Chapter 5 - Jamie feeling horny
I felt quite disappointed with myself. Last week I was sharing a bath tub with hot Greek Boy and our legs were all touching. That moment we had could have led to us rubbing each others' bulges with out feet.
Another missed opportunity was getting it on with horny Irish who came over for a sleep over. The only thing that happened that night when Connor passed out on the sofa was that I was jerking off to his sex video that was caught on tape that took place in my own home.
The next day, he drove me to school and he gave me a salute before parting. He told me that we should schedule another 'get together'. Just how many more of these nights that we spend together count before I should make a bold move to seduce him? I had a boner during class thinking of ways to get the Irish horny to have sex with me.
The only release I got was giving Bowie bathroom services during class time. If we were in different classes, he'd text me to say that he was in the toilet and I'd excuse myself from class to meet him. I still remember the bedroom wank incident. I never confirmed with him if he was sleeping through all that. All I cared about was sucking cocks and jacking off between periods.
Bowie and I met up one time I had maths. I still could not tell if we were a good equation. I was pretty good at oral. Bowie's stiff dick penetrated my mouth as good as fucking pussy. His body contracted every time he pushed in. The deeper it went the more he took pleasure from my moist warm mouth.
We kept our uniform and blazers on in case we had to make a quick departure. We unzipped our flies to air out our hanging cocks. I wanted to rip his shirt buttons off and run my tongue from his naval vertically lick up to his sternum. Bowie was in good shape from skating. As I sucked his cock he would lift his shirt up to reveal his nice abs and delicious nipples. He had a piercing on his right nipple that he later asked me to suck and tease.
'Suck that good, babe,' Bowie moaned. 'Pull on my balls. Oh yes. Place your whole mouth around them.'
He was close to cumming. I was not going to let him stain all over my uniform with his crazy ejaculation. There was only one way to deal with this and that was to drink every bit of him. When the semen came out, I sucked and made a slurping sound. The cum flowed down my throat like warm spit. Bowie's man cream was gushing hard. I gently squeezed his balls to help him release. I was rock hard from tasting his cum.
There's something about Bowie that is complicated. When he hounds me for sex, I'd get irritated and want him to stop pestering me. But I enjoyed his interest and frankly I was much too horny to pass off on cock action.
I asked him if he would consider fucking me. His answer:
'You want me to fuck you? I'm not doing that. That's gay,' he laughed. Yeah, right. That's what he would say after ejaculating. The horny Bowie that I knew would offer his dick to any guy. He admitted once that guys suck cock better than girls.
My desire to experience cock up my ass bugged me all day. During team shower I would watch all the other boys fool around naked. Brad and Connor were whipping everyone's ass with their towel. I caught a glimpse of Mike's ridiculously long penis again and imagined what it would look like fully erect and penetrating my virgin hole. I could imagine myself being able to take it. But I've heard stories about the girls Mike fucks weren't able to walk properly afterwards -- and that's their vaginas that were hurting. I can't imagine what being fucked in the ass would be like.
That night, when I was feeling horny in bed, I took out my moisturiser and lubed up my finger to see what it was like inserting it up my hole. I had to push hard at first because it wasn't going in right. Then it felt weird being able to feel the inside of rectum. I was disgusted at first. I couldn't see the attraction of doing this. I wasn't able to go very deep. I heard that there was my prostate that I had to find and it was meant to give me bliss. I needed to find something larger.
I went downstairs in the middle of the night trying to look for items to shove up my ass. All I could find were long vegetables like a carrot and cucumber that I wrapped in cellophane so it wouldn't be too disgusting to stick food up by butt.
I was impressed that I made a DIY dildo. I contemplated what I should insert first. The carrot was much thinner than the cucumber so I thought to start off small. I had to get over laughing to myself. I could not believe how desperate I had become. I felt completely pathetic doing this. But I had to prep myself. I knew that pornstars would widen their holes before a fuck scene. That's the only explanation why cocks seamlessly slide into asses well.
The carrot felt really cold inside of me. Of course it had been refrigerated and my warm hole didn't accommodate it well. It felt really alien having something in me. I tried sliding the carrot in and out. I made sure it was well lubricated but still the cellophane wasn't making it pleasurable for me. All through my attempt to get fucked by a stick, I felt my ass rejecting it. I got upset and threw the carrot straight to the bin. Throughout the night, I was thinking of getting fucked by Connor and Malachi. I wished that I was a girl and I could have seduced them and they would have leaped for the chance to fuck me. I would be a whore so I could have every cock in the football and rugby team. Sometimes it's not easy to be gay at school.
