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Previously
Michael found the passage and began reading.
"Today is a milestone for me.An anniversary if you will. Its been six years to the day that my heart was ripped out.That my soul was destroyed. That he hurt me. Him,the love of my life. The one I thought of as the love of my life,my Paul."
Justin tensed a bit, not liking what Michael was reading,Michael turning and rubbing against Justin.Justin kept quiet,but still didn't like it.
"For six years I have been lost, my soul floating in an abyss.How had I managed to go on for so long. I remember thinking that I would never be able to live again, that everything my world centered upon was gone. An illusion. But time heals all wounds,they say.That love conquers all. I have always thought that those were cliches, false words,giving false hope. Maybe they are. But I have been having these dreams lately,what I feel are visions.A voice telling me to hold on to hope. I am standing here today,breathing and alive still because I have to wait for someone. I have to wait for him. That special person, that one with the beautiful voice. My angel, the one who will save me.
Justin looked up at Michael,unable to find words. All he could think about was his own dream. Michael leaned over and kissed Justin on the lips. "Its you Justin,I believe your the one I have been waiting for,the one who will save me.And the one I need to love."
Chapter 17
Justin sat looking at Michael, not believing what Michael had just read to him. Michael had been having dreams also. Justin felt that this was a sign that the two of them were destined to fall in love. That god was bringing them together to be one. Justin kissed Michael on the forehead. "Michael, those words were beautiful,they had so much meaning and I believe your right. I am that special someone,the one you need." Michael looked at Justin in a new way.He felt that feeling inside him again. Michael felt that he was right, Justin was the one he was suppose to wait for.The one to save him.But Michael didn't know what he was suppose to save him from. "I had a dream also, Michael." Michael looked at Justin, shock registering on his face. "In my dream,I met an angel.He said he was one of your guardian angels.Your so special Mikey,you need more than one." Michael shyly keep looking at him. "He said I needed to save you,Michael.That I was the only one who could have a chance." Justin hugged Michael to him, putting Michael's head back on top of his heart. "And I will move heaven and earth,and sacrifice my own life,to save you." The tears were flowing from both of their eyes. Michael raised his head,kissing Justin deeply,shifting his weight till he was back on top of Justin, not breaking the kiss. Their arms wrapped around each other,Justin's hands sliding under Michael's shirt,feeling his soft skin as he massaged his back. Michael's hands were feeling the softness of Justin's hairy arms,the bulging biceps. Michael could feel himself getting excited down below,it was pressed against Justin's leg. Justin could feel it also, the feeling so nice against him.Justin's own desires were coming to life. Both of them felt the connection,the passion between them. But Michael pulled back,hesitantly, not because he was scared, but because he felt himself losing all his inhabitions.If they continued Michael felt he would give in completely to Justin. He wasn't ready for that,yet. He wanted Justin.The man overwhelmed him. But he wanted it to mean more to Justin,because it was his first time. Michael wanted it to be special,not a nightmare like his had been. Justin stared up at him,his eyebrow raising again. "So who did you say was the horn dog?" Justin started laughing. Michael joined his laughter, after blushing deeply. They snuggled for a few minutes, calming down a bit, their excitement receding. "How about I make my man some lunch." Justin smiled, he loved when Michael called him that.And Justin had gotten completely used to calling Michael babe. "Sounds great,babe.I will go freshen up,I need to use the bathroom anyway." Justin got up, following Michael out of the bedroom. Michael turned around as Justin stepped into the bathroom. "Hey, when your jerking off in there,keep the moaning to a minimum." Justin's mouth dropped open. "Don't think I didn't feel that monster of yours rubbing against my leg ." Michael winked at Justin,blowing him a kiss and turning around heading into the kitchen. Michael didn't see the roll of toilet paper until it hit him on the back of the head. He turned back,Justin standing there,sticking his tongue out at him. "I felt an even bigger monster against me,a hot one at that." Justin winked at Michael. Michael smirked. "Then you have something to think about while you jerk off,don't ya sexy." Justin