May I introduce two of my now favorite people. They're from my brain and are the product of a very uneventful weekend at home thinking about romance. For the romantics out there hunting for some "lovin'" before the new year and too cheap to buy a novel, enjoy!
If you'd like to fan my ego, or take it down a notch, or volunteer as a beta reader/editor (shameless advertising...) hit me up at: maspgurl@yahoo.ca
Like You'll Never See Me Again- A Kim and Carin Story By Mas
The fact that the color of our skin differed never came into the equation. Her being from a different country and the higher ranks of her own society was never a point of concern for me.
I was young, so was she and we fell hard for each other.
The good old college days, how could I ever forget? Not that I had an exciting college experience. No, truthfully, she was the only exciting part of it all. I was a loner, a homebody, though I had friends, no one really held my interest long enough to make me want to be in their company for extended periods of time.
My family doesn't understand how I can be this way. My family is all about being together and laughing together and all of that good stuff but it's a known fact that 'Kim is a solitary soul'...most days. They understand now. My sister always understood though, she always did and would allow me sit in silence knowing that her presence was all that I needed. My grandmother even went to far as to say that I'm waiting on another soul, my soul mate I guess, who'll help me to stop being this way.
I never really gave her explanation much credit...until I spent an evening with Carin Gehrety. I saw her all the time around school but university is just busy enough to keep you from seeing a girl in your class for weeks on end, then just small enough to let you collide with them out of nowhere.
We collided in a way. We had a project to do for an elective class we both took that forced us to work closely together. I lived closer and so told her that we could work in my apartment. This was another way to get Carin alone really but I didn't care, she always seem to be talking with someone when I wanted to talk with her. I was feeling selfish.
I mean if you saw her you'd understand. She was beautiful. One of those girls you admire from afar, like a diamond or some other precious stone that you gaze at in a passing window display. She had the palest skin and light brown hair. Her features looked elven, fine and pure. I've read tons of fantasy books and have found that this is the best way that I could describe them. But what threw me every time was her smile. It was really white and when she pulled those soft lips into one of her signature smirks my heart beat drums like crazy. I still tried to catch her with whitening strips or something. Still unsuccessful...
Her smirks completely undid me. I found myself watching out for one of them...watching her. Our project was over now but we still hung out together. I couldn't get enough of her sense of humor, her view on the world. Her intelligence and the way she listened to me as I rambled on to me about some problem or issue made me feel important. As if she really cared for me and about my opinion. My friends wondered why I hung with her so much now but I really had no idea why, it was a mixture of so many reasons. I just had to. I seemed to ramble when I was near her; I wanted to tell her why I was the way that I was. She just smiled at me and would nod as if to say, "I hear you, I'm here." I never experienced the peace that I did with her before.
"Let's go to the park Kim." She said one day. Now I'm not a park-person really but she made me one as she liked to walk those winding paths and say hello to the many dogs and dog owners that use it. It takes us quite a while to get to the park that she usually visited but I took this time to talk too Carin and look at her and smile at her.
I smiled at her until she asked me what I was smiling at. I'd just shrug then she'd smile and I'd think of how much I wanted to kiss her and hold her close.
I noticed that she did the same too me, stare at me that is, then one day she made my heart stop.
"Kim, you really are lovely you know." She said as we walked down a hill to the park's exit. Now this threw me for a loop. I've never had anyone, outside of my mother and sister, tell me something like that.
I knew that I was attractive for the most part. I took care of myself and took pride in it. But in that moment I really wondered how someone like her could find someone like me to be lovely. It really confused me.
I was a little above average in height and slim though I had a shapely figure thanks to what my mother informed me are her "East African" genes. I was told about those genes in detail from very young age. My sister and I were forced to know our history since the day we were born, no matter how far down those African roots dug into our family tree. They dug deep. Some times when I was younger and going through my insecure phase I wished that my skin wasn't black, well brown really. Well really light brown. I had full lips what I thought was a nice enough nose and eyes that were dark brown. I looked like an attractive black woman, but in that moment when Carin allowed those words to leave her lips, I really felt like a beautiful black woman. Like a desirable woman from the way her eyes moved over my face.
