Lies within Ourselves – Chapter 6
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Once I got off the phone with Sean I knew that there was going to be trouble and I was so damn angry at Chris. Did he really think that trying to break Sean and I up and like that would make me want to go out with him instead. Well he has another thing coming at him. As far as I am concerned our friendship is over.
I asked Travis to come along with me to make sure things didn't get out of hand incase Chris was still there. I was liable to break his nose if he was there. The ride to Sean's house was long and dreadful. I needed to find a way to explain to him it was Chris who kissed me and that I had no feelings for Chris at all.
When we arrived at the house and I was so nervous to go in to find out how much damage was done to our relationship. I asked Travis to stay back so Sean and I could talk but stay near just in case Chris was there.
As I entered Sean's room I saw him sitting on the bed. "Please let me explain Sean." I said to him.
"Your "friend" Chris came over today. He told me that you two liked each other but you were too afraid to tell me yourself so you were keeping him a secret." Sean said with tears in his eyes.
"Babe that is a lie. Yes Chris has always liked me and I knew that but I did not feel the same about him. He was always just a friend." I was trying my best to explain. "He came over and he is the one that kissed me and I pushed him away and he got pissed at me for it."
"Sean you know me. You know I would never hurt you like that and look how long it took me to admit I liked you. We have known each other way longer than I have known Chris." I said with tears in my eyes now. I couldn't stand to see Sean look so hurt.
For a long time Sean just sat there then he burst into tears. I slowly went and sat next to him and put my arm around him. The then collapsed into my arms and began to sob. After a few minutes he began to speak.
"Matt I know you will never hurt me it's just that sometimes I wonder how someone like you can love someone like me." He said still crying. "When Chris came here and said all that I was so afraid it was true and I just broke down."
"Sean, do not listen to anything Chris said. He wants us to break up because he is jealous." I said to him as I was holding him and rubbing my hands on his back.
Sean looked up at me and gave me a passionate kiss and then I gave him one right back. Then I started to rub my hands down his chest and reach under his shirt to feel his skin. He let out a soft moan and we continued to kiss. I then lifted Sean on the bed and got over him and we made out for a while.
Sean quickly took my shirt off and I did the same to him. Then I jumped off the bed and took my pants off and went and got the lube and condom. I saw Sean have the biggest grin on his face. I came back to the bed and saw that Sean had taken his pants off and was completely naked. I smiled and slowly got on the bed and started to kiss him again finding my hand going down to his hard cock and gently massaging him.
Sean surprised me my pushing me back on the bed and he started to kiss down my chest going lower toward my cock. The then took his hand and gently started massaging me after a few seconds he put his mouth down and took me in. I moaned out in pleasure and he started to suck me slow at first but then really started to go at it.
"Babe slow down or you are going to make me cum." I said to him. He smiled and said he was ready for me to make love to him.
I got the lube and applied it to my fingers and gently laid him down on the bed. I slowly inserted once finger into him and started to massage around. He was beginning to breath heavy and I knew he was enjoying it. I then inserted another finger in and Sean began to moan softly. After inserting my third finger in and massaging him for a few minutes I could see he was relaxed enough for me to enter him.
I got up and put on the condom and applied a generous amount of lube on and slowly started to enter him. I watched his face to make sure he was not in pain but he said he was fine. I was completely in him and gave him a bit to get use to me.
I then slowly started to move in and out thrusting him gently. He began to moan out and I knew he was enjoying it so I started to go faster.
"Oh babe that feels so good." He moaned out.
"Your ass feels so good babe." I said to him.
I started to thrust deeper and faster into him and he was moaning louder and I knew that he was enjoying it.
"I love you so much babe." I moaned out.
Sean was panting and moaning "Matt you are so hot I love you so much."
After a while Sean surprised me by asking me if he could ride me. I laid down on the bed and Sean slowly started to lower himself onto me. He took my cock completely in and started to move slow then fast.
I was moaning just as loud as he was and he leaned down to kiss me. We made out while he bounced up and down on my cock. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and told him I was about to cum. He said he was close also so I pulled out of him and we jerked each other off until both of us came on each other.
This was the most amazing love session we have had. We both collapsed on the bed panting. It took me a few minutes to remember Travis was out there waiting for me.
"Shit." I said out loud.
Sean looked at me confused "What is it babe?"
"I forgot Travis was here." I said to him.
"Crap do you think he heard us?" he said.
We got up and cleaned up as quickly as we could then got dressed. Travis was setting on the couch and looked out way when we walked into the living room.
With a big grin he said "I see you guys made up or should I say I heard." Sean's face got 10 shades of red and I had to let out a laugh.
