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LOVER'S LANE
by Jaden Scott
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE: THE CHRISTMAS EVE PARTY, PART FOUR
JADEN'S POINT OF VIEW
As soon as they noticed us enter the kitchen, Hunter and Preston came running over to us.
"Uncle Lane!! Uncle Lane!!" Preston yelled. "Where have you been?? It's time to open PRESENTS!!"
"Presents!!" Hunter said, mimicking his older brother.
They each grabbed one of Lane's hands and started dragging him into the family room. I got a kick out of their enthusiasm. Christmas is the absolute best holiday when you're a kid. Everything is so magical, especially Santa Claus and his mission to leave presents for all the good boys and girls in the world. It's exciting to imagine him flying in his sleigh, being pulled by his eight trusty reindeer. It's fun to leave out milk and cookies for the big man, hoping he'll eat the snack because that means you're one of those good children he's got a present for. Besides all of that, there were Christmas trees, the lights and decorations, going caroling, and-if you were lucky to live in an area where it snows-making snowmen and having snowball fights. The list of things to look forward to goes on and on and on.
Everyone standing in the kitchen made his or her way into the family room. Before I knew it, Preston and Hunter were attacking their presents with a lot of vim and vigor. It was so much fun to watch them. Certain items, such as clothes and savings bonds, were tossed aside with barely an acknowledgement of the gift. Toys, however, received a HUGE response. I sent out a silent word of thanks to my mother for understanding how the kids would react to their presents. I was glad she helped me choose a toy to buy for each of them. It was important to me that they liked the gifts I got for them.
Lane, who had donned a Santa Claus hat, was sorting and handing out the presents to the boys. I thought it was curious that only the boys were opening their gifts at first. Since Julia was sitting on the couch next to me, so I decided to ask her about this.
"Why are only the boys opening presents right now??" I asked her.
"We started doing this last year. Before that, everyone...the adults and the kids...opened presents at the same time. Two years ago was the first time both Preston and Hunter were old enough to really get excited about opening their gifts. Everyone found that his or her attention was focused mostly on those two, which made it hard for the adults to enjoy opening their presents and getting to see what everyone else received. Last year, we decided to let the boys open their presents first, which kills two birds with one stone. The kids have toys to play with while the adults open their presents, and the adults aren't distracted by all of the kids' antics when they are opening their presents." She explained. I thought that made a lot of sense.
"Hey guys. Here's a present for each of you...from Jaden." I heard Lane say to the boys as he handed them the gifts I had gotten for them.
"Who's Jaden??" Preston asked his uncle. Lane started to laugh, and I couldn't help but smile too.
"He's my friend from college." Lane said. The boys didn't show any signs of recognition. "He's sitting right over there." Lane said and pointed to me. The boys looked at me, but still didn't respond. They both looked completely uninterested. "George is his dog!!" Lane continued, trying to think of something that would trigger a response from them.
"Oh!!" Preston and Hunter said simultaneously. I could see the light bulb go off in both of their heads and I had to laugh. George was clearly more popular with those two than I was.
Like all of their other presents, Preston and Hunter viciously attacked the wrapping paper covering the gifts I had gotten them. In a matter of seconds, each of their presents was revealed.
"A fire truck!!" Hunter exclaimed while looking at his toy.
"Cool!! A water gun!!" Preston yelled.
I had bought a big red fire engine for Hunter. Preston was now the proud owner of a super soaker water gun.
"Mommy!! Daddy!! Look!!" Preston shouted, holding up his present for them to see. Once again, Hunter copied his brother and held up his present too. They were so cute. I was really looking forward to watching them grow up!!
"That's nice, honey." Sarah replied to Preston.
I glanced over Sarah and Brad. They were both giving me the evil eye.
"Gee...THANKS, Jaden. A water gun...that's JUST what Preston needs." Sarah said sarcastically.
"Remind me...where do you live??" Brad asked menacingly. Everyone, including me, knew he was just joking and we all chuckled at his comment.
The boys really seemed to like the presents I had gotten for them. Lane was beaming at me. Hunter and Preston were very important to him, and I realized he was happy I had recognized that fact by getting something for each of them.
"Guys!!" Lane said loudly, trying to get the boys' attention. They both looked at him. "What do you say to Jaden??"
