Hi everybody! Well, it's been over a month since my first chapter was posted here, but I've been really busy. My work plus personal issues and the terrible tragedy of September 11, had made me take time off from my stories for awhile. Thankfully, I'm back to almost normal and hopefully will get more chapters out more quickly.
Thanks to Martin and Kaworu. You've both been such a great help to me. You can find their stories on Nifty in the Boy bands section under: Twisted History for Martin and Watch the Hair and 2gether Truth or Dare for Kaworu. All three are an excellent read and I myself read them over and over.
I was really pleased with the responses I received on the last chapter and hope to see more responses to this one. Whether it's good or bad responses, if you have a suggestion, whatever you want to say, I welcome all mail, EXCEPT SPAM. e-mail: eminemgiveshead@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: This story features gay elements and if you are offended by that, then you wouldn't be here. If you are offended and you're reading this, e-mail me, I'll help with your confused feelings. ;) If it is illegal to view this where you are, ciao for now. Come back when you're older or freer.
I don't know BSB or Marshall Mathers and have no SOLID proof of their sexual preferences, though I have my suspicions. Everything in this story, to my immediate knowledge, is fiction.
This story, in whole or part, may not be reproduced for distribution in any media without my personal permission.
Copyright 2001 Taylor Walker All Rights Reserved.
It's Gotta Be You
Chapter 2
Nick was stroking harder and faster as he continued to imagine Howie sucking his cock. He was so caught up in his fantasy that he didn't notice Howie walk in. Howie stood there in disbelief for a second then decided to get out before Nick noticed him. He slowly crept out the door and shut it just enough to where he could still see in.
By this time he had developed an impressive lump in his pants and he was rubbing it through the fabric as he continued to watch Nick.
Nick started rolling his balls with one hand while still jerking his cock with the other. ''Oh, god, Howie, YES. Suck that cock. Oh, you are so good. So fucking hot. I want you so bad.'' He was still completely immersed in his fantasy. He felt his balls begin to tighten and knew he was close.
Howie was getting even harder in his tight leather pants and beads of sweat were forming on his forehead. At that same moment, A.J. had woke up and needed to take a leak. He got out of bed and entered the short hall leading to the restroom. He saw Howie standing there, his hand on his crotch. ''Hey, Howie, man.''
Nick heard A.J., but was to focused on the task at hand to worry about it.
Howie stopped immediately and looked at A.J. like a deer caught in the headlights. A.J. walked up to him and had noticed where his hand was. ''Yeah, me too,'' A.J. said looking at Howie's hand on his crotch.
Howie was so nervous; he didn't even notice where his hand was. Then, he noticed where A.J. was looking. ''What?'' was all he could say.
''I need to take a leak, too.''
''Oh.'' Howie breathed a sigh of relief.
''Nick in there, huh? He's so conceited. Everything has to be perfect before he gets out,'' A.J. said jokingly.
In the bathroom, Nick was quickly reaching climax and couldn't hold his voice down any longer. His body went rigid and he shot out eight thick spurts on the shower wall and let out a loud scream. ''OH FFFUUUCCCKKK!!!'' A.J.'s eyes opened wide. ''What the hell was that?''
A.J. pushed by Howie and entered the bathroom to see Nick leaning against the shower wall. ''Whoa,'' said A.J. turning his back. ''Nick, dude, you all right. Howie and me heard you yelling.
Nick searches his mind for a second, not knowing what to say. ''The water went too cold,'' he said, hoping A.J. believed him as he shut the water off and put his towel on.
''Oh, ok, but could you hurry it up. I gotta take a leak.''
Nick was already walking by him. ''All yours.'' Nick walked out and shut the door behind him, then noticed Howie leaning against the wall, covered with sweat. ''Howie, you don't look to good. You feeling all right?''
''Yeah... I'm fine,'' Howie said, out of breath.''
''I don't know, man, you're all sweaty.'' Nick put his hand on Howie's forehead and wiped the sweat from it and down to his cheek. At that moment, their eyes locked and they stood there, as the seconds seems like forever.
Nick shook his head, bringing himself back to reality. ''Uh... well... see you in the morning,'' Nick said uncomfortably.
Howie just stood there watching Nick scurry away in his towel. A.J. exited the bathroom and looked at Howie. ''Nick's right, dude, you really don't look to well. Maybe you should stay in, let us do the show without you.'' Then A.J. tried to hold in a laugh. ''It's not like anyone ever notices you anyway.''
''Ha ha, very funny. I'm fine, don't worry just go back to bed.''
''Alright, man, if you say so.'' A.J. headed back to bed and Howie went to his table to collect his materials before heading to bed himself.
