Well here we are again, I just wanna say thank you to DCG, roguewolf, and Matthew who have been writing responses to me, they help a lot, oh and I suggest reading:
*Sins and saviours (By DCG)
*My new life
*Something like Justin
They are all very good stories. As usual send any comments responses or suggestions to silverjunky@hotmail . com.
Legal stuff: if you are under 18 then don't read this, and this story has nothing whatsoever to do with NSYNC or anyone else mentioned.
Justin and Redemption. Part 13: Longings.
Last Time: Justin and Gavin were on their mid tour breaks and had met up, they were inseparably and becoming very close friends.
The rest of the week went in a blur for Gavin and Justin; they spent all their time together, shopping, eating, and so on. They gathered everyone together on the Friday and took them all out to a club, where Gavin spent most of his time dancing with Justin mesmerised by Justin's body as it moved to the music.
They stayed in each other's rooms at night talking and watching movies. They were inseparable.
Both of them were dreading having to go back on their separate tours, leaving each other, on Sunday.
When Sunday came, Justin bearhugged Gavin fiercely, and extracted a promise that he would phone everyday. They climbed onto their separate tour coaches and as they pulled out stared at each other's coach without realising the other was doing the same. They went their different ways.
Gavin's tour commenced back up to full speed, and for the next few months they were all kept very busy, as they were shuttled all over America.
He was in contact with Justin everyday, as promised, and was beginning to feel; pained about the relationship, he had with Justin, they were as close as best friends could be, but Gavin knew that he wanted something more, but Justin was straight through and through.
His band mates noticed he was becoming more and more morose and abstracted, and they knew the cause, but seeing no way to remedy his situation, all they could do was distract him from his thoughts as often as possible. Which wasn't too hard, as they were in the middle of a hectic tour across states, plus Gavin was now amazingly wealthy; with the album still selling like crazy, having hit the 10million mark a week after resuming the tour. Gavin was now worth about 8million; not including any money gained from the tour and merchandise, which when eventually counted would make him worth about 13million. His mind just shut down when he thought of money now, he couldn't conceive having so much, let alone know what to do with it all.
So Lucy and Oz spent an inordinate amount of time making suggestions for it's use, and discussing plans for their own wealth.
However all Gavin thought of was Justin, he just couldn't let go of the guy even in his own head.
Lucy was sitting in the lounge of the coach at about 3am in the morning, as they drove out of Wisconsin, playing on her laptop.
She couldn't sleep, the last gig had been so crazy and the crowd so enthusiastic that she was pumped full of adrenaline.
Her phone started vibrating on the table in front of her, picking it up she looked at the caller I.D, smiled to herself.
"Hey sexy legs" she said quietly, not wanting to wake anyone.
"Hey sexy yourself" Joey answered back, "Why are you awake so late?"
"Me? What about you?" she said.
"Good point, I should really think before I talk huh?" Joey said sounding embarrassed.
"Don't worry I can do all your thinking for you from now on" Lucy said chuckling quietly to herself, "So what's up baby?"
"Baby? Interesting...nothing much, I can't sleep so I thought I would see if you were awake to chat"
"Oh right cool, I can't sleep either too much adrenaline, so how are the guys?" she asked politely.
"Oh they are fine, although Justin had been weird, a bit detached and moody, he perks up the minute Gavin phone's I've noticed though" Joey said with a confused chuckle "They must have really hit it off, I've never seen Justin become friends with someone so fast and so closely"
"Yeah I know what you mean, Gavin's being exactly the same, they really hit it off", she said hoping she wasn't going to have to lie about Gavin's sexuality.
"I know this is gonna sound crazy but do you think it's maybe more than friendship?" Joey asked very quietly.
"Uhh...umm...it's possible I suppose...but Justin is straight yeah? I mean what about the whole Britney thing aswell how do you explain that, is he Bi or something?" she asked curiously.
"True, but the thing with Britney to me never seemed completely like a relationship, they were real close, but to me almost more in a Best friend way, rather than anything else. And I don't think Justin actually even slept with her as far as I know" Joey said.
"Really? That's odd, hmm well I dunno then they could be possibly more than friends but I think Gavin would have said something to me if they were in love or whatever" she said suspiciously.