I liked to dress nice and so always wore an "outfit" even if it were just jeans and a t-shirt I liked to add my little touches like a scarf around my neck or a matching pair of tennis shoes or my old faithful boots. I got a pair of black boots my first year that I loved. She noticed and told me that she liked them, so of course I wore them like crazy since then. Suddenly i wondered if she noticed. My mind raced back to the present and I stuttered an embarrassed, "Thank you," then silence settled around us like a little protective bubble.
"I love your hair," She told me as we sat on a bench. I had my arms stretched out across the back and she leaned against my side and I watched as her hand moved up and touched my hair. I had it natural and it curled on its own into a mass of wild curls that I had highlighted after my sister talked me into it. I was contemplating if I'd keep it but decided to after her compliment. I'd do anything to keep that smile in her eyes.
"You could be a model if you wanted to." She said as her hand moved to my cheek. I laughed closing my eyes as her hand moved around in my hair.
"I don't think so but thank you." My ego was beginning to swell despite me trying to slap it down.
"Yes you can, you're beautiful." She sat back and had a strange smile on her lips. "Sexy...hot..." Her eyes turned shy and she looked at her hands but not before I saw something that looked close to...longing there. Longing? Longing?!
Once again I was struck dumb but recovered enough to tell her thank you again. We sat in silence for a while. I didn't know how to respond to her compliments or the shy looks that seemed to be caressing me in waves. A tense silence came between us as all the love songs that I knew filled my head.
"I...um. I always thought that you looked angelic...elven really." I said shyly with a smirk.
"Like an elf?" She asked. Her eyes rose to mine confused even as she smirked at me. I realized that her smirk was going to be the death of me. Or should I say the life of me...?
"If you watched The Lord of the Rings then you'd know that that's a compliment."
She laughed and leaned into me more, and then I heard her mumble something.
"What's that?" I asked, my arm moving to loosely hold her shoulders. With every shift in our conversation we seem to be moving closer. I liked how she felt in my arms and decided to find any excuse to hold her again...and again...
"What about me makes you think of elves?"
A woman with two big, black dogs walked by, the beasts barking excitedly. I looked off into the trees and absently rubbed her arm slowly, a small smile on my face already as I began to partake in one of my favorite pastimes, touching her.
"Well, you look so delicate. Like a flower you know?" I felt her hand move to my thigh and the heat from her touch burned my skin. I was sure that I'd find the imprint of her hand there tonight.
"I knew you for months now, knew of you really for a year, but I'm just seeing how honorable you are...how truthful."
"They're honorable to?" She asked with a smile in her voice.
"Oh yeah," my hand itched to trace the form of her lips. Instead I closed my eyes and tried not to moan when her hand moved against my thigh. Did she know what she was doing to me? She couldn't. "You're so soft spoken, yet you speak with strength...conviction."
I couldn't help it as I watched my hand move down and lightly grasp hers. My fingers played with hers; linking them then moving over each finger softly.
"And you're..." I swallowed the lump that suddenly formed in my throat and leaned closer to her stopping only when my lips were pressed against her ear. "You're sooo sexy." I didn't notice that my voice became low and husky.
I heard her gasp. She slowly leaned back and looked up at me with surprise in her eyes. Her lips were slightly parted a mere few inches from mine and begged to be kissed. I smelled the strawberry lip gloss that she liked to wear and knew from borrowing it that it tasted sweet. The idea of kissing it from her lips made a slow burn begin between my legs and spread throughout my body like whiskey.
Her smile in that moment was just as intoxicating.
"There are sexy elves to?" She asked.
"Ohhh yeah," by then my voice was low and thick with arousal. I've only read about moments like this up to that point. No book however prepared me for the feeling of her fingers slowly tracing my lips. I held my breath, afraid that if I moved a muscle that I would wake up. That it would have all been a dream.
The sounds of the park melted away. No birds or dogs or people existed as I watched her cup my face and move my lips closer to hers. Nothing mattered except her as I sat transfixed as her lips neared mine. My eyes drifted close...and then our lips met.
It wasn't a hurried kiss, or a particularly passionate one, but it was a sweet kiss, in so many ways...