stuttered, Michael was so good at one-upping him. Michael laughed, turning back around. Justin went into the bathroom,shutting the door. Twenty minutes later Justin walked into the kitchen,Michael working at the stove,stirring something,not hearing him enter. He walked up behind him,kissing him on the back of the neck.Michael immediately tensed up,dropping the spoon immediately. Justin felt Michael's apprehension and fear. Justin backed up. "Oh god,Mikey,I shouldn't of snuck up on you like that.Please forgive me." Justin was starting to look like he would break down."I can be so stupid sometimes." Michael turned ,the shock leaving his face.He hugged Justin to him. "Its ok,sweetie, I was just surprised, I wasn't expecting you so quickly.I guess my nerves are a bit on edge, thinking about my appointment." Justin kissed Michael,feeling relief flood his soul. "And for your information,sweetie,you are in no way stupid, and you never will be.Your so talented and sexy,you have accomplished so much,I am in awe of you.To me you never will be stupid.Understand me?" Justin smiled a large smile. Michael knew how to make him smile and feel good about himself. "So what did my sexy cook make for me." "How does grilled sirloin steak kabobs with ceasar salad sound." "Sounds like a dream,yummy." "Dream on, lover boy.Your having wieners and beans." Justin started laughing,Michael's twisted humor at work again.Man, he can make me laugh, he thought. "Sit down,my man." Justin jumped into a chair.The table was already set.Michael put a bowl of warm rolls on the table. Justin dived in, ripping one apart,applying butter to it.He took a mouthful and stopped. His mouth was in heaven.He had never tasted such a sweet,moist,fluffy roll. "These are fantastic,Michael.Where did you pick these up.Are they from Vito's?" Michael's smile dropped a little bit, but then he recovered smiling timidly. He turned his head a little not really looking at Justin. Justin heard him almost whisper."I made them." Justin got up looking at Michael, sensing that he seemed upset about something.Justin quickly realized what. He thought Justin didn't believe him. "Wow,I am so impressed,Mike.My man is so talented.You are simply amazing.I have fallen in love with a really gifted man." Michael turned seeing that Justin meant it. Michael smiled wider. "Their my own recipe, my own creation.I don't make them for just anyone." Justin beamed, feeling Michael's words enter his soul. "Thanks Mike, you make me feel so special." Justin kissed him lightly,and sat down again. "So can I have my wieners and beans,and I want more of these delicious rolls." Michael picked up the two plates off the counter and set them down on the table,turning and grabbing another bowl. Justin smiled and looked down at his plate. In front of him was a full plate of grilled steak kabobs and a large bowl of ceasar salad. Justin looked up at Michael's smiling face.There was a twinkle in his eyes. "I will always try to make your dreams come true,Jus." Michael said pulling a roll apart,buttering it and putting it beside Justin's plate. Justin looked up at Michael,a tear in his own eye,feeling so much love for him at that moment,his words filling his heart. He grabbed Michael's hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. They dove into their lunch,chatting lightly,talking about different things. Justin couldn't believe that Michael had cooked this delicious meal so quickly. After lunch,Justin helped Michael wash the dishes,the two of them splashing water at each other,touching each other,just being together. When everything was put away, they walked into the living room, sitting down on the sofa, sitting close to each other. Michael started stroking Justin's arms, feeling their softness and their power underneath. "So you like my guns,do ya." Justin smiled. I love your arms.They are sexy.The light covering of hair makes them feel so sexy,so manly." "I usually shave them, I don't like too much hair." "Oh,I see.Sounds weird to me." Justin looked at Michael. "But I think just for you,I will keep them hairy." Michael smiled,laying his head on Justin's shoulder. "So when is Vicky coming home?" "She said probably thursday, late afternoon." "Hmmm.So we are alone for three days.Wonderful." "Yeah,we can walk around farting and belching all we want." On cue Justin let out a big belch. He put his hand over his mouth. Michael laughed at Justin small attempt to cover up. "I have only one thing to say to you,Timberlake." Justin felt embarrassed,waiting for Michael's admonishment. Michael belched even more loudly. Justin was in awe.And the laughter followed. "Hey,we can also walk around naked."Justin added with a wink in his gorgeous eyes. Michael blushed,thinking about seeing Justin naked. Justin blushed, picturing