My Ex-Boyfriend The King Of The Vampyres
Chapter 0 -
My life become a prison and my body became a coffin for my soul.
I spent the weeks working and going straight home, trying not to get too close to anyone or even being noticed on the street. Gaining weight, brushing my teeth, I grew an ugly beard I tried to remain unattractive to stop all that death. The night at the bar fresh in my mind, the things I said to Aldrich angered him too much.
Never in my entire life have I seen so much blood, at least now people have stopped dying around me and I can live with a free conscience. Everyday I live with that guilt on my hands and in my mind, was I being a hero or just punishing myself. Loneliness was my only constant companion, loneliness and Aldrich.
The King of Vampyres was obviously not going to leave me alone, he bought that apartment building I lived in, all other tenants were evicted. Except three who were either too poor to leave or stubborn, he made sure I could hear their screams as I tried to block it out. Spending days getting sick in my washroom and having to deal with Aldrich meeting me as soon as I opened the door of the building. Hiding my eyes I would refused to even look at him, it was a mixture of shame and hate that I couldn't stand looking into those eyes.
One day however as I came home from work he made sure I couldn't ignore him. Before he let me go to my room and lock myself away, I wished he would kill me so I can live without this crushing guilt. That day though his arms held me to him and as I struggled I felt tears scold my numb face from the coming winter chill. How I wished to be held by those arms in my most dire moments and at that time my resolve was breaking as my knees were buckling. I am a weak human and a disgraceful moralist, but if I was born without feelings.
Gentle hands stroked my head down to my neck, his lips were in my hair. As he rocked me I was trembling from all those walls tumbling down. For that moment I allowed myself to be held tenderly, no words were needed I knew he was feeling what I was feeling. It wasn't a want, it was need to be loved. Both of us were very much akin in that we were never really loved before.
Aldrich was old than mankind, a fallen God in some respect, spending hi existence for the pleasure for he was never willingly given. Who would love a murderer, liar, and in full honestly evil think like Aldrich, the grim truth is I did and he knew it. Not loving anyone not even himself, but he loved me and I wanted it.
I guess it went back to when I was a kid, Summer as I kid my only friend was a misfit like me, his name was Andrew. We were only seven and we were both the others support beam that held us up. He knew he was gay even then, I didn't know cause of my innocent ignorance. The night he told his parents I remember hearing those cries from my window, I awoke and saw in window next door his father hit him again... again... again... and again even after he stopped crying and breathing.
Then there were the Fall when I was a teenager my own father found out I was gay and those beatings we enough to kill a child, cause it killed the one in me. The scars may have scabbed over but I never could feel my mothers hugs after them.
The winter came and my mother died, she cared for me but the love was not there but I loved her. The gentle words, the fingers soothing my wounds, and those parting words that I blocked out. I had to escape from my hell, I grew up and left everything behind except my wallet and my memories.
Spring came for me when I came to the city and the flowers didn't bloom till I met Aldrich. I felt being rebuilt from the ground up and my soul was alive and the child inside of me breathed again. Nightmares from the past where left there and I was sane again.
I wanted it to be spring again so much so I was almost willing to forgive Aldrich. Those hands were healing me and I knew he loved me from the heat in my chest again. That sweet fantasy lasted almost an hour, when I looked at his eyes and saw he was crying. Proud, fearsome, and terrifying was Aldrich but I a mere mortal broke him in and out.
Those smooth lips trembled and his entire body shook, I was shaking too and we both managed to keep one another from crumpling. Words were necessary for him to convey what he needed to but he was too torn apart to say a thing. I never saw him like this before, he was always so dignified, without flaw or fault. Now it was almost like he was... well human. He needed me to hold, love, and protect him from his pain my absence had given him. To think I hated someone so pathetically cute looking.
Taking his hand I figured we needed to talk, so I led him who followed close enough for me to feel his chest at my back. We got to my apartment and I sat him down on the couch, I was going to make tea but he stopped me, he didn't want to let go of my hand.
I felt a smile form for the first time in weeks going on a months, as the drying tears felt like they were peeling off. I sat next to him as I looked at his yellow eyes, they were distant and still were a little too moist from crying.
I handed him a tissue, "thank you" was the first words he spoke to me in a defeated voice, how I missed it.
However I knew what he did before and I expected him to sing a song I was tuned to (sorry I took up playing the guitar so... yeah stupid metaphor noted).
"Evan I love you so much, your affection is dear to me and I want to keep it... but if only you can understand" Aldrich said as he tried to form the words.
"I told you before how I was a kind of God before the creation of this universe but... things were different then. If you could comprehend it with you limited mind I'd share it".
"Limited"?! I said offended as hell, "don't give me that God works in ways we cannot comprehend shit, I have been with you for a year! What kind of crap are you selling"!
That knowing look in his eyes told me that I hit it right on the money.
"Fine Evan, I just don't want to stop killing its a lifestyle I have been doing for a extremely long time and for you to no allow it due to 'morals' makes me mad. You love me and I love you so what does it matter if I kill people, especially those who you don't like".
I was a little ticked off as he regained his composure and was his very elegant and pompous ass self.
"I'll tell you why, cause I don't like taking a life. It is just wrong and I don't want to be with someone who is going to kill on my behalf when I don't even want him to, I might forgive some killing but not of a rude waiter or my own friends".
Aldrich looked at me a little miffed now, "first of all that waiter called you a fag and it hurt you so I defended my loves honour. Second those friends wanted to fuck you, one was planning to rape you the other was obsessive and made 'moves' on you constantly, so forgive me for being a jealous boyfriend".
Okay, then on I was getting pretty pissed, "most jealous boyfriends don't slaughter people just cause of that"!
"Most would if they could" Aldrich retorted back.
Again I felt like he was trying to justify being a total prick and acting like one while defending his actions.
"Aldrich if you love me so much why can't you give up killing for me"! I yelled at him trying to get him to understand my feelings.
"If you love me why can't you let me kill without pulling a guilt trip on me" Aldrich said anger coming off him like steam from boiling oil.
"Cause I don't want people dying cause of me" I said aloud as the tears came to me eyes and I could take it anymore.
I tried to leave but Aldrich kept me still by holding me tightly to his body. While I struggled I tried to think of something to say to get him to leave me alone for good. Then I felt his tears fall on me, I stopped feeling me chest throb painfully. Looking up I saw his face in agony.
Fuck I couldn't stop from feeling like an ass, through all the lies and emotional pain he gave me I never thought how I was hurting him. He seemed like he was going to get sick and die. Guilty tears rushed from my eyes and I started begging for forgiveness.
"Don't cry I'm sorry! I am so sorry, I was a bastard please forgive me please"! I pleaded.
Aldrich looked at me and through my tears I saw a trace of something I didn't see before. If I had to guess at the time, I would've said it was doubt of some kind.
The words that passed his mouth were so surreal and I didn't believe it till he repeated it over and over again.
"We are over Evan, we both can't survive like this, I love you".
Those words were said so many times and after he left as the words echo had died I realized it was for the best. After all it would have never worked out, me and my morals and him and his... funny thing is I didn't know what it was but I knew it was in the past and it would never stop haunting him. I know that from experience.
...to be continued.