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Lance's Thoughts
Previously
Chris nodded and replied, "I am sorry Nick. I shouldn't have suggested we leave. This is all my fault. I am so-." Nick cut him off by leaning forward and kissing Chris on the lips. The stayed in the kiss for a minute and then Chris finally pulled away.
"Wow," was all that Chris could come back with. Chris leaned back down and gave Nick a brief kiss before pulling away and saying, "I will see you tomorrow, ok? You need to get some sleep." Nick nodded and closed his eyes. Before Nick fell back asleep he mumbled, "I love you."
Chris smiled and replied, "And I you."
Chapter 2: A New Day
As Lance laid in his bed, he could hear the soft breathing of Justin. Justin seemed to be alright with the day's activities. He was upset that they were in a car accident, but he was alright. Lance found that again he couldn't fall asleep, so he decided to go get something to drink in the little cafe in the lobby. Lance through on some clothes and left the room.
In the cafe Lance sat at a back table slowly drinking a cup of coffee. He got to thinking again about what he was going to tell the guys. This was tearing him up inside, and he felt that he was going to burst if he didn't say something. He took another snip at his coffee, got up, and paid for his drink before leaving.
Lance went back into his room and settled back down in his bed. He laid down and soon sleep fell over him. Lance woke up the next morning shortly after seven. He found that no one else was awake you, and since he left Chris yesterday without really talking with him, he decided to go visit. He left a note for Justin to tell the other guys where he went. He left the room and called the limo.
About 20 minutes later he arrived at the hospital. He walked into Chris' room and when he found that he wasn't in there he started to panic a little.
He calmed down for a minute and decided to go check in Nick's room. As he walked into Nick's room he surprised to see that he and Chris were engaged in a passionate kiss. Lance in total shock asked, "Um, fellas what's going on here?"
The both quickly broke the kiss and Chris jumped back into his wheelchair. Nick had his head down, and Chris only briefly looked at Lance before doing the same. Lance walked over and knelt down in front of Chris. He smiled at Chris and said, "What a catch."
Chris looked up in total shock and tried to stammer out a couple words but all that came out was mumbles. Nick saw this and said, "Um, thanks Lance."
"Hey what you to do in private is none of my business. Plus I think you two will make a cute couple," with that Lance got up and hugged Chris, then moved and hugged Nick.
"What are you doing here so early Lance," Chris asked.
"Well since I didn't stay last night and talk to you, I decided to sit down and talk with you. Now I really have something to talk about. So how long has this been going on?"
"The truth," Chris asked, Lance nodded, "it has been going on for approximately seven hours." Lance looked over to Chris and gave a small laugh.
"Well I am happy for the both of you," Lance looked over to Nick and said, "he is a wild one. I hope you are up to it."
"Oh I think I will be able to tame him," Nick said with a smile.
"Oh is that so. We will just see about that," Chris replied.
"So has the doctor talked to you much yet?"
"Yeah he told us the news. Man I can't believe I won't be able to dance for more than 3 months," Nick said with a frown.
"I am sure you can find other "things" to occupy yourself during that time," Lance said with a big smile. Chris playfully punched Lance in the arm and said, "Hey no picking on my boyfriend," with that they all gave a laugh. They continued small talk until the door opened and in came the rest of both bands. The other band members moved towards the bed so they could talk with Chris and Nick. Lance moved away and watched all of this intently.
He was very happy for Chris and Nick. He just wished he could have something like that. Thinking about all this he was quickly drawn back in to his own dilemma. He was so afraid of losing his friends. He knew that Nick and Chris would support him, but he didn't think that would be enough. He looked at everyone in the room one by one. The last person he looked at was Brian. Brian had been so nice to him since he arrived. He especially didn't want to lose that friendship.
Pretty soon J.C. had walked over to him and asked him in a whisper, "You ok Scoop? You have been pretty withdrawn for the past week or so." Lance nodded and walked out of the room. I have to get away Lance thought to himself. Lance walked out of the hospital and hailed a taxi. He told the driver he wanted to go to the nearest park. In about 5 minutes he arrived, paid the driver and got out.
