Here we go with another installment of the adventures of Anthony, Blake, the Diamond Dolls.and yes Brian of the Backstreet Boys! (if you didn't already know.I don't actually know Brian, and since he's married, he probably isn't gay, but for my own amusement I made him gay in my story. Hope you don't mind.) Love ya all, email me at leo1980@gay.com for now.cause my TLC Fan Mail address is out of service for now.should be working within the next few days I hope! I pray!
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If you Were to Hold Me Chapter 7
Friday came early enough. I woke up in Blake's warm embrace. It was always a special feeling to wake up that way. I didn't know for sure what was wrong with him, but he was crying. I nudged him awake all the way. "Baby what's wrong?" I asked him.
"You love Brian don't you?" He asked me.
"What? What makes you think that?" I asked him.
"You do.you spend so much time with him.and you write songs with him. Not with me. You sing with him, not with me. You have more in common with Brian than you do with me." He cried into my shoulder.
"Listen, Brian and I do have a lot in common, and yes he's very special to me. But that doesn't make me love you any less. Look at all we have done together. We have toured around the country. I've been to so many new places, and it's all because of you. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have this record deal.I'd still be setting at home.hoping I can find a way to get out of there. You gave me what I needed-a way out of Alabama, a new life, and your love. What more could I ask for?" With that I kissed him deeply. He never said another word about Brian after that. He had his moment of doubt, but now he trusted me. It was time.and we both knew it. I had to leave in two hours, but we would spend that time together. He made love to me like only he could. It felt wonderful, and I was satisfied throughout my body.no regret, no guilt. Just complete satisfaction, and the afterglow of love. With that done.I didn't want to leave him for sure.
"Oh baby.It's time for me to go back to Jacksonville. I don't want to go though." I frowned, and fought the urge to cry.
"I know honey, but I'll be there Sunday. And so will Brian." He told me.
"Yeah, it's cool that he can be in my video. I hate to do it, but his celebrity status will really boost my sales." I laughed at the fact.
"Yes, and he really adds to the song too. I know the video will be a big hit. So who did you get to play the part of the guy?" He asked me.
"Well, your not going to believe it.but Edwin is sending over the lead singer from Nova the other band on Sandlot Record. That guy reminds me of.the songs inspiration." I laughed about it.
"Does Trent know about the gay theme?" He asked me.
"Who's Trent? Oh wait is that the guys name?" I asked him.
"Sure is, so is he in on the news?" He asked me.
"Yes, he doesn't think it'll be that big of a deal. After all no one knows him that much, and besides. the theme of the video is that I'm in love with a straight guy. I could probably even talk Brian into doing it, if it wasn't for the fact that he can't be there tomorrow. Oh well, Trent.gee I've been calling him by his band name for too long.said that he would be one of the opening acts for the show. So now we have two opening acts." I told him.
"So what's his band name again? I always forget them.isn't it a kitchen utensil or something?" He asked me.
"No.it's Slash. He got it off a cartoon. But it sounds really tough. They are a rock band right?" I was double-checking.
"Yes, but their style is heavier than yours, or the girls'.they'll really get the show started." He told me.
We were running a little behind, but Blake got me to the airport on time.
After a hard day of editing, and last minute patching, we were ready to send my music to the record company. They had heard most of it anyway, but they still had to approve the track listening, and that the sound quality matched their standards. I had 12 songs on the record. And they were all good songs, or at least I was proud of them all. I was raring to release my next single, but I knew my first single was still my priority for now. I couldn't wait to get started shooting the video.
It was around 10 when I made it back to the hotel. I didn't do a terribly lot of singing today, so I wasn't that tired. I decided to go down to the indoor pool, and splash in. It felt good too. It was all warm and good. Not as warm as a tub mind you, but still nice. Before too long, I noticed I wasn't swimming alone.
"Howdy stranger." Brian stated with his southern accent that was much deeper than mine was.
"Lord, were both from the south, but it only really shows on you!" I said dunking him.