"Yeah, I don't think I can say the same, I'm close to Justin but he has always kept a little part of himself from everyone, I think, even from Lynn, his mom, so if he was...gay or whatever I don't think he'd tell us. Might be too scared to" Joey explained.
"Yeah he does have that slight enigma thing going on like there's something he's not quite giving up" she paused, and thought for a second, "well I don't know, if they are I'm assuming they'll tell us but I think they are just close friends, maybe it's just a case of needing to realise they like each other in a romantic way who knows, I don't, listen me and they guys will be finishing the tour in about a month and a half, I reckon you should badger Justin into throwing a party in his huge house back in Orlando when everyone get's there, what do you think?" she asked excitement in her voice at the prospect.
"Yeah that would be cool and I could get to see you, I tell ya' what I'll work on him about it and phone you when I get an answer yeah?" Joey said sweetly.
"Okay, cool, listen I'm gonna try and get some sleep now, so I will phone you soon okay?" she said.
"Okay, I'll miss you" he said quietly.
Lucy blushed and pushed her hair behind her ear, "I'll miss you too, later baby"
"Later sweet thing".
Lucy put the phone down and sat thinking about what Joey had said about Justin.
Maybe he was right, maybe Justin did love Gavin but was not aware somehow he was gay or he was maybe denying it somehow, he had been pulling an all macho streak lately especially in public with the whole 'Homme' attitude pictures and the new hair. Well maybe something would happen at the party, she hoped so, if anything just to cheer Gavin up and by the sound of it cheer Justin up too.
A month and a half rolled by with the tour going even faster as venues became stadiums, which became larger stadiums.
Lucy spent a lot of her time between work, sleeping, distracting Gavin from thinking too much about Justin and coordinating the party at Justin's, almost all their crew new and NSYNC's crew, about the only person who didn't was Gavin, even Justin had agreed to silence, but only just.
The tour ended for Lucy, Gavin and Oz, and exhausted they made their way to Orlando, NSYNC had another week and a half to go before they finished.
When they got home Lucy and Oz, went to their own places to rest for a few days, Gavin went back to his place, his mood was bad, he knew NSYNC were still on tour and he didn't know whether he was going to get to see Justin at all for ages.
He spent the whole week sleeping, watching movies and moping around.
He had sort of decided to buy a new house still in Orlando but larger and more secluded, well isolated was his words, for privacy. But he didn't have the energy to go house hunting at the minute. By the end of the week and into the next he was bored out of his eyeballs, on a downer from the tour, and generally apathetic, and especially annoyed at not being able to see Justin.
Looking at the calendar and seeing it was Tuesday he decided to go out and treat himself, he put his bag on and caught a bus into town, he didn't need security as he was on holiday and had bought a large pair of aviator sunglasses and a large blue comfy beanie hat as a sort of disguise, amazingly it worked.
He got into town and shuffled around receiving a few curious glances but nothing more. Having done some shopping, and extensively adding to his movie and CD collection, he decided to get some Chinese for lunch, he found a Chinese bar ten minutes later and sat in the back, munching on some chow mein.
The radio was on in the restaurant/cafe and the presenter was saying something about NSYNC so he perked up to listen.
After reading out a few reviews of the tour, he then introduced NSYNC live, and they all said hi, Justin said hi and a special hi to Gavin who should be at home by now.
Gavin's mind pulsed in happiness when he heard that, as the presenter asked if that happened to be him Justin confirmed and the presenter started reading out some rumours about Gavin that were hot at the minute, Gavin himself was too busy being happy about Justin to care what this weeks rumours were, he finished his food and shuffled out and down to the bus stop, smiling to himself.
NSYNC's bus pulled up outside Justin's house and Justin bounded off and with the help off the driver managed to get all his bags into the door of his house.
As he was waving goodbye, Joey poked his head out of a window and shouted,
"Don't forget about tomorrow night, we will all be round by 8 okay?" Justin waved again.
Then walked into his house and shut the door behind him, he groaned at all the stuff he had to get done, like the washing for a start, but he was too tired for anything right now, he would have gone over to Gavin's to see him, but the lights had been out so he assumed Gavin wasn't back yet.