Back at the Hospital
Brian looked around the room and noticed that Lance was no longer in the room. He walked over to J.C. and asked him where Lance went. "I asked him if he was ok he nodded and walked out of the room. I think he left the hospital."
"Do you know where he went?"
"You might try his hotel room. If he isn't there, he likes to go places that are quiet so he can think. He has been doing a lot of that lately."
"Thanks J.C." J.C. just nodded and Brian was out the door. He called to the hotel and asked for Lance's room. He got no answer. He called a cab and asked the driver to take him to the public library. Brian thought that this was probably one of the quietest places to go. A few minutes later Brian was at the library and searching for Lance. He couldn't find him and went back to the taxi.
"Hey do you know of any places in town that you would go to get alone. Some place quiet," Brian asked the cab driver.
"Hmmm lets see, you could go to the church or the park."
"Take me to the park."
"Alright." About fifteen minutes later the cab pulled up to the park. Brian made a quick scan of the park and saw a blonde figure sitting on the swings. He told the cab driver not to wait and he got out. He slowly walked up to Lance. He sat down in the swing beside Lance and said, "Pretty quiet here."
"Yeah I like going places like this whenever I need time to think."
"Yeah J.C. said the same thing. So what are you thinking about? You remember I said you could talk to me about anything. I am your friend."
"You wouldn't be my friend after what I would tell you."
"Try me it may come as a shock."
"No, I don't want to lose your friendship."
"Lance you won't lose my friendship no matter what you say. You can trust me. I am here to help you." Lance let out a big sigh and shook his head. "Please Lance, just tell me."
"Brian...I'm...I am...gay," Lance looked to the ground and didn't bother to look up to see Brian's expression. Brian sat there in shock for a moment before getting off the swing and kneeling down in front of Lance. He put his hand under Lance's chin and just smiled.
"Hey I don't care if you are. That isn't what makes you, you," Lance looked back at Brian, gave a smile, leaned down and gave Brian a kiss on the lips. Brian quickly backed away and said, "Lance, I'm sorry, I'm not gay." Lance quickly looked away ashamed and embarrassed. Brian saw this immediately and said, "Hey Lance, don't worry about it. We are still friends. This doesn't change anything. I mean that; you can still talk to me about anything."
Lance nodded and said, "Thanks Brian."
"Hey what are friends for?" With that Brian and Lance walked off. Lance pulled out his cell phone and called a cab. A few moments later the cab arrived and they entered the cab. They told the driver where they wanted to go and were back at the hotel before they knew it.
"Hey Brian, I want to tell the guys, but I don't know how they are going to act. What do you think I should do?"
"I think you should do what you feel is right in your heart. Whatever you decide I will be right behind you."
"Thanks again." Once Lance and Brian got in the elevator they both went their own ways to their rooms. A little after 4 in the afternoon, Lance got a call from Brian saying that they were having dinner in Kevin's room, and that he needed to be there at six. Lance thanked him and hung up the phone.
Lance sat down in one of the chairs and turned on some music to try and help him think. Music always helped him think it helped clear his mind. He put in a Creed CD, and slowly listened to the slow rhythm of "My Own Prison." After the song ended he got up to take a shower. He turned the water on to the desired temperature and stepped in. The warm water felt wonderful against his tense body.
He stood under the water for five minutes before getting himself clean. After 20 minutes he was finished and stepped out of the shower. Lance saw that he still had about an hour and a half left and he was feeling a little tired, so he decided to take a small rest. Very quickly sleep took over him.
Lance got up and saw that it was 5:45. He went into the bathroom and fixed his hair. When he was satisfied he left the room and went to Kevin's room. He walked in and saw that everyone else was there. Everyone nodded to him when he walked in and continued eating. Lance walked over to where the food was and got a plate of food and took a seat next to Brian on the couch.