"So how did recording go today?" He asked me.
"It went great, it's all finished.I hope. Why are you here? I thought you and Blake weren't getting here till Sunday?" I asked him.
Tonight's concert was canceled because of some storm.and I kind of weaseled my way out of tomorrow's schedule.
We were supposed to do some corny interview for MTV. But I think they can handle it without me. Blake said he would be here tomorrow evening. He has to go with the girls to do a talk show tomorrow.something about some wacky talk show host claims to have found their father." Brian told me.
"But their father is dead!" I stated.
"Well, they told you he was in a bad wreck, but they never found the body. They just assumed that it had burn up in the wreckage. Maybe he got out." Brian suggested.
"Then why didn't he come home to the girls and his wife then?" I asked him.
"Maybe he lost his memory.who knows. I just know they are going to meet the guy claiming to be their father. They should know if it's him or not." He told me.
"Sounds to weird to me.anyway.why did you scrub an interview on MTV to be with boring old me?" I asked him.
"Please after you do like a 100 of those things they get old. I'm sure you'll find out soon enough, after the video is released." He told me.
"Still didn't answer my question.why did you want to spend your time with me?" I asked winking at him.
"Aww.shucks, I like you. You're a lot of fun to hang out with. I can just relate you better than I can with the other guys. Nick was going to come, but Kevin promised a sound beating if he backed out too. Kevin can be a prick sometimes, but he does it for our own good." He told me.
"Okay then, so do you have a room then?" I asked him.
"No, I was hoping you'd let me share yours." He told me.
"And what about when Blake gets here Mr.?" I asked Brian.
"Well, I'll get a room tomorrow before he gets here then." He said hugging me.
I don't know what it is about him, but I couldn't say 'no' to him to save my life. Thank goodness he wasn't asking for more than a place to stay! I guess my crush on `Brian' the Backstreet Boy still was in effect in a lesser degree. But Brian the person was my friend, and that's what really mattered. I just hope I can remind him of that.(Points down) After drying off, we headed for the room. Brian and I pilled into the bed. I always got a single bed room; after all I was usually on my own on the weekends. It's too bad Trent was coming tomorrow, or Brian would have made the perfect object of my obsession! ;-) Now we could film more of the video than planed, which was good.it was a tight squeeze as is. Soon I drifted off to sleep, with Brian lying at my side. I woke up around 5 and couldn't get back to sleep. I didn't want to wake Brian, so I walked to the hotel diner to order some breakfast. I read that book of Ruby's as I set in there. I had thought to borrow it from her, finally. It was pretty good; I really liked the alternate chapter 18's. The next part of the story was wild though. It almost seemed like a whole different book. But I knew it was the same basic story, cause Marco and Nova were there.but they were on Mars.and it was turning out to not be much of a honeymoon at all. And what was up with being in the sewer so much??? Oh well, the writer is obviously insane. But I think that's what I like the most! The story ended on a not so happy note, I hope there will be a sequel. Guess I'll just have to wait and see. After finishing my breakfast, I headed back to my room. I knew I would have to get to the video shoot at 10, but I still had lots of time. I hated to do it, but I had to wake Brian to ask him what time the talk show would be on.
"Wake up Brian.you were dreaming about him again." I shook him wildly.
"What are you talking about? I wasn't dreaming about anything.let me sleep." He complained.
"Sure you were, you were dreaming about me again.you know, you must get help for your obsession." I told him.
That did the trick, he tackled me on the bed. We wrestled around for a little while, and then I finally got to ask him.
"What time is that talk show going to be on?"
"You nerd, don't you know they always film talk shows in advance.it'll be a couple of weeks before it airs probably." He said laughing at me.
"Oh, is my face red.oh well, I guess I was just hoping it was live. I really want to know what's going on!" I told him.
"You can always call Blake, he'll be watching from the side.he can fill you in. Of course the phone bill might be scary." Brian smiled at me.
