Just Looking
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Final Chapter.
Four
I was taken aback by Dan's inappropriate laugh. I stared at him hopefully and seriously, his face tightened and he looked away from me; he was clutching the duvet to his naked body, cruelly depriving me of its beauty. "Work things out" he repeated bitterly, the look in his eyes was cold. "In other words you want us to be mates again?" I nodded. I wanted that and more but for some reason I couldn't say it.
Dan shook his head and bent over to pick his boxers, he struggled into them under the duvet, which I thought was unnecessary because it wasn't like I had never seen him naked. I smiled briefly at the recollection. The smile soon disappeared though. "I don't wanna be your mate Neil. If that's all you want, then you ought to just leave" he announced. He let the duvet drop and my eyes roamed across his beautiful body, I had the urge to take him in my arms and I took a step towards him but he backed away.
"Not just mates" I managed to stutter, "I want more too" I thought I saw his eyes light up but it must have been brief if not just an illusion because they were now stone cold and unmoved. "You want me to be your bit on the side then?" he asked sarcastically. This wasn't going the way I had expected, I wasn't doing it right, I wasn't saying the right things but just being close to him was making me delirious. What kind of effect was this? Dan turned his back to me and almost as if crazed, I swung my arms around his waist and pulled him close to me. He didn't resist initially, I buried my nose in the nape of his neck and inhaled deeply, my hands desperately clutching his firmness, my lips exploding hundreds of intense kisses on his smooth skin. I felt dizzy.
I heard him whimper and feeling encouraged, I flicked my wet tongue behind his ear and delighted at the way his body fell back deeper in my arms, almost helpless against my powerful expression of love. But then Dan unclasped my arms from around his waist and walked out of my reach. "You better just go Neil, I don't wanna leave Jason waiting too long" he had his back to me as he spoke. I reached out and put my hand on his shoulder. "Won't you give me another chance?" I asked. He turned to look at me. "You've got a girlfriend Neil" he reminded me, "imagine what she would say if she knew" he added with sarcasm.
"I want you so bad" I blurted out stubbornly; I was fearfully close to losing my head. The expression on his face softened and he edged towards me, I dared not avert my eyes from his intoxicating gaze. He reached out and tenderly stroked the side of my face, "I need to know you're serious about us" he whispered while I pressed my face against his warm hand "and if your incapable of breaking up with Emma then how serious can you be?" As he moved his hand away I eagerly kissed his fingertips. "I'll do it" I resolved, "I'll break up with her" Dan smiled gently, "and I'll be waiting when you do mate" he replied holding my face in his hands, he kissed my lips lightly, but when I tried to deepen the kiss he pulled back and stopped me. "We can't do this now" he warned. Opening the door to see me out.
As I walked out of Dan's flat I took a quick glance at Jason, still dressed in his boxers he was carrying two cups of coffee. I left the flat feeling a curious mixture of despondency and elation. I was thrilled that Dan still wanted me despite how I'd treated him but knowing that I couldn't touch him until I broke up with Emma (which was something I was dreading out of weakness of character) while Jason had the opportunity to touch him and kiss him and pleasure him made me feel gutted all the same.
It took me five long days to work up the courage to break up with Emma. And when the day finally came and I was in her bedroom, sitting laboriously on the edge of her bed while she carried on as normal, I was still completely unsure of what I was to say to make this experience as pain-free as possible. But in the five days that had passed, I had been deprived of even talking to Dan of hearing his voice and his reassurances. He avoided my calls and ignored my text messages, he was testing me and it was a brutal test but if there were any doubts over how I felt about him, they were indisputably quashed as I spent every waking minute thinking his thoughts and longing to be with him. It had all happened so fast but the reality and intensity of it could not be denied. And it was these truths that finally allowed me to break away from Emma that afternoon.
"Will you sit down a minute?" I requested her, "I have something to tell you" my heart was in my mouth but I was sure as hell going to go through with this. She sat down abruptly and looked at me with concern, "What is it, are you alright?" she asked, reaching over to touch my cheek. I backed away and stood up hastily and started pacing the room like a man possessed.