Michael's naked body in front of him. They both looked at each other at the same moment. "Wouldn't that be nice." They both said at the same time. The both started laughing,trying to get out of the awkwardness between them. Michael looked at the clock.It was 12:30. "Well we have 45 minutes.what would you like to do,Mikey." Michael,looked over at the piano. "Would you play something for me,Jus." He said,kissing him lightly on the ear. Justin smiled,kissing him on the cheek and getting up.Michael notice the tent in Justin's pants.Justin sat down at the piano.He thought for a moment.Then his fingers found the keys. Beautiful music flooded the small room.Michael recognized the song immediately.A tear falling down his cheek. He knew this song so very well. It was The Glory of Love. Justin knew how much this song meant to Michael, Jusin could see it in his moist eyes,they were glued to him. The song his mother always sang to him,the last song she sang to him. Justin knew that he wouldn't sing the song, that would be too emotional for Michael,but he could show him he cared enough to just play it. Michael got up off the sofa and sat down on the bench beside Justin,putting his arm around his shoulder, letting him continue to play. Justin played the whole song,right to the end. "Thank you ,Justin.That was so beautiful.Your so talented." Justin smiled,stroking Michael's cheek. He leaned in kissing Michael.Their desires flowing through them.It turned into a passionate moment. Michael broke the kiss,getting up. Justin watched him walk across the room,stopping at the corner leading down the hallway.Justin could see the visible outcome of what they had been doing,it was evident in the front of Michael's pants. "I need to get changed and ready,Justin.I will be right back." Justin watched him leave.Justin adjusted his own pants, trying to get his hardness to subside.Michael had much the same effect on him. Justin just sat there imagining what it would be like to be with Michael in that way.He knew he loved the feel of Michael's naked skin against him,but he wondered what it would be like to touch him, to taste him,in every way. Justin shook his head,this wasn't helping, he was harder than before. He heard Michael starting the shower.so Justin got up and lay down on the couch.He closed his eyes,listening to the sound of the shower running. Tigger came in through the open window,walking along the couch top and jumping down on top of Justin's chest.Justin scratched him behind the ears,Tigger laying down on top of him,purring contently.This sound along with the sound of running water lulled Justin asleep. Twenty five minutes later Michael walked down the hall to be greeted by a beautiful site. His man was curled up on the couch,his cat sleeping on top of his chest. Michael beamed,they both looked so contented. Michael sat down on the coffee table in front of Justin.He just sat there looking at him.He looked at his lean,smooth face,his slim nose,and thick eyelashes.His ears were perfectly sized,rounded and smooth.Everything about this man was breath taking. Michael followed his gaze down Justin's slim muscled form,his stomach was exposed a little, his shirt had ridden up.Michael saw the light trail of hair going beneath Justin's belt. Michael let himself imagine what that hair felt like and what it led to.Michael could feel himself getting excited again.He had hoped Justin hadn't seen the bulge in his pants when he went to shower. The man had that effect on him. Michael wanted that with him.That closeness.He prayed he had the courage to overcome his fears,to make that leap of faith. He looked up at the clock,1:10.Lonnie would be here in a few minutes. Michael bent forward,lightly shaking Justin's shoulder and picking up Tigger at the same time. Justin stirred opening his eyes to Michael's smiling face. Wow, this is how he always wanted to wake up. Michael kissed him on the nose. "Rise and shine,lover boy.Time to go." "Time to go,is it?" Michael's smile falter a little,Justin seeing it.He leaned forward kissing Michael lightly. "You ready for this,Michael?" Michael nodded, but his actions spoke louder.Justin sensed his nervousness, his being unsure. "If you want,I can be there with you,if that comforts you." Michael knew Justin would automatically volunteer to be with him.But he had to do this himself.This was his problem,his fears.He needed to do it himself. "Thanks,Justin,for being here for me.But I have to do this myself." Justin nodded, proud of Michael for taking the first step. They got up as a light knock came at the door. Michael opened it to a smiling Lonnie. "Ready to kick the shit out of life,Mikey!" Lonnie said with a big grin on his face. Michael really liked this guy. "Ready and willing."Michael smiled,Justin looking at him with pride.