"I guess I'll just wait to find out tonight." But what I wouldn't give to be a fly on that wall.
"Our next guests are the up-in-coming pop group Diamond Dolls. Welcome to the show girls." Stated the host- Schondra.
"Thanks for having us here Schondra. This is our first talk show." Ruby told her.
"We did TRL, but this is better.we get a chance to actually talk." Emerald threw in.
"OK, before we get started I have a few questions about your tour. How has it been sharing the spotlight with Tony? He seems to have a regular following for someone just getting started." She stated.
"It's been great, actually Tony is our assistant manager.so it's an odd situation for sure. But we love him to death, and we support him in all his future successes." Emerald told her.
"Yeah, we are actually going to be doing a show with him as the main act soon. It's only a one-night thing, to make up for the fact he couldn't be at the Alabama show. Of course if it's a big success.they might give him his own tour." Ruby promoted Tony's show.
"Wow that is great. Now what is going on with the Backstreet boys and you?" She asked them next.
"Well, AJ and I have been dating for a while now. Nothing to serious yet, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed."
Emerald stated.
"And I've been seeing Howie. But we are going slowly with it. We both know that as long as we are both in this business it's just too risky to get serious. Who knows when our paths will lead in two directions." Ruby told Schondra.
Wow, now if you could just answer a rumor I've been hearing. Is it true that Tony is gay.and that he's been dating one of the Backstreet Boys?" She asked them.
Ruby's face turned almost white with shock. What was she supposed to do.she knew that Tony was planing on coming out, but it wasn't her place to say so. "I don't know where you heard that, but I can tell you this for sure.
Tony isn't dating any of the Backstreet Boys." She told the truth just not the whole truth.
"So why did you ask us here?" Emerald asked changing the subject.
"Well, we have a big surprise for you girls. But first I have another question for you. What happened to your father." she asked.
"He was in an awful wreck when we were young.they never found the body." Ruby relayed her sad story.
"Guess what? We found his body, and best of all.he's still alive!" Schondra said.
With that said a tall handsome black man walked onto the stage. Ruby's eyes nearly bulged out of his head.Emerald started crying. Was it he? The video shoot started at around 10 like scheduled. We were doing the scenes with Trent first. It was really cool, he'd walk up to me, and take me in his arms.during the line that said.if you were to hold me in your arms.would I melt into you. And instead of me melting into him, we were planing on making it where he would melt away from me.
We'd have to do that part in the editing room of course.
We did a few shots with him hanging around me, and sort of flirting.much like the real life events.and then him walking off with a girl in the last part. It was all looking very good. We were ready to start shooting the next set of scenes which would be me singing the song, with Brian playing beside me. Before we weren't going to do this scene till tomorrow, but with it done early.we were able to add a small third part to the video. We decided to throw in a scene similar to this one, except include a scene with me singing alone with a blank background, which we would add a ballroom set with computer animation. They had a few dancers that could make it for the shoot tomorrow, so it would look great.
We decided we'd have one gay couple dancing, one straight couple, and we'd use copy and paste function to make the straight couple appear to be a room full.it would make the gay couple stick out that much more. It was a good idea, and I hoped it would go over well.
Holy shit.is that he? Ruby thought to herself. The man walking on to the stage looked just like her father.or what she remembered him to look like. A startled Emerald took out a picture of her father that she kept with her. There looks matched exactly! "It's him Ruby, look!" Emerald shouted.
"Oh my god, daddy where have you been?" Ruby asked shocked.
"He's been living in a small town in Alabama with no memory of who he was.he recently saw your video, and it helped him to regain his memory. Since then he's tried to find a way to get in touch with you, so he called our show.
We are so glad we could put your family back together." Schondra told them.
With that the 3 of them hugged tightly. The girls were so happy! This was the begging of something big for the girls.
No matter how this turns out.it was sure to change the girl's lives forever.