"Matt shut up it's not funny." Sean said still embarrassed.
"Dude listen it's no big deal. I just watched the tv till you two were done." Travis said.
"Sean don't worry Travis is our friend." I said.
After a few moments of awkwardness we just hung around the house until Amber called Sean and asked if she could come over. It had been awhile since I had talked to her. Sean and her always talked but I would go days sometimes before I would.
Sean went into the kitchen to fix lunch and much to my surprise Travis went to help him. I went to get a quick shower and change into something more comfortable since today looked like a relaxing day at home. My mom was working because she picked up extra shifts to get money for a trip this summer. I was looking for a job to help her out because I wanted Sean to come with us.
Amber arrived about thirty minutes later and walked into the living room.
"Guys you are so boring just sitting here all day doing nothing." She said.
Travis laughed "Nah... it is just a relaxing day for us. You are free to leave if you want to."
I saw Amber was not happy about that comment. She still was not fond of Travis after all that he has put Sean through. Both Sean and I were over it but Amber still had some anger toward him. I interjected and suggested that we head to the park to through the ball around. Sean and Amber could talk and watch us if they didn't want to join in and it would give all of is a chance to get some fresh air.
"Sean why don't we pack stuff for a picnic and we can make this an all-day thing." I said to him. "Also Travis why don't you invite Kevin and Jesse out to hang with us, this is the perfect chance to see if the other night they were serious." I said to him.
Both Sean and Travis thought this was a good idea but I could tell Amber was not happy about it. She was extremely protective of Sean but I liked it that way I knew that when I was with him she would be and she would be looking out for him.
Travis told us that Kevin and Jesse were going to meet us there. Amber and Sean were going to ride over in Amber's car and I was going to take Travis with me. I wanted to take some time and get to know him better. This year has been a rollercoaster and so much as happened. I mean if you told me that I was going to be friends with Travis a couple of months ago I would have told you that you are crazy.
Life sure does change once you come out but I actually do not regret it. It has its ups and its downs. Some people are supportive while others are jerks. Such is life I guess but what matters is having someone you love with you by your side. Sean has been nothing but great and he has one of the kindest hearts I have ever seen.
Travis and I left first to meet up with the other guys while Amber and Sean finished packing a few stuff for the picnic. I suspect that it had to do with Amber wanting to talk to Sean alone.
"Sean are you sure about this. I mean I think that they might just be trying to pull a prank on you." Amber said to me.
I sighed and replied "Don't worry Amber. You know me I always give people a chance and if they break that chance then that is it."
"I just can't stand to see you get hurt." She said.
I smiled and looked her in the eyes "I appreciate you trying to protect me but the world sometimes just sucks. There are going to be times where I will get hurt but it will only make me stronger and learn from it."
We packed up the food and put it in my dad's cooler that he said I could use. I was really hoping that everyone would have fun. After all that had happened this year we all deserved to have some fun and relax.
Amber unlocked her trunk and we put the cooler and some blankets and chairs in just in case they all got tired of throwing the ball around.
When we got there everyone was there talking. Kevin and Jesse were talking with Travis and Matt was near by listening to what they were talking about. I walked up to Matt and put my arms around his waist and rested my head on his back. Even though I could see his face I knew he had a smile on. I looked over toward Kevin and Jesse to see what their reaction was but if they showed any contentment toward us they did not show us. Which I was glad I really wanted to get along with them. I am tired with fighting with everyone I mean we are just all people right?
"Hey Sean... How are you doing?" Kevin asked me.
"Oh can't complain. How about you?" I asked back.
He smiled and said "I am great. Thanks for letting us hang with you guys."
"No problem. We enjoy having you here." Travis said to them. I knew that he wanted to have them apart of our group because he missed his buddies from football. I felt bad because so much changed in his life. He no longer lives at home with his family and he doesn't play football anymore. I was glad though that he seemed to find some joy in hanging with us. He even started to become a part of the family at home. On the nights we watched movies as a family he was always invited and joined us. He would sit next to me and rest his head on me which I felt was strange but then again I don't have many other friends and all the ones I do have do this to me also but Travis never seemed to be the type of guy to do this.
Matt no longer had a problem with my friendship to Travis and he also seemed to be getting friendlier toward him. My attack seemed so far away now but there had been no clues or leads to who it was. Sometimes I still get scared when I am alone and do not walk outside at night alone very often but I have been getting better.