The ride downtown was quiet, both men sensing Michael's nervousness.Lonnie thought he might even bolt.He was going to keep his eye on him. Justin sat in the back seat with him,just sitting beside him,holding his hand.Michael felt Justin's connection,it grounded him.Without it he felt he would of just turned back home. Within twenty minutes they were at the building.They walked quietly in,Justin trying to look relaxed,his disguise really bugging Michael. He felt he had to say something. When the got on the elevator, there were just the three of them. "Justin,I don't mean to be nasty,but that disguise sucks big time." Justin looked over at him,from beneath his dark glasses,a look of shock on his face. "Your not fooling anyone,Jus,in fact those glasses draw attention,not the other way around. "Really,Mikey?" "Yes,Justin,if I saw you ,I would immediately assume you were someone with something to hide." Justin looked at Lonnie,Lonnie trying to be serious,but the corners of his mouth belayed the hidden laugh. "Why didn't you tell me." Lonnie started smirking."Hey everyone got a kick out of it.We all liked watching you play secret agent.We didn't have the heart to tell you the truth.You must of clued in on it in Detroit when those kids followed you around.You were wearing them then,and it didn't stop them from guessing or knowing who you were." Justin blushed,feeling a little foolish,he hadn't realized it didn't work. Michael sensed Justin's feelings, reaching over and stroking his cheek. "Its ok,Jus.You didn't pick up on it,and your apparent friends should of told you." Michael looking over staring at Lonnie. Lonnie shifted from that gaze, he felt a bit of shame.Michael was right.He should of told Justin. "Sorry,Justin.I should of taken into consideration your feelings.Am I forgiven?" Justin hugged Lon, and smiled at Michael. Not many people would reprimand Lonnie like that, and make Justin feel better at the same time. He truly loved this man. They stepped out of the elevator and walked down the hall into a private office.Justin and Lonnie staying behind Michael as he went in. Michael walked up to the receptionist telling her his name. "Please take a seat Mr.Tavarro.Doctor Clark will be out in a moment."The young lady got up smiling at them all and walked into another room. Michael sat down in a chair,putting his hands together not saying much.Justin and Lonnie looked at each other as they too sat down. "Thanks,Michael." Lonnie said. "For what,Lon?" "For standing up for Justin,and making me realize my mistake with him.Thanks for sticking up for him." "I have to, he's my man." Justin beamed, smiling a secret smile for Michael. "Besides, who else would stick up for such a skinny white boy." Lonnie laughed,smacking Michael on the chin lightly. "Got that right,amigo." Justin just shook his head,staring at Michael. Michael sat quietly,looking at the door the lady had dissappeared through,his thoughts threatening to overwhelm him. Why am I here, why do I have to talk to her? She will think me strange,like they all do. When she hears what type of person I am.what I have experienced. God, I wish I could get out of here,I don't want to be here. Michael looked over at Justin,seeing that he was watching him with concern,a small smile on his face.He winked at him. Michael couldn't help smiling back,Justin was there for him. He was here because he wanted to be, not like Michael. Michael started rubbing the scar on his right hand.Both men took this as a sign that Michael was on edge. Lonnie was watching Michael,sensing his unrest. Michael put his head down again, then sighed. Then he stood up all of a sudden,glancing briefly at Justin. "I'm sorry Justin, I can't do this,even though you want me to.I have to get out of here." A look of panic was visible on Michael's face. Justin was beside him in a flash,his face serious. "No, Mikey.You have to do this, but not for me,do this for yourself,please. I want you to talk with Anna, she can help you so much.You need her help,babe." Michael stopped a bit,seeing Justin's love shining in his eyes. "Alright,Justin.I will talk to her." Justin smiled back at him,guiding him back to his chair. Lonnie smiled at both of them, he had been right.Michael had wanted to bolt, but Justin was there for him. Justin had talked him into staying.Lonnie was impressed with how much Justin had matured in the last few days, he couldn't remember his being this devoted to someone,not