Justin picked up his bags and took the dirty bag to the garage and shoved all his clothing into the washer and turned it on.
Then he headed upstairs had a shower, and climbed into bed to sleep.
Gavin got home by late afternoon time, and letting himself in, he dumped his shopping on the floor and made himself an cup of tea and had a cigarette, then stacked all his new film's and CD's with the others and went to bed exhausted.
Part 14: reunions and secrets found.
When Gavin woke up it was about 6 in the evening, strange he thought I haven't slept more than an hour, but he felt well rested. He turned on the TV, he flicked channels and came across the music news he watched it hoping for something about NSYNC, but there was nothing, he turned it off when there was knock at the door.
He jumped out of bed, pulled a dressing gown on and answered the door,
"Hey Lucy, you okay"
She smiled at him and let herself in, as he yawned expansively.
"Well I have a surprise for you, were going to a party" she exclaimed.
"What? How long have you been arranging this one?" he asked.
"For a while now and you will definitely like it, planned for Wednesday at 8 o'clock" she said with a flourish.
He squinted at her and said, "Wednesday, but it's only Tuesday I got home an hour ago from shopping, where are you?"
"What no it's Wednesday are you sure you didn't take too many sleeping pills, or something?" she said looking confused at him.
"I must have slept for ages then wow cool," he said smiling to himself.
"Well come on you have to get dressed and ready for 8, move move move!!!" Lucy said shooing him into his bedroom.
"I'm gonna make some coffee want any?" she shouted to him through his door.
"No thanks I'd like some tea though" he shouted back as he cleaned himself up and headed to the shower.
"You and you're bloody English tea" she shouted back then went to make some.
Gavin took a long shower then got dressed in some tatty jeans and a slightly less unkempt t-shirt, pulled his beanie on, and stepped out of his bedroom, Lucy was sitting on his sofa looking through his movies.
"Took you long enough" she said then sighed, "I don't suppose there is much point in me asking you to get dressed nicely is there oh well you will do and I like the beanie anyway, tea?" she finished holding out a mug.
He took it and lit up a fag, "So where is this party, whose going?" he asked.
"It's a surprise, I can't tell you anything, I have been planning it for too long, so just wait and you will see," she said smugly.
He grunted at her and they watched some TV for a bit then a car horn honked outside, " Oh there is our ride, come on" she stood up grabbed his arm and pulled him outside.
"Oh hey OZ, Jenny, you guys okay?" Gavin said as Lucy tugged him towards them where they stood.
"Yeah were cool, come here" Oz said and turned Gavin around and wrapped a bandanna over his eyes.
"Hey this is stupid, how old are we?" Gavin said sarcastically.
"Three!" they all shouted, and then bundled him into the car, "Okay Jeff if you please." He heard Jenny say. And he felt the car pull away from the curb and drive down the street. They drove for what seemed about 45 minutes then the car stopped and they bundled him out, he assumed they must be at some club in town or something.
He heard someone knock on a door, which was odd for a club, he heard the door open and someone say "Oh you're here well done bring him inside".
He was pulled inside and it was deathly silent. Then someone held the back of the bandanna and whipped it off and a thunderous "surprise" was bellowed at him, he blinked laughed nervously around, a smile widening on his face.
"Well don't just stand their moron say something" Lucy said at his side.
He gawped at her then glanced at everyone in the room, all their crew was there plus NSYNC's crew friends and assorted other people. "Umm ahh" he said everyone laughed and he blushed, "err umm thank you?" he didn't know what to say.
"Oh for god sake Gavin, I think what he means is thank you for the surprise" Lucy said to everyone who cheered again, then everyone came at him in a rush, Lance shook his hand and then Chris, JC, Joey Kacy all his crew and NSYNC's then a pretty blond lady, "Hi Gavin I'm Lynn Justin's mom it's nice finally meeting you after
everything Justin told me about you"
He smiled nervously, "Hi nice to meet you" he said, and then he caught up to himself, "Justin's here? where?" he said glancing about excitedly Lynn laughed and pointed up the stairs, "He has a surprise for you? Go on" she said patting his bum and he headed towards the stairs. He got to the top and glanced back Lucy and Lynn were smiling at him and everyone else waved a thumb-up at him and proceeded to open some alcohol. He went down the hallway, and saw an open door and headed towards it, he walked into a light blue room, there was a large parcel on the floor in the middle of the room at the end of a blue bed.
