This is a fictional story about the gorgeous hunk of bear that I met online sometime back. Above average height, beefy and hairy and with a beautiful dick. I have only had interactions with him via social media where he has pages that show him in 'G' rated to 'R' rated images. And a few hot videos of this stunning gingery brown haired hunk. Shane he is with someone. He is a nice, funny guy and I so would love to hook up with him.
Here's to you Ray.
Lasagna Ray (14) A Final Meet...
... Ray came down to see me, just like he promised. I suggested he stay at a hotel for I did not need the temptation of him to deter my evaluation of our continued compatibility. He agreed, and he promised not to try and push me. But kept saying how much he loved me and that I was the one he wanted. He arrived on a Thursday. Calling me when he checked in. Then wondering what and where we should go for that dorst dinner date together. His plan was to spend as much time with me over the weekend as possible. I took the Friday and Monday following off, so as I took wanted to spend the time with him. I tried to tell myself that there would be no sex, no intimacy of that kind while he was here. It was too much of a distraction and would sway me more than it should. Yes I had to abstain from him for fear I would just fall after the awesome sex he would give me.
"What hotel are you at" I asked him
He told me where and I suggested a 6 pm dinner at the pier. There was a bunch of nice places to eat there. He was good with that. Had a need for seafood' he said. I got to his hotel and went up to the 4th floor where his room was. I headed up the elevator. My head trying to put together scenarios of how this would go. Excitement and fear hovered about me. Then I got to the door of his room and I knocked. I heard movement inside and then the door opening.woth a 'clack'.
"Hey" he said as he saw me "Hi" I said back softly "Come in, come in"
I stepped in, feeling my nerves kicking into overdrive. I truly was afraid of what was going to happen here. He looked so utterly handsome. Even in the T-shirt and khakis he was wearing. His big broad chest stuffed into the shirt. Arms looking think and meaty. We did not hug as he pulled back before making the attempt. He told me to sit and asked if I wanted water. I agreed as I felt my mouth going parched.
"Thanks" I said as sat done in the bed.
He leaned against the desk across from me and we made some awkward small talk. Asking how we each were. Just saying anything to get through the hanging uncomfortableness between us. He then moved over and sat next to me. I looked at his beautiful face and almost lost it. His eyes were wet with moisture. He was holding back tears as he started to talk about 'us' again.
"I can only hope that we can somehow come through this" he said "Hate feeling uncomfortable" "Aren't you uncomfortable" "I wish 'i love you' was enough to fix it"
He looked back at me and half smiled. I did the same. He was right, this was so damned awkward and uncomfortable. I felt almost sick to my stomach at how this was at that moment.
"I miss you" I finally spit out "I miss you too" he replied.
I turned to him and reached for his face. I just needed to touch him, anything to stop the quakes in my belly. So I reached for him, touching his beard and his cheek. His eyes closed as he felt my hand on him. Then he reached for me and pulled me to him pulling me into an embrace. And that caused the tears to blow out of me. There as he held me, I just bawled. Bawled in his arms as we sat there. It was distressing, but comforting to just sit there holding one another. I turned over to look at his face again. I looked at those eyes and then those lips. The lips I so needed right now. And I wanted to just give into my longing and kiss him. But then I felt him pull from me. He patted my back and then suggested we head out. I nodded and then sat up, wiping my eyes of tears. Dinner was okay. I was still feeling very uncomfortable and uneasy about our meeting. What was to come of it. Would we decide to be together finally, or would he just go back to his boyfriend and deal with the BS. For he still care about him as well. This was Ray's conundrum. Feelings for the familiar and for something new. Which way would he decide was the best for him. He had a very quiet dinner as the heavy quiet of our situation hovered above us. We ate and then headed out to the main thoroughfare. Shops and night life and such. He wanted to walk into a shop and look for something to take back home with him. He purchased an item and we walked back out to the streets. It was then that day reached over and took my hand as we walked. I felt him fingers against mine as he grabbed for me, then looked over to him. We stopped By a square with outdoor musicians and a fountain. He took me and sat me down. He then looked into my eyes again. Proceeding to tell me again how he loved me.
"I do love you ever so much" he again repeated. "And I am so afraid that if I let you go today" "I will lose you forever" "I don't want that" "I want you"
He reached for my face as I looked at his eyes. They were moist with the possible flow of oncoming tears. The he gave me a tender and very soft kiss.
"I just need to figure this out is all" he said again
Well I know I wanted him. And I was willing to wait. For an eternity if I had to. I loved Ray more than life's breath. So I nodded and said to him that I would let him decide which he wanted. And I would wait for him.
"I love you Ray" I said again "I will wit a lifetime if I must" "For there is no one else who will ever have my heart"
Then we sat there for a bit. Just watching the crowds move about, listening to the music. I lay my head in his broad shoulder and sighed there. There at that moment just happy to be here with him. After hanging out a bit longer he suggested we part. He would go back to his hotel and I would go home. What I really wanted at that moment was him to come home with me. I wanted just to lay in bed in his arms. We need not for anything as that was what we were trying to avoid. But I would have given anything to be able to sleep in his arms. Even for just one night. Seeing as this might be the last time we saw one another. So he decided to go back to his boyfriend. But I respected his wish and then we hugged and parted. Another soft kiss and hugged before doing so. I had tears in my eyes as I watched him walk away. Afraid that this was the last I would see of Ray. I whispered an 'i love you' to him as I turned to head back to my car. I did cry on my way home again. Then crawled into bed and tried to fall asleep. Something that did not come early that night. Ray went home and back to what's his name the next day. The visit was but a very brief meet to see me. A brief time to spend together before he made the greatest decision he would ever make. I knew the outcome I wished for, but did not assume for one moment that I would be the winner in this. He had been with his man for years before me. And I was just something to upset the balance of his life. A distraction of sorts
"What ever happens" I said the evening we parted "Whatever happens. I just want him to be happy" "That's all"...
More to come