Lance saw that Chris and Nick where sitting very close together. He guessed no one else really noticed it. Kevin and J.C. we in their own conversation. Joey, Howie, A.J., and Justin were also in a conversation, although Lance couldn't tell hear what they were talking about. Lance saw that Brian was being quiet. Lance looked at him and asked, "Hey thanks again for this afternoon."
"Like I said no problem, and whatever you decide I will be right behind you."
"Thank Brian. That means a lot to me." Soon all of the band members were in a conversation about the upcoming tour. "So," Howie started, "What is our first stop?"
"We will kick off the tour in Chicago after that we will be in Fargo," Kevin said. Everyone nodded and they talked so more about little details about the tour. Brian got up and cleared his throat, indicating to everyone that he had something to say. Everyone stopped talking and turned their attention to Brian. Brian looked down at Lance and smiled.
"Well now that I have your attention, I think Lance has something he needs to tell everyone." Lance quickly looked up at Brian in shock. Lance shook his head. "Come on Lance tell them."
"What do you have to tell us Scoop," Justin asked.
"Yeah Lance, what is it," Howie seconded.
"Well umm...I...am...I'm gay," Lance said trying to get everything out. He looked up and everyone had a weird face. Lance was about to say something when J.C. got up and walked over to him. He gave him a little hug and said, "Hey that's cool man. It doesn't change anything between us."
Joey looked at Lance and said, "Lance you're a fag?" Lance looked at Joey with shock. Joey was the last person he would expect to say something like that. Joey got up and left the room. Howie, A.J., and Kevin also left the room. They all had disgusted looks on their face. Lance got up and ran out of the room. He heard Chris call after him but he didn't stop.
Lance got into the elevator and pressed the lobby button. Lance walked out of the hotel, he didn't know where he was going, but he knew that he needed to go somewhere to think. He walked down a busy street in Phoenix, Arizona.
He was looking at the ground, and began thinking about what Joey had said and what Kevin, A.J., and Howie's faces had looked like. The disgust in their faces, Lance didn't care though. He didn't even really know, so their opinions didn't really matter to him.
Joey though, the words that came out of his mouth hurt Lance greatly. He thought that Joey was his friend. They had known each other a long time. He was truly the last person he would have thought would say something like that. His words kept repeating in Lances head. Lance saw a different park than the one he had been to earlier in the day.
Lance saw a secluded place and went over and sat down. He put his head in hands and began to cry. He wished Brian hadn't of brought it up. Why had Brian brought it up? Maybe he was really mad that I had kissed him and he wanted to get back at me, Lance thought to himself. No, Brian would never do that.
"Excuse me, are you alright?" Lance looked up with red eyes at the person who had spoken to him. "Hey man, do you want to talk about it." The mysterious person kneeled down in front of Lance and asked again, "Hey, do you want to talk about it?" Lance stared at the kindness someone was showing him. Lance again, put his head in his hands and started sobbing.
The person quickly brought Lance into a hug and tried to comfort him as much as possible. After about ten minutes Lance quit crying and looked again at the person who was now holding him. Lance looked the person in the eyes and found the most beautiful pair of brown eyes.
"So do you want to talk about whatever you were crying about..." the person started.
"Lance," Lance said answering the question the person had been wanting to know.
"Ok Lance," the person gave a smile, "I'm Alex." Lance extended his hand and they shook. "So Lance, why were you crying like that. Something really bad must have happened."
"I just had a bad experience with someone I thought was my friend."
"Must have been a bad one."
"Yeah...well thanks Alex, but umm...I think I probably should be getting back, my other friends might be worried about me."
"Ok...hey let me give you my number in case something else happens and you want to talk to someone about it."
"Ok, sure." Alex quickly wrote down his number and gave it to Lance. Lance put it in his pocket and turned to leave. He looked back and gave Alex a smile, which was returned to him. Lance walked quickly back to the hotel. He got on his floor and walked to his room.
