This story contains portrayals of homosexual actions and lifestyles. There may be references to, or explicit descriptions of, sex between consenting adults.
If homosexuality, sexually explicit language, or swearing offends you, or if reading material that contains these topics violates any law or personal or religious beliefs, or if you under 18 years of age, please leave now, without proceeding further.
This story is entirely fictional, and any resemblances to actual persons are completely coincidental. Actual locations are mentioned, and are used for 'background' only.
Many of the character's names are Finnish. For those who wish to know how they are pronounced, read on.
Mikko - MEEK-ko Paavo - PAH-vo Joel - YOE-el Halonen - HALL-oh-nen
Roy roynm@mac.com
Leith - chapter 4
Mikko lay on the bed with his arm over his eyes, shielding himself from the glare of the sun off the lake and nearby buildings of downtown Chicago. He could hear the shower running, as well as a radio program Leith was listening to. He wasn't sure if he was hearing Leith's voice or if he were hearing some especially bad singing on the radio. He grinned to himself, thinking of his son and how the two of them had become closer over the past few months. 'Damn, I wish Joel was here right now.' He thought of his brother, as he rubbed across the pouch of his underwear with one hand while shielding his eyes with the other. 'It's been so long since I've been with someone, it's driving me crazy.'
The shower continued to run. He determined the voice he heard must be coming from his son. It didn't matter how bad the singing was, he was pleased Leith even felt like singing. He missed his happy-go-lucky son, the boy who took after his mother and was always joking about something. Mikko wiggled himself into a comfortable position, creating a nest among the sheets and blankets on the bed, luxuriating in the first sense of true freedom he'd had since the deaths of Julie and Mason. Today he didn't have to attend court, or give depositions or interviews . . . nothing. There was only Leith and him. He stopped moving, opening his eyes wide, struck with a thought.
'Maybe the fact that I'm so horny has made me start thinking of Leith as a sex partner. After all, he's the only male nearby, other than the guys at work.' He made a face. 'None of them would get me excited, that's for sure.' He rubbed his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose. 'I've never thought of Leith, or Mason in a sexual way. Why now? . . . It has to be the fact that I'm so horny.' He rubbed both hands across the short hair of his chest, pausing a moment at his nipples. 'Oh, Joel, where are you when I really need you? Hearing your voice last night brought back so many memories.' He lightly pinched each nipple, closing his eyes and smiling. 'And if hearing your voice wasn't enough, I slept next to a sexy naked man last night.' He pinched harder, opening his mouth to take a deep breath.
He ran a hand over his belly, then under the waist band of his underwear and began to massage his cock, his mind replaying images of his son standing naked in front of the dresser, only minutes earlier. 'What a handsome young man he's become. The summer job at the pool toned his body and the sun's given him an even caramel color.' What was especially exciting, Mikko moaned lightly, grasping himself harder, was the crisp tan line, highlighting Leith's snowy-white butt and groin. The white skin made the thick black pubes even more prominent. 'What a beautiful penis,' Mikko ran a finger from side to side over the tip of his penis. 'I love the way it seems to always be half-way to hard, as well as the way it swings from side to side as he walks.' Mikko was losing himself in the sensations he was experiencing. 'Leith is right,' he thought. 'I've always told him and Mason to be proud of their bodies. Now, he's throwing my words back in my face and I'm upset.' He bit his lower lip as he pinched one of his nipples. 'At least it shows he was listening.' He squeezed himself harder, spreading out his fingers to cup his testicles.
'Damn, I wish Joel was here!' Mikko pulled the front of his underwear over his rapidly stiffening cock, stretching the waistband to be held in place by his balls. He spread his long legs and groaned at the feeling of his hand pleasuring himself. "Ohhh, Joel," he whispered, loud. 'You said you'd like to try and have what we once did. I want you beside me so bad.'
Mikko opened his eyes, listening for the shower. Satisfied he would be alone for a few minutes longer, he closed his eyes once more and began masturbating himself slowly . . . just the way Joel would do, his memories of his brother playing against his closed eyelids. He could almost feel Joel gently caressing his penis as they kissed. A groan escaped his lips and he began moving faster, thinking of Joel's deep kisses.
