Inadequate Men
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Chapter 17 -- Lunch Combo
Jared typed: Hey, Sean, you like Thai food?
It was a few minutes after 1 PM on Thursday. Jared had ordered his typical soup and salad combo from his usual restaurant, where he ate lunch almost every work day. What was uncharacteristic today was just about everything else he was thinking, feeling, and doing.
Earlier in the day, in response to his first-ever email from Tom, Jared had messaged him a short reply to the effect of: I read your email, mind blown, no worries, all good, call if you need to talk, otherwise let's save it till after work. Tom, in his inimitable fashion, had replied with a thumbs-up emoji, and that was that.
Jared's lunch arrived, and he picked at it, apprehensively. His heart was pumping hard -- again! -- for a whole new reason as he slid his phone back into his jacket pocket and resolved to wait and not worry.
Within a minute, though, he received the following response from Sean:
Yeah! Then: Just a minute with friends gotta get away
Jared typed back: OK
A couple of minutes passed while Jared nibbled on his Caesar salad. Finally, he received a reply: Ok i got rid of them haha
Jared typed back: Cool. So you liked what you saw?
Almost another minute passed, during which Jared watched as Sean typed for a while and then, presumably, erased all he had typed, replacing it with: Fuck yeah dude
Jared's heartbeat rose noticeably with that response, and he answer back: Us too. Bigtime.
This time almost no time passed before Sean answered: Damn im hard now
Although Jared was very turned on, as usual his penis hadn't responded as he knew most other men's did. It wasn't just that he was in a public place. All his life, Jared had suffered from feeling inadequate because at times like these, rather than get an erection, his penis tended to inexplicably shrink down even as Jared started to feel genuinely aroused. His heart was beating a mile a minute at Sean's admission that he was hard, and Jared could even feel that his penis had started leaking into his boxers.
Even so, Jared wasn't hard in his pants. And he knew from experience that, as turned on as he was, if he pulled out his penis just now, it would probably be shriveled to its smallest adult size. And for most of his life, Jared had been ashamed of this fact, and would have been terrified for another man to see him like that. Up until a week ago, he would have responded to Sean with something along the lines of, Yeah, me too bro, totally boned out here. And then he would have felt even more ashamed, not so much for lying as for knowing, in his heart, that he could never perform for a man in the expected way.
In this case, though, Jared surprised himself by responding: Still soft here, bud, hope that's OK. He hesitated a moment, and then clicked send.
Sean responded quickly with: Totally ok hope its ok im hard
Jared admitted: Of course, I'm just slower to get hard than most guys.
Sean answered: Totally! Lets just have fun ok
Jared's spirits soared as he read these words. He couldn't believe that he'd had the courage to admit to Sean that he was slow to get an erection. Even better, although Sean's response was brief, Jared got a sense that it was sincere. And even if it hadn't been, Jared knew that what he had with already Tom transcended everything that he'd ever had with another man. He didn't have to pretend anymore to be a virile guy with a big, hard dick that was always up and ready for any challenge. Whatever might or might not happen with Sean, attractive as he was, just didn't matter anymore.
Sean went on: Can i ask yr name
Jared thought about using his online cover name, Will, short for William, his middle name. But without much thought, he rejected the pretense and wrote, simply: Jared. My partner is Tom.
He clicked Send and then realized that he had called Tom his partner for the first time. It felt right. Even better, it felt good.
Sean responded: Yr both massively hot i hope you know
Jared wrote back: We think you are, too.
Sean answered: Are you guys free right now
Ah, to be a student again, Jared thought, with a free schedule in the middle of the day. He answered: I'm at work and so is Tom.
A long pause followed, and Sean wrote: Too bad i might not be able to wait lol
What came through next was a really nice pic of Sean's cut dick, poking through the open button fly of his pants.
Jared wrote back immediately, Damn Sean, that's a nice one, then flipped back to examine the pic again.
But it was Sean's next response that made Jared's day: Yeah lol wish i was bigger tho
Jared wrote: I feel the same about mine. As he wrote this, Jared could feel his penis begin to stiffen. Except for Tom, he had never before admitted this to a guy. He flipped back to the pic that Sean had sent. Since Sean's penis was sticking through his fly, it was tough for Jared to gauge its length. But, like Tom, Sean was on the thin side for sure.
Sean responded quickly: Really??? Lol i thought i was the only one
Jared wrote: Yeah, bud, me too for a long time. His penis was really starting to press into his suit pants now as his heart raced. Good thing the restaurant had mostly cleared out from the lunch rush. Jared let his hand stray down to his lap to discreetly rub the head through his pants. It sure felt good.
