Hey. My name is Alex and this is my first time ever writing for Nifty, and I hope that people like it as much as I like reading the rest of the stories on this site. I can truthfully say that my favorite stories are the ones here. I really enjoy receiving feedback (meteor_shower@inorbit.com) from anyone, whether it be hate mail or nice things. You can even just email me weird little quotes if you don't want to say anything about the story. Oh, and another thing. I am a girl. I know my name doesn't necessarily state that, but I just find that Alexandra is a bit too formal. Anyway, There will be some sexual content in this story, but I'm writing using the things I watch on late night tv as a guide for those scenes. If my ranting hasn't already scared you off from reading my story, please continue.
Disclaimer: I don't know Backstreet Boys, their management/label or their sexual preference. (Although some of them are too cute to be straight.) If this kind of stuff is not legal where you live, you are not legal where you live, or you don't like this kind of thing....why are you here? This is a site about gay sex. If one or more of these things apply to you, leave.
Now on to the story! ________________________________________________ Lost Souls : By Alex Chapter 1 ________________________________________________
Nick knew where he was tonight. Not just at a fancy charity dinner, but a town he knew well. One that provoked a lot of old memories in the back of his mind.
"Nick are you alright, buddy?" Howie asked as Nick just played with his food.
"Yeah." Nick sighed.
"Do you have something that you;d would like to talk about?" Kevin inquired.
"Not really." Nick replied, then continued to push the food off to the side of his plate.
"That's it." Brian pushed his chair away from the table and stood up.
"Have you gone mad?" AJ asked Brian.
"No. But Nick and I are skipping off the rest of this monkey convention and talking tonight." Brian proclaimed, then grabbed Nick's arm and pulled him out of the hotel restaurant.
"Jeez Bri. Next time just cut off my circulation a little more." Nick snapped, pulling his arm away from Brian's strong hold.
"Nick you are scaring people with the way you have been acting. I want you to tell me what has been bothering you lately. We are going to sit up in the hotel room until you decide to tell me what is the matter." Brian informed Nick as they walked up from the restaurant to the hotel rooms.
Half an hour later, Nick and Brian were sitting in Nick's room Brian still trying to get Nick to talk.
"Fine. You want me to talk? then I'll talk. You know I have another sister besides BJ Leslie and Angel."
"Yeah. You said that she was your dad's from a previous relationship." Brian replied.
"Well, she is my twin sister and Jane's not my mother."
"What?" Brian stuttered.
"Jane's not my mother. My mother's name is Hailey Roberts. I haven't seen her or Arianna in like 8 years."
"So, that's what has gotten you down. I understand."
"You can't understand Brian. You have no idea what it feels like to miss this big part of your life for this long. It's not like being on tour away from your family for 8 months. I haven't seen her for 8 years, Brian." Nick sobbed and Brian held his friend tight.
"Well, have you tried to find her?"
"I can't. I would mean going back on my word to my mother."
"Jane or Hailey?"
"Both."
"So, what would you be going back on?"
"Mom, Hailey, didn't want me to join the group. I wanted to take Arianna with me if we went on tour, but Mom wouldn't let me. Then she said that I was never to talk about her or my sister if I ever became famous."
"So, why would that be going back on your word to Jane?"
"Well, considering that Jane kidnapped me and Arianna for 4 years, she doesn't want me to be around either Mom or Arianna after Arianna chose Mom over her and Dad." Nick replied with some spite.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa. What do you mean, she kidnapped you?"
"Exactly what is sounds like. We were supposed to just be visiting Jane and Dad for the weekend, and when we got to their house, which was just a 5 minute drive from Mom's house, and me and Arianna walked inside. The the next thing we knew, we were on our way to Florida when we were 4 years old and didn't know our phone number or address or stuff like that."
"And Hailey didn't know where you were?"
"No. Jane kinda bribed Dad into taking us to Florida because she said she would leave him and put BJ up for adoption."
"I didn't think that everything was this serious."
"Yeah. Most people don't know. Anyway when Mom finally found us, we barely recognized her. She traveled the country looking for us, finally she found us, and she was in bad condition. Arianna and I stayed with her for about 3 years, visiting Dad and Jane on weekends, but then we went back to living a week with Mom, a week with Dad, just because of financial strain on both of them. But soon after, Mom got a better job and wanted us to move back up here and forget about Jane and Dad."
"What happened then?"
"Well, this was just in the very beginning of the group, and I asked if there was anyway that we could stay in Florida. Mom didn't like that idea and then left with Arianna, saying that they were no longer part of my life and I was never to mention them again. Jane agreed and said that If I wanted to continue being part of that family, I was never to mention either Arianna's or Mom's name again. Can you believe that? She threatened to disown me." Nick broke down crying and Brian was quick to hold his best friend tight as he sobbed out all the previously unshed tears.
"Why didn't you tell me this before?
"I was afraid that you'd think that I was evil. I let my mother and twin sister leave. It's my fault that I am searching for them right now, having no idea where they are." Nick whispered.
"Well, what have you tried? If I help, you may get somewhere a little faster." Brian smiled, pulling away.
Nick looked at his best friend in astonishment. Was he actually going to get some help finding his sister? He knew that she wasn't too far away, but just out of his reach.
"Well, the phone book and the net." Nick said, reaching into the book bag beside the bed and pulled out a big yellow envolope.
"What's that?" Brian questioned.
"Everything so far that I have been able to find having to do with Arianna Carter and Hailey Roberts." Nick said, pouring it all out onto his bed. All there was, was an old worn photo and a few papers with leads.
Brian slowly reach out and took the photo and looked at it. 2 kids, a boy and a girl, both blond and with shit eating grins on theirs faces stood in front of a tall, blond woman. The three looked so happy and Brian could only imagine.
"That's me, Mom and Anna about 3 weeks before Mom got her new job. Anna and I were so excited, because we had just gotten back from Disney World. We had so much fun, and it had been the first time we went. I remember it so well." Nick grinned at the memories, and wiped the one left over tear off his face.
"I thought you said her name was Arianna?" Brian asked, a little confused.
"It is. I just never liked calling her that, I thought it sounded like an old lady, so I always called her Anna, and she she thought Nick sounded to formal, so she called me Nickers. That's why when Kevin used to call me that I'd cry." Nick confessed.
"Ahhh, one of those special nicknames only the other can call you. I understand now. Kevin thought you thought it made you sound like a 4 year old, so that's why you'd cry." Brian chuckled, finally getting a laugh out of Nick as well.
To Be Continued...........................
Copyright 2002 By Alex