All of the other guys started to throw the football around and Amber and I just laid out on the blankets and talked. It was really peaceful and I was enjoying watching Matt play ball especially since he took off his shirt. You could really see his toned body and muscles from playing sports his whole life. Sometimes I find it hard to believe that he could be interested in someone like me.
I was so out of the zone that when someone yelled my name but I sure did feel the pain that came next.
"What the hell." I shouted.
"Sorry man. I didn't mean to throw it in that direction." Kevin said. As he came over to get the ball. "Are you ok?"
"Yeah I am fine. I wasn't paying attention and I didn't see it coming over in this direction." I said to him.
Everyone else was laughing their asses off and I didn't think it was funny. I turned around embarrassed and headed toward the cars. When I got their I forgot they were locked and I didn't have the keys. I just wanted to be alone for a little while. Matt must not have seen me leave because he didn't follow me to see what was wrong.
After a few minutes Kevin showed up. "Hey man I really am sorry about the football hitting you." He said to me.
"It's ok. I was just a bit embarrassed." I said to him.
He chuckled "Don't be dude. I have had stuff worse happen to me."
"Listen I actually wanted to talk to you alone for a second. Can I ask you a favor?"
I looked at him suspiciously "Depends on what it is?"
"Ok I know that we gave you a hard time but one of the reasons why I changed my mind about you and realized I was wrong was because a couple weeks ago my cousin came out to the famly." He said to me. "We have always been really close and he is younger than me. Well I was shocked at first but he talked to me and I came to realize there is nothing wrong with it. Now ever since he has come out he has been having a really hard time both at school and home. I was wondering if sometime you could talk to him?"
"Kevin I don't know. I mean I don't know him but I guess I could. I hope that I would be able to help him but you know what I guess I would have wanted someone to talk to me." I said. After I said that Kevin did something unexpected he hugged me.
"Thank you so much man! This means the world to me." He said with tears in his eyes. "I am so worried about him."
"No problem. I just hope I can help him." I said to him.
We talked about other things for a few minutes then went back with the other guys. Matt walked over to me when I came back and gave me hug and then a kiss. We sat down next to each other holding hands and watching the guys play some more football. It was truly a good day today and a day we didn't worry about anything.
It was starting to get late and we decided to start and pack everything up and head home. We invited Kevin and all the guys back to my house to hang out. Only Kevin accepted the offer and Amber had to go home so it was just going to be Travis, Matt, Kevin and me. Kevin surprised me further saying he would drive me so Amber could just head home. Matt wasn't too sure about it but I told him it would be fine.
"You know when the football team heard about your attack I was surprised that most of them were actually concerned for you. Most just pick on you because they don't want to get hell from other players but most guys on the team are not bad guys. High school is brutal and it brings the worst out in some people." Kevin began to speak as we were heading to my house. "See my mom is a nurse and every day I would see how you were doing. Don't tell anyone because my mom could get in a lot of trouble for telling me but I was worried. It took me awhile to actually apologize to you.
"It's ok. I mean sure I hate that you guys always picked on me but at least you are apologizing. I believe that everyone deserves a second chance." I told him.
"I am glad you think that because I would like for us to be friends." He said smiling. After all that was happening my mind was just racing. I mean who would have known what would have all happened within a couple of months. Kevin must have seen me thinking and asked me what was on my mind.
"Just all that has happened. I really can't believe that it." I said to him.
He replied saying "I know what you mean. If you told me six months ago we would be friends I would have doubted it. Not because I didn't like you but because we are so different."
I had to agree with him on this one. He was really being nice to me and I was happy that maybe he was being truthful to me. When we arrived at my house I asked if he wanted to come in and hang with us. Which I really didn't think he would but he said that he would love to.
Matt and Travis were sitting in the living room talking when we arrived and they greeted Kevin when he came in with me. I was glad that Matt was giving him a chance. I know that this is all hard for him I mean first the bullying and then coming out to our parents. It all was a rollercoaster. I decided to go into the kitchen and make some snacks for us all. Travis followed me which I have been noticing he has been doing that a lot lately. I think he is really lonely and is hurting because his parents have not even tried to contact him yet and he has been staying with us for a while now. My parents were looking into the legal matters of it as not to get in trouble for having him here.
I mean what if his parents wanted to start trouble and say that we were keeping him here against his will or brainwashing him or something? As I was making the snacks my phone rang and it was a number I have never saw before.
"Is this Sean Williams?" a voice said.
I answered "This is him. Who may I ask is calling?"
"This is Detective Nathaniel Lawson. We have some information about your attack. Can you come down to the station tomorrow with your parents?" He said.
My head was spinning. I had not thought about the attack in a while and I never thought they would find out who did it. What new information could they have?
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