Sean wrote: My dads is really big even soft ... always hoped mine would be too... lol guess not so much...
Jared read Sean's reply a couple of times, surprised at how it turned him on. The restaurant had three single-seater unisex restrooms, and for the first time, Jared considered that he might need to use one of them before going back to work. He wrote back to Sean: Damn Sean, now you got me rock hard.
Sean wrote back: Fuck jared that's hot... u do phone
Jared couldn't believe it as he wrote back: Yeah just a min ill call you. He left his lunch on the table, hoping they wouldn't clear the table but not really caring if they did, and took his briefcase and phone into the nearest open restroom. Once inside, he dropped his briefcase, locked the door, used the app to call Sean, praying that the signal would be strong enough to get through.
"Hello?" Sean said. "Jared?"
"Hey, Sean, how are you doing?" Jared asked.
"Good, thanks," Sean answered, "Wow, you have a hot voice."
"Thanks, you too," Jared said. Then, not beating around the bush, added, "So sounds like we're both smaller guys."
"Yeah," Sean admitted, "Kind of embarrassing."
Jared said, "Yeah, I know the feeling."
Sean added, "Especially cause, like I said, my dad's is so big. I always thought mine would get bigger but, well, I'm almost 22 now, and it hasn't happened yet."
Just hearing a handsome young guy talk about his embarrassment with his size, especially in front of his father, got Jared very excited. He opened the fly to his suit pants and reached inside, where he had somewhat shrunken to a semi-erection. He started rubbing it through his briefs as he said, "Yeah, I kept hoping all through high school that my penis would start to grow, but not so much."
Sean said, "Yeah, Jared, I wish my penis was bigger." Then he added, "It feels really good to admit that to you."
Just hearing those words made Jared's little boner spring to life again. "Man, I'm glad you can tell me that, Sean," he said, pulled his penis through the fly of his white briefs and suit pants. It looked really small like that, and he had an idea. He took a quick pic of his penis just like that, and sent it to Sean, saying, "Take a look, I hope you don't think mine is too small."
A moment later, Sean said, "Oh my God, yours looks so nice. If you were my dad, maybe I wouldn't have to worry so much."
"Are you rubbing yours now?" Jared asked him.
"Yeah," said Sean. "How about you?"
Jared had already started gently squeezing the small tip of his penis in the way that felt good, and said, "Oh yeah." He then added, "Too bad you're not my son, huh?"
He could hear Sean's breathing intensify as he said, "I wish I was your son. I wish you were my dad."
"Me too, Sean," Jared said, "What would you want your dad to tell you, Son?"
Sean answered, "Please tell me when I grow up, I'm gonna have a big penis like you."
Jared said, "Hey, Son, don't worry, buddy. When you grow up, your penis is gonna grow really big."
"Really big like yours, Dad?" asked Sean.
"Yeah, buddy," Jared told him, "Really big just like mine."
"But Dad," Sean said, "This is really embarrassing, but my penis is still really small. It hasn't started growing yet. What if doesn't grow?"
"It's OK, Son," Jared said, "You don't have to be embarrassed in front of your Dad. Remember, you're still a little guy. But when you're all grown up, your penis is gonna grow really big, just like mine."
"Do you promise?" asked Sean.
Jared said, "Of course, Son. When you grow up, your penis is going to grow really big, probably even bigger than mine."
Sean's breathing intensified as if he were running a marathon. "I know I'm not supposed to show you, but I think it's starting to get bigger."
Jared's own penis was fully engorged and thickened, and stiff as a board. "I think it is getting bigger, Son. Are you rubbing it?"
"Yes, Dad," answered Sean. "Is that OK?"
"Sure, Son," Jared answered, "Rubbing it helps to make it get bigger."
"It does?" Sean asked, "I think it's getting really big like my Dad's. When I grow up, mine will be the same size as yours and you'll be really proud of me."
"I sure will, Son," said Jared, "It's getting really big, isn't it? Sure feels good, huh?"
"It feels really good, Dad," said Sean, "It's getting really big. I think I'm gonna.... "
Jared said, "Wow, son, look how big it is now."
"Oh Dad," said Sean, "It's really big now. I'm gonna... I'm gonna.... Ahhhhh ahhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......"
Just hearing Sean go over the edge put Jared there as well. He unloaded squirt after squirt into the bathroom sink, attempting to keep his moaning to a minimum as he did. He and Sean exchanged quick and unceremonious goodbyes as he pulled a few industrial paper towels from the holder and mopped up the string of cum that was still hanging from the tip of his penis.
To be continued...
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