Now for the standard yadda yadda stuff. If you are under the age of 18, 21 in some places, you should not read this. If you do not find the idea of two men together in a loving relationship acceptible, you should not read this. If you are on this site looking for straight stories you really should not be reading this. If you are under aged, closed minded, or looking for some male/female stories and are still here, anything offensive you might read is not my fault. Let me reiterate this if you are very dumb, this is gay fiction.
Now on to the stuff I find fun. In the time since the last chapter posting and now, I have gotten an overwhelming wave of e-mails telling me to keep writing. You may never know how much that meant to me. I am a gay 18 yeaqr old, but I am also in the closet. I use this story to express my feelings, and create a world I wish I lived in. I know that many of you are thinking that I'm a whiner who doesn't have the guts to come out, but there are extenuating circumstances that I'm not going into. I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you to all the people who wrote me.
Sorry it took so long, I've been sick.
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And now, on with the story.
Before I could shut the door behind us, he had his hand at the buttons to my pants. I pulled him into a deep kiss, spun him around, and pushed him onto the bed. I looked at him, and could see the hunger in his eye's. I could see other visible signs of this state, but his eye's just drew me in. The deep brown, the full pupils, and the glint from the small lamp in his dorm room. I quickly jumped onto the bed, straddling his lap. I ran my hands through his slightly long black hair, tilted his head back slightly and kissed him full and deep. I ran my tongue along the side of his, massaging it as carefully as I could. I breathed in deep through my nose, experiencing every scent of him. His Stetson cologne, the sweat he was working up. I reveled in the taste of the kiss. If god could stop time for anyone, I wanted nothing more than to live eternally in that moment.
He broke the kiss long enough to look deeply into my eye's, I could see every aspect that drew me to him. Every poet through out history has held eye's as the windows to ones soul. I hope that what I was seeing was that. I've had never felt such warmth, or love as when I looked into those eye's. He leaned up to my ear and started to kiss just below it.
"I love you." He said stopping to look for my reaction. I smiled so hard I thought my face would break.
I decided to get sappy. "If the stars were grains in an hour glass, and love were measured in time, the sand would seep into oblivion long before my love faded." I will never as long as I live forget the way his face lit up.
Everything after that for a few minutes seemed to blur, and the next thing I knew we were both stripped to our boxers. He rolled me over and looked back into my eye's brushing his hand through my hair. "We don't have to do this you know."
I decided to switch from sappy to wicked. "If you leave me with a case of blue balls tonight I will kick your ass."
He slipped his hand into my boxers and...
After the incredible night with Johnny, everything quieted down a bit. That is until the eleventh.
September the eleventh will live in everyone's mind as a day of infamy. I was woken up by a phone call from Johnny, and the first image I saw when I turned on the T.V. was a plane slamming into the side of one of the twin-towers. I was stunned. I called the school and told them I'd be staying home. I got dressed and headed for Johnny's dorm.
When I got there, I found that he was not alone. His friends Arianna and her boy friend Thomas were there, which shouldn't have surprised me since Thomas lived there. The night we... err... coupled he was staying with her. I hadn't met her before, and was stunned. She was stunning. She was almost six feet tall, long curly brown hair, and very bright blue eyes. She could have been a model. Thomas was equally a hottie. He was six feet tall, short brown hair, again with the blue eyes. He was more tanned than Arianna, but she did have a very good tan. I sat at the small desk, and saw the distraught look on Johnny's face.
"Hey, how's it going all?" I so wanted to go be held by Johnny. I looked at the others, trying to keep from looking at Johnny, but knew I was glancing over at him every few minutes.
"Hey Blake, cut school today young man?" He chuckled. Lame joke, but expected.
"Yeah, this little thing happened today, `twas a good excuse." I looked back at Johnny, he was huddled at the head of his bead, sitting with his legs pulled up to his chest.
"Yeah, classes were canceled today. We're going to go donate today." Arianna had a good voice. She seemed very out of it, but I think we all were.
"Mind if I join you?" I asked.
"Definitely." Johnny spoke immediately. I knew he needed to talk.
"Shit, I don't think I can donate." Something my mom told me a while back came to mind. "I had Hepatitis when I was a baby. I'm not sure what kind, but she said I can't donate." I looked over at Johnny and saw his eye's wide open in slight shock. "Don't worry, I got over it real fast. I don't have it anymore." The look of relief on his face was immediate. I had seriously stuck my foot down my throat right there.