Lance unlocked the door and walked in. There he found Justin asleep in his bed. Lance looked at the clock and saw that it was almost eight. Lance suddenly felt very tired. He climbed into his bed and quickly fell asleep.
Lance awoke about an hour later. He looked at the clock and sighed. He started thinking about Alex. Alex had been so kind to him even though they didn't know each other. Also, Lance was very attracted to him. He was perfect in Lance's eyes. Lance reached into his pocket and pulled out the number.
He called and after two rings someone picked up.
"Hello?"
"Hey Alex, this is Lance. I was wondering if you wanted to do something. Like maybe go see a movie. I mean if you don't want to I will understand, I just..."
"I would like that," Alex cut Lance off.
"Really? Cool, I where can I pick you up at?" Alex gave Lance the directions. Lance went to the bathroom to straighten his hair up. He stepped out of the bathroom and decided he should leave a message for Justin just in case. Lance checked himself in the mirror to make sure he looked good. He was satisfied and then he left the room. He pulled out his cell-phone and called the limo driver.
Lance got into the limo and gave the driver the directions. The drive to Alex's house took twenty minutes. Lance stepped out of the limo and went to the front porch. He knocked on the door and heard someone yell, "come in." Lance entered and saw that Alex was getting his shoes on.
"Please, take a seat."
"Alright," Lance said sitting down. Alex finished putting his shoes on and said, "So all ready?"
"Yep."
"Ok so where shall we go?"
"Well, I really haven't eaten much of anything today, and since you know the city real well, you might know somewhere we can eat."
"Sounds like a plan. I know the perfect place."
"Ok lets get going than." They stepped out of the house and Alex stopped and looked at Lance. "What," Lance asked.
"Are you some kind of star or something."
"You don't know?"
Alex shook his head.
"I am Lance Bass. I'm in the group 'Nsync."
"I have heard of you, but I am sorry I don't really listen to much of anything except classical music."
"Well than that should make dinner even better."
"How so?"
"Well this way we can get to know each other better. Since we both know nothing about the other." Alex smiled and they continued the walk to the limo. Alex gave the driver to the directions to the restaurant. After a short drive they were in front of the restaurant.
"Lance, I am telling you this place has the best steak you will ever eat."
"Great! I am starved." They entered the restaurant and Alex went over and talked to the host. They had a brief conversation. Alex pointed over in Lance's direction and smiled. The host nodded and they were quickly seated towards the pack of the restaurant. "What was that all about," Lance said as they took their seats.
"Oh, I just told him who you were and that we wanted a place that was out of the way so you wouldn't be bothered."
"Thanks."
"No problem. I figured that you didn't want to be disturbed, at least not tonight anyway."
"Yeah, I don't think I can handle fans right now."
"Do you want to talk about it now? I have been told that I am a great listener."
"Maybe later. Let's eat first. Let's get to know each other."
"Sounds like a plan to me." Just then the waiter came. Lance ordered the T-bone steak with a baked potato, while Alex ordered a rib eye also, with a baked potato. They started talking about their past. Lance talking about how he joined the group, and Alex talking about how he ended up living alone in Arizona.
"So you want to know why I am living here on my own," Alex asked. Lance nodded and Alex added, "Okay, but only on one condition. You tell me why you were so upset earlier." Lance got real quiet and thought about it for a few minutes. "Please Lance, I promise if it is that bad, I won't say anything about it. You can trust me," Alex pleaded.
"I don't know Alex, I don't want to lose your friendship."
"Lance, trust me nothing you say will change a friendship, I have been through all this before with many other friends."
"Fine you want to know, I am gay, I came out to my friends, and one of them called me a 'fag.' Then to top it all of he left the room and was followed by members of another band we a touring with," Lance said looking down at his food and letting tears fall.
"Wow, that is pretty bad, but correct me if I am wrong there are five of you in 'Nsync."
"Yeah so."
"Well, you still have the other three right?"
"Well yeah."
"See than it can't be all that bad."
"Yeah I guess, but it still hurts."
"I know, but give him some time. I am sure you just surprised him and this was the only way he knew how to handle it."
