Hello Everyone :) Well before I get started, let me just tell ya of a typo I made in the last installment. In the second to last line it says "He also noticed that maybe Justin wasn't the cut night." Well that is way wrong, and since I am lazy and just skim after I write them I didn't fix that, it should say "He also noticed that maybe Justin wasn't the cute one." I am sorry for any inconvenience or confusion that may have caused any of you.
Well, for those of you that e-mailed me and I haven't responded to I will, I have been busy. But I have read your e-mails and from now on I will respond to them promptly in the future. I have been sick still, it's Tuesday night and I am still sick. I have my voice back now but my head feels like it's gonna explode, my ears won't pop and I am so stuffed up it's pathetic. I think it's a cold and allergies. Oh well though, I'll be better soon. So thanks for those of you that asked about me, I will make a more personal e-mail to you soon.
I doubt the reason you are reading this is not to hear about my pathetic being but to read the story. So let me just explain something's first though, I am sorry I made Justin a bad boy. Don't worry though. Just wait and see. Also I am sorry if my endings piss you off. but good stuff is comin!(no pun intended) so let's just get the legal crapola taken care of and then we will get into the story.
Legal Stuff: This material is not meant to be read by anyone under 18. If you're offended by literature with homosexual themes, go away! If not, read on. This is a work of FICTION. Therefore, the author makes no claims as to the sexual orientation of any member of *N Sync.
OHH! Before I start, PLEASE! E-mail me, I love email. tell me what ya think, what you would like to see happen. spifty214@email.com ANYTHING!! OK well now here we go... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lonely Lance...Chapter 4
"Dude, I dunno about you, but I am starvin." Lance said as the were pullin away from the curb.
"Yeah I am too. Do you want me to call a pizza place now and then we can pick it up after we get movies?" Steve said in response to the comment Lance made.
"Yeah that sounds awesome. Did they give you a cell?" Lance asked
"Yeah they did, and I don't have to pay for any calls I make. I think it is awesome. I had one for emergency cause I had no money to pay for the calls. Now money isn't a problem for me. It's weird how I got here, I never thought anything like this would ever happen. It is just fuckin amazing." Steve said
"Well how did you get your job? Sorry if I sound nosy, you don't have to tell me if you don't want." Lance said quietly
Steve went on and explained the story of the past year. College, his parents, moving to Florida, the event with the car. He told Lance about Kelli, everything except the gay thing. Lance laughed about how Steve was supposed to hook her up with one of the guys.
"Ya know Lance, I was thinkin." Steve said mischievously
"And what were you thinkin Stevie?" Lance asked flirtatiously
"Stevie? Well STEVIE was thinkin that we should hook Justin and Kelli up. They'd be perfect for each other, they are both idiots it seems and they both lack character. It's a splendid idea in my opinion!"
"You're gonna fit right in. Sorry I called ya Stevie, it just seems fitting." Lance said jokingly.
"Fitting, OK I see how ya are James, no wait, Jimmy. ha, ya like that Jimmy?' Steve said jokingly as well.
"Dude, no, just no, my own mother doesn't even call me Jimmy, understand?" Lance said now a little angered but still joking around.
"OK Jimmy, I'll stop calling you Jimmy, OK Jimmy?" Steve said teasing Lance.
"GRRRRRRR!" Lance said as he punched Steve in the right arm.
"Ok, ya really shouldn't hit the driver. It isn't nice. And besides I have your life in my hands. Mu Ah ha ha ha ha!" Steve said teasing lance some more.
"OK, I see how you are, I will get you later just! Just you watch!" Lance said
"Is that a threat or a promise Jimmy?" Steve said cracking up as he mocked Lance
"It's a promise Stevie! Why are we stopping?"
"Cause this is my condo. This is where I live, I gotta change really quick. If ya want you can come in. I shouldn't be more than 10 minutes, I want to take a shower too." Steve said to Lance.
"I think I will come in. You get to see inside my house so it is only fair that I get to see yours." Lance said
"So we are in first grade again? You show me yours and I'll show you mine?" Steve said jokingly to Lance.
"Just lets get the fuck outta the car and lets hurry up. I am hungry. I will call for pizza while you are getting dressed. Do you have a computer?" Lance asked
"Yeah I do, why?"
"Would It be all right if I check my e-mail too?' Lance asked as they were walking up to the front door.
"Sure no problem." Steve said as he opened the door to his condo. "Ok, I will give you the grand tour. There is a basement, which is basically filled with my parents crap and I have a little gym down there. There is a full bath down there too. On this floor we have the kitchen, dining room, living room, family room, the foyer and a half bath. Upstairs is the master bedroom which has an attached full bath, 2 guest bedrooms and my office. The office is right next to my bedroom."
