Telling Jason About Payton
It's now or never. I have to tell Jason about why I've been so stand-offish. I've mentioned Payton but never told him what happened. For him to really understand a little bit more about me, he has to hear this story. It's important for him to understand what's been up with me. I stepped out of my room and started looking for Jason.
I found him awake in his bed.
"Shaun, what's up?"
I have to admit he looked pretty awesome sitting in his bed with his chest exposed. Man, I love his chest. It looks awesome. Everything is perfectly chiseled.
"Jason, I need to tell you something about my past, but first I want to apologize for coming into your room like this."
Jason looked interested and a little bit tired. He smiled and looked right at me and said, "Go ahead, I'm listening."
"Well, I guess I'll go ahead and tell you about Payton."
With the mention of Payton's name, Jason sat up and removed himself from his blanket. There is a part of me that doesn't want to tell him. I'm already feeling a little weird. Here it goes; I took a deep breath and started my tale. Jason's eyes were focused on me as I started to tell my story.
"Payton was my room-mate before you. He lost his dorm room and needed a place to live. I needed a room-mate and Payton answered my ad. He was a typical jock but I never saw him with any women. I never saw him with any woman here at the apartment either. Although I never saw him with a woman, there were always guys over at the apartment."
Jason looked at me. His mouth opened and he spoke, "Shaun from what you've told, I can see where you might have thought he was gay."
The story gets more interesting.
"Well, it gets better. Payton seemed to enjoy getting hugs from his friends. He even hung around the apartment in his underwear. He even wore it around his friends. I have to admit that I had a few jerk off sessions over it. I thought I was in love. Looking back, I know that what I was really feeling was lust."
Jason smiled and patted me on my back. "I'm just glad that you can look back and see things for what they really were."
"Let me continue though."
Jason leaned back on the bed's headboard. His abs tightened up and man, do I love this guy next to me, but my story keeps going from here.
"I did my best to put that feeling down. There was a risk and I knew it. Payton was a little bigger than I was. I really thought that I was ready to come out to him. When I told him, it ended up being the biggest mistake in my life. He called me "gay", "faggot", and "fudge packer", all while beating me. He was so loud that Miss White actually called the cops. His attack on me continued until the police arrived. I had bruises all over my chest and my arms, a black eye, and a broken lip."
Jason's eyes grew large again. His expression seemed to say, "I'm sorry!" I've never seen anyone who could express themselves so well with just their face.
"It was because of him that I was afraid of telling you how I felt. He made me afraid of telling anyone about me. I was afraid that the next guy would attack me.
Jason brought his arms around me and gave me a hug. I couldn't resist placing a kiss on his lips. There is something electrifying about his touch. I've felt it every time that he's touched me or I've touched him.
"Do you remember our first hug?"
I thought back to our first hug and remembered how it felt; what my reaction was to his hug. I wonder if he felt it.
"Yeah, I remember it!"
His smile became very broad. His smile makes me feel like jelly.
"I love you Mr. Allen!"
Then he released me from his hug and kissed me again. He got up out of his bed and I could see his package. He gathered his clothes up from his closet and headed for the bathroom. About a half hour later, he emerged from the bathroom all nice and clean. I couldn't resist pulling him in for another kiss and smelling the scent of his body. He whispered in my ear, "I never finished telling you why I asked about our first hug. It's because I felt a pretty good-sized piece of cock inside your pants. I hope one of these days you'll at least let me see it."
Right then and there, I had to ask him my own question.
"Jason, will you be my boyfriend?"
"Umm... Let me think about it."
Jason went into the kitchen. He started working on breakfast. He turned and looked at me. "You might as well take your shower while I get breakfast ready."
When I got into the shower, I immediately got hard. There wouldn't be time to crank out some cum, so I hurried my shower. I dried myself off, put on some cologne, and dressed. When I came out of the shower, there were two omelets sitting on plates. Orange juice was poured into glasses. A sexy guy was sitting down waiting for me to join him. I honestly thought that Jason would stay quiet during breakfast. He usually doesn't talk much while he eats, but I suppose he had something to talk about today.
"Shaun, I want to set some ground rules for our relationship," he said as he placed a fork with a bit of omelet into his mouth. Guess that's his way of saying `yes' to my earlier question.
"Okay, go ahead."
I waited for him to finish his omelet. With the omelet now gone, Jason continued his train of thought. I love seeing him in deep thought. His eyes take on this very serious look and his forehead wrinkles up just a little bit.
"Shaun, I want us to be happy and that means that I'm willing to support you, if you're willing to support me. I'll be more than happy to follow you wherever you go as long as you let me lead at times. I don't want to be hurt, so I'm asking you not to cheat on me."
I think if it's humanly possible, I just fell even more in love with the hunk across from me. He surprises me at every turn. He stared into my eyes and I thought for a just a second that they twinkled.