He remembered the first time his brother kissed him. Both had only recently become teenagers. They and some of their friends were playing in the forest near their parent's summer cottage on the bluff overlooking Lake Superior. Some of the boys had begun to taunt Joel, teasing him for always wanting his "little" brother to tag along. The fact there was only one year's difference in their ages or that Mikko was the same height as his older brother wasn't important. He was still always Joel's little brother." In fact, to this day, Joel called him his "little brother. The words had become a form of endearment that never failed to make Mikko smile.
Mikko spread the pre-cum over the head of his penis with one finger, smearing the slippery liquid back and forth. After a moment he brought his finger to his mouth and began sucking on it as he continued masturbating himself with his other hand, recalling how good it felt to have his big brother stand up for him before their summer-time friends from neighboring cottages. Mikko remembered hearing one kid, a slightly older guy named Max, laughingly tease Joel.
"Since you love the little guy so much, let us watch you suck him off." The other boys had instantly gone silent, looking from the two brothers to the older boy, then back at the brothers, excited at what might happen. "You guys ever sucked each other off before?" the older boy scoffed.
Mikko remembered Joel turning to him, silently asking with his eyes if it was okay. He remembered not being exactly sure what being sucked off meant, but he figured it had something having to do with sex and that excited him. He remembered feeling his penis begin to harden at the thought of his brother doing something sexual with him. The two had often seen each other naked. In fact they often wrestled naked, leaving each with an erection. Mikko remembered starting many such contests just so he could see his brother's erection. He nodded his permission and began to unfasten his belt, the other boys forgotten. There was only him and his big brother.
Joel reached for Mikko's hand and stopped him from unzipping his jeans with a shake of his head and a slight frown. Instead, Joel moved close, reaching for his brother, gently enfolding him in an embrace and pressing his body close. Mikko remembered feeling Joel's erection through his pants and pulled him closer. He remembered the smell of Joel's after shave and the feeling of his breath as the two boys got closer.
"Shit, he's gonna kiss him!" one of the boys whispered. Mikko remembered hearing a rustling sound, as their friends moved closer. By now, he had his eyes closed. Joel's lips met his and Mikko stopped thinking of anything other than the feeling of Joel's tongue against his lips seeking entry to his mouth. He remembered shuddering in excitement and moaning aloud as he felt Joel's tongue against his. He also remembered the quiver that passed through Joel, a mirror to the one he had experienced moments earlier, lying on the bed, his hand slowly masturbating himself. He remembered how Joel's tremor made him realize his brother was enjoying the kiss as much as he.
"Enough with the kissing Joel we wanna see you suck your little brother off." Max turned to the other boys and smirked, "think the little fucker can shoot a load?" A couple of the other boys nervously laughed, caught between excitement and embarrassment. Mikko smiled to himself. He knew he was able to cum, and after seeing other boys in the school showers, he knew he wasn't so little either. Max was going to be surprised. Reluctantly it seemed, Joel pulled away from his brother's mouth. Both boys were breathing heavily.
Joel knelt in front of him and began lowering his zipper. A sense of anticipation had gripped each of the onlookers, matching that of the two brothers. "Geez," he heard one of the other boys mutter as Joel pushed Mikko's pants down around his ankles and then reached up to begin massaging his little brother's butt, his face buried in Mikko's groin. Mikko grabbed Joel's head, pulling him closer. His excitement grew as he felt his brother slide a warm hand underneath the seat of his underwear and rub across the smooth skin of his butt. The thought that they were doing this in front of a group of guys added to his excitement. It was too much. He released Joel's head and shuffled back a bit, pulling his own underwear down, enjoying the feeling of the sun on his naked skin, and the sounds of indrawn breaths from some of the boys.
Mikko smiled at the reaction of the boys, even now as he lay on the bed in the apartment, listening to the shower run. His entire penis was now slick with precum, providing lubrication as he began running his hand up and down its length, spreading his legs further, wishing it were Joel's mouth on his dick . . . like the first time.
The sight of his brother's cock didn't surprise Joel. He scooted closer and looked up at Mikko, their eyes meeting. Joel was kneeling in front of him, his mouth slightly open. Mikko remembered how his brother slowly licked his lips, holding Mikko's hard cock at its base. Mikko was anxious to see the head of his penis disappear into the warmth of his Joel's mouth. He was almost trembling with the thought of cumming inside his brother's mouth, and the thought of Joel actually swallowing his cum was almost enough to make him shoot without any stimulation whatsoever.