"You got yourself a nice place here." Lance said as they walked up to the stairs.
"It's not mine, well it is now but it was my parents until I bought it from them a couple months ago. I like it. It is good enough for me. Actually I think it is too much for just me. The guest rooms really just sit there and I usually vegetate in my room or work out or run or swim. I never enjoy the whole thing. If I had a family I guess maybe I would but I don't see that ever happening. Well anyway, the computer is in there, I am goin to get ready, ill be in in like ten minutes tops."
"Okie Dokie" Lance said as he walked into the office and Steve walked into his room. He closed the door halfway and Lance could see Steve's shadow moving around through the door. Lance wanted to ask why he thought he never would have a family. He thought someone as hot as Steve could get a wife easily. Maybe he is gay? Nah, he couldn't be, I am not that lucky. And even if he is gay, what would he see in me? I am no prize. Agh Lance, you think too damned much. All these thoughts ran through Lances mind.
Lance went on the computer and opened up AOL. He saw Steve's screen name in the sign on box and memorized it so he could put it on his buddy list. He signed on as guest and he didn't have any e-mail. He put Steve on his buddy list and signed off. He had nothing to do now so he just sat there and got bored. Eventually he realized that Steve had just stepped into the shower and he heard the water turn on. Lance got a little nosy and opened AOL again and went to Steve's screen name. He had his password stored. He decided he would be nosy and sign on. He didn't have any e-mail either, so he went into the old mail folder. He scrolled down until he saw one with the subject `Re: Bad Times' from November. He opened it. The message read:
Stevie,
Hey, Karen here. I am sorry bud, I know it's rough, I know you will get
through this. I am here for you. It's tough being alone all the time. Just because
you are gay though doesn't mean that you can't find someone to love you, and
someone that you will love. There is a person out there for everyone, and there is
a guy out there for you. Just give it time. I am proud of my best friend though. It
took a lot of guts to come out to your parents and friends and family. Everyone
accepted you though. Hang in there. Do you realize that it has been over 4 years.
You came out right after you graduated from high school when you were 18.
Now you are 22, 23 in May. Just remember that the Lord works in mysterious
ways, and I know you don't like all the God mumbo jumbo, but believe me,
you're day is comin. Well I gotta run. I love ya babe
Love Always,
Karen
Lance was totally shocked. He heard the water shut off and quickly signed off and shut down the computer. So many thoughts were running through his mind. How could he be gay? He is so nice! He is so hot! OK, so he's gay but that doesn't mean that you have a chance. OK you haven't even come out to anyone Lance, there is no chance of you having a boyfriend, let alone keeping one with your schedule. But Steve is so perfect. He will be with you all the time now. Even when you are on the road. He is so nice. He is so thoughtful. GOD LANCE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU! OK I need to calm down and breathe. Nothin is gonna happen. OK it could but right now just concentrate. Just sit here and calm down relax. Just... Lance thought all this as he sat in front of the blank computer screen when a hand gently rested on his shoulder.
"HOLY FUCKING SHIT!" Lance screamed being taken out of his daze.
"I am sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Are you OK Lance?" He sincerely asked Lance as he noticed sweat running down his face.
"Yeah, I am fine. You scared me. You scared me a lot." Lance said trying to slow his breathing.
"Sorry dude, are you ready to go?" Steve asked Lance
"Yup, let's go." Lance got up and Steve lead him out the door and down the hall to the stairs. As they got half way down Steve asked Lance.
"Lance, Did you order the pizza?"
"Shit, no, I am sorry, I forgot." Lance said apologetically
"It's all right man, calm down, are you sure you are OK?" Steve asked Lance, noticing that he had a dazed look on his face.
"Yeah, I am fine, it's just been a stressful week, hell the past couple months have been hell with the lawsuit and recording for the new album and everything. I have had a lot on my mind lately. I don't know. I am just really stressed out and it seems that anymore no one even cares about me." Lance said as they made their way into the kitchen.
"Lance, Look at me. I am here for you OK? I know you just met me but I am just letting you know that if you ever need anything, and I mean anything, I will be here for you, day or night." Steve said to Lance in a caring loving voice.
"I am OK right now. I will probly take you up on that offer later. Right now I need to get some food in me." Lance responded to Steve.