Her hand cupped my chin as her thumb rested beneath my bottom lip. The first thing that struck me was how soft they were. Like silk and sweet, just like candy. I tasted the strawberry flavor of her lip gloss and made it my mission to kiss away every drop of it.
I swiped my tongue over her bottom lip and heard a faint whimper. I did it again and heard her moan. Her upper lip was clasped between mine and I sucked on it until I felt her move her hand behind my neck, instantly increasing the pressure. My tongue moved against her mouth, gently begging entrance.
I nearly melted when I felt her tongue pull mine into her mouth and suck on it like taffy. If I thought that her gloss was sweet, then I had no word to describe the rest of that mouth. That tongue...
It was like a honey comb, and I had every intention of tasting her until the sun set. My hand moved up to her cheek gently moving the tips of my fingers over her skin, in awe that she was kissing me. I released a groan when our tongues danced with each other; evading, colliding, invading then sliding against each other. Burning her mouth into my memory and feeling my body react. A heat wave was moving through my body now.
I'm surprised she isn't feeling it.
I heard the birds again as we both slowly pulled back from the kiss. Resurfaced. Reluctantly allowed the fire to ease to a slow burn...then we both settled down exchanging small kisses. Her tongue ran over my lower lip then she placed a small kiss to the corner of my mouth.
With eyes closed I bury my lips against her neck and kiss her there. The sent of vanilla fills my senses, I can't help but dip my tongue there. Expecting to taste something sweet, I wasn't disappointed. A low moan reaches my ears and I pull away.
My eyes opened up slowly, lids heavy as I gazed back at her in wonder. The expression was reflected and our eyes didn't leave each other. Our heads touched and we continued to gaze into each others eyes as the shadows lengthened along the ground. A slow grin found my lips. She kissed me, she wants me. Carin wants me and kissed me!
The sun shone on her hair lighting up the light brown strands of her hair. The scent of her perfume filled my head. I pulled her close and laughed as she nuzzled my neck with her nose.
"I like the way you smell," I heard her mumble. "I always liked that about you."
"That I smell?" She playfully pinched my stomach.
"That you smell good smarty." I kissed the side of her head. "You've done it now."
My eyes met hers at the cryptic statement. "You've spoiled me for anyone else Kim." I tried to hide it, but the proud smile planted it self on my lips. Then I looked at her lips then into her eyes. I wanted to kiss her again but I wanted to kiss more than her lips this time. The dreamy expression on her face had to have mirrored my own.
"Carin...um. D-do you..." she looked expectantly at me and that gave me courage to just ask it. "Do you wanna come home with me today...for...for the night?" I cursed myself for the timid way I asked her, convinced that she'd say no. I'm such a geek! But God how I want her to say yes...
Stuck in my own head for a moment I missed her answer but I saw her lips move. Was that a...?
"What did you say?" I leaned closer to her lips intently watching them.
"I said yes." Her smile made me feel like flying. If she let go of my thigh I'm sure that I would have floated away.
"Okay." I said. She leaned forward and kissed me again.
"Okay."
Thank GOD I cleaned up yesterday! I held Carin's hand as I unlocked the door, just then my neighbour stepped into the hallway. She smiled and I watched her eyes slide down to our joined hands. Her grin was sudden and made me feel shy for a moment. It hit me then that it was the first time I ever held a girl's hand, well a girl that I considered to be my girl. And that I was practically declaring my orientation.
"Kim," she said in greeting. "Have a good weekend."
"You to Rachel." I replied and swore that I saw her wink at me. Was she gay to? I glanced back at the short hair cut and the baggy jeans. Then I recalled all the times I caught her leaving or entering her apartment, she never had a guy with her, always a woman. Rachel is gay!
"She seems nice." Carin said as she took of her jacket. I told her that she was and hung her jacket up in my closet. I shook my head at my new discovery then filed it away.
"Are you thirsty?" I asked as we stood with our jackets and shoes off.
"No."
"Are you sure? I have water, juice, soda, wine..." I tried to read her mind, what did she want? Well I did ask her if she wanted to spend the night with me...technically. But does her 'spend the night' mean the same thing as my 'spend the night'?
"Hungry?" I inquired walking deeper into the apartment.