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During school the next day, I didn't care much for the lessons. Mr. B asked the class a question that I knew the answer to but I wasn't in the mood to get involved. Bowie was being a jerk. He sat next to me and he would be rubbing my knees and passing notes how much he was horny for my mouth. I wanted to scream, 'If you're so horny for me then why won't you fuck me you hypocrite!'
'Are you OK?' asked Mr. B.
It was the end of class and Mr. B held me back because he noticed how I wasn't myself. Everyone else had left and there was just the two of us. He continued to say, 'If there is something troubling you, you can tell me anything.'
'I don't think it's appropriate,' I answered.
'I'm your teacher, Jamie. I told you the first week that I would offer my support if you need it.'
'It's sort of a private manner, I don't know if you can advice me on this,' I said.
Mr B looked at me inquisitively.
'Well, whatever it is. I am sure I can handle it with maturity,' he responded sincerely.
'I guess I'm having hormonal issues,' I reluctantly spoke out. Mr. B was nodding his head in acknowledgement. 'Sometimes, I feel like I want to experience things that most of the guys my age have already experienced. You know, but, experience things...with guys.'
Mr. B didn't flinch. I was expecting he'd be unwilling to discuss matters like these. But he didn't give an immediate response. It was sort of awkward actually. I've never been so open about my sexuality to anyone except for Tom and even he would refuse to talk about gay sex.
'And you've never experienced anything with guys?' he asked. Why would he ask that? He knew I had messed around with Bowie when I masturbated him during detention. Ever since, that incident had never resurfaced since. Does he want me to admit it?
'Well, yes I had. But I meant experience a different level. That one time, that was just messing around,' I paused for a while. I was replaying what I had said in my head. I was replaying the whole situation actually. I felt it was just pointless to discuss this. 'Look, Mr. B, I appreciate your wanting to help me but I don't think I'm comfortable talking about this-'
'No, I get it,' he jumped in. 'You're young, your hormones are off the roof. I was your age once. Man, when I was 16 I was the horniest kid in school. I used to excuse myself from class and lock myself in the cubicle and masturbate to my brother's porn stash.'
Mr. B. laughed. I laughed as well. I was surprised by what he admitted to me.
'You never,' I said with astonishment.
'I did. I learned to masturbate from a young age watching my brother do it in our shared room,' Mr. B said. I felt my cock twitch when he talked about his brother like that. 'I admit it, my brother and I would masturbate together. He would get horny teaching me a few of his tricks. The thing that got me horny was hearing about his sexual conquests. I didn't have sex with a girl till I was 17. I dreamt of knowing what it would feel like having sex with a woman. Like you would with a man. I'm not just talking about fooling around of course. I'm talking about the sex that counts. Am I right?'
I nodded. I was so turned on by hearing him reveal so much of his sexual experiences that I felt obliged to reveal mine.
'Just last night, I tried making a DIY dildo using vegetables,' I said humorously. I was hoping he wouldn't react badly me telling him. But he laughed with me too.
'No way, see that's the wrong way of doing that. It's not healthy to be using objects that are not designed that way,' Mr. Bowie advised.
'Yeah but I can't afford to be using things like that. I wouldn't even know where to be buying those things,' I said. 'I just use whatever I can use. Like my moisturiser, it's multi-functioning when I use it as lube and a lotion.'
'You can't be using moisturiser for lube,' he said. 'There are so many items in the stores that is suited for different use. You should buy scented oil when you want to give your partner a sensual massage. Rub it all over your bodies and you would be lustful for each other. You also need to use proper lube. It's great to masturbate with. It is also vital for penetration. Get one that is water based.'
'I am much too embarrassed to be shopping for those items.'
'What are you doing after school?' Mr. B. asked.
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Mr. B and I went to town to visit a store that was rather secluded where you can keep a low profile. They sold all kinds of theatrical costumes and props but what they had at the back of the store were every kind of props that you would need in the bedroom. Mr. B showed me what everything was used for. Although he was straight and had a fiance, he sure knew a lot about butt plugs and cock rings. He helped me choose what lube to use and the use of scented oils to create a sensual, erotic environment. Throughout the time we were at the shop, he made me promise not to tell anyone about this. He saw it as giving a student friendly sex education. Others might get the idea that he was seducing a student.
Before entering the store, Mr. B asked me to change into normal clothes and not in my school blazer. We didn't want to give anyone the wrong impression. If anyone asked, I was to say Mr B was an older cousin, I were to call him by his first name David.
