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H2O and Oil is a true account of the author's experience with his first boyfriend. Names were changed to protect all the parties involved.
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H2O and Oil by tReSe Copyright (c) Friday Trese Co. 1999-2000. All Rights Reserved.
I was sixteen when I met Kenneth. He widened my horizon and opened my life to the joys and pains of same sex relationship. I never thought that I was bisexual until I met him. Let me tell you all about it.
Jason, a friend of mine invited me to a birthday; I was reluctant to tag along because I don't even know who the celebrant was. But he was gallingly insistent that I caved in to his request or else he wouldn't stop dogging me about it.
When we arrived at the party, I was left alone in our table, because my friend was the escort of the debutante. And he had to accompany her for the rest of night. I wanted to leave because I was totally bored with the party. I'm not comfortable going to fancy parties, because most people who attend it are snobs. Besides, I don't know anyone there and I have no one to talk with. I was about to leave, when Kenneth arrived. He directly went to where Jason and the debutante were to greet the celebrant. Jason and Kenneth talked for awhile. I stood up and walked towards the doors, because I've decided to leave the party. Then when I was near the passage out of boredom prison, someone stopped me by placing a hand on my right shoulder. At first, I thought it was Jason. But when I turned around, I was a bit disoriented because it was Kenneth. I asked him what does he want. He told me that Jason asked him to sit with me for the duration of the party. I told him that it was not necessary. I walked out of the pavilion.
It's been five minutes or so that I was waiting for a cab outside the hotel, when Kenneth called my name. I was surprised. We haven't been properly introduced yet he knew my name. He was asking me not to leave. I told him to mind his own business. I was rather rude to him because I don't know him except perhaps he's an acquaintance of Jason. His cheeks turned red and I knew that I had insulted him. I said I was sorry and that I was in a bad mood. And further asked him if his offer still stands. He said yes.
We rode his car just driving around with no particular destination in mind. That's where he introduced himself me. I found out that he was Jason's cousin. And that we go to the same university. He was in his second year majoring in Tourism. That night, we talked boy stuff, school, and nothing more.
Two days, after Kenneth and I had met in the party, I saw him again in school. He was waiting outside of my classroom. He asked me where Jason was and I told him that his cousin didn't came to class. Maybe, he's sick or something, I added. He asked me if I had to be somewhere. I said yes. I saw that he was a bit disappointed. I asked him why. He told me that he and Jason had a plan to watch a movie. And now, he wouldn't be able to watch it. He further injected that he doesn't like watching alone. Then he offered me to go with again. I told him that I had to visit someone first if he's willing to tag along. He agreed.
All through out the ride he kept asking me where we were going. At first, I didn't want to tell. But he was like his cousin very persistent. Finally, I told him that I was going to visit the girl I was courting. He remained silent after I said. When we arrived at Maya's house, I asked him if he wanted to go inside. He declined. I told him that I wouldn't be long. Ten minutes after, I came out with Maya to introduce her to him. He nodded and said nothing.
After the movies, he invited me for a late dinner. And we talked all through the dinner. I asked him if he has a girlfriend and he told me that he did. When I asked him why he didn't invite her instead. He told me that they had a fight and were not talking to each other a week now. I suggested to him that he should at least try. He immediately turned the table on me. He asked me if Maya was my girlfriend. I answered him that she would be very soon. He remained quiet after that. I told him that I had to go home. And that it was getting late. He drove me home and before he left our place, he asked for my number.
From then on he kept calling me and waiting for me after class. One time, Jason asked me what was the deal between Kenneth and me. I told him what he meant by that. But he told me to forget it. When I saw Kenneth later that day, I asked him what Jason told me. I asked him if he knew what his cousin meant by it. He was infuriated and told me that Jason should keep his big mouth shut. He questioned me what else did Jason told me. I said nothing. He then stormed out of the building. I was confused why he acted that way. So when I got home, I called Jason. I told Jason what had happened and asked him if he could tell why Kenneth acted that way. Jason was hesitant at first. But I reminded him that he still owed me for leaving alone in the birthday party. He told me to talk to Kenneth and mention the name Michael. I was more confusion now. I asked him who Michael was. He told me that Kenneth would tell me everything I needed to know. With that, he hung up on me.