"No, not really." I turned on the stereo and Alicia Keys began to fill the space with her soulful songs. She moved to a shelf that I had with pictures of my family. A few were of us on the beach and ever since she found out that we lived near the beach she's been fascinated by it.
"I'm still gonna take you home with me so you can play in the sand." I told her as I stood behind her. The sun was setting now so the apartment was slowly darkening. It seemed to mirror her eyes. I raised my hand and touched her hair that looked much darker now, almost black.
"So I guess you're not into watching any TV either?" Carin smiled as she shook her head. My pulse quickened and I swallowed frantically feeling like I was about to burst from triple doses of fear and excitement.
"You're nervous," she said as her fingers rested against my throat. Carin tilted her head to the side in question.
"I am," My hand moved to her waist awkwardly, "Aren't you?" She said yes.
"But not about being with you, you know?" I stepped closer to her, moving my hands lower over her jean clad hips. Now our breasts were touching and my head lowered to her neck. "I'm nervous about not being...you know, good enough for you." I stopped my decent to her smooth neck at her confession.
"What?" I pulled her even closer. "Good enough for me? I'm tryin' not to be a complete goof ball right now!" We both laughed at our now silly insecurities.
"I want to be hot and you want to be cool." She pulled my head down and kissed me.
"I day dreamed about you Carin, and none of those dreams ever measured up to the real thing." The look in her eyes made me know that I definitely said the right thing. "You're so sexy baby." I whispered into her ear as my hands slid over her hips then up to her back, beneath her t-shirt.
"Ohhh..." she moaned. I felt her lips against my neck then gasped as she sucked on my neck. Our hips instinctually moved to her rhythm. Her hands were down my jeans and gripping me as her mouth moved to my ear and sucked on my ear lobe. I moaned and pushed myself into her at the sensation. I think she just found a hot spot, I thought and worked to get her out of her jeans. The sound of them sliding over her hips made my heart begin to race even more.
Her t-shirt was off and thrown some where in the room as we moved closer to the bed. She sat down on the edge of the bed and slowly slid off my jeans, her hands moved from my thighs to my ass, then gently gripped both cheeks. "You're so beautiful," came the earnest whisper. "So, so beautiful Kim." I watched her face, as her hands moved down to the back of my knees to my thighs then snaked around, making me gasp as she grazed my center only to move over my abdomen that I kept firm and flat. Her groan of approval told me that it paid off.
But when her hands cupped my breasts I nearly fainted right there. "Carin..." she smiled and moved back on the bed like a snake telling me with her eyes that I had better follow her. I slid over her, ensuring that she felt the sensation of every possible inch of my body sliding up hers; our breasts touching, our legs becoming a tangle of limbs.
"I wanna make love to you Carin, all night baby." She pulled me closer and wrapped her legs around my hips as she pushed up into me. I grinded against her, capturing her sweet lips again. I tried to make her know how much she meant to me with that kiss. I tried to let her see how much this night, having her body against mine meant. Her tongue joined mine, then she pulled me into her mouth again and I moaned. She knew that I loved it when she did that if her smirk was any indication.
"You wanna bump 'n' grind Carin?" I asked in a deep voice and felt her laugh bubbling in her chest before it met my ears, then heard a sultry "Yeees."
My hands moved to her firm, high breasts. They were perfect and the dark pink buds that strained against my hands practically begged for my lips. I tore my lips from hers, shushing her protests with a trail of wet kisses down her neck, over her chest and breast until I found the gold mine. My mouth on her made her back arch in pleasure. Her thighs tightened around my hips and her hand gripped my back as the other held my head against her breast.
I pulled her into my mouth, flicking her with my tongue and loving the sounds that came from her throat each time. Her hand pressed me closer to her as my free hand slid down between what little space there was between us. Searching, gliding down her body.
I moved my lips to her other breast and showered it with kisses. Around the nub that strained and hardened in arousal until she begged me to take it. I pulled the taught nipple into my mouth and sucked.
Then my fingers dipped into her wetness. I closed my eyes at the sensation of her heat against my fingers. She's so hot! The wetness seemed infinite and I began to move my fingers against her as I sucked on her breast. "Kiiiim..." She called my name low and slow, like she was drunk with need. It made me wet just hearing my name said like that; as if she was only focused on me. As if what I did to her was all that mattered. I knew that the world could have fallen away right then, and my lips wouldn't budge. My fingers would not stop their earnest search for her release.