"Shiiit," one of the boys muttered as Joel slowly moved forward and licked once across the end of Mikko's penis, causing a shiver to course through his body. After that first lick, he paused a moment. It was as if Joel were trying to figure out whether he liked the taste of Mikko's pre cum. He held Mikko's dick, examining it at the same time he reached up to cup his thirteen year-old brother's testicles, feeling their weight in his warm hand.
Laying on the bed, Mikko moved his hand faster; recalling how after only a few moments of examining his cock and running his tongue over his lips, Joel leaned forward and slowly swallowed Mikko, burying his nose in his brother's sparse pubic hair. Mikko groaned, the same sound he made years ago, this time in an adult voice.
"Joel," he murmured, aloud. He groaned once again, this time louder, caught up in the memories. "Slower, man."
"We want to see the kid shoot," Max said, motioning all of the other boys closer. They each jostled for position, standing silent except for their heavy breathing. "Let us see him shoot into your mouth, Joel," Max urged. Joel appeared to ignore him. Mikko looked down at his kneeling brother. His eyes were closed. The sight of his rigid penis penetrating Joel's mouth over and over, combined with the feeling of his brother's hands kneading the muscles of his butt was bringing Mikko close. His breathing became faster.
The boys, sensing he was about to shoot, tried to move even closer. He was almost there when he felt someone else's hand join his brother's on his butt. That was all it took. Joel was aware his brother was about ready to cum, so he backed up, opened his mouth wide and stuck out his tongue while beginning to slowly masturbate his brother.
Mikko's hips bucked on the bed, as he gave his penis one last stroke. He remembered the feeling of the other boy's hand caressing his ass cheeks, the sight of his brother kneeling before him with his tongue extended . . . and the sight of his first jet of boyish cum blasting into his brother's mouth. Joel flinched slightly, taken by surprise at the strength of the shot.
Mikko squirmed on the bed grasping his balls with one hand as the first shot of sperm hit him on the chin. It didn't matter to him any more whether he could hear the shower or not. He was lost in his memories and the intense orgasm that had captured his body. He was overwhelmed with sensations each time his cock spewed another blast, each one shorter than the last. Finally, he lay back exhausted, a line of thick white cum extending from the end of his cock over his stomach and chest, ending at his chin and lower lip.
After a few moments he reached up to his stomach and began running his fingers through the puddles, spreading them over the taut muscles of his stomach. He licked over his lower lip, and then, still with his eyes closed, brought his sperm-covered hand to his mouth and licked across the palm, once again groaning in pleasure. His penis continued to twitch.
"Whew, that was hot!" Mikko's eyes flew open to see his son standing at the bathroom door, his own hard penis in his fist. Like his father, he was recovering from an orgasm. Mikko dropped his head back onto the bed and groaned, but made no effort to cover himself.
"Uncle Joel must be something," Leith said in a low voice, continuing to masturbate his slowly softening penis. "You were groaning his name while you were jacking off," Leith supplied when his father once again tilted his head up making a questioning noise deep in his throat. "Were you thinking about him just now?"
Mikko nodded, returning his head to the bed.
"About when you guys were kids?" Again, a nod.
"The first time he sucked me off," Mikko murmured. "You remember the first time Mason ever . . . " He couldn't finish. He couldn't believe he was discussing this with his son.
Leith managed to suppress a giggle, causing his father to look at him under his eyelashes. "In the sauna, the night after you and Brett and Uncle Joel and I masturbated. The thought of what happened in the same room the night before, combined with Mason sucking on me made me shoot quick." Leith paused a moment then started laughing. Uncle Paavo's sauna was sure seeing a lot of action during that vacation!"
Leith' voice turned serious. "Dad, I'm thinking things are better between us now. Am I right? I mean after this? He moved to the side of the bed and sat down next to his father, gesturing to Mikko's limp penis lying atop his black pubes and the rapidly liquefying trail of sperm coating his chest, then pointing to himself.
Mikko opened his eyes, seeing Leith's concern. "I think so. I have to apologize for being so righteous with you earlier." Leith gestured that it wasn't important, but Mikko continued.