I couldn't sleep that night. What happened to me that day was weird and I couldn't make sense of it? I called Kenneth and he groggily answered the telephone. I asked him who Michael was. He cursed Jason and said that his cousin was dead meat. I told him that it was my fault and I forced Jason. He told me to meet him that following day, for he will explain everything.
He picked me up around 8 p.m. and we drove to Eagle's Nest, a mountain point which overlooked the city. He told me that Michael was his ex-lover. I asked him if he was gay. He told that his more of a bisexual. Then I asked him what does it have to do with me. He told me that he fell in love when he saw me. Man, what an overload. I couldn't speak nor thinking what to say after he said that. When I regained my composure, I asked him to bring home. I told him I need time to digest everything that had happened. He asked me if I was mad. I told him I still don't know.
I avoided him for a month. And when I saw him Maya and I were going steady. He saw me in the cafeteria with my girlfriend. He asked me if we could talk, I told that I would call him later that night. I forgot to call him that night, because I came home late from Maya's house. The following night, he dropped by our place. Luckily that I was alone that night, because our conversation went out of hand. I guided him to my bedroom so we could talk. Once inside he asked me why I've avoiding him. I told him I was not. I said that I've been busy with school and with Maya. Then he asked me if I loved her. I asked him it was irrelevant to our conversation and that was not the issue. He then shouted at me saying that all he wanted to hear was a simple yes or no. I told him to tone it down. When he calmed down, he apologized for his behavior. I told him that it was true that I've been avoiding him not because of what he told me. I was avoiding him because of what I might do. I told him that since the time that we've become friends, I was feeling something for him beyond friendship. And every time that we're together, the feeling kept growing. I told him I was scared and confused, which was the reason why I kept my distance from him for a long period. I told him that though I'm with Maya, I was constantly thinking of him. He told me not to be afraid for he would help me understand what was happening. He told me that I'm like him whose heart has the capacity of love both sexes. With talked that night, and he helped me sort things out. I asked him if he liked to sleep over and he said yes. He kissed me on the cheeks and cuddled me in a spoon position as we both drifted off to dreamland.
Two weeks after that, I broke up with Maya and he to his girlfriend. It was part of my condition. I told him I'm a faithful person. When I loved someone, I wanted exclusivity regardless of his or her gender. I told him it wouldn't be fair to his girlfriend, Maya or I, if we let things the way it was. Breaking up with our respective girlfriends went rather nice. Both of them understand we gave them our reason.
I've always thought of myself as sweet, thoughtful and romantic person. But Kenneth had beaten me in that area. He would often go here at my house to wake me up by kissing me. Though, he had showered before coming to our house, he would joined me in my morning bath and soap all over my body. Then after we dressed in our uniforms, he would prepare our breakfast. Kenneth made me feel very important and loved. He treated me like a king. Yet, there were things that I don't like about him, which were the constant sources of our fights. He was extremely possessive and unreasonably jealous. He even bought me a beeper and cellular phone so he could check on me every hour. Though he provided me everything that I need, most of the time, he would overdo it. He went as far as giving an extension to his credit and ATM cards. I didn't want to accept it and we fought hard about it. He told me that if I didn't accept it he would break up with. I finally gave in because I love him. Though, I accepted the cards that he gave, never once did I use it.