"Carin baby...oh baby..." I said against her breast then kissed my way up to her lips slowly. It all seemed to slow down suddenly as I found her lips again as her fingers found my center and I slid my body over hers, going still when as our eyes connected. The passion between us felt like waves, only getting stronger and stronger with each passing moment.
My head filled with the song that was softly playing on the stereo; Like You'll Never See Me Again. I found myself gazing into her brown eyes and singing the love song softly to her as my hands moved against her.
Everytime you hold me Hold me like it's the last time. Everytime you kiss me Kiss me like you'll never see me again.
Everytime you touch me Touch me like it's the last time. Promise that you'll love me Love me like you'll never see me again...
We both grew still as the emotions that we felt rushing threw our veins moved our lips closer and closer until they touched again. It was a soft kiss, lips touching only as our hands moved. My fingers slipped into her then and her body tightened around them as her back arched. I closed my eyes for a moment as I felt her fingers move over my hardened nub then dip back into my heat only to do the same thing again. I looked into her eyes as I slid into her again, searching for the spot that I knew she needed me to find. When her mouth opened in a silent shout I knew that I found it and so moved over it as her hips quickened, her eyes darkening in excitement.
Our lips touched, her hand slid up my shoulders holding me close as she grinded against my fingers. I moaned in pleasure and felt her movements shift. My arm slid beneath her body, pushing her hips into mine as I moved over her again murmuring God knows what into her ear.
"Kim, Kim, Kim..." my name rolled from her lips like a chant. Promises of devotion filled my head and poured onto her, joining the sounds of our heavy panting, groaning...moaning...
"Come baby...ohh baby I got you." I said against her lips, dipping my tongue into her mouth as her body clamped around my fingers stilling them then a scream escaped from her lips. Her head fell back against the pillow as she rode the climax, the ecstasy poured over her features down her body as my fingers slowly moved inside of her. Cloudy eyes found mine as I shouted out her name, pumping my hips against her hand drawing it out as much as possible.
I swear that I heard the echo of our shouts and moans bouncing from the walls in the room as I closed my eyes and collapsed against her. A wonderfully, comforting darkness slowly moving over us, then covering us completely.
I was sprawled over her, unable to move a muscle as our heavy breathing eased. A pale, smooth thigh was wrapped around mine as her arms held me possessively close. My lips were near her neck and I just couldn't resist kissing her there. She moaned and shifted beneath me causing me to move against her. Her thigh was between mine and my eyes opened when I realized that I wanted her again...now...right now. I kissed her neck again, then pulled the skin there into my mouth, gently biting her...marking her. A shiver moved through her and into me.
I'm gonna leave a million hickeys on her body tonight, I thought. Her hands found my hips and she squeezed the muscle there then grinded against me.
"I love your ass," I chuckled into her neck never hearing her say the word 'ass' before.
"Why thank you," my reply murmured against her neck that I was very busy kissing. "I love your everything." Her hands stilled against me and I looked up about to protest then saw her eyes. She looked at me strangely after my little confession and so I kissed her again, then asked her what was wrong.
"You make me so speechless Kim," I smiled and moved against her, my smile slowly slipping away at the expression of pure lust in her eyes. "You are amazing, I can't believe I came so...intensely." Her arms held me tight and her nails rakes across my skin.
"I want you again Carin, I want you soo bad..." I took her lips again pulling the thigh flung over my body further up my hips and grinded my body into hers almost roughly. She seemed to bask in the urgency though and her breathing quickened. I loved the fact that she was so vocal, loudly moaning her pleasure into the darkness.
"Take me Kim," was all that I needed to hear and I didn't waste any time doing it again and again and...
The sun seemed to be in a hurry to wake us up that morning. Not that I minded, one of the day dreams that I had was about waking up with Carin in my arms. I almost pinched my self to make sure that it wasn't a dream.