"This is really hard to say," I ventured, using the tried and tested formula. She raised her eyebrows and followed my pacing with her eyes. "I don't think this is working anymore" "What do you mean?" she asked. She was shaking her head furiously. I swallowed hard and went on. "I don't feel the same way about you anymore" I told her. She leapt to her feet and grabbed my arm to stop me from pacing, "you don't fancy me anymore?" she asked, forcing me to look into her eyes which only made the job doubly difficult.
"I guess not" I replied truthfully. Cringing inwardly as I saw the emergence of tears in her eyes. "That's bullshit" she retorted, "you cant just stop fancying me, there is someone else isn't there, you fancy someone else don't you?" she demanded. Her hold on my arm tightened and I had to shrug her off roughly. "Look it doesn't matter does it?" I asked desperately, "lets just end this here and be friends"
Emma was becoming hysterical. "Friends? Fuck you" she spat. "I wanna know who she is?" she demanded. I had half a mind of telling her it wasn't a she but a he and my best mate who I was falling madly in love with. "Calm down please" I pleaded instead. I watched for a few silent minutes while she stood opposite me giving me death stares and then she simply sat on the bed and cried. I felt so lousy I just stared at her helplessly. "Emma please" I started trying to comfort her but she pushed my hand away. "Just fuck off Neil, and never try to speak to me again," she screamed between sobs.
Once I left Emma's house, I was feeling restless and desperate to go see Dan, but knowing he was still at uni, I decided to go home instead. As I passed the pub on the way home I spotted Pete and a couple of my other mates having a drink, so I popped in to join them and have a couple of pints by the time which Dan should be done at uni. I hadn't really seen Pete since Friday night so he was pleased to see me. But I couldn't really concentrate on the conversation around me; I kept drifting off into my own little world. I felt a sharp slap on my back and looked up confused, Pete and the others were laughing at me. "Earth to Neil" they chorused. I grinned hopelessly. Pete shook his head at my pathetic absent-mindedness, "Oh he's in love boys" he cooed, "things getting serious with Emma then?" he asked. I decided not to tell him about the break-up I was far too happy at that moment to allow anything to bring me down, so I simply shrugged in response.
A few minutes later the conversation took a slightly more sinister turn. "You seen Dan around lately, he seems to have forgotten about us" Pete asked. I looked up at the mention of Dan's name and tried to hide the shy smirk that was inexplicably threatening to break. "Seen him around, yeah" I replied, calmly. "You two were joined at the hip" Pete pointed out, "like a married couple" For some reason I felt my cheeks burn up, I knew I was probably going read, which would be hard to explain. Luckily it went unnoticed. "Heard the rumours about him?" Pete ventured.
I looked up sharply, "What rumours" Pete toyed with his pint glass for a second and then shrugged, "heard he's going around with this bloke," he told me. "That's not true" I replied a little too eagerly, "he's still a little upset about his break up with Ellie" I lied. "He's the one who broke up with her" Pete reminded me, "Besides I always knew he was a poof, he just looks like one" I could feel myself getting heated; I looked at him coldly and felt like knocking him out, he was always passing comments like that, and usually it was a good laugh, but this comment was a little too close to home for me to appreciate it. But I didn't want to make things worse so I ignored Pete, finished my pint and left without saying bye.
I turned the corner towards Dan's flat but stopped abruptly when I saw Jason disappearing through the doors. My heart sank, as I stood there rooted to the ground staring at the closed door. I'd taken a huge step and now suddenly I found the door shut in my face, but then what had I expected? Dan said he would be waiting for me once I'd broke up with Emma, all I had to do now was go and tell him that I had. So I climbed the three steps to the front door and knocked on it loudly. I have to admit I was also secretly thrilled at the idea of interrupting Jason with Dan and hopefully getting him out of the way straight away. My knock remained unanswered after three furious attempts, I sullenly walked down the stairs and sat on the wall and dialed Dan's number.
He answered after the fifth ring. No prizes for guessing what they were up to. I felt so angry for a moment that I forgot to speak. "Neil you there?" Dan asked again. "Hi" I muttered. "Am I interrupting something?" I asked bitterly. He cleared his throat, "Jason is here" he replied calmly. I held the phone even tighter and tried to control my anger, "who's playing games now?" I asked. "What do you mean?" Dan asked, confused.