"Thank you!!" Two voices shouted out. Neither of them bothered to look at me when they spoke. Kids!! :)
The boys opened the rest of their presents. When they were finished, Lane went into the kitchen and got a garbage bag. He quickly picked up and threw away all of the torn up wrapping paper generated by the boys' presents. After he was finished, I thought he would start handing out the gifts for the adults; instead, he walked over to the side of the couch where Julia and I were sitting and kneeled on the floor in front of us.
"Jules, would you like to hand out the rest of the presents??" Lane asked her. I glanced over at Julia. She had a shocked look on her face.
"WHAT??" She said loudly. After she got over her initial shock, she continued. "Lane, what's going on?? I mean...you ALWAYS hand out the gifts. I've actually CRIED a few times over the years because you wouldn't even let me help you." She paused again. "I don't get it. Suddenly, after all these years, you're...what?? You're willing to give up that job??"
"Jullleeesss!!" Lane whined. "Stop giving me a hard time!! I was just trying to be nice. Besides, I thought you'd want to do it." Lane paused for a second. "You've certainly complained enough over the years." Lane muttered under his breath, but still loud enough for both Julia and me to hear. She shot him a dirty look. "Come on!! I was sure you'd be excited...and happy!!"
As I was sat there and listened to this exchange, I started to wonder the same thing Julia did. Why was Lane willing to give up a job that he clearly loved to do?? I watched Julia as she studied Lane intensely. Something must have clicked in her brain because, suddenly, she got this look of understanding on her face.
"Ohhhh...I get it." She said to Lane before glancing over at me. As soon as she said and did that, I got it too. Julia was sitting next to me...right where Lane wanted to be. Awww!! 'He's so cute!!' I thought. 'And HOT!!' Lane's face started to turn bright red when he realized that Julia had figured him out.
"Good for you." Lane practically sneered. "So, are you going to hand out the presents or not??" He asked impatiently.
"Settle down, Lane. Don't go getting your panties in a twist!!" Julia said, teasing him.
For Lane's sake, I tried not to laugh, but I failed miserably. I cut myself some slack because...come on!! That was funny!!
"Go ahead and sit with your BOYFRIEND." Julia said as she stood up.
SHIT!! To my ears, it sounded like Julia shouted the word 'boyfriend'. Even if she didn't shout, she was still way too loud. Lane and I looked at each other. His eyes were wide with shock and fear, and I imagined that my eyes looked exactly the same to him. I knew what he was thinking...his GRANDMOTHER!! His grandmother might have heard that!! After a second, we simultaneously turned our heads and looked at her. She had her eyes closed and it appeared that she was sleeping. We turned back to look at each other, but we didn't speak. No words were needed. I could see a look of relief wash over his face. 'Whew!! We just dodged a bullet!!' I thought.
While Lane and I were freaking out, Julia had walked over to the Christmas tree and started sorting through the presents. She was completely oblivious to the crisis she almost started. Lane got up from his kneeling position, sat down on the couch, and let out a sigh. Unlike earlier this evening, he didn't sit so we were in direct contact with each other; instead, he left some room between us. I understood why he did it, but that didn't stop me from missing the connection I felt when he was close to me.
Julia started handing out presents to the adults. My present for Mr. and Mrs. McNeil was the first one they opened. They really seemed to like the bottle of wine and wine glasses I gave them. Once again, I sent out a silent word of thanks to my mom for helping me choose these presents. After they both finished saying 'thank you', Lane leaned over and whispered to me.
"That was really nice of you, Jaden. You didn't have to get them anything."
"I know, but I wanted too. I really appreciate the invitation for tonight." I replied.
"By the way, thanks for getting something for Preston and Hunter too."
"I'm just glad they liked what I got them. I was nervous because I'd never bought a present for a little kid before."
"So, while we're on the topic of presents, I want to know something." He said. I noticed a smirk was starting to form on his face.
"Sure...what??" I asked cautiously.
"What did you get for me??" He asked. The smirk was fully developed now.
"What makes you think I got you anything?? Better yet, what makes you think you even deserve something more than a lump of coal??" I shot back at him. Lane studied me for a second.
"You got me something." He said simply and confidently. He turned his attention away from me as Julia handed him another present.