With the shoot done for the day, I rode a cab to the airport meet Blake. Brian went back to the hotel to get a room for himself. I had to admit I would miss the guy; he was really growing on me. I soon forgot all about what's his name though.cause soon Blake was there. I gave him a big hug. I wasn't worried about anyone finding me with him.after all before to long it would be out in the public anyway. Besides I wasn't very well known. I mean if I was to bust out singing.maybe someone might recognize me. Life is to short to worry about what other people think. Yeah, remind me of that next time I start feeling bad about something someone said.LOL! I thought it was the perfect time to bring up the poem he wrote for me. As we rode toward the hotel, I took it out and read the words aloud.
Of all the stars in the sky, I know you are the one that shines most.
Of all the loves on Earth, I only long for yours.
Of all the time we spent together, when I was in your arms I was lost, In a sea of love, peace, and fear.
I knew then that I wanted you for all my life, But I knew it would take time, and that your love would be worth the wait.
Being without you would be devastating, it would cut like a knife.
I only want for your smile, your laugh, and for some of your time.
Though things might not all be as I want them, I know my love for you will never come to rest.
As time as my witness I promise there will be no other.
With my heart on the line, I write the words I can't ever express.
May you one day understand what I'm trying to say, or else my life will be lonely and incomplete.
"Wow that was beautiful babe. When did you write that?" Blake asked me.
"Stop joking, you know you wrote that for me." I said hugging him tightly.
"Can't fool you." He said with a half smile. He's too modest for his own good.
"That poem is what let me know we were ready for making love. And every time I read it, I fall more in love with you.
Let's get back to the room. I want to hold you all night." I said and laid my head on his shoulder. Tears ran out of his eyes, and he just held me the rest of the ride.
We made love that night again. And if possible I enjoyed it even more this time. He sucked my cock into his mouth, and bobbed up and down on my hard 6 inches. I ran my hand through his dark hair. This was fantastic.but I wanted more of him.I wanted him inside me. I told him to lie down, and then I positioned myself over his cock. I lowered my ass down onto him. It was hard to take his 7 inches at first but soon it was feeling fantastic. I bounced up and down on his cock till I was to tired to move any more, then I rolled onto my back. He then took my legs onto his shoulders and entered me once more. This time he was controlling the action. He seemed to be in no hurry. He slowly made love to me. Just when I thought my ass would explode from the pressure, and pleasure it was getting, he shot his cum deep inside me. And I came all over him. It was intense. I fell in love with him all over again. This has to be the climax in our relationship.it doesn't get any better than this. Soon our tired bodies relaxed, and we drifted off to sleep.
The next morning came, and I woke up with a curiosity. I couldn't believe I had forgotten to ask him about the talk show! I kissed him till he came to. "Morning sunshine." I said to him.
"I love waking up this way!" He cooed into my ear.
"So how did things go with the Girls meeting their `dad'?" I asked him.
"What? How did you know about that?" He asked me.
"Oh Brian told me about it. He said you were going with the girls, and that they were going to meet their dad on a talk show. Or something like that." I told him.
"I think we need to get Brian in here." Blake said.
"Okay, I'll call him." I said with a frown, and a whole lot of confusion.
Brian showed up about 10 minutes later, only wearing boxers and a bathrobe. Coupled with Blake or not, damn that boy was sexy!!! Back on track now.I was really wondering what the big deal was.
"Did you tell Tony that the girls were going to meet a guy claiming to be the girl's father?" He asked Brian.
"Yeah, I believe I did.so what?" He asked him.
"How did you know? We didn't even know what the talk show was about?" Blake asked very confused.now I was intrigued. How did Brian know? "Um, gee.I don't know what you guys are talking about. I'm going back to bed. You guys don't need me today at the shoot till later right?" He asked me.
"Right, we'll need you to come by around 12 to help us edit it." I informed him.
"Okay see you then." He said, giving me a big hug. He left me with a hard on and a lot of confusion.
"What's up with him.he seems to know too much or something." Blake said frustrated at him.