"You're in there shagging him again, you got over me really quickly didn't you?" "Who said I'm over you?" Dan's voice was so penetrative and soothing that I almost melted without expressing my rightful intolerance of what was going on. "You can't even wait for me, you've been ignoring my calls and all this time you've been with your new boyfriend, so I've broken up with Emma, what now? Are you going to tell me to fuck off because you have a boyfriend?" my chest was heaving as I spat the last few words.
"Have you really broken up with her?" Dan asked. "Yeah, so now you're free to lead me on, play with my heart while your boyfriend sucks your dick" I felt a tear in my eye as I leapt off the wall, I kicked an empty coke can across the street, horrified by my weakness. "Neil what are you so angry about, I want you, and you know that..." Dan was trying to wield his way out of this. But I cut him short, "but you want Jason more?" I asked.
"No, hear me out please, Jason is here but I'm not shagging him, I've just told him its over between us, that's all I invited him over for, I knew you would break up with Emma, I saw it in your eyes and I was just doing the same with Jason so there was nothing standing between us" he explained. "Oh" I muttered, feeling like a muppet. Dan laughed sexily, "God I bet you look dead cute right now, all worked up and barmy for no reason" I laughed too, "well come and have a look I'm right outside your door" I told him. "You serious?" he asked. "Yeah" "Jesus, well look will you hide somewhere, go for a little walk so that I can get Jason out of the house, I don't want him to see you mate" Dan said.
So I walked around the block one more time and then scurried up the stairs and knocked on the door. I was feeling anxious, nervous and very shy. It was strange how it was me who had initiated our first encounter, I had given in to the first flashes of curiosity that night but now Dan was in charge, and he had such a strong hold over me. But I resolved to regain the advantage and make Dan melt in my arms, thereby proving to him just how much he means to me... wiping away all the anguish I must have caused him by being a coward and a pratt earlier.
Dan opened the door and I froze. His piercing honey-colored eyes left me fixated and I stared at him with a mixture of immense lust and deep longing. His shirt was undone and I let my eyes wander down his beautiful physique and then looked into his eyes and smiled shyly. He stepped aside to let me in and I walked past him into the living room. I dug my hands in my pockets and struggled to remain still, I fidgeted like a child and my eyes didn't know where to look. So much for dominating him, I couldn't even look at him without turning to jelly!
He leaned against the wall with his arms folded across his chest, watching me in amusement as I struggled to get a grip of myself. "God, you're fucking gorgeous mate" he commented, making me blush outrageously. I looked up at him and smirked coyly. "How did he take it?" I asked. Not that I cared. "Yeah he was okay with it, it was no big deal" Dan assured me. I nodded and stepped backwards as he reached out for me. "What's wrong?" he asked. "Nothing, I'm just a little nervous, its stupid but I don't wanna mess up," I confessed. Dan grinned and walked towards me, "You won't mess up, just being with you is enough for me right now, we don't have to do stuff if you don't want" his voice was soft and soothing, it made me feel even more childish.
His fingers flicked over mine and then he took hold of my hand and squeezed it. I edged that bit closer to him and closed my eyes, "I want to... do stuff," I whispered, inviting him to kiss me. First I felt his hot breath grazing my lips and as my body shuddered involuntarily he slipped an arm around my waist and pressed his lips again mine. The kiss was tender and slow, our lips brushed against one another and then I felt his tongue swipe across my bottom lip before he sucked it gently. I let out a soft moan and he gripped my waist tighter, pressing me into his warm masculine body. I clung to him and let my fingers travel through his silky hair, his wet tongue ventured into my mouth and I instantly smothered it with my own, as the kiss deepened, Dan's hands began massaging my lower back, his warm fingers slipped under my shirt and teased my delicate skin, his powerful touch made me gasp audaciously.