He walked over to it, thought he heard something from inside it, and smiled to himself nervously, he undid the ribbon, and ripped the decoration paper off and lifted the lid of the cardboard box, and yelped in surprise as something jumped out at him and landed on his chest as he fell over it started vigorously licking his face, he got his breath back and found himself holding a young puppy Labrador, a black one, he laughed and scratched the puppy's ears which made it swoon and frumple onto his stomach where it proceeded to turn over and over as he tickled it's stomach.
"Like it?" a voice said from behind him. He twisted his head round, and saw Justin leaning against the doorframe grinning from ear to ear.
Gavin grinned back at him, "It's soo cool I've always wanted a dog, thank you!!" he said, and stood up holding the puppy in his arms, walked over to Justin and gave him a hug, the puppy growled as it was slightly crushed between them, Justin laughed and stroked it's head.
"What are you gonna call it?" he asked smiling.
"Umm Sweep I think" Gavin said bouncing the puppy in his arms.
"That's a good name, glad to see me?" Justin asked in a peculiar voice.
Gavin took his attention away from the puppy, which was now licking his chin and looked at Justin who was smiling but had a strange look in his eyes.
"Of course I am, you addlebrained numbskull, come here" and he pulled Justin into another longer hug.
They broke apart eventually, Gavin relishing the smell particular to Justin.
"Come on, we'll miss all the alcohol" Justin said smiling the strange look still in his eyes.
They headed back downstairs and Lucy squeeled very unusually for her bounded over and grabbed the puppy and proceeded to, what seemed like practically mate with the thing as she cooed over it. Lynn stepped over and said, "Justin how come I never get such good presents?" her eyebrows raised enquiringly.
Justin blushed, "I'll get you something good at Christmas yeah" she laughed and gave him a hug then hugged Gavin and handed him a bottle of bubbly, "Make sure he doesn't get too drunk" she whispered to Gavin glancing at Justin who stood smiling fondly at both of them. Gavin nodded, and then they spent the next few hours introducing Sweep to everyone, and chatting to everyone, he was introduced to NSYNC's friends who had come aswell, and then he spent the next few hours drinking and playing various games which people came up with, he was never more than two foot away from Justin at all times, and Sweep would either follow him or Justin around adorably snatching titbits from everyone.
It was about 1 in the morning when Gavin headed to the back garden which was extensive more like grounds, rather than a garden, he seated himself on a bench and Sweep padded out after him and jumped into his lap, followed by Justin.
Gavin lit a cigarette, and Justin sat next to him and stroked Sweep's head, a voice in Gavin's head said loudly 'look his hand is directly over your crotch whoo' but he ignored it and smiled at Justin, and then stared at the scenery.
"What are you thinking about?" Justin asked quietly.
Gavin glance at him and then back to the garden. "Everything I have accomplished so far, I've come from a shitty childhood, a poverty stricken early adulthood, to releasing an album becoming huge and famous and not to say wealthy and I have a few of the things I have always wanted", he said looking at Sweep, "I'm just wondering what I'm gonna do next."
Justin listened to that and said, "You have lots left to do, like meet a perfect stranger and fall in love" his voice held something indefinable but similar to regret in it, "and you have lots more music in you I can tell that, have I missed anything?"
Gavin smiled and said, "a perfect stranger huh? Nah that's not really me, I do have a lot more music to put out, weirdly enough I found I have more to right about now than ever, maybe because the more you achieve the more you see what is wrong or should be changed around you, and plus I want to move house"
"Hmm interesting, you're gonna move? where?" Justin asked anxiously.
"Oh I'm staying in Orlando it's my home after all, I just want somewhere larger, and more secluded, that would be nice, although I kinda get the feeling it would be a mistake because I'd be pretty lonely in a huge house on my own" Gavin surmised suddenly.
"Well, I could make a suggestion here, I have been planning to move for awhile now this house is nice and all but the record company got it for me and I have never felt completely comfortable in it. So... we could search for a house and become housemates if you want?" Justin confessed nervously, fearing rejection.