My attention went towards the set of dildos. There was a massive black cock which was 13 inches and a strange looking pair of cocks attached on either end of a stick so that it can penetrate two holes. The one that caught my eye was a box set of dildos in increasing size. It advertised how it would help build up the elasticity of your hole so that you can prepare for penetration. That's what I needed. But it was rather pricey. I could maybe get by with purchasing lube, scented oils and a random scarf. But no store would let me walk away with a box of dildos without much suspicion.
Mr. B, caught me looking at the dildos.
'I see you looking at that. It's pricey hey?' he said.
'I guess so. Maybe I can ask my mum for it for Christmas. Right after I give her a heart attack for coming out,' I joked.
'Your mother doesn't know?' he said.
'Well, I never thought it really mattered. I don't care if she knew. She has many gay friends. I don't think she'd be against it. But, I just don't think her knowing is that big a deal.'
'I understand,' he said. Then he fished for his wallet.
'No, I don't want you to buy it for me. You've done enough,' I said.
'You're right. I have done enough and I'm not buying it for you. I'm just loaning it to you. Pay me back when you can.'
'Seriously?' I said, receiving a 50 dollar note from him. 'Thank you so much.'
'No problem,' he winked. 'Just do great on that exam'.
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That night, my mum was watching her show downstairs and I went straight upstairs to prep. I took a bath and lathered myself with soap feeling fresh and clean. I also shaved my pubic hair and the hair around my ass. I wanted to feel smooth for the special night. I rubbed the massage oil all over my body that I glistened. The oil smelled of baking ingredients like I could eat myself that I smelled so good. I was looking at myself in the mirror nude and I was turned on from what I saw. I took pictures of myself, plenty of cock shots and ass shots to remember the night.
I felt quite horny, I even sent a nude picture of myself to Bowie. I didn't know if he would respond but it was my way of saying that he was missing out on a piece of me.
I told Tom earlier of my plan to have great sex with myself. He messaged me wishing me good luck and that I should use protection.
I unpacked my set of dildos. The smallest was 4 inches. The largest was 8. I used the lube squirted it all over the first one. I dabbed a little bit of the gelatinous substance around my ring. I found that I could slide my finger much easier than before. This was the moment. I inserted the 4 inches first. It was surprising how it kind of plopped in like a coin inserted into a slot machine. It opened my world in a new way. I gave a big 'FUCK' shout. I was hoping my mother didn't hear me. I had to put some rock music so that she would not suspect.
The first dildo was kind of easy. But it wasn't doing much for me. I decided to move on to 5 and half with a much wider girth. This required some visual stimulation. I watched from my computer a video of my hot English porn actor Jonno, He had this hot smile and a beautiful bubble butt. I watched him getting fucked by a big black guy. I imagined the dildo was the guy fucking and I was Jonno.
Jonno had a long, wavy black fringe that was spiked up. I loved how he courses his fingers through his hair becoming more wild and crazy. When a dick is inside him, he would try hard to accommodate a few more centimetres of cock. This amazes a lot of guys by how much dick he could take. And these are monster cocks like Mike's. Jonno has a nice long dick that when he sits on their cocks his dick would flap and slap against his abs.
I tried sitting on the dildo and I mimicked his actions. It was a wonderful experience sliding up and down the cock. I could feel Jonno and I connected. I was giving out quiet moans of pleasure. I was watching myself in the mirror and I was smiling at the hot guy getting fucked in the ass.
I skipped the third dildo and went straight to the meaty 8 inch one. As I was about to insert it into my hole I got a text.
It was Bowie asking what I was doing. I texted him that I was getting fucked. Within seconds he replied 'Hot'. Yes it was hot. In my head I thought 'Asshole'. And that's where he should shove it.
To be continued...
I am going to try to make these episodes come quicker. Sorry if this took awhile to be published.
I have been enjoying your emails again. Keep them coming. More Jamie's Lost Cums to come too.
And to answer some questions, I will still need you to write short message requests. I can't put you on a mailing list. I won't know if you don't actually want to read the new episodes.
I realise we're all pretty busy so all I will require from now on is Jamie Request as a title and a short sentence length message being formal about the request. There's far too many blank empty messages. It's frankly insulting. Sorry to be blunt about it. I always reply to people who take the time to get to know me.
I also wanted to leave a special shout out to a fan who gave me some inspiration for a character in the series and to another fan who I enjoyed a special 'get together' with. See I can be friendly.