"You see, Leith," he said, still laying back, but looking at his son's solemn expression. "Joel and I grew up as . . . lovers." He almost choked on the word, but managed to say it without a feeling of guilt. "When he went off to Arizona to work, both of us felt like the end of the world was near. We were like you, without your brother. We didn't know what to do." Mikko swallowed before continuing. Eventually, we learned to carry on without each other nearby. We made lots of phone calls, but . . . it wasn't the same as being together.
Eventually, I married your mother. We were neighbors as we were growing up. I had known her all my life. She never knew about Joel and me, but I think she suspected." Mikko sighed. "She was kind, . . . She didn't hurry me into sex." He looked up to see Leith's puzzled expression.
"I had trouble . . . functioning . . . with a woman." Mikko stammered. "You see, I . . . never had." He grinned crookedly at his son. "She was understanding and finally . . . things worked."
"Leith, you have to understand something, what with all this talk about Joel and I being lovers." He paused a moment, gathering his thoughts. "Leith, I truly loved your mother. She was a wonderful, understanding, funny . . . special woman. The whole time we were married, except for that damn sauna-thing, I never fooled around behind her back. I loved her. . . . I still do." Mikko's voice broke. He felt Leith's hand on his thigh, offering comfort and understanding.
"But since she's . . . gone, I . . . I don't know what to do." He sighed, a deep ragged, shuddering kind of sigh. "I still love Joel, Leith. . . . And . . . he says he loves me. Neither one of us knows whether we will ever be able to reestablish the kind of relationship we once had, what with your aunt Susan and your cousins and all, but I want to be close to him. I feel like I need to be close to him."
"So, let's move to Phoenix," Leith supplied, and then hesitated. "You guys aren't gonna do something to hurt Aunt Susan or the boys though, are you?" He looked at his father with a worried expression. "Cause that wouldn't be cool."
Mikko rolled his head from side to side. "No, neither of us want that. But what both of us do want is to be close to each other. . . . You wouldn't have any trouble moving from Chicago? Leaving everything?
"Dad, I want to leave everything . . . . The memories and pain are too strong here. Maybe if we're someplace else, we can do some of that growing you were talking about the other day. As long as I'm with you, I'll be okay. Just don't leave me, Dad. I couldn't handle that . . . at least not yet." Mikko grinned, gripping his son's hand and squeezing it in understanding.
"So, this thing you've been feeling about me," Leith asked. "Are you feeling better about that now? . . . I mean about the . . . guilt?"
"I guess." He took a deep breath, releasing it slowly. "Leith, I have to tell you, if you weren't my son, I would absolutely love to have a sexual relationship with you. You're sooo sexy, you almost take my breath away." Leith was smiling brightly. "But, I . . . can't . . . have a relationship . . . like that . . . with you. Not ever. Do you understand what I'm saying?" Leith nodded slowly, continuing to hold his father's hand.
"You need Uncle Joel."
"Yes, Leith, I need Joel, but I need you to be with me as well. I don't know that anything sexual with Joel will ever happen again. If not, that's gonna be tough to handle, but it'll be okay. What I need is to have the two men I love most in the whole world close by. Just because I love those two men doesn't mean I have to have sex with them"
"No more guilt about things that happened in the past?" Leith asked.
"No. I'll try not to."
"No more guilt about feeling like you'd like to have sex with me?"
Mikko sighed, "I guess not." He looked at his son, then amended his answer. "No, no more guilt. You can run around naked all you want and I promise I won't jump you." Mikko smiled at his son's expression.
"If you run around naked too much though, I may need to masturbate often. Just because I won't have sex with you doesn't mean I can't fantasize about you."
"Great!" Leith laughed. "Masturbation is fun. Can I watch?"
~To be continued.~
As with my earlier story, 'Phalen,' (Nifty College Section) I would like to thank you for taking the time to read my work. I would also like to thank Carey for his ceaseless efforts to make me a better writer, Gwynne for her daily doses of humor and her insights into the characters, and Larry in Finland for helping me with the Finnish language and for being a good friend. Writing may be a solitary endeavor, but the thoughts of each of these people, as well as you, the story's readers, affect the story's course.
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NOTE: This story happens during the same period of time as the 'Phalen' story. As 'Phalen' ends, the two story's timelines will coincide and this story will take over. Confused? I hope not.
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Roy roynm@mac.com