Kevin behind the scenes Chapter 12
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Previously....
We all stood there for a minute or so.
"Well, let's go get your bags. Then head out to the hotel. We need to get back and do some things before the concert. " Kevin said, picking up his mother's carryon.
We got my parents and his mother all settled in and headed out for the arena. They'd be coming along later to see the show.
"So, when are we gonna tell them?" I asked Kevin when just the two of us were alone.
"I was thinking tonight. Maybe over a little dinner?" he asked.
"Sounds good. I'm kinda nervous. But, it'll be good. We have each other. " I said, giving him a quick hug.
"I hope so. " Kevin said, a scared look on his face.
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I hadn't seen they're pre-show warmup before and I was surprised that they were so calm before a show.
The 4 of them just sat in their dressing room and chit chatted. Howie, I was guessing, was with Lance.
I was wrapped up in Kevin's arms of course. Where else would I be ?
There was a knock at the door and someone shouted 30 minutes guys.
"God, I'm nervous." Kevin said out loud. I think it was more what he was thinking and didn't mean to express it to everyone.
"Why? We've done hundreds if not thousands of concerts before" Nick replied.
"No, it's not performing that I'm worried about. Mom and Josh's parents are here tonight. We're gonna tell them about us later on. Mom's not gonna take this too well I bet." Kevin answered.
"Don't underestimate Aunt Ann, Kevin. Your mom is one of the most loving people that I know. She might take it badly at first, but once she sees how happy Josh makes you, well, even how happy you make each other, she'll be okay with it." Brian spoke up.
"I hope you're right" Kevin sighed.
"Well, it's not going to be as big a shock for my parents. They already know I'm "cheerful" (yes, I did make the little quotes with my hands) but they don't know that I'm dating Kevin. This will be the real first boyfriend that I've ever had them meet. So, I guess that I'm a little nervous myself." I added.
Howie walked in the room and everyone started to get up and get ready.
"Have a great show you guys." I said, heading for the door.
"Wait Josh. We haven't said our prayer yet. I want you to stay for it. Please?" Kevin asked, grabbing my hand.
"Sure love. Anything for you."
We all gathered in a circle, with our heads down and Brian began to speak.
"God, thank you for all the joy in our lives. For bringing us love. For bringing us new friends into our lives. Help us to do our best tonight and give our fans a great concert. And, watch over Kevin and Josh tonight. Help them with they're task ahead. And give us all strength and health that we may all come together again and pray. Amen."
"Amen." was said in unison by all of us.
"Have a great show guys. I'll be watching as usual. And filming some cute man's butt I'm sure. For my own private viewing pleasure."
I walked over and gave Kevin a kiss and went to get behind my camera.
Ann, Mom and Dad were all in a little V.I.P. section and seemed to enjoy the show. Mom kept looking at them strangely, as if trying to figure out something. I guessed that she was trying to figure out which one I was dating. But, then, I'm sure she knows, mom's always know.
I noticed our parents talking and thought that it was a very good thing that they were getting along.
The guys finished what I thought was their last song and Kevin walked back onto the stage. The crowd screamed and he started to speak.
"If I can take a minute, please. I'd like to dedicate this next song to all of the mother's in the house here. I'm especially grateful because my mother is here to spend some time with me, as well as the mother of someone I hold close to my heart. So, moms, this one's for you." The crowd started to cheer as the rest of the guys came onstage and started singing 'The Perfect Fan'. I started bawling half way through watching Kevin sing to his mother. I hoped I wasn't shaking too much. I wanted to show this video to his mom and him one day.
The concert finished and I met the guys backstage after going to get our parents. I asked them if they wanted to go out to dinner and talk some. We would all get to know each more, I rationalized. They all agreed and we waited for Kevin to get showered and ready.
The rest of the guys all decided not to join us, I'd thank them later and we headed off.
Not knowing where to go in this town, we just ate at the restaurant in the hotel. I asked if they had a room in the back that was private and they said yes. Only after throwing Kevin's name at them, did they let us eat back there alone. Being famous has its perks sometimes.
We ordered and ate our food and were making small talk when I saw Kevin look at me. I knew that he was going to start the conversation. I grabbed his hand under the table. Mom looked at me then at Kevin then back at me. 'She knows' I thought to myself. 'That should make things a little easier. I hope'
'Mom. There's something I have to tell you and I wanted Josh and his parents here, so I waited.' Kevin started, not able to look at his mother.
'What is it dear? Look at me Kevin. What's wrong honey?' She asked, an obvious concern in her voice and in her eyes.
Kevin looked up and had tears in his eyes. He turned and looked at me and said, 'I'm in love mom. More so than I have ever been in my life.' Great, now I'm crying.
Before anyone else had a chance to say anything I spoke up. 'Mom and Dad. I know that we've never really talked about this before but I've started dating someone. Someone I've come to love very much.' I turned and looked at them.
'You know that I don't enter into anything in my life easily or quickly. So, you have to know how much he means to me.'
'HE?' Ann said. 'Ok. So she's a little slow. Maybe she's just taking it all in' I thought to myself.
Kevin started to cry. He turned and looked at his mother. 'Mom. I'm in love with Josh. Please don't hate me. Please try to understand. Please?'