"Actually, you can donate blood as long as you had it before the age of eleven. I had it when I was a baby too. So, your in high school from what I hear." Arianna looked at me with a strange look. Did he tell her?
"Yeah, I was held back a year in kindergarten." I looked back to Johnny for just a sec, then over at Thomas, I needed to try to keep from focusing mainly on Johnny.
"What, didn't get the ABC's down?" What was it with Thomas and these lame ass jokes?
"No, I ripped the muscle out of my calf when I was five, I missed three consecutive months of school. Missing that much sorta puts you behind." I looked him straight in the eye's to see if I could gauge any sort of look of remorse for what he said. There was none. "So, when do you all wanna leave?"
"I need to go get changed. Want to come Tommy?" She stood and offered him a hand to get out of his chair. I watched them leave, and was about to stand to go over and give Johnny a kiss, but stopped when I heard Arianna say she forgot something from outside. She came in and shut the door, then looked at me. "Do something about your boy-friend, he's being a real downer." It completely hit me by surprise, before I could deny it she came closer and whispered in my ear, "It's totally obvious you want to go to him, just don't get too involved, I want to get out of here for a little while today." She stood up and looked at Johnny, "See you in a few G." with that she left the room.
I turned to look at Johnny and saw a dumbstruck look on his face. It probably mirrored the look on mine. I stood up and went to him. "Please tell me she knew already, otherwise she just scared the fuck out of me."
"Uh... nope, she's just really perceptive." He leaned over and kissed me. "But I don't care as long as I get a few minutes alone with you."
"Hold your horses there bucko, I want to know if your ok. Are you?" I held his chin and looked deep into his eye's.
"Yeah, just freaked. Why would someone do something so horrendous? Such a loss of life. It hasn't fully hit me yet." He stared off into space. How lucky was I to land me such a compassionate guy?
"It'll be ok. This is the first time I'm glad Bush is in office, he's gonna hunt down whoever did this and eat them alive. He's been itching for a war, now he's got one." I gave him a quick hug. "Come on stuck pig, it's bleeding time."
We got out into the hall just in time to catch the other two coming down the hall. It was decided that we'd take Arriana car, a Civic. Once in and seat belted we were off.
"So, anyone know where there's a Red Cross?" Arriana's question caught me off guard.
"Nope."
"Nope."
"You so have to be kidding me! The three of you planned to go give blood, but never stopped to see where you could?" I started to laugh so hard I thought I'd pee my pants.
"OK, no biggy, Tommy, call 411 on your cell." Before he could I grabbed his hand from the back and looked over at Arriana.
"Turn right in 3 lights. Head north for about 5 miles till you see a large blue and gold building. When you see that take the next left, then right 4 blocks after that. After a few lights you'll see it. Big sign, a thing that looks like an under case T painted ret."
I smiled at the way she looked at me. Then sat back and grinned at Johnny. "My grandpa had to store a lot of blood when he had surgery a few years back. I went with him every time." I took his hand and looked forward as Tommy gave us a weird look from the front. Shit, I'd assumed Arriana told him. She noticed after a few seconds.
"Uh oh. Total miss-communiqué here." She made her way to a parking lot and stopped the car, put it in park and looked back at us.
"I thought you would of told him." Johnny had said it, I remained silent. These were his friends. And while I'd like them to be mine as well I knew next to nothing about them.
"Not my place to tell him sweetie." She put her hands up in a defensive posture. We all knew Johnny wasn't trying to be accusing, but this situation could totally go south depending on Tommy.
"He's in the car, mind talking like that?" He chuckled. "It's totally ok, but I'm so never taking my towel off again." He turned forward leaving me slightly stunned, Arriana laughing, and Johnny turning that great shade of red again.
We left the parking lot and made it the rest of the way without incident. When we got to the Red Cross we were meted by a line that stretched out into the parking lot. Arriana pulled up to a man handing papers out to everyone and asked what was up.
"To put it simply we have too many people trying to give blood right now. You can get in line if you like, but we are asking everyone to fill out appointment slips for later." We each took one and filled in our names and phone numbers quickly and handed them back to the guy.