In the bedroom, which was shared by all the guys, everyone seemed to sleep soundly, except Howie who couldn't get the picture of Nick jerking in the shower out of his head. He lay there for half the night, staring at the ceiling before he finally drifted off to sleep.
RING!!!!!!
The alarm clock sounded and all the guys, with the exception of Howie, got out of bed. As the rest of the guys head to the shower or the kitchen, Nick sat on his bed, staring at Howie. He looked so beautiful when he slept, like an angel. Nick had seen Howie sleep before, but until now, it never donned on him how cute Howie was lying there. Nick felt something inside him that he hadn't felt in a long time. A feeling in his chest. A good feeling. It was the feeling of love. But WAS IT a good feeling considering these feelings were about another man? A man who was like a brother to him.
The bus turned at an angle where the harsh sunlight was shining directly in Howie's face. Nick thought that Howie looked even more angelic with the warm glow of the sun beaming onto him. Howie opened his eyes then quickly closed them for the sun's rays were too much for his freshly rested eyes. He got up and rubbed his eyes and opened them slowly to find Nick staring at him with a silly smile on his face. ''Morning, Howie.''
''Uh... morning, Nick. What're you so happy about?''
''Oh, nothin', just thinkin'.''
Howie giggled. ''Oh, ok, just don't do too much or you might hurt yourself.''
''Oh, yeah?'' Nick grabbed his pillow and took a swing at Howie knocking him back onto his bed. Howie grabbed his pillow and swung back, starting a wild pillow fight. After a few minutes, Nick gained the advantage, knocking Howie flat on his back. Nick mounted Howie and pinned his shoulders down. Just as the night before, their eyes locked. Nick stared into Howie's deep brown eyes and all his uncertainty melted away. He knew what he wanted and he took it, planting a long, passionate kiss on Howie's soft lips. When Nick pulled away, Howie laid there, stunned. It took him a moment to catch his breath, and then he spoke. ''Whoa, what was that?''
Nick jumped up to his feet. ''Oh, man, I'm sorry, Howie, man. I didn't mean to...''
''No, don't be sorry,'' Howie interrupted ''don't be sorry at all.'' He smiled at Nick.
''Howie, I know you saw me last night.''
''Nick, I...''
''You don't need to explain. I'm the one that needs to explain something.'' Nick sits down next to Howie and looks him in the eyes. ''If I tell you something, will you promise to keep it just between us?''
''Just between us. Cross my heart.'' Howie smiled and traced an ''X'' on his chest with his finger.
''Howie, I've been having these feelings for a while now. Feelings about you. At first it was just little things. I'd notice things you did that I hadn't noticed before. Your smile, the way you eat, stuff like that. Then, after a while, it was more. I'd dream about you, have fantasies, like what you saw last night.''
Howie blushed.
''That's why Willa and I broke up. She found out about the feelings I had. She couldn't handle it so she left. I've been struggling with this for so long, man. Then, today, while you were sleeping, I watched you. I just sat there and watched you. Then, something hit me. Howie, I... I think I'm falling in love with you.''
Howie was speechless. What could he say. Nick stared at him with loving eyes. He had to say something. Nick had just bared his inner most feelings to him. He took Nick's hand and a tear trickled down his cheek. "Nick, I know that must've been hard for you to say. I'm flattered that you feel that way about me. I had no idea that you were gay. I suppose, from the way you easily told me, you've known about me for a while. I guess this is a new beginning for us. I mean, things will never be the same after today. I hope, one day, that I can return your feeling in the same intense way that you feel for me. I've always loved you like a little brother and one day, as we work on this, I know I'll love you even more."
Then, a thought came into Nick's head that terrified him. "The guys, I can't let the guys find out. Not yet."
Howie put his hand on Nick's cheek. "Don't worry, Nick, you don't have to tell them until you're totally comfortable with it. Look at me. I still haven't told A.J. about me."
"Thanks, Sweet D, you're the best." Nick leaned over and gave Howie another kiss on the lips then, he got up. "I'm really glad we had this talk. I feel so much better." He looked at the clock. "Damn, it's that late already. We'd better get ready. We've got so much to do before the awards show tonight." Nick dashed out of the room and headed for the restroom.
Howie sat on the bed, a terrified look in his eyes. The awards show. He'd forgotten all about it after last night. Marshall would be there. With his feelings for Marshall and his new feelings for Nick, how was he going to survive the night? He sighed deeply and sat there, his face in his hands.
Well, what did you think. Is there something or someone you want to see involved in this story. Remember, in one or two more chapters, the awards show starts and just about every artist and possibly some other famous folks, will be there.
Send your questions, comments, suggestions to eminemgiveshead@yahoo.com Ciao for Now. ;)