I slowly watched a tear fall down her face. 'Hate you? Hate you? Kevin, my God. You're my son. How could I hate you? Am I thrilled with this? I'm not going to lie. No I'm not. Am I happy for you? In one way yes. I saw how you just looked at him. It's the way that your father used to look at me. I know you love him. But, I'm just not used to this. I don't really know what to say. Give me some time.'
Kevin lifted our joined hands up onto the table. He got up to hug his mother and I just looked over at my parents. They were quiet and it scared me.
'I know that I should have told you sooner. But, I couldn't find the right time. I wanted you to meet each other first. I hope you're not mad at me.' I asked them.
'We're not mad. Are we honey?' my mother asked my dad.
'No. Just a little caught off guard. Much like Ann. We knew. But we never knew about Kevin.' he answered.
My mother got up. I stood up as well. She came over and hugged me. I cried on her shoulder. She hugged me harder. I felt a tap on my shoulder. Ann stood behind me.
'From what I've seen and heard about you, you're a very special man. Your parents have done a wonderful job raising you. I'm glad that you've come into my son's life. I can tell that you love him. I can see it in your eyes too.' She did the most surprising thing, at least surprising to me, she hugged me and then kissed my forehead.
'You amaze me Mrs. Richardson. You have a really big heart. Now I know where he gets it from.' I nodded toward Kevin.
'Well' my dad spoke up, 'I'm not sure about the rest of you, but I'm quite tired. Kevin, you have quite a talent. Pop music isn't usually my cup of tea, but your songs are very good and your voice is excellent.'
'Thank you Miste...'
'Ah, ah, ah...it's Bob. Please call me bob.'
They shook hands. My dad is big on that for some reason.
'Take good care of each other. And, never be afraid to talk to him. He can be stubborn sometimes. Make him talk.' my mother said, giving Kevin a hug. I rolled my eyes at Kevin, smiling.
'I'll do my best.' Kevin said.
'Ann, it was a pleasure meeting you. We'll have to do lunch tomorrow.' my mother said.
'Yes, it was good to meet you too. And lunch sounds great. I'll have Kevin get us all together.'
'I'll see you both in the morning.' I said to my parents as they left the room to go upstairs.
'Well, good night you two. I'll see you both tomorrow. I love you baby.' Ann said as she grabbed Kevin into a hug.
'Night mom.'
'Night Ann'
She gave me a slight smile and went up to her room too.
We both sighed and sat at the table again. I turned to him and kissed him.
'That went better than I expected. Mom's being good about this. But, I'll have a lot more explaining later I'm sure. She was being too quiet for her. Most likely because y'all we're here.'
I looked at him with worry on my face.
'Oh. Don't be concerned. She'll just want me to explain it all to her IN DETAIL. My mother loves details. Guess that's where I get it from.' he said, standing up.
'I love you Kevin.'
'I love you too baby. More so than ever.'
We signed the check and went up to find the guys.
They were all waiting for us in Brian's room. We walked in and everyone stopped to look at us. We looked around the room at 9 pairs of eyes staring at us.
Lance was sitting on Howie's lap, which brought a smile to my face. It was good to see them happy.
We stood there for a minute in silence. Kevin closed the door and Brian just about yelled, 'Well? Is everything okay?'
'Mom took it okay. Josh's parents were good about it too. I think it's going to be okay after it's all sank in.'
Smiles registered on all of their faces.
I put my arm around his waist and whispered in his ear. He smiled and blushed.
'Um. We have to go. I'm getting tired and we have to meet Mom and Josh's parents for lunch tomorrow.' Kevin lied.
'Lying bastard. But, go to 'bed' anyway. We'll see you two in the morning for breakfast.' Joey said, laughing at us.
Kevin blushed again and we said our good-byes and left.
We walked back to our room hand in hand. 'God we were mushy. I wonder how the guys can stand to be around us sometimes.' I said, closing the door behind us.
'Shhh. I just want to hold you all night and not think about anyone or anything but us. I love you Josh.' Kevin leaned in to kiss me and I swear my heart leapt out of my chest.
We undressed slowly, only stopping our kissing to take our shirts off. We made love that night. That's the best way to put it. It was slow, deliberate, passionate. It was more than I have ever experienced in my life. Kevin's exuberance was enormous. He brought me so close to cumming so many times that night. Most of them when he was riding me. The things that he can do with his ass. It was hours before he finally let me do it. Every part of my body tingled. I brought him close many times too before he finally let loose. When we had cleaned up and were lying in bed, my head on his chest, I felt his body shake and I heard him crying.
I sat up quickly and wrapped my arms around him. 'Cry darling. Just cry. I'm here and I'll always be here.'
He cried for a long time and I just sat there and held him. He eventually stopped and looked up at me with his tear-stained face and puffy eyes. Even then he still looked cute.
'Thank you. Everything just caught up with me at once. It was the first time in a long, long time that I let myself cry. I needed a release. With mom and touring and the legal troubles and everything else, I just needed to cry. Thank you for holding me. For being there. They weren't all sad tears though. I was crying in joy at the end. Thanking God that I have you.'
'My love. I'm here for you always. I'm just glad that you let me be here for you. Lean on me when you need to because heaven knows I'm gonna need to lean on you too.' I said, wiping his face.
We eventually fell asleep in each other's arms.
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End of Chapter 12.
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