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Josh Goes to College
I stare out the window and look down and I feel a peaceful feeling sweep over me. Somehow when I look at the ground thousands of feet below I don't feel fearful like so many other people who are afraid of flying feel. I know it may sound crazy to those of you who fear flying but for those who share the same thoughts about flying as me you will understand. When I look out the window at the ground below everything seems so small and insignificant and all the sudden all the thoughts in my head disappear. All the worries and anxiety I have are gone, at least for the time on the plane and all I can think of is how small everything is from up here.
I guess my problems aren't so bad I mean when you compare my problems to a lot of other people who really do have problems you would want to beat the shit out of me for feeling so doomed. I do after all have a wonderful family – happily married parents who really are the greatest parents I could ever wish to have, 2 brothers and 3 sisters and even a dog it's like THE picture of the perfect family.
So why do you ask am I on this airplane? Where am I going and why am I alone? Well I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Josh and I have brown hair and blue eyes. I'm about 5'11" and I have a swimmers body. I am flying half way across the country to go to college where I got a scholarship for the swim team. Now why if I have such a perfect family would I want to leave them? That is a very complicated question and something my family just couldn't understand. You see they wanted me to go to the local university but I wanted to get away. Just escape. I love my family so much they really are everything to me and I know they love me just as much but I felt trapped at home. I need to get out and live and have the chance to truly be myself.
I've known I was gay since I was 13. I remember sitting with my friends and they stared talking about girls and it was like this light bulb went off in my head and I realized I didn't feel like they did about girls and in fact I was thinking about boys like they were girls. I knew that I couldn't tell anyone so I played the straight guy role by dating girls throughout high school and I even hoped that I could learn to like it and `turn' straight but of course that never happened. I never did come out to anybody, my friends, my parents, nobody. I have always been terrified that someone would find out about me especially my family and while I think my family would be ok with it I don't know that for sure and the thought of losing my family feels like my heart is ripping apart. I don't know how I'm gonna tell them.
So here I am an 18 year old virgin on his way as far from what I know as my life as I can get in the hopes that I can be out as gay and maybe find a boyfriend. I hope it all works out.
What do you think? Is it worth continuing? If enough people want to read more then I'll write more and yes the chapters will be a lot longer than this chapter. Let me know what you think. Constructive criticism welcome. Keep in mind that this is my first attempt at a story. Email me at stories_of_sam@yahoo.com.