We pulled out onto the street. Everyone had quieted from the look at all those people trying too help.
"I feel so bad. I never went to give blood before, now there's a disaster and I go to try and alleviate guilt for not being able to help more." I knew it was the same way everyone there felt, but it so needed to be said. Someone can think something about themselves, stew over it, then completely disregard it moments later. But saying it makes you accept that about yourself. Everyone remained silent as Arriana drove. Finally Johnny spoke up.
"I don't know about the rest of you, but I need a break from reality. Movie anyone?" We all agreed ant set out for the closest theater. This turned out to create another awkward silence as we had to drive by the airport to get there. We all looked out at the airstrip. It was packed with airplanes. Dozens of them, just sitting there silently.
It finally hit me as I looked at one. One of those, filled with people, was flown into a building. Another would hit the other building in the trade center, then the Pentagon, then one would simply crash into a field. I started to cry as I thought that, and one thought slipped into my mind. "They knew."
Johnny looked at me confused. "Who knew what Blake?"
"They all knew they were going to die. The people on the planes. They knew they were going to die. They sat there and waited for the people that took over the planes to kill them. They knew they were going to die. And in the towers, they knew as soon as the first one collapsed that the second would. They all simply tried in vain to survive. They all died. So many people died for what? Why did this have to happen. Why would someone hate America so much as to kill that many innocent people?"
"I don't know sweetie, I really don't." He unbuckled his belt and slid in his seat to hold me. The tears fell for a few moments, then stopped. When we got to the theatre, Arianna offered to go park the car while we got the tickets, I opted to ride with her. When the guy's got out, I slid up front and looked at her.
"If you gun it we could make it to Mexico by sunrise. Watcha think, Margaritas by the Gulf?" I laughed as she punched the gas really hard, then clenched the armrest as she squealed to a stop in an all to abrupt manner. "Note to self, no caffeine for Anna."
"Call me that again and I'll have to shove my foot up your ass." She pointed at me laughing.
"Note to self, be sure to call Anna, Anna again." I laughed as she smacked me up-side the head.
"You've got moxie, I'll give you that much." She said locking the door.
"I've also got a great ass and a cute boy-friend. You on the other hand..." she stopped in mock disbelief.
"HEY! I have a great ass!" She walked up to smack me with her purse but I took off running. I made it up to the side walk in front of the theatre before she caught up and hit me on the back with her purse. We walked the rest of the way with her hanging on my arm.
When we met up with the boy-friends I looked at Tommy's questioning gaze. "Sorry guy, she likes me better." I kissed the top of her head and looked back at them.
"Hey, you may be cuter than me," He caught what he said and looked over at Johnny and cut off the joke forming on his lips. "say it and die nerd, but you can't do this." He pulled Arriana into a very passionate kiss.
She broke it, looked him in the eye, then walked over to me and pulled me to her by the waist. "Let's find out shall we?" She pulled my lips to her, taking me by surprise at first, but then I let loose and got into the kiss. We kissed for a minute or so before the boy-friends cleared their throats to get our attention. She looked at Tommy and stated while walking by. "Go practice with Blake and I may take you back."
"If you don't quit it I may do just that!" He said following her.
Me and Johnny hung back a little. "I think your friends like me"
"How could they not." We entered the theatre and Johnny handed me my ticket. We had decided on The Musketeer.
When we got out of the movie we noticed a paper taped to the glass door. We read it and I couldn't help but laugh. "Nick of time." The theatre was closing early that day. We were the last to see a movie. We walked to the movie and Tommy asked me if I liked the movie.
"Well... I will probably go see it sometime." He looked at me blankly, then noticed something and started laughing really, really, really hard. When he fell to his knees Arriana seemed to notice to because she was clutching her stomach trying to stay upright. Johnny looked at me and his face went white. "What's so funny?" I looked at my shirt.
"I... Uh... Seem to have given you a hackle." We all laughed, piled into the car, and went back to Johnny and Tommy's dorm to watch some videos. This time me and Johnny did watch.
Well, there's chapter 5. Sorry it took so long. And in regards to the typo's, it's all Krystan's fault. She decided calling her boy-friend was more important than copy-editing the story was. But she did help a lot, so be nice. I'm going to be forwarding these E-mails to her, so be nice. And don't think I wont let her kick your asses.