"Maybe he's a psychic or something.how should I know. But he's a great guy, and he's on our side. So don't worry so much." I told him.
We were soon at the video shoot. The dancers were all there but we were short one gay dancer. Apparently he was sick or something. So like it or not, Blake was in the video! Blake danced well with the other male dancer, and I was even a little jealous. But I concentrated on the song, and drowned all that out. The shot went great. I couldn't believe I had shot my first video! There weren't words to describe how incredible it was. It was a dream come true! Even if my album flops, and the video only plays once.I was still happy with all I had accomplished.
Brian and I looked over the takes and everything looked good. We did the slight changes, and the computer tech guys did all the cool graphic effects. Then we approved those too. The video was tight! And I'm not just saying it cause it was my video. I'd have liked it if it were Michael Jackson singing in it, well maybe.
With that all done, the three of us headed for the airport. We had a busy schedule the next week. With all luck, I'd be getting ready to promote my video, and c.d. And with even more luck, we were going to start selling tickets to my show! I was so excited about it.
We arrived in California once more. We had to do a show in LA the following day. I was happy about it. It was my first CA appearance. The girls were still up when we got in. They greeted us with hugs. And they talked my ears off talking endlessly about their dad. I was so happy for them. Before too long, I had to put my foot down that we were all tired, and needed our rest. We were still on FL time. It was only 10 there, but one for us.
The next morning was interesting. I could have sworn I went to sleep with Blake, but I woke up to not one, but two girls. Both jumping up and down on my bed.with Blake in the floor groaning. Girls! Lord help! "What is wrong with you two.and how did you get in here?" I asked her.
"I promised the girl at the desk front roll tickets if she lend us a key. and nothing is wrong with us.we just wanted to make sure you guys were up in time to meet our dad." Emerald said jumping onto me.
"If you don't get off me girl.I won't be able to get up at all. Have you gained weight?" I teased her.
Of course that got me thrown in the floor with Blake. After convincing the girls we were awake, they exited and we got showered and ready. We were meeting him for breakfast. I didn't even know he was in town. Hell, I didn't even know what city the talk show was shot in. Maybe he's still here from that? Anyway.we meet him and the girls in the hotel lobby, and then we all went for breakfast. Rodney seemed nice enough. I wished Brian was here though.with his sixth sense, he probably could have got a good read on him! LOL! My impression was that he was quite friendly, but still.not at all what I expected. He was much more reserved than the girls.shy I guessed. The girls talked about a lot of the things they did with him when they were just 6 or 7.but he seemed to not remember much of it.guess he didn't get all of his memory back.
We spent the rest of the day getting ready for the concert. We all decided it was time for a mix up on the schedule. I was going to do a second song tonight. And The girls were going to drop one of there first songs and do there next single. It was called "When I need you." It was a very beautiful song. The girls were going to shoot a video for it soon. I couldn't wait to see it.
The show came soon enough.and it was a big success. The crowd went wild when I did Try Try Try again.with Brian playing right beside me. That was an extra surprise for them.and they really liked it when the girls did their new song to close the show. Radio play was going to be great for their song.or so I hoped. I wasn't ready to release my next single, but the crowd seemed to like it. ? As the Backstreet Boys took the stage, I was watching the crowd. It was always interesting to see what kind of bizzare outfits the fans would be sporting. One in paticular caught my eye tonight. It was a slightly overwieght guy in a bright pink dress.it wasn't doing a thing for him. But his blonde wig did look nice. That is it did look good till some snotty little kid stood up in his chair and ripped it off his head.and started running down the aisle with it. The queen, I nicknamed Queen Gigi, chased after the youth, but soon gave up. It was a sight to be seen.
To be continued.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter. It was a lot of fun to write. I've got a great idea for the next couple of chapters, so stayed tuned for more fun for Tony and Blake, and all the rest! And Jabe you wanted to be in the story.well.I aim to please. Don't get upset by the means on which you appear! LOL!