"Really oh wow that would be so cool, are you sure I can be a pain to live with I'm sure" Gavin said his eyes alight with excitement.
Justin grinned, "I am too, so we'd be fine together, hehe we can arrange it all soon yeah? I have a month off before we are scheduled to do anything, what about you?" he asked.
"Same a month maybe more I don't know, so cool yeah we will talk about it tomorrow" he said scratching sweeps neck.
"Talk about what?" Lucy said interrupting the moment, as she came out the patio doors.
At exactly the same time Justin and Gavin both said, "Were gonna move into a new house together and be housemates." They looked at each other and started laughing. Lucy smiled at them and said, "Know where you're gonna move yet?"
They shook their heads and Justin said, "We gonna do some house hunting over the holiday".
"Cool, hey guys time to come back inside and sort a lot of drunk people out and away home, I think"
They grinned and headed inside, people were still drinking and talking, some where getting ready to leave mainly the people who lived a way away, Justin said goodbye to them with Gavin and Sweep barked at them, the rest of the partier's stayed until about 3 then headed home, Gavin and Justin eventually said goodbye to everyone, after Lucy, Oz and Lance Chris Joey and JC, had had a chance to pet Sweep again then they headed out home.
So it was Lynn, Gavin and Justin left with a house like a nuclear bomb had been played tennis with inside.
"Come on let's go to bed, and get some sleep we can sort this out in the morning." Lynn advised them, so they headed upstairs, just before Lynn disappeared into the room set aside for her Justin said, "Oh mom I forgot to tell you me and Gavin are gonna find a house and be housemates together cool huh" she grinned at them, "I hope you don't mind numerous bedsheets with odd stains on them Gavin".
"MUM!!" Justin yelled blushing like crazy while Lynn and Gavin cracked up.
"Night" she said after catching her breath and closed her door.
Justin turned and headed down the hallway, "Are you sure it's okay if I sleep over tonight? I mean my house is only down the road," Gavin asked hoping he could stay.
Justin turned and looked at him, "Of course it is you moron come on" and he turned back and headed down the hallway, Gavin followed him with sweep butting his legs as he walked. Justin disappeared into a bedroom and Gavin followed, "I'm just gonna use the toilet, there are some pyjamas in the wardrobe" Justin said and went into the toilet.
Gavin opened the wardrobe and found a whole host of weird outfits obviously stuff Justin had kept from the tour, and eventually with much rummaging found some pyjamas. He stripped off and pulled them on, then hopped onto the bed and made himself comfortable, sweep jumped up and lay on his legs, Justin came out of the bathroom, and said "It's all yours, I have another surprise for you when you're done" he said enigmatically. Gavin smiled bemused and headed into the bathroom while Sweep attacked Justin. He brushed his teeth with a spare brush and washed his face, then came out and found Justin fiddling with something in his hands, "Justin what are you doing?".
Justin looked up and smiled and produced a spliff he had been rolling, Gavin burst out laughing, "I thought you were wanking" he managed to say sending Justin off into laughter aswell. Once they had calmed down Justin lit the spliff took and drag and handed it to Gavin who puffed on it, while Justin rummaged underneath the bed with his hand, and produced a bottle of absynth.
"Whoah cool, you're bad MR.Timberlake, does your mum know about this?" Gavin asked.
"Nope she would kill me if she found out, especially as weed and absinthe are both illegal in this state. Hehe" Justin said chuckling and pouring the absinthe into small shot glasses he had produced aswell.
He handed Gavin a shot and took the spliff and said, "IN three ready?" Gavin nodded, "Okay 1...2...3 go" and they downed the shots, Justin coughed and crinkled his face while Gavin sat calmly waiting for the next shot.
Justin glared at him and said, "What's wrong with you, how can you take it so well?"
Gavin smiled then started coughing all over the place, "Got you". Justin grinned. They had a few more shots and finished the spliff and talked for a few more hours, Justin hid the Absynthe and then they feel asleep heavily, with sweep on their legs.
Well that is part 13 and 14 done I hope you like them until next time cya, silverjunky.