Kathy regretted letting Jess leave like that after what happened between them, she didn't know what was wrong with her and by the time she went looking for her it had been too late, she was on a plane to her school and Kathy would have to wait four months to see her again. To explain her stupid actions.
Jess was feeling a bit better she had been in the school for a week and a half already and she had stopped crying, she had met a new girl her name was Emily and she was really nice and warm.
As much as she tried Kathy was still constantly on her mind, she couldn't forget the kisses that they had shared, the intimacy, how awesome it had felt to make love to the person you love, and how awful it had been to get her heart broken afterwards.
Kathy couldn't wait four months, she needed to make arrangements, she had to go look for Jess, she needed to fix things up, she was aching to see her again and hold her and apologize, there was so much left unsaid, so many feelings to come to the surface. A phone call simply wouldn't do it.
Over the next few days Jess told Emily everything there was to know about herself including Kathy. Emily was also a lesbian, she had been in foster care for the last 10 years and now that she had turned 21 she had to do it on her own.
Kathy knocked on Mr. Well's studio door and waited for a reply.
"Come in" He said as usual.
"Good morning sir." Kathy sat down and looked at him straight in the face.
"Yes Kathy, is there any problem." He was a bit upset about what had happened between them but it was really none of his business so he didn't comment.
"This is a personal matter. I want to apologize to you for my actions concerning Jess, I'm sorry and I'd like to ask for permission to go visit her and see if I could fix things up."
"Did you phone her first. She is really hurt and she might not like to see you."
"Its been quite a few days sir and I'll make sure she agrees on seeing me."
She sounded very sure of herself and he granted her three days off duty. That should be enough.
Kathy was on the first plane to the city, she rented a cab as soon as she arrived and with Josh's directions she found the dorm rooms fast. Jess's room was in the fifth floor overlooking a nice man made lake. It was small but it had all the peaceful characteristics of its kind.
Kathy's heart was beating so hard she could barely get herself together to knock on the door. Finally she produced three weak pounds on the door, hoping she had heard she stepped back a little.
A red head opened the door, she was wearing a nice dress and was barefoot.
"Hello. Can I help you?" Emily asked shocked by the beauty of the girl knocking on her door.
"Hi, I'm looking for Jess." Kathy replied smiling nervously.
"Jess is for you." Emily screamed a bit disappointed.
"Who is it?" Jess stopped cold in her tracks. It was Kathy, her Kathy.
"Hello Jess." Kathy smiled a little shy.
"What are you doing here?" Jess was shaking inside, she hoped it wasn't obvious.
"Hoping to talk to you, if possible." Kathy was still standing outside, and Emily realized how complicated everything had gotten so she excused herself and went to her room.
"What about?" Jess was trying not to throw herself in her arms, god she had missed her so much.
"Can I come in?" Kathy asked skeptically.
"Yes, I'm sorry." Jess stepped aside and closed the door behind Kathy.
Kathy didn't waste any time she went right to business.
"I acted really bad, and I'm sorry for hurting you the way I did." Kathy said honestly getting closer to Jess.
Jess just stood there blankly, she didn't say a word, she didn't move. It was so easy just to say sorry. But it was really hard to forgive.
"I missed you Jess, you don't know how much. I've thought about you everyday and every minute of this time that we've been apart. Please give me another chance, I'm begging you baby." Kathy took Jess's hands in her own and squeezed them gently.
"Kathy please don't call me that." Jess pulled her hands away from Kathy, she saw the instant stab of pain that appeared on her eyes.
"Can we talk please, can you tell me how you feel?" Kathy was going to do whatever she had to hold Jess one more time.
"I already tried and you didn't let me, why should I give you that privilege?"
"Because you're not like me, and because you believe in us, you believe that we could make it and it was me that messed it up."
"Is that all you had to say?" Jess asked rudely.
"Yes. Thank you for your time." Kathy turned around and picked up her bag from the floor. It was getting dark outside and she still had to find a hotel to stay in, she opened the door and looked back.
"Good night Jess." Kathy walked away slowly, with her mood down, she thought Jess would take her apology a little better, but then again what was she thinking? She had hurt her badly and it was normal for her to feel protective.
Emily emerged from the room and looked at Jess disapprovingly.
"How can you turn down such a woman, do you know how many of us spend our lives looking for someone that honest?"
Jess didn't have to give it more thought, she stormed out the door after Kathy, she couldn't leave her alone, not in the city.
Kathy was going down the stairs by the time Jess caught up with her.
"Kathy wait!" Jess was a little out of breath, she had almost ran down three floors.
Kathy stopped and turned around wondering what had gotten into Jess.
"Yeah." She replied
"Please stay, look at the time, I don't want you to be walking around looking for a hotel."
"Are you sure that's ok with you?" Kathy asked.
"Yes, I'm sure, its not like you're a stranger."
