Inadequate Men
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Chapter 6 -- On the Phone
Throughout the day on Monday, Jared and Tom texted back and forth as much as they could. Jared joked that the minutes he spent sending messages to Tom were all being absorbed into the billable hours that a major airline was paying to his firm. As a lab chemist with a pharmaceutical company, Tom had a bit more flexibility to account for his time.
They agreed to talk later that night, around 9 o'clock, after both of them had eaten dinner and had a chance to begin winding down for the night. During the first part of the conversation, each man just caught the other up on his day, such as current work projects and relationships with coworkers. It had been ages since Jared had known the pleasure of recounting his day to a man who cared about him in this way, and he let Tom know.
"I really appreciate it," he said, "You're such a good listener. It feels good to share all the boring stuff with you."
"It's not boring to me, Jared," Tom told him. "Everything that matters to you matters to me -- you know that, right, Buddy."
"Mmmmmm, that feels good," said Jared. "I like when you call me Buddy."
"Yeah?" Tom asked, "Good to know. Buddy."
"Damn, you say it just right, too." Jared added, "So, what can I call you?"
Tom hesitated, "This is embarrassing. I grew up in Iowa and then Minnesota, right? The dad's I knew used to call their sons Pal. Is that too corny?"
"No, but it's just corny enough," Jared responded. "So you wanna be my pal, Pal?"
Tom purred back, "Only if I can be your buddy, Buddy." Then he added, "So, um, are you downstairs right now, or up in your bedroom?"
Jared answered, "Right now, I am upstairs in my bedroom, lying on the bed in a blue T-shirt and my tighty-whities. Oh, and a pair of socks -- it's kinda cold in here. What about you, Pal?"
"Sounds nice, Buddy," Jared began, "Well, my place gets pretty warm with the space heater, so I'm lying on my bed naked."
"Wow, hot. My pal Tom is naked, huh? You got a boner right now?"
"Um, if I'm talking to my buddy Jared, I've got a boner. In fact, these days, I've pretty much got a boner 24-7. What about you?"
It would have been so easy to say something like, Hell, yeah, I'm hard as a rock talking to you, Pal. But it just wasn't the truth. Jared was turned on all right, and definitely ready to continue this conversation in the direction it was obviously going. But for Jared, getting an erection was a matter of time, patience, and especially trust. It was going to be a stretch, but he knew he needed to be honest with Tom about this issue right from the start, so he said, "Um, I hope this is OK, Pal, but right now I'm still pretty soft."
Tom's reaction surprised him, "Mmmmmm that's hot, Buddy. Damn, I like it when your dick is soft."
"Really?" Jared asked. "How come."
"Partly, cause I'm envious." Tom answered. "If I could only keep mine soft for a while, I might not cum so fast. Also, I just like seeing a guy's soft dick. Especially yours, Buddy. The first time I saw it, I wanted to just keep looking at it."
"Yeah," said Jared, daring to add "Only it's kinda small though."
"Yeah, bud," Tom admitted, "Mine too."
"How long is yours right now, Tom?"
Hearing his name, Tom remembered the truth game that he had played with Jared in his living room, and answered. "A little under 4 inches, but it's very thin, about the width of one of my fingers. How about yours, Jared?"
"Tom, this is so embarrassing. When my penis is soft like it is right now, it's really tiny, under 2 inches long. Is that OK."
"Jared," Tom said, "It is so OK I can't even tell you. Please always let me know when you are feeling anxious about your penis size, so I can reassure you how attractive I find you. Jared, I don't know about other guys you've been with before, but when you're with me, you never have to worry about this kind thing -- ever." He paused and then added, "How does it feel hearing that, Buddy?"
Jared felt a little choked up at hearing Tom's words. "Tom," he said, "I can't even express to you how good it feels to me. It feels like a dream come true. It's all I've ever wanted with a man, since I was a little boy. And, Pal, I want to give you the same gift. Please, whenever you are struggling and could use some reassurance, please let me know."
Tom hesitated, but then said, "Jared, it feels so good to hear that. And Buddy, I am kinda struggling here. It's so embarrassing, but it's starting to happen again."
Tom waited, and Jared's heart started beating more quickly as he realized that Tom was even having trouble saying the words. It really was a point of shame for him. "Hey, Pal," Jared said, "You mean you're getting kinda close?"
Tom dug within himself and said, "Yeah," then fell silent. "I don't know if I can hold it much longer. Is that OK?"
Jared could feel the blood begin to surge through his body. "Pal, it's more than OK. When you just told me that, it made me feel so close to you that my penis started getting hard. Tell me more, Tom, as much as you're comfortable saying."
"OK, Buddy, I'll try" Tom said, "It's just so embarrassing because this keeps happening to me. My penis is so hard now, and I want to touch it, but if I do then I risk pushing myself over the edge. And I want to make it last for you, Jared. I'm so scared that if it keeps happening, you're not gonna want to be with me. I have to be honest with you, Buddy. This isn't just a one-time thing with me. This is something I've been struggling with my whole life." Tom paused, then continued, "Jared, I need to tell you something, but I'm really afraid if I do, you're gonna reject me."
Jared's heart leapt as he heard these words, and his penis pulsated into a full erection as he rubbed it between his finger and thumb, and also worked his right nipple, adding to the complete erotic pleasure he was feeling. His voice trembled as he spoke, "Tom, it's OK, you know I would never do that. Please tell me."
Tom steeled himself up and said, "Jared, I'm a premature ejaculator. I want to touch my penis, but I'm so close to cumming right now that if I do, I won't be able to hold it."
Jared said, "I'm so glad you told me, Pal. It's making me so hard to hear you say that. Please, go ahead and rub your penis, and let me know how it feels."
"But I should be able to hold it until my partner finishes. That's what a man does. I just feel so inadequate."
At that moment, Jared not only understood but felt the source of all of Tom's shame and fear of rejection. He could see how much this handsome, masculine guy had been struggling in isolation with this secret source of shame. I just feel so inadequate. How many times had he berated himself for being rejected by other guys for this problem that he could do nothing about? All of a sudden, the power of it overwhelmed Jared. Rubbing his thickening cock furiously, Jared cried, "I'm gonna cum, I'm cumming!" Involuntarily lifting his hips up off the bed, Jared unloaded shot after shot of cum all over his chest and face.
And as he finished, he realized what had just happened and said, "Tom, you did it! You waited till I finished! Go on, you stud, go for it!"
Tom could barely believe it, but he understood immediately the importance of this event. He grabbed his erect dick and gave it a steady rub, for the first time in his life not struggling to hold back with a partner, but fully ready to enjoy the complete fulfillment of a job well done. "Oh, fuck," he said, "I'm gonna cum so hard... I'm gonna cum... Aaaaaahhhhhhhhh......!"
The two men could each hear the other hyperventilating for a full two minutes afterwards, this sound punctuated here and there with Fuck and Holy shit! There wasn't much more to say.
But eventually, Jared broke the silence to tell Tom again, "You did it, Stud. You held off for me. Now promise me that you've got nothing to prove to me or anybody else ever again."
To be continued...
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