"Jason, I always knew that you would be here for me. The same is true for me as well. I will follow you wherever you need to go in life or want to go. I..." My right hand reached out and took his hand. I placed a gentle kiss on his lips and he returned it. "...I love you Jason and I will never cheat on you. I want us to never grow apart. If I ever do anything to anger you, will you come to me and let me know?"
He smiled and squeezed my hand.
"Shaun, you'll know when you get me upset. I don't ever want to us end the day on a bad note. I don't care what's happened, what argument we've had, or who has hurt us. I know it's a lot to ask, but it's important to me."
"Babe, I don't think that I could hold anger against you. I love you too much for that."
"Just a few more things, I want you to always be honest and upfront with me. Second, you don't have to change for me. I love you no matter what! I love you!"
He leaned forward and kissed me. Maybe it was the mood in the air, but his kiss was truly electrifying. From my lips to my toes, I could feel the current passing through me. I'll remember this kiss for a long time to come.
"Thanks, Jason! I love you, babe!"
Jason's P.O.V. – Telling Jason About Payton
I blame it on the dreams that I've been having, but at any rate, it's 5:30 AM and I can't sleep. Since I can't sleep, I've some time to hold Lucy. She feels so incredible in my hands. I only held her for about ten minutes because she seemed to be a bit cranky. Not wanting to be bit, I put her back into her haven. I sat back in the bed and just listened to the sounds around me. For a few seconds, I thought that I heard Shaun up and moving around.
It was Shaun that I heard. A couple seconds later, he appeared in my door and entered my room. He was dressed in a t-shirt and a pair of boxers. Hmm... those boxers look really good on him. I need to tell him to wear them around the apartment more often. He smiled and spoke, "Shaun, what's up?"
Shaun's eyes were glued to my chest; more precisely, to my pecs and nipples. They fascinate him for some unknown reason. He must be a chest man. His thoughts shifted and he looked away from my pecs to my eyes. I could tell that whatever he was about to say wasn't going to be easy for him. It didn't take him long to speak. Lucky for him, because my mind was more attuned to what was in his boxers.
"Jason, I need to tell you something about my past, but first I want to apologize for coming into your room like this."
He has no reason to apologize to me. I'm just glad that he coming to me about it instead of waiting for another month. I have to admit that I'm pretty tired, despite not being able to sleep.
"Go ahead, I'm listening."
"Well I guess, I'll go ahead and tell you about Payton."
Looks like I finally get to hear about the mysterious Payton fellow. Something tells me that I'm not going to like this guy.
He took a deep breath before he even started telling me about this guy. True, I've heard his name thrown out here and there, but I've never heard the whole story. I'm anxious to hear it. Shaun has all my attention.
"Payton was my room-mate before you. He had lost his dorm room and needed a place to live. I needed a room-mate and Payton answered my ad. He was a typical jock but I never saw him with any women. I never saw him with any woman here at the apartment, either. Although I never saw him with a woman, there were always guys over at the apartment."
Hmm... sounds like a gay guy to me! I can see where Shaun could have been mistaken. "Shaun, from what you've told, I can see where you might have thought he was gay."
I've learned that with Shaun it helps to encourage him. He has a hard time dealing with the rough spots in his life.
"Well, it gets better. Payton seemed to enjoy getting hugs from his friends. He even hung around the apartment in his underwear. He even wore it around his friends. I have to admit that I had a few jerk off sessions over it. I thought I was in love. Looking back, I know that what I was really feeling was lust."
I wish that Shaun would hang out the apartment in his underwear. It would be okay with me if he did. I mean, if it was a turn on for him to see Payton in his underwear, maybe I should go about our home in my boxer briefs. He just mentioned that when he looks back at the whole Payton situation that he now realizes that it wasn't love that it was lust. I'm proud of him because I think what he felt for me at first was lust not love. Now though, I think we've reached a point where we both love each other.
"I'm just glad that you can look back and see things for what they really were."
"Let me continue."
I want to hear what else he has to say. I've gotten the impression that this Payton was not easy for Shaun to live with. I can't imagine how he dealt with it. My back was getting a bit stiff and I needed to move a little, so I repositioned myself on my bed. I guess it exposed a bit more of my body to Shaun because it seemed to hold his attention for just a second.
"I did my best to put that feeling down. There was a risk and I knew it. Payton was a little bigger than I was. I really thought that I was in ready to come out to him. When I did tell him, it ended up being the biggest mistake in my life. He called me "gay", "faggot", "fudge packer", and "queer", all while beating me. He was so loud that Miss White actually called the cops. His attack on me continued until the police arrived. I had bruises all over my chest and my arms, a black eye, and a broken lip."