Except from these petty fights, our relationship was smooth sailing. I was secure about his fidelity to me and vice-versa. And I've always thought that there was nothing in the world that could make me decide to break up with him. I was wrong. It was a Saturday night, we decided that we would be going out with our own friends. I was surprised to see him in the same club as I was. We greeted each our as platonic male friends would do. Both of us decided to hide the true nature of our relationship. Before we returned to our own set of friends, we decided that after our friends had gone home, we would spent the rest of the night together for a little "quality time", if you catch my drift. He was the first to return to his friend because I was still waiting for my beer in the bar. When I passed by their table, I overheard one of his snotty friends told him that he should not associate with someone like me. Further, his friend told him that I was not in their league. Then, I heard Kenneth say that I was forcing myself to be his friend and that he was acting out of the goodness of heart.
When I heard Kenny say those words, I was crushed. I drop the bottle I was holding on the floor. And he and his friends saw me near their table and knew that I had heard everything. Coolly, I walked away from them, when Kenny called my name. I stopped but didn't turned around to face him. He shouted that now that I know how he truly feels about me, I should stop bugging him. Luckily, my friends were in the other side of the club, and they didn't witness the humiliation that I had endured. I told my friends that I wasn't feeling well and immediately left the club. I cried hard that night. I couldn't believe that Kenny had done that to me. The following morning, I went to their place to return all his things and gifts that he had given me. He tried to explain what happened the night before, but I was to hurt to hear his explanation. I tried avoiding him for a week but he kept dogging me. He told me he wouldn't stop until I give him another chance.
He told me that he panicked when his friends asked him about us. According to him paranoia hit him and figured he had to do something to avoid suspicion of relationship. After carefully considering his explanation, I told him never to do it again or it's adios forever. I told him to change his attitudes especially his being jealous and possessive. He assured me he would do anything just to keep us together. I accepted him back to my life. He kept his promises and really made a totally turn around, well, almost. But old dogs never learn new things.
Two months after our reconciliation, his parents were celebrating their wedding anniversary. He and his parents invited me to attend the celebration. Of course, I said yes. Kenny assured me that Jason was the only in his family who knew about our affair and his parents don't have a clue about it. All they know was I was his best friend in campus, he added. Also, his parents request me to sing their theme song in the event.
When that night came, I saw Kenny's friends the ones who were present in club before. I mustered all my courage to greet Kenny, and when I did his friends asked my boyfriend why I was there. Kenny abruptly cut their inquisitions. I thought, when he did that he was going admit to his peers that I was his friend too. Instead, he told them that he didn't invite me but his parents did. He further insulted me by saying that he was against about the idea but what he could do about it was his parents' party not his.
I was about to run out from there, when his mom came to us and pulled away from them oblivious of what had just transpired. So, she asked me to sing their wedding song. I fought hard not to crying while I was singing. I saw my lover from the audience and he was looking at me and mouthing the words that he was sorry and didn't mean what he said. After the song, I excused myself saying to his parents that I had another engagement that night. And that the reason I dropped by to wish them on their anniversary and honor their request.
When I went out of the gate, I saw Kenny waiting for me. The street was deserted. He tried to stop me from leaving. But I just lost it, I knocked him in the face and he immediately fell on the ground. I told him that I don't ever want to see him again and that it was over between us. I also told him that if really loves as he claimed he would not deny me to his friend. I told me him I wasn't asking him to admit that we were lovers. All I was asking for him was to admit that I was his friend too, I added. After that, I had speak my mind, I left.
I went out of town for a month to forget that I ever met him. When I returned home, my mom told me that Kenny had been calling our house every single day to inquire if I had returned home. Upon knowing that, I went to the Phone Company and requested an immediate change of our telephone number. After one year and some months, he saw me in the mall. He called my name and that's how I saw him. He then made his way to approach me but I immediately avoid him. And that was the last time we saw each other.
Our social status didn't end our relationship. But his unwillingness to fight for our love and his denial of my existence in his life that did. After Kenny, I never had another boyfriend again. I'm not traumatized or anything. I'm just more cautious. I'm still waiting for someone, who will love me, as much I love him.
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