tears started to fall from his eyes again. Jules turned and walked back to the SUV and was followed by his guards. Before getting in, he turned to look back at Jacob, and noticed he was still watching him. He got in the vehicle next to Damian and left.
Everything seemed to calm down after the trial was over. The news coverage dwindled and the phone slowly stopped ringing with requests for interviews. Weeks had passed and Jules was healing just fine. The doctor even cleared him to start running again. Even despite his month-long absence from school, Jules still never missed an assignment and his 5.0 GPA was still in tact.
He still received gifts from Christian and even went on a few more dates with him, in spite of Aiden's disapproval. The relationship between father and son was starting to look up as well; Stellan had made it a point to spend a lot of time alone with Jules, trying to compensate for the time lost while he was away mourning his wife. Jules knew it was a matter of time before his dad would have to go off on another work assignment, but Stellan promised never to be gone long, and to always check in.
Former officer Jason West was still on the run. Stellan's crew had his movements restricted but they still couldn't get a lock on his exact location. Former Officer West had made some friends who were doing a good job of hiding him, but those friendships were fading, and his freedom was coming to an end.
The day had come for Damian to go back home, and Jules was not very happy about it. They never did well when they had to leave each other, but this time it was particularly hard on the both of them. Jules had no idea what he was going to do after he left; Damian is the only one who could calm him down after he had a nightmare or panic attack. He was just going to miss having his best friend, his brother around.
On Damian's last day, the kids took him out to breakfast and an early movie before dropping him off at the airport. Damian held Jules's hand the whole time, just wanting to be as close to his best friend as possible before he had to leave. He made sure Jules was physically and emotionally ready to go back to school the next day. After leaving the movie theater, Damian pulled Aiden aside to have a private conversation with him. "I'll take care of him, don't worry." Aiden said.
"I hope so because I don't trust anyone else when it comes to him."
"He has Amy and DeMarco too; we'll look out for him"
"Amy is great and so is DeMarco" Damian said "but they don't love him like you do."
"They love him just as much as I do."
"Don't play stupid with me!" Damian snapped. Aiden was nervous by his tone and took him seriously. "You are in love with him and don't think that I don't know. Your sister and I have been talking about it. Are you going to tell him?"
"I don't know, I tried but couldn't get it out. I don't want to ruin our friendship"
"He's idolized you since we were little. The only thing that can ruin your friendship is if you don't tell him."
"Amy says I've been kind of obvious about it. I'm surprised he hasn't noticed already."
"Jules may be one of the smartest people in this country, but he is dumb in love. Protect him and keep a watch over him. I can't see him go through another tragedy like this."
"I promise to take care of him" Aiden said sincerely.
"You better!" Damian said just as sincerely. He didn't need to make any threats. Damian would never outright threaten him, but Aiden took those two words very seriously. He has known Damian a long time, and even though Aiden is a big strong jock and bigger than him, there was something about Damian that scared him.
They drove Damian to the airport, and after tearful goodbyes, the kids headed back to the Barrett residence. Jules had a lot of things on his mind during the drive home; he was scared about having to deal with his new nightmares and panic attacks alone. He was nervous about how things were going with Christian. He started to wonder how Jacob was doing even though he knew he shouldn't care, and he was worried about going to school the next day. After he got home, he said bye to his friends and promised to meet DeMarco in their usual spot. The kids left in their separate cars.
Once Jules got in the house, he settled down in the family to watch some cartoons: his cell phone rang. He looked at his phone and the caller ID read Connor Brixton. Conner was Christian's best friend. He and Jules always got along, and he was the one that informed Jules of Christian's true intentions. Since Jules and Christian broke up, Connor would still call or email Jules just to chat and catch up with one another.
"Hey Connor, what's up?"
"Hey Jules, I just wanted to call and see how you are doing. I saw the news on the trial but didn't know it was you until I read a newspaper article where they printed your name." Connor said.
"I'm fine man. Thanks for asking, though. I'm surprised Christian didn't tell you, I've seen him a lot since it happened." Jules said.
"Well there's something I need to tell you about Christian."
"Oh shit," Jules thought to himself "not again!"
(Author's Note)
I'm glad Jules decided to hear Jacob out and even told him to write him about his progress. Now I wonder what Connor has to say about Christian, and why is he again informing Jules about Christian when Christian is supposed to be his best friend. Isn't that against `Guy Code'?