Damn... no one deserves to be treated like that, now I know that I hate this guy. Shaun must have been terrified. Surely, he had heard those words before but I'm pretty sure that he had never been beaten up because of his sexuality. I felt sorry for him and I made no attempt to hide my emotions.
"It was because of him, that I was afraid of telling you how I felt. He made me afraid of telling anyone about me. I was afraid that you might attack me too."
Suddenly, I felt overwhelmed! I brought my arms up, placed them around his body, and gave him a hug. He leaned in and placed a soft kiss on my lips. When his lips touched mine, I felt a jolt of electricity that was even felt in my cock. It bounced just a little bit. It stirred memories of our first hug.
"Do you remember our first hug?" I asked him, hoping that he remembered our first hug and how it affected him.
His cheeks turned a little red as he answered, "Yeah, I remember it!"
I remember his cock swelling when he felt our bodies in close contact for the first time. I smiled and I smiled big time.
"I love you Mr. Allen!"
I removed my hands from his body and I kissed him again. After our kiss, I got up out of my bed. My cock had grown just enough to show off a bulge. I knew that he could see it. I went about gathering my clothes and a towel and headed for the bathroom.
Stripping down for my shower, I glanced down and willed my semi to shrink back down. It wasn't easy to get it to deflate. I wanted to be relieved, but I wanted him to relieve me. I spent about fifteen minutes in the shower. Man did it feel good to be clean. I sprayed myself with some cologne and put on my deodorant. My comb got my hair looking just right and then I got dressed. I came up to Shaun and he wrapped his arms around me. We didn't exchange another kiss this time. I whispered into his ear in sexy, deep voice, "I never finished telling you why I asked about our first hug. It's because I felt a pretty good-sized piece of cock inside your pants. I hope one of these days you'll at least let me see it."
The mere thought of seeing his cock got sent blood down south. I certainly wasn't expecting what happened next.
"Jason, will you be my boyfriend?"
"Umm... Let me think about it."
I can't believe that he actually asked me. Why didn't I just say 'Yes!'? Oh well, I already know the answer. There is no denying it. I'm going to accept his offer and then hopefully, I'll help him ease out of his shell.
I slipped into the kitchen and went straight to the fridge. This morning we're going to have omelets. Let's see, eggs, milk, ham, onions, bell peppers, mushrooms, and cheese... everything that I need to make a couple of perfect omelets. I started mixing the eggs with the milk.
"You might as well take your shower while I get breakfast ready," I said, as I turned around and looked at him. Hmm... I would love to be in the shower with him but I can't be in two places at once. I still need to cut everything up. Luckily, omelets don't take too long to cook. I cooked the omelets and then put them into the oven to hold their heat in. I got out the orange juice and set the table. I placed one omelet on my plate and one on his plate.
When he came out of the bathroom, he looked great. He saw the spread on the table and actually smiled. We sat down and started eating. I waited till we had eaten a little bit of our omelets before I started talking.
"Shaun, I want to set some ground rules for our relationship."
"Okay, go ahead!" Shaun said to me, but I was in the process of feeding my face. Using my fork, I grabbed another bite of omelet. Not wanting to be rude, I waited till I swallowed it to finish my train of thought.
"Shaun, I want us to be happy and that means that I'm willing to support you, if you're willing to support me. I'll be more than happy to follow you wherever you go as long as you let me lead at times. I don't want to be hurt, so I'm asking you not to cheat on me."
I knew Shaun well enough to know that he would never hurt me, but I wanted him to know my thoughts. I also wanted him to know that I supported him and expected the same from him. The whole time that I was speaking, his eyes were glued to my eyes.
"Jason, I always knew that you would be here for me. The same is true for me as well. I will follow you wherever you need to go in life or want to go. I..." He didn't finish his sentence instead he reached out with his right hand and took my hand. He again leaned in and kissed my lips. Once again, I felt a spark of electricity travel down to my penis. I had to return the favor; return his kiss. I think he was ready to finish his sentence. "...I love you Jason and I will never cheat on you. I want us to never grow apart. If I ever do anything to anger you, will you come to me and let me know?"
I smiled at him and squeezed his hand. Now that he was done, I added more of my thoughts.
"Shaun, you'll know when you get me upset. I don't ever want to us end the day on a bad note. I don't care what's happened, what argument we've had, or who has hurt us. I know it's a lot to ask, but it's important to me."
"Babe, I don't think that I could hold anger against you. I love you too much for that."
Man, this guy could charm the pants off of the Frankenstein monster. I had to tell him a couple more things. Things that I felt he needed to hear from me after what he just told me.
"Just a few more things, I want you to always be honest and upfront with me. Second, you don't have to change for me. I love you no matter what! I love you!"
I leaned out to him and placed another kiss on his lips. I'm not sure how to explain it, but I think we both felt the spark that time. Shaun's face lit up like a Christmas tree. He leaned in and said, "Thanks Jason! I love you babe!"