even Cameron. Michael sat quietly again, every now and then looking at Justin. After a few minutes the door opened and a young woman walked out smiling at them all. She walked up to Justin as he got out of his chair,putting her arms around him. "Justin, your a sight for tired eyes.How have you been,as if I have to ask.Mr. Pop Star!" She smiled at him, then turned her gaze on Michael. "And you must be Michael Tavarro.I am Dr. Clark,but please call me Anna." She shook his hand in a friendly manner. She seemed to radiate positive energy,Michael actually relaxed a little. "A pleasure to meet you,Dr. Clark, I mean Anna." Michael nodded his head,trying to smile. Justin introduced her to Lonnie,they shook hands. "Well Michael, Justin tells me you have had a difficult time, some major upheavals with your life and you feel you need to sort through your feelings.What can I do to make you feel better?" Michael liked her immediately,she wasn't talking down to him with fancy words,or lecturing him, he felt he could actually talk to her, maybe even open up about things. "Well, I guess you could say its been difficult, but I have survived it,I just don't believe I survived it whole."Michael lowered his eyes from hers. Justin almost put his arm around Michael,using all his reserves to keep from doing it. He waited impatiently by,watching Michael react with Anna. Justin sensed that Michael was measuring Anna, seeing if he could trust her. Justin believed he could but he knew it was Michael that had to believe it. "Would you like to come into my office Michael,and we can get to know each other better? Alone,just you and me. And trust me, everything you tell me will be completely private." Anna smiling at him. Michael looked at Justin,Justin smiling at him,urging him on. Michael nodded his head, and turned ,walking into the office. "I will be right in,Michael.Please make yourself comfortable." Michael walked into the room sitting down on a large plush chair.It was a modest room,not overly decorated,but the decor was soothing and refreshing. Michael waited patiently,no real thoughts entering his mind. Outside in the waiting room Anna was finishing her conversation with Justin. "Well,I am glad your doing good,Justin.I always knew you'd make it with that beautiful voice." Justin smiled,he had always liked Anna,she was a down to earth girl. "Well you guys might as well go do something,I have booked three hours for Michael.Come back around 5,okay."Anna smiling at them. "All right,Anna.Please try and help him,he's a really good,close friend of mine." Justin said,hugging her again. ""I will do all that I can." She started walking back to her office.She sensed Justin didn't want to leave, as if he wanted to be here for Michael. Hmm,she thought,I think there's more here than meets the eye. Eventually Justin walked out of the office behind Lonnie. When she entered her office she saw Michael sitting quietly,not really doing anything.He seemed calm and relaxed. "So, Mikey,looks like we will be spending some time together, why don't you tell me about yourself." Michael smiled back at her, trying to figure out where she wanted him to start first. "Do you want the long drawn out version, or just a quick summation?" She sensed Michael was putting up defenses,maybe not voluntarily but just as a natural reflex. "Whatever you would like to get off your chest,I am a good listener." "Okay then, here is the quick version.I was beaten and abused by my father, my mother killed herself to get away from me. When I got enough courage to let myself fall in love with someone,to trust someone,that person raped me.He used me and threw me away.I have walked around with no love inside me, no feelings,and its killing me inside." He looked at her,his directness astounding her,she saw the look of tortured despair evident in his eyes. Anna watched him, feeling for his pain,and knowing she had to get him to open up if she could help him help himself. She pulled her chair up beside him,resting her hand on his right hand,seeing the scar there. "Its okay to have despair,Michael,to have remorse.We all have anger inside,and hurt.But we also have love and hope." She looked at him with genuine interest and friendship,Michael immediately relaxed,seeing her for what she was,and what she wanted to be . A friend. "Talk to me,Michael.Tell me about everything, and more importantly tell me why you need to come to grip with these feelings now ."