"Thanks." Kathy smiled a little sad.
Emily was in her room locked out, she didn't want to be in the way, her friend had a lot of things to talk about with Kathy.
"Do you want to shower before going to bed?" Jess asked already knowing the answer.
"Yes, I brought some clothes." Kathy got in the shower and finished in a brief time, she got dressed in her usual sleeping clothes, a tank top and boxers.
Jess was watching TV and the lights were off, the room was cozy and picked up unlike her own.
"Jess you think I could borrow a blanket or something." Kathy assumed she was going to sleep in the sofa so she tried to get something to keep her warm.
"For what? Aren't you sleeping here with me?" Jess sounded a little confused.
"Ohh . . . I thought I was going to crash at the sofa or something." Kathy's mood enlightened.
Once Kathy was in bed and under the covers Jess turned off the TV and attempted to get comfortable without brushing against Kathy. Her full bed seemed to have shrunk in size.
After a few minutes of moving slowly trying not to disturb Kathy she found an acceptable position.
"Jess? You ok?"
"Yeah. Why do you ask?"
"Because you keep moving. If you're not comfortable with me here just let me know, I'll sleep on the sofa."
"Its ok, I'm just . . . Well its hard to sleep next to you and not touch you." Jess said honestly.
"Its hard for me too." Kathy replied.
"What made you come looking for me?"
"I realized what a fool I had been, I thought I had lost you and decided that for once I should listen to my heart."
"What did it tell you?"
"That maybe it wasn't too late, that maybe you could give me a second chance."
Jess didn't talk for a while, she was thinking, she was fighting with herself over Kathy, if she listened to her heart she would be in her arms in a matter of seconds, if she thought about protecting it she would fall asleep and play it by ear the next day.
Jess closed her eyes in an attempt to fall asleep and let the topic rest, she wasn't so lucky. Thank god her classes hadn't started yet and she could sleep in.
Kathy turned on her side facing Jess's back, her silhouette was clearly outlined by the faint light that was getting in the room.
Kathy got closer and she began caressing gently with her right hand Kathy's side. Her skin was warm and she smelled good. To Kathy's surprise Jess didn't refuse, or said a word. Kathy continued her caresses going up and down Jess's leg, arm and waist, giving her goose bumps.
"Jess?"
"Kathy?" Jess replied and laughed inviting Kathy to do the same.
Jess turned around and hugged Kathy passionately, they kissed slowly, letting each other know the things they were feeling.
Kathy and Jess kissed and hugged for what seemed like an eternity, they were both hungry for each other, their body language was speaking volumes and there was no need for words. Some time later that night after making love they fell asleep cuddled.
Jess was the first one to wake up, she was naked and like usual on top of Kathy, crushing her, she was happy. She got off the bed trying not to wake Kathy and got dressed, she went to the kitchen and found Emily sitting on the table writing to her friend thru her phone.
"Hey girl." Jess greeted Emily with a big smile on her face.
"Hey you, how was last night?" Emily had heard the moans and faint screams.
"Wonderful, thanks for asking." Jess kept no secrets from Emily.
"She's still sleeping?"
"Yeah, I'm going to make breakfast."
"I'll help you." Emily got to work quickly and after twenty minutes they had a wonderful meal ready. They made scrambled eggs, bacon, pancakes and orange juice, their favorite.
Once the table was set Jess went to wake up Kathy.
She laid in the bed next to her lover and gently began to kiss her face and caress her body.
Kathy opened her eyes slowly and smiled as soon as Jess came into focus.
"Good morning baby." Jess said kissing her on the lips.
"Mmhh . . . Baby? That sounds good." Kathy returned her kiss and held her tight against her.
"I made breakfast, you hungry?"
"Starving. Somebody took all my energy last night."
"Oh really? that's good to know, I'll promise I'll be more gentle the next time"
Kathy smiled and got up, her clothes had been neatly folded in the corner of the bed. After a couple of minutes she was dressed and on their way to the kitchen.
"Good Morning Emily." Kathy said smiling.
"Hey" She replied
They ate while chatting about nothing in particular. The food was great.
Jess did the dishes while Emily cleaned the table and Kathy took out the trash.
"I'm going to disappear for a few hours, if you need me call me ok?" Emily said and kissed her friend on the cheek.
"Ok love, I'll see you later." Jess blew a kiss and continued her chores.
Kathy walked in right after Emily left, she locked the door and went looking for Jess. She was drying the dishes and cups and putting them back on the kitchen counter.
Kathy wrapped her arms around Jess and kissed her neck, Jess could feel Kathy's body pressed against her back, she felt so protected, so at ease.
"I love you baby." Jess said turning around to face Kathy.
"I love you too, you mean the world to me Jess, never forget that." They kissed again and again until they ended up making love right there in the kitchen.