'WHAT A BASTARD!!' I thought. Despite that, I couldn't help but smile at him. 'He's right, but he's still a bastard!!'
"And...here's one for you, Jaden." Julia said as she held out a package for me to take. At first, I thought it had to be from Lane but, when I looked at the tag, I saw that it was from Lane's parents. I wasn't expecting them to get me a present, and I was taken aback.
"Who's that from, Jaden??" Lane asked.
"Your mom and dad." I replied, still a bit dumbfounded.
I looked over at Mr. and Mrs. McNeil, who were sitting on the same loveseat that they were when I first saw them tonight. Mrs. McNeil was staring at me. Apparently, she noticed that I received the gift they had gotten for me. I'm not sure why, but I was still really surprised. Slowly, I tore off the wrapping paper and found myself holding a rectangular cardboard box. I opened the box and pulled back white tissue paper to reveal...a long-sleeved sweatshirt, which I quickly removed from the box for further examination. The sweatshirt was dark green, one of my school colors, and it had my college's name printed on it. It was awesome...and expensive, I realized. I had seen similar sweatshirts in one of the campus bookstores, and they normally cost about fifty bucks.
"Wow!! Thank you so much!! This is really great!!" I said to Mr. and Mrs. McNeil.
"You're welcome, Jaden." Mrs. McNeil replied. "Lane mentioned that you might like it."
She was right...I did like it. I didn't own many articles of clothing that were in my school's colors and had its name or logo printed on them. I folded the sweatshirt up, closed the box, and set it down on the floor next to me.
"Here's another one for Lane." Julia said as she handed a gift to him. I perked up instantly. It was the bag containing my presents for him. I had wrapped all of Lane's presents separately and, because each individual gift was small in size, I put them into one of those fancy Christmas-themed bags. Lane grabbed the bag by the handles and immediately looked for the tag. When he found it, he read what was written on it out loud, but quietly enough so his grandmother, who was awake now, couldn't hear him.
"To Lane. From Jaden. XXX, OOO." WHAT?? I didn't write 'XXX, OOO' on the tag!! He turned and looked at me. I noticed that the smirk was back. "Doesn't 'XXX-OOO' mean hugs and kisses??" He asked as innocently as he could. Time to fight fire with fire!!
"Actually, Lane, that's secret military code for 'you're a jackass!!'" I replied, trying to imitate his innocent tone of voice. Conner and Veronica, who were sitting close by, heard this exchange. They both laughed out loud.
"Good one, Jaden!!" Connor exclaimed.
"Thanks!!" I replied. I began to laugh along with them, unable to hold back any longer. Lane tried to act offended, but he couldn't pull it off. Soon enough, he started laughing too. This night, which had started out a bit roughly, was turning out to be very magical and special.
Lane opened up the gift bag and pulled out all three presents. Based on shape and size, it was pretty easy for Lane to figure out what the two CD's were. He opened those first so he could see exactly which musical artists I had gotten for him. He was very happy with both of my choices, as they were CD's he really wanted. After putting the CD's aside, he opened the last package.
"Jaden, wow!! A watch!!" he exclaimed after the gift was revealed.
"It's an athletic watch, complete with a built-in timer!!" I told him. He was reacting very positively to the watch, and I was happy...and relieved!!
"Awesome!! I've been meaning to get one of these to use during our workouts. Thanks, babe."
Um...WHOA!! He...he just called me 'babe'. I looked at him in shock, but he was examining the watch and didn't see my expression. I wasn't sure if he meant to call me that, or if it was a slip of the tongue. He didn't react in any way to the term he had just called me, so I wasn't sure what to think. I glanced around to see if anyone else had heard him. Most everyone was preoccupied, except for Sarah, who made eye contact with me. She gave me a smile, indicating she knew exactly what I was thinking. I looked back at Lane, but his attention was still on the watch.
"Jaden, this is a really nice watch. It must have been expensive." He said. "You...you didn't have to spend so much money on me." He seemed to be embarrassed.
"Don't worry. I got it on sale!!" I said jokingly, trying to make him smile. Lane laughed and whatever embarrassment he felt disappeared.