After kissing slowly for a few minutes, Dan pulled his head back and pressed his forehead against mine, I kept my eyes closed as his long agile fingers stroked the side of my face, I tilted my head backwards and his fingertips smoothed over my lips, I kissed his fingers casually before he slid them down my neck. I felt my top button open and then the others, the sensuous air of the room enveloped my bare skin as Dan slowly revealed more of it; he got my shirt open and pushed it down my shoulders. His warm hand roamed the front of my body, his fingers outlining its contours, brushing tantalizingly over my erect nipples, down my smooth navel and sneaking slowly into my waistband.
I was already struggling for breath, I opened my eyes and found myself looking into Dan's eyes, he smiled and ground his heated crotch against me suggestively. My hands trailed down his arms as I urgently tried to get hold of his shirt and tear it off. But he slowed me down by gripping my wrists, he swung my arms around his shoulders and leaned in to kiss me, his lips pressed against mine harder than before, he kissed me passionately and his tongue delved into my mouth hungrily, I groaned and worked my tongue around his. I was losing my mind; I could barely think properly, it was like his lips were the only thing keeping me standing. I lost myself in his arms and reveled in his eager kisses.
Then Dan pulled away and sat back down on the sofa, he pulled me down opposite him and moved his hand to my neck, he stroked my smooth skin tenderly and bit his lip. "I want to tell you something, but I don't want you to freak out" he said. "What?" He brushed his thumb across my cheek and looked into my eyes, "I love you" he whispered. I stared at him blankly; the words penetrated my soul and left me feeling like I was drowning in a sea of something so alluring but yet ever so fatal. I lost my senses. Dan's face became marred with bewilderment and then he quickly shook his head and pulled away from me, "I'm sorry, maybe that was too strong" he mumbled.
I was glad he had said those words but for some inexplicable reason I was unable to respond to them verbally. Instead I took his hand and stood up. "Lets go upstairs" I said and led him into his bedroom. Having closed the door, I released Dan's hand and pulled him closer, I kissed him desperately, clasping my lips over his and prying his mouth open with my tongue, he breathed into my mouth and I pushed my tongue inside his, I was becoming addicted to the taste of his warm mouth, his tongue was captivating, its softness was delicious, I devoured it like a starved animal, the aggression stunned Dan and he struggled to kiss me back properly. I pulled away, breathless; he looked at me with surprise but also delight.
"I guess what I'm trying to say is, I love you too," I whispered. Dan laughed, and removed his shirt, he stepped towards me again but I backed away. "Take off everything" I commanded and proceeded to take my shoes and socks off and then I unbuttoned my jeans and slipped them down my hairy legs along with my boxers. Dan mirrored my movements and stood naked in front of me. His edible cock hung proudly between his sexy legs and I drunk in the sight of his sheer beauty with lustful eyes.
After admiring him from afar I stepped in front of Dan and started exploring his perfect chest, it was taught and lightly haired, his nipples were hard. I rubbed them firmly and roused a guttural grunt from his quivering lips. My hand roamed over the soft curves of his figure, stroking gently. We stood cock to cock, Dan placed his hands on my shoulder just as I leaned forward and showered his chest with soft but wet kisses, my lips trailed down his abs as I slowly lowered myself onto my knees before the image of perfection. My tongue flicked out and licked his navel tentatively, his fingers dug into my skin as he moaned and threw his head back slightly. I let my tongue swirl around his belly button before licking it desperately.
Dan gasped and thrust out his crotch, his cock poked me in the neck. I slowly lifted his cock into my hand and stroked it, I could tell he loved my touch by the way he groaned so unashamedly, my fingers explored his thick shaft and the more I stroked it the harder he seemed to get. I lowered my head and kissed the tip, getting my lips wet with his clear precum. I licked my lips and looked up at him with a smirk, he was staring down at me with utter concentration. His eyes were glazed over and his beautiful chest was heaving like he had just run a marathon. I teasingly released my tongue and dabbed the head of his dick, licking away the clear liquid. Dan squirmed and gripped my head, he pushed his cock in my face and I leaned back and opened my mouth but instead of taking it in my mouth I started sucking on the sides of his shaft.
