Even though I have written about more current events in my sexual life, often times I get asked about my growing up years...and my earlier sexuality. So, here goes...
As a budding pre-teen, with hormones raging...I so badly wanted to explore my sexuality. My parents at this point had not spent much time instructing me on sex, so I unintentionally set off on a trail of discovery.
It all started with many hours spent on self discovery. I would enjoy my time in the bath, gently exploring every part of my body. We had a heat lamp in the ceiling of the bathroom, so I really enjoyed drying off underneath the lamp. I would turn off the mail light in the room, light a candle and stand under the heat lamp, slowly rubbing and caressing my body, while watching myself in the mirror. It was here in this setting that I experienced my first orgasm.
On this particular day, I had been enjoying my body more than usual...and watching in the mirror to see how large I could make my nipples. I wondered if any of my girl friends did this too. (could I ever ask them?) Maybe my friend Nicky did this. I tried to picture her standing beside me playing with her nipples. I gently rubbed, tweaked and circled them, one at a time. It was thrilling just to watch them swelling in the mirror, and the heat lamp felt wonderful. It was making me feel somewhat weak, so I lay down on the thick rug, right under the lamp.
I positioned my pussy right under the heat, and started to carress my thighs, tummy and finally, my smooth vulva. It felt like my nipples were reaching up, trying to get closer to the heat source...and my pussy was aching to feel the heat. I raised my ass off the rug as I strained to bring it closer to the heat. I remember the moment I started to run my fingers over my labia, playing with the lips as the swelled to my touch. I knew I needed something inside me, but all I could think of was my fingers.
I started to flick my vagina with my fingertips, then had to plunge in...With three fingers exploring inside, I used my other hand to lightly play with my clitoris. But, it wasn't enough. Soon I was attacking myself, rapidly moving my fingers in and out while my other hand was furiously rubbing and circling my clit. My ass was moving up and down in time...it was like every part of my entire body was working as one...driving me to some place I had never been before...
I was not only feeling the heat of the lamp, but the heat inside was rapidly increasing. My movements kept increasing in speed as I pumped in and out, up and down. I knew I was moaning, but it didn't matter. I was beyond control...I just had to keep going.
I have no idea how long I was there for, but the intensity grew and grew. It was such an unbelievable experience for me at the time. I wanted it to last for ever. It scared me a little when my legs started to shake, but I had little time to think about it, because it felt like my whole body was contracting. And then I exploded...I remember crying out as the waves of passion flowed throughout my entire body. My eyes went out of focus (that still happens to me) and the room was swirling around and around. The intensity of my pleasure was almost painful, but it was wonderful!
When it settled down, I had to relax on the floor and try and figure out what actually had happened. I didn't even know that what I had experienced was an orgasm, all I knew was that I wanted to have it again...and again...
So, in a way, this started my expedition of self discovery and sexual awakening... From there, it took me into my mom's closet, and shortly after, into the living room. As I got bolder, I wanted to share my experiences with the world, and I began to risk being seen by being naked in front of the windows. For those stories, keep watching!
Thanks for reading my stories and letting me share a little about my life with you. Kari