Soon enough, the last present had been removed from underneath the Christmas tree, handed out, and opened. As I watched Julia hand out the last present, which was for Eric, I began to feel very disappointed because I didn't receive a gift from Lane. The logical part of my brain knew that I shouldn't have expected Lane to get me a present, but the emotional part of my brain didn't care about that. I couldn't help myself...my feelings were hurt!! Lane wasn't acting like anything was wrong, which didn't make me feel any better. In fact, the more I thought about it, the more upset I got. He's ALMOST my boyfriend!! Isn't he, like, required to get me something?? My logical side tried to point out that I didn't need more 'things'. My parents had money, and I was never denied if I needed or wanted something. Those thoughts, however, did nothing to ease the pain I was feeling. I wasn't sure what to think, and doubts started to creep into my mind. I started to wonder if he liked me as much as I thought he did. I was confused and I wasn't sure if I should say something to him. Luckily, before I had a chance to embarrass myself, Lane's mom walked up to us.
"Sweetie," she said, addressing Lane, "could you help me with something in the kitchen??"
"Sure." Lane replied. He turned and looked at me. "I'll be right back, okay??"
I nodded in reply. I was afraid to say anything because I knew that I wouldn't be able to keep the disappointment out of my voice. As soon as Lane got up and went into the kitchen with his mom, Connor came over and sat down next to me.
"Jaden, my man." He said as he slapped my knee. "I didn't get to see the present that little Laney-boy got you."
"Me either." Sarah yelled from where she was sitting.
"It must be something really good. So, where is it??" Connor asked.
Damn!! I didn't know how to answer his question. Even though I was upset with Lane, I still cared for him. I didn't want to embarrass him in front of his brother and sister by revealing that he didn't get me anything. SHIT!! How am I going to get myself out of this situation??
"Oh...um...well..." DAMMIT!! I've got to learn to stop sputtering like that when I get nervous!!
"What's wrong, Jaden?? Didn't...didn't Lane get you anything??" Connor asked me. I shook my head, unable to speak. My cheeks were on fire.
"What a jerk!!" Connor yelled. He seemed to be getting angry. I needed to take control of this situation...fast!!
"It's...it's cool." I managed to utter. 'Great' I thought sarcastically. I'm sure those words will really calm Connor down.
"No, it isn't!!" Connor retorted. He turned his head toward the kitchen. "LANE!! GET YOU BUTT IN HERE...NOW!!"
"Connor...please don't make a scene. It's fine. I'M FINE!! I swear!!" I pleaded with him.
"It's NOT fine, Jaden." Connor replied. "LANE!! Where are you??" He called out again.
In the few seconds it took for Lane to appear in the doorway, a thought suddenly occurred to me. Well, it was more of a suspicion. My suspicion didn't start because Connor was acting concerned about my feelings, it was the way he was acting so OVERLY concerned that caught my attention. I couldn't quite put my finger on what was happening, but something smelled fishy to me.
"What do you want??" Lane asked impatiently.
"Get your ass over here!!" Connor demanded. Lane walked up to us.
"What??" Lane asked again, clearly annoyed by his brother. "Hurry up. I need to get back to the kitchen."
I couldn't look at Lane. I sat there, cringing inside. I was completely and utterly embarrassed.
"Do you honestly not know what I want??" Connor asked, his voice tinged with disbelief.
"No. Get to the point, Connor." Lane was upset.
"Where's Jaden's Christmas gift?? You know, the one FROM YOU?? I wanted to see the present you got for him, but he doesn't have anything to show me." Connor said, lowering his voice so everyone didn't overhear us. I didn't understand why he felt the need to do that. He'd been shouting everything else he'd said up until now.
"Quite frankly, that's NONE of your business." Lane replied.
I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. Wasn't I just thinking that this night was special and magical?? Well, I wasn't feeling that way anymore. When Lane came back into the family room, Sarah had walked over and stood next to Lane, but she remained quiet. She finally spoke up now.
"Lane, I'm shocked...and I'm disappointed. When you invite someone over for Christmas, the polite thing to do is get that person a present, even if it's a little one. Plus...we're talking about Jaden!! How could you not get him anything?? Especially considering everything that's going on between you two."
Why are Connor and Sarah saying all of this crap to Lane...especially right in front of me?? This situation...this conversation...was way past the point of simply being uncomfortable. I wanted to tell all of them to shut up. Actually, I really wanted to tell them to shut 'the fuck' up!!