"Sounds good to me, Do you wanna call or should I Jimmy?" Steve asked Lance
"Ha, I will call Stevie." With that Lance picked up the phone and called the pizza place. He made the order and they headed out the door. Lance waited outside the door as Steve set the alarm and then he locked the door and they headed into the car. The ride to the video store was spent in silence. Steve had his Our Lady Peace CD in the CD player. He had the Clumsy CD on. They were listening to it at a low volume until Clumsy came on, Steves favorite song. He turned up quite loud.
"I take it you like this song?" Lance said louder than usual.
"Yeah, It's my Favorite song." Steve happily responded to Lance's question
"It's Clumsy right, by Our Lady Peace?"
"Yup, zactly." Steve continued "I know every word to this song." Steve finished as he turned it up even louder and began singing. He sang the lines "you need to understand there's nothing fake about this you need to let me in" a little louder than he sang the rest of the song. Lance was so confused by now. He didn't know what to think. Was he saying something to him or was he just singing louder. He knew he was definitely falling for Steve. He met him like a couple hours before and he was falling, and falling hard.
"OK we are here Jimmy, are you comin in?" Steve said as he shut the car off and put it in park in front of the Blockbuster Video.
"Yeah of course. I am not gonna let ya rent some sucky movie!" Lance said
"Ooohh, well in that case, I better rent Sleepless in Seattle. It's my favorite movie and you will think it sucks." The smart ass Steve said
"Actually I love that movie. Can we get it?" Lance asked a little embarrassed.
"I do not see why not. Why don't we get You've got Mail too, kinda like a Tom Hanks, Meg Ryan fest." Steve added.
"Well then, a Meg Ryan fest wouldn't be complete without City of Angels." Lance added
"Why yes dear boy you're right." Steve said as they went into the Blockbuster. He saw Lance pull out sunglasses and a baseball cap.
Steve chuckled as he said "Lance, it's a completely overcast day. I know what those are for but honestly it makes you look silly. It's also gonna attract attention to you. I'll rent the movies on my account, go back in the car, I know what we are getting. I can see the you don't want to deal with anyone today."
"Are you sure Steve?" Lance objectively asked.
"Positive, I'll just be a minute." Steve said
"OK, hurry then." Lance said as he skipped out of the Blockbuster and into his car.
As Steve was in the store all he could think about was Lance. He is so sweet. He is so nice. He is so caring. He is hot! Oh God Steve, don't you dare do this to yourself. Don't you even think about it. You are not gonna hurt yourself this time. Don't fall for him Steve. He's not gay, he can't be gay. He has millions of girls swarming after him, how could he be gay? You want to be friends with him. Be friends, just friends, he doesn't even know you are gay. But I am falling for him and I can't help it. He is so lovable. There is something wrong though. He won't say what, but something is really bothering him. You have to find out tonight. Steves thoughts continuously ran through his head.
After finding all three movies he paid and he walked out of the store and into his car. There was Lance sitting there twiddling his thumbs.
"Bored are we?" Steve asked
"Nope, Just waiting. Did you get the right ones?" Lance asked
"Yup, all 3."
"Awesome, The pizza place is a couple blocks east of here. If ya make a left it is like straight ahead." Lance directed Steve
"Ok, thank you navigator." Steve jokingly said to Lance
"Smart ass. Slow down, you are gonna pass it." Lance commanded Steve.
"Bitchy. This is the one right?" He said somewhat seriously.
"Yeah. It's in my name, I will go in and get it." Lance said.
"OK hurry up. No one is in there so you shouldn't get spotted. Traveling with a celebrity is so fun." Steve commented.
As he was getting out of the car lance added "Try going to the mall with all five of us. The you will get the full effect." After that he closed the door. About 2 minutes later he came back to the car with an extra large pizza in hand.
"Smells good Lance." Steve said as Lance closed the door.
"You like it? It's Polo Sport." Lance said not knowing that Steve was talking about the pizza.
"The pizza bonehead." Steve said to Lance and gave him a quick smile.
"Whoops, my bad." Lance said blushing.
"So anyway, how the hell do I get to your house."
"OK, Turn right here..." Lance said
TBC... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- OK, there was chapter 4. I would have typed some more but my arms are sore and I am tired so I will get you to his house when I type tomorrow night. So you should get the next installment Thursday night. I send these in usually sometime after midnight and they get put in sometime in the evening the next day. So, I have been nice to a couple people and if you really want you can email me and I will e-mail you a copy as soon as I finish. I will only do it for a couple people so you better be nice.
I am giving Steve my taste in music. I was listening to Clumsy while I wrote this. Well questions, comments, concerns, complaints or anything else email me spifty214@email.com. Have a great day!