Justin sat in the small indoor park across the street from Anna's building not really doing anything. Lonnie sat beside him talking quietly,Justin wasn't really paying attention. Justin's thoughts were on Michael. Lonnie shook his shoulder lightly. "Your cell's going off,Just." Justin grabbed his cell phone out of his pocket,flipping it open. "Hello?" "Justin,where are you? I thought you were coming home for a few days?" Justin smiled, happy to hear his mom's voice. "I'm doing great,mom.How are you?" "Don't change the subject,son.Where are you?" "I told you I was going to Chicago for a few days to spend time with Steve and Vicky." "Yes you did, but I assumed you would be back home shortly.You know its been over six weeks since I have seen you." Justin felt his guilt starting to rise,she always knew how to make him feel guilty,a mother's way. "I will probably be up here till friday, then I have a couple of interviews,but I promise to be home by monday at the latest for a couple of days before I have to head back to New York." "Whats going on,Justin? Cameron called me this morning and told me everything." Lynn Harliss always was direct with her son. Justin tensed a bit,realizing he hadn't broken the news to his mother yet. "I am sorry,mom.I wanted to tell you myself." "I know,Justin.I'm sorry it didn't work out for both of you.You know I love you right? I am here for you,baby.I will always be here for you." "I know mom, I know. But its between Cameron and me.We just drifted apart for different reasons.I will talk to you about it when I get home." Justin realized then that he had much more to talk to her about.He had to tell her everything.He just hoped she would still love him.He needed her so much in his life.She had always been there for him,he knew she loved him unconditionally,he just hoped that was true in every aspect of his life. "Okay,son.I will see you at the first of the week then.You take care of yourself and say hi to Steve and Vicky for me." "I will mom.Love ya." Justin shut down his phone. Lonnie sat watching Justin,knowing who had been talking to.Justin looked up at him. "I have to tell her don't I,Lon? I can't keep this from her.I want her to know Michael,to love him like I do." Lonnie put his arm around Justin."Yeah,Just.You can't keep this from your family,I know how much they mean to you,and how much you mean to them." Justin smiled at Lonnie.But inside he felt unsure of what their reactions would be.
Michael felt the boundaries opening up,the words starting to form,and his voice starting to speak. For two hours he talked to her, telling her all his secrets, his life from start to present,leaving nothing out about his parents,about Paul,tears flowing every so often.She sat by him,even holding him at times.Listening to everything he needed to unburden. Michael felt it was getting easier to talk about it, to open up to other people about it. He didn't tell her about his relationship with Justin,he didn't want to out Justin,even if she was a friend of his.He felt he should have Justin's permission to do that. But he felt he could tell her he was doing this now because he wanted to find his love again. To find his love for someone special. She smiled when he told her that. She listened to him,writing notes every now and then,asking him questions,how he felt at that moment in time,what he felt now. Michael felt comfortable quickly,saying things he hadn't even said to Justin. He felt he could trust her, could count on her for advise. Before he knew it their three hours together were almost over. Michael felt drained, but a good feeling nonetheless.Like he was free at last, free of his secrets. Of all of them but one. The secret of his gifts.His special gifts. And what the vision had said to him when he had discovered them. Anna felt she had reached Michael,that she could draw all his insecurites out of him,make him face them. But to do that she had to know everything.She felt he was holding something back.Something sacred to him. But she wouldn't pressure him,she would draw it out. Looking at her clock,she realized that it was almost five. "Well,Michael,unfortunately our time is almost up.I hope this has been a good visit for you." "Yes, thank you for listening.Justin was right, you have helped me." He hugged her again, feeling at ease with her. She hugged back,patting his back. She believed in this close personal touch with her patients.They had to trust her to open up to her. She walked Michael back out to the waiting room,Justin and Lonnie having returned. Justin was on his feet immediately,looking at Michael with great concern,and love. Anna picked up on his facial expressions immediately. Why do I feel that Justin is more concerned about Michael,than just as a good friend. She kept her thoughts to herself. All in good time,all in good time. "Its been a good day,right Michael?" Anna smiled at him. Michael smiled back, but shyly. "Yes, thank you for listening to me." "I will see you again on wednesday,right?" She looked at him. "Yes Anna.Wednesday will be fine." She hugged him then,not afraid of showing her closeness to him.He hugged her back. Justin and Lonnie smiled and watched quietly. She bid goodbye to them all. Michael headed out of the office, the other two in tow.
End of Chapter 17
Well, another chapter done. Did I peak your interest with the slip about Michael's special gifts? Stay tuned,more surprises coming up. Keep the comments coming.I am always open to suggestions. Hope you liked the comments about Justin's arms, MK?
Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and best wishes for a safe and Happy New Year.
Keep the faith,Angel.