She was using my chest as a pillow it seemed. Her head was turned towards me and so away from the sunlight that was making it's way slowly but surely into the room, creeping over her pale skin. I took the time to study her body, happy now that we never got around to pulling the sheets over us. We only slept for the last 3 hours or so...not that I was complaining or anything.
The contrast of her pale skin against my darker skin made me smile. I studied the few freckles she had on her shoulders, remembering how I tried to kiss every inch of those shoulders that night. They looked so delicate. Her back looked elegant and I noted a small scar at the small of her back. Then my eyes moved to her cute little butt. I was going to have a lot of new dreams about that butt after gripping that and studying it up close and personal. It was one ass that I took pleasure in kissing.
Her thigh was shapely and took note of how they gracefully led to shapely calves and small, delicate feet. While I wore a whopping nine and a half in shoes she was a mere seven.
My eyes then found her face and smiled at the peaceful expression on it. Her lips were slightly opened and I noticed the tiniest drop of spittle on my chest. It made me want to laugh it was so cute. My Carin dribbled in her sleep. I'm sure they wouldn't find it so funny though. She looked like a little girl instead of a young woman of twenty two years. Her long eye lashes rested against her cheek. I studied her ears to, her chin, her nose, it all looked so beautiful to me. If I had a camera I probably would have been snapping like crazy...
I looked out at the full length window that gave me quite a view into the city. I purposefully turned my bed so that when I fell asleep and woke up I faced the city. It didn't hurt that the sun was a good old fashioned alarm clock to. I didn't want to wake up though; I wanted to stay in bed as a surrogate pillow all day long. I looked at Carin and didn't want this moment to ever leave me.
An idea raced back into my head and I soon maneuvered myself from beneath my sleeping beauty. I found a clean, white sheet in my closet and gently draped it over her body, making sure that I covered her but making it obvious that she was indeed naked beneath the sheet.
I grabbed my camera and set it to silent, waiting for the sun to fully shine on her. I smiled as I took the first few pictures, then took two more. I quietly placed the camera on the shelf and crept back into bed. Not surprised that Carin didn't wake up after our very sleepless night.
I still remembered how she sweated and shouted long into the morning as I tasted her for the first time. She was insatiable all night demanding me to keep going, to go deeper, harder...slower, softer. She didn't want me to stop and I didn't want her to stop, so we loved straight through the night then into the morning, discovering all the sensitive spots and "hot" spots. Tasting each other in every way possible then starting all over again.
She stirred then, so I decided to shift closer to her warm body, quite happy with what I had accomplished. I crawled over her as she lay on her stomach, stretching like a cat. I kissed her neck wrapping my arms around her waist.
"Ummm, morning." She said, turning in my arms already pushing the sheet away.
"Good morning," I replied. I didn't have the will power to get my butt into the bathroom, and therefore away from her body, to kill my morning breathe and had no intention of letting her do the same yet. She seemed to be thinking along the same lines.
We kissed and I nuzzled her neck, making her laugh. "You're like a puppy." She said squirming against me. I nuzzled some more nibbling on her ear growling and she squeaked in protest then began to laugh as she pushed me away only to pull me back to her body.
I scooted up onto my arms smiling down at her. Her eyes were sleepy, her hair looking quite wild but she looked like a goddess to me. She licked her lips and I did the same unknowingly.
"You okay?" I asked searching her face for...something. Reassurance I guess.
She knew what I was truly asking and smiled at me, pulling me down to give me a quick kiss. It sounded loud in the silence of the apartment. "I'm more than okay." She pulled me close and hugged me.
"Kiss me like you'll never see me again..." she whispered into my ear. The words floated in my brain then I smiled remembering where they were from.
I was quick to obey as she wrapped her limbs around me.
"You know that's our song now right?" She asked against my lips. I nodded and told her that I will.
"Will what?" She asked framing my face with her hands a half smile turning up the corner of her mouth.
"Love you like I'll never see you again." Her eyes turned glassy with moisture as she pulled me close, showing me how right those very words were.
NB: The lyrics for the song "Like You'll Never See Me Again" belong to Alicia Keys, not me. I WISH that I could take credit for such a beautiful song but no, all credit goes to Alicia Keys.
NBB: If you like these two and want more stories about them, hit me up. I have quite a few...