"Oh...I didn't realize...I didn't think...DAMN!!" Sarah's words appeared to affect Lane deeply, because he was very calm and contrite all of the sudden. There was silence for a few seconds, then Lane spoke again.
"Jaden." He said. I knew he wanted me to look at him, but I couldn't. "JADEN!!" He said, raising his voice because he didn't think he had my attention. "Look at me, please." He pleaded. I forced myself to comply with his request.
"I'm SO sorry. I've been extremely busy lately, what with school ending and getting ready for the Christmas party. I didn't think to...I didn't..." His voice trailed off. I was still disappointed that he didn't remember me, but my anger was gone now. I truly believed he was sorry. "I know!!" He suddenly exclaimed. "Give me a minute and I'll go scrounge something up for you!! Stay here and I'll be right back!!"
WHAT?? He's going to...to...SCROUNGE something up for me?? I wasn't a big fan of this idea, mostly because it seemed so disingenuous. Besides, I didn't want him to feel like he HAD to get me a present. I wanted him to WANT to do that.
"Lane...please...don't!!" I yelled out, but he left the room so quickly, I don't think he heard me.
I hated all of this. I felt like everyone's attention was focused on me. Well, everyone besides Lane's grandmother, who had fallen back to sleep. Maybe someone should check to make sure she's still breathing!! I happened to catch Connor giving Sarah this...look, and he was smiling at her. There was just something about the WAY he smiled at Sarah that re-ignited my earlier suspicions. Is...is something going on here?? Am I caught up in some kind of elaborate joke to make me think that Lane didn't get me a Christmas present?? A part of me didn't think it was possible, but...SOMETHING was up.
I reviewed the facts of the case. First, there was no Christmas present for me from Lane under the Christmas tree. Before I had time to react to that, Mrs. McNeil whisked Lane into the kitchen under the pretense of 'needing help with something', which was very vague. Immediately following that, Connor started his ridiculously 'over the top' questioning of me and Lane regarding the fact that Lane DIDN'T get me a gift. I think, however, the biggest clue I had to the possibility of a scam was Lane's supposed ignorance regarding the gift issue. I let go of my doubts regarding how Lane felt about me. I KNEW that he liked me, especially after everything that had happened between us tonight. On top of all of that, Lane was a kind, caring, THOUGHTFUL person. I started to become convinced that Lane and his family were trying to pull a fast one on me. I wasn't sure when or where they had planned all of this...it couldn't have been tonight, because Lane had been glued to my side the entire time I had been here, minus that brief period when he went to the bathroom. He couldn't have plotted with Connor and Sarah then because...they had me cornered in the study!!
Despite what I suspected was going on, I still sat there in an uncomfortable silence while we waited for Lane to return. I tried not to look at Connor or Sarah because, every time I made eye contact with them, they kept looking at me with pity in their eyes. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, Lane reappeared in the family room. He walked up to the couch and he had a rather sheepish look on this face.
"I'm really, really sorry Jaden. I feel like a complete ass about all of this." He said. As soon as he uttered those words, I was one hundred and ten percent sure that this whole thing had been a huge joke designed to get me. Lane wasn't a very good actor and, even though he was trying really hard to sound apologetic, he wasn't able to completely pull it off. Plus, now that I knew what to look for, I was able to see right through his subterfuge.
"YOU SHOULD!!" Connor exclaimed, still completely committed to this ruse.
"Lane, seriously, it's fine. I think everyone is making a big deal out of nothing." I wasn't embarrassed or disappointed anymore. In fact, I was impressed. They had gotten me...they had gotten me good. I wasn't mad at all...in fact, I felt honored and privileged that they went to such great lengths to fool me. I knew that Lane's family loved to pull these kinds of pranks on unsuspecting individuals. The fact that they designed such an elaborate hoax with me in mind made me feel like a part of the family.
"Can you...uh...can you come into the kitchen with me??" Lane asked.
"Sure." He extended his hand towards me, and I used it to help pull myself up from the couch. We started walking towards the kitchen. I didn't let on that I had figured them out because I wanted them to have their fun. Besides, it was a great joke, even if the joke was on me. I wanted to keep it going for as long as possible. Now that I knew what was going on, I was able to fully appreciate the whole scenario and how hard it must have been to execute this whole thing.