"I guess..." Lance took a drink and continued, "So how did you end up living alone here in Phoenix."
Alex sighed and started his story, "Well about three years ago I was living with my parents and younger brother. We were happy together; well at least I pretended to be. It was the night of my school play; I had the leading role. So, my family was going to come."
"Well I had decided the night before that I was going to come out to them after the play. I had held it inside me for the longest time and I felt they needed to know. The play was fantastic. My parents were so proud of me. We left the school and were on our way home," about this time Alex started tearing up.
"Listen Alex, if it is to hard you don't..."
"No, I am going to finish," Lance nodded and Alex continued his story. "So I figured I would tell them at home that way we would all be able to sit down and talk about it. About a block from our house a drunk driver who ran a red light hit us. The next thing I remember I was lying in a hospital with some doctor standing over me. I had tubes coming out all over my body."
"I found out that both my parents had been killed instantly. Since we were hit from the front, my brother and I were hurt pretty badly but we still survived. I don't know how long I cried, but I do know that when I stopped the only thing I could think of was that I never got the chance to tell them."
"The next day I was allowed to leave my bed and go see my brother. Thank god we had been wearing seatbelts. I am almost positive that we would have died had we not have been wearing them. I was wheeled into his room. He was hooked up to a machine that was helping him breath. The doctors said that he would recover, but he would probably need some plastic surgery cause his face had been damaged pretty badly."
"He looked like a beaten up rag doll laying on that bed. I cried even more when I saw him. I stayed with him as long as I could, but I was told to go back to my room about three hours later," by now both Lance and Alex had steady tears flowing down their faces. "The next day I was visited by the family lawyer. He had been a good friend of the family for years."
"He started talking to me about my parents will and their life insurance policy. Basically what he told me was that since my parents didn't have a siblings and that my grandparents were dead, I was a very rich seventeen-year-old. I inherited everything, the cars, the house, and all the money. I asked him to leave after he explained everything to me. I cried for a long time after that."
"Two days later my parents had their funeral. I was allowed to go, but my brother was not. It would two weeks before he was even allowed to leave his room. Since my parents had a very good insurance policy my brother was able to have his surgery and his scars weren't that noticeable. Two weeks later we were allowed to leave and we returned to our house."
"We both decided to sell the house and but a smaller one. We sold a lot of the items in the house, but kept all the possessions that were sacred to us.
We put all of that in storage. We have lived in that house ever since. Right now he is at college. I told him about three months after my parents died that I was gay. He took it very well."
"Well that is basically my story in a nutshell," Alex wiped his tears and looked at Lance and saw that Lance too, was wiping his tears. Few minutes later the check arrived and Lance picked up the check with a little argument on who was going to pay. After that they both got up and left. Once they were in the limo Lance brought Alex into a hug and said, "Alex I am so sorry you went though all of that."
"Hey, it's not your fault. I got through it and it has made me a stronger person." Lance nodded and soon they were at Alex's house. They both got out and walked to his front porch.
"Well Alex, I really had a good time. Thanks for being here for me today. You have really helped me a lot. I can't thank you enough."
"No, thank you Lance. I know that everything will be all right with you and your friends. And if that one doesn't come around you still have the other three who I am sure will support you." Lance smiled at Alex, leaned forward and soon they were in a passionate kiss.
After a couple minutes the broke the kiss. "Well Alex, I am going to be here for a couple more days. I hope that we can see each other again soon."
"I hope so too. I have really enjoyed myself tonight." Alex leaned forward and gave Lance another small kiss. Lance gave Alex his cell-phone number and soon Lance was walking back to the limo, happier than he had been in a long time.
To be continued...
Well there it is. I hoped you enjoyed it. I enjoyed writing this story. Please send me email. I love getting emails... I didn't get very many last time...I hope it will be different this time. I am so sorry it took so long to get this out. I had encouragement from my good friend Frank. I hope that it won't take as long to get the next part out. Thanks for reading.