"Please put it in your mouth" Dan begged and with a satisfied smirk I licked the length of his glorious shaft and slipped his cockhead into my waiting mouth. I sucked on it vigorously and as Dan started moaning loudly and thrusting his hips back and forth I managed to swallow a few more inches, my tongue curled around the shaft and I sucked it up and down with relish. He tasted and felt incredible. My tongue swirled around the purple head and then cushioned his shaft as it slipped down my throat. He was gasping for air and thrusting back and forth with eagerness. I looked up at his handsome face with his cock in my mouth; the sight must have turned him on more because I swear I felt his cock grow inside my mouth.
Eventually I pulled back and stood up to face him. He brazenly took me in to his arms and humped me, while capturing my mouth, it was a furious and open-mouthed kiss, while we both groped and clawed at each other's naked bodies, trying to possess each other. Suddenly he pushed me back onto the bed and I bounced on the mattress with my erect dick pointing straight at Dan. He noticed this and laughed gently, his cock was dripping and slippery I longed to put it back in my mouth but I was pinned down onto the bed, Dan climbed on it beside me started kissing my neck feverishly, his warm lips burnt into my skin and I tilted my head to one side and allowed him to feast on my skin.
He did so gladly, his tongue dancing along the nape of my neck and then wallowing lower over my chest, he licked my nipples seductively and nibbled on them as they got hard, I moaned and crushed his face against my chest, his rampant hands danced over my naked body, I was desperate for him to touch my dick but he neglected it while he sucked on my nipples and made me writhe helplessly. At long last his fingers curled around my aching shaft and he stroked it slowly, I thrust out emphatically and Dan squeezed my dick even more, my precum oozed out onto his fingers and he started jerking my cock faster. His wet mouth began nibbling on the skin below my pecs, it sent electric waves through my body and I kicked my legs joyfully as I really got to grips with what was happening. My best friend was exploring my body with such love and tenderness.
My fingers roamed through his silky hair as he lowered further and crouched between my spread legs. Within seconds he was sucking my balls, I was overcome by the feel of this new sensation that it took all my energy to stop me from cumming. Dan's tongue rolled around my sac and he nibbled on it delicately, I grunted pathetically and spread my legs wider, I felt his teeth graze against the sac and then he nibbled on my balls just like he had done with my tits. I closed my eyes and my head rolled back; I was in the depths of ecstasy.
Dan let my balls slip out of his mouth and he looked at me with a cheeky grin, I managed a weak smile in response. His tongue licked the length of my cock from base to tip; I shuddered and gripped the bed sheets tight in my fist. His tongue licked the delicate area above my balls before he swallowed half of my cock in one lunge. I gasped and cried out in delight, "Ughhh Dan" my voice sounded distant and foreign. Dan's tongue teased and manipulated my cock as it slid in and out of his warm mouth, the softness and wetness of it was too much to bear. I tried so hard to control it but my orgasm built and I cried out enraptured, my cock shot out jets of spunk down my boyfriend's throat.
Dan licked his lips seductively and stretched out beside me. "You taste delicious" he told me, I smiled weakly and felt his lips smother mine and kiss me gently; I tasted myself in his mouth. I felt like I had just experienced my first ever orgasm the intensity of it left me dizzy. Dan pressed his slippery hard dick against my leg and I reached down and squeezed it, "Shit, that feels good" he moaned, he lay on his back beside me and I moved to my side, I wanked his cock slowly, pushing his foreskin over his head and then tugging it back, and each time I exposed his cockhead I brushed my thumb over it and rubbed the precum into his shaft, He moaned loudly and closed his eyes, I dug my teeth into his neck and bit him assertively, he squirmed beneath me. Increasing the rhythm of my wanking, I stroked him harder, I moved my mouth to his ear and told him that I loved him so much and his eyes half opened with a soft smile on his face, his cock spasmed and exploded.
I woke up in the morning and glanced at the clock. It was ten; I had to be in a lecture in thirty minutes, I was mentally urging myself to get up when I felt Dan's breath on my neck. He had his face buried in the crook of my neck and his arm swung over my waist. I struggled out of bed and got dressed, stretching my limbs lazily, I headed towards the door but then made the mistake of glancing back at the bed, the sight of Dan stretched out in slumber was so irresistibly captivating that within minutes I had undressed myself and was back in the bed.
Lectures could wait.
The End.
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