i am 16 years of age and do not want to reveal my name. we were friends from childhood. it started when we were in for a camp for eight days. R , his friend and i, we were sharing one room in the hotel. his friend did not want to remove his clothes in the bathroom as it was wet and he removed it in front of us. conversation drifted to masturbution. i was too young n said that such a thing doesnot exsist(!) they told me how to do it. i tried ... n loved it. once he came home to watch porn n while doing so he asked me if i had n erection. i said yes and he told me two of his friends were gay. he asked me if i wanted to try and i said no. he said that he doubted me being one n was just trying to get the truth out from me. once, after the end of the term he came home to watch porn. he hates to be tickled n i tickled him he tickeld me back and we were rolling on each other each trying to get our mouths close but pretending otherwise but someone came home. we heard the bell n he left. after some years i called 3 friends to stay over n he was there too. we slept next to each other . it was summer so we did not have blankets. i, in my half sleepiness put my leg over him. after some time he did the same thing.. he put his arm round me and unknowingly we cuddled up together he got his mouth near n i did the same n we kissed for a long time. we did not speak much afterwards. once i had called one of my friends to sleppover n we met him in a cafe . he invited himself n insisted to sleep next to me. we did the same thing n this time we touched each others cocks n he put hid toung in my mouth n we cuddled n kissed passionately. i whispered to him to come in the room next to mine as there was one of our friends in the same room. he said that he was not gay, kissed me and in the end he turned n slept with his back towards me. i still think of him while masturbuting n we dont talk much now. he comes to my tutions and tries to talk to me but i ignore not knowing why... we are in different college now and dont see much of each other but i cant stop thinking about him.