"Lane...really...you don't have to feel obliged to..." My words trailed off as my eyes caught sight of something sitting in the middle of the kitchen. It was...a brand new MOUNTAIN BIKE!! It had a big red bow on it.
I stopped walking and just stared at it. I think my jaw literally dropped. OH MY GOD!! If I hadn't figured out their scheme, the sight of this bike would have made me forget about all the doubts and feelings of disappointment that I had. I couldn't believe it. Lane didn't...he couldn't have...OH MY GOD!! Lane noticed I stopped. He turned around and walked back up to me. I tore my gaze away from the bike and looked at him.
"SURPRISE!! Merry Christmas, babe." He said, a huge smile on his face.
This was the second time he called me 'babe'. The first time, I thought he had a slip of the tongue, or didn't realize what he was saying. Now, I knew he called me that on purpose. It's funny, but I'd never been a huge fan of using words like 'babe', 'baby', 'sweetie', 'sugar', 'angel', or any of the other hundreds of names that people use to address their significant other. Lane and I weren't officially a couple yet, but I couldn't help but smile. Somehow, hearing Lane call me that was not only acceptable, it was AWESOME!! I loved it...I loved him.
I returned my attention to the bike, then to Lane, then to the bike. I was speechless and didn't react for a few seconds. I think that my lack of response worried Lane because his smile started to diminish and he started to look concerned.
"Do you...do you like it??" he asked apprehensively.
"Lane!! Oh my god!! Wow!! I...LOVE...IT!!" I shouted.
Without thinking, I reached over and gave him a hug. I didn't give him one of those macho hugs that straight guys give to each other, the ones where the guys bump chests, then let go of each other as quickly as possible, lest they appear gay. Well...I WAS gay and I hugged Lane tightly and buried my face in his neck. After a rather long time, I pulled back but didn't remove my arms from around him.
"Lane...you didn't have to me buy me a bike. It's...it's too expensive!!" I said.
"Don't worry. I got it on sale." He said, repeating the comment I made to him when he opened the watch.
I wanted to kiss him so badly, and I almost did. But, I noticed some movement out of the corner of my eye. I followed the movement and saw Mrs. McNeil standing there. She was watching us, and she had a neutral expression on her face. 'What does that mean??' I thought. But, I really didn't have time to analyze her expression because Lane let go of me and started pulling me over to the bike.
"It's a 2005 Frontier. It's made by Schwinn." I looked more closely at the bike. It was beautiful. The entire bike was painted silver, with a black seat and handlebars. "It's got full Hi-Ten comfort, the tires are twenty-six inch Schwinn Frontier ATB's, and the shifter is a SRAM MRX-7."
I had to smile at Lane's enthusiasm. I had no idea what any of that meant, but that didn't matter. His excitement was infectious.
"I was thinking that when the weather gets warmer, we could go biking together!!"
Lane loved to go mountain biking. There were some nice trails at a park about fifteen minutes from campus. He would go sometimes, but I couldn't join him because I didn't have a bike. Apparently, he really wanted me to go with him. I mean...he BOUGHT ME A BIKE!!
"You know what would be fun?? We could take a camping trip this summer down to the Blue Ridge Parkway and bring the bikes with us. There's this place called Sliding Rock that's TONS of fun. It's this piece of rock that has a completely smooth surface because of the millions of years of erosion from the water that cascades down it. It's nature's water slide. The water is really cold, but that doesn't matter because it's so much fun!!"
Lane was pumped up!! I was happy to see him excited, and I liked the fact that he was thinking long-term about us. He was planning for the future, and I was a major part of his plans. I felt really good about that.
"So...did we get you??" He asked. I knew what he was referring to. I just smiled at him.
"Did you figure it out?? How?? When?? What gave us away??" He continued to ask me.
"I only figured it out at the very end. Before that, you had me completely going."
"You're...you're not mad about our joke, are you??" He asked. He voice was tinged with worry.
"No, I'm not mad. I admit that I was a little disappointed at first, when I thought you forgot to buy a present for me. But once I put all of the pieces together and figured out what you were up to, I thought it was funny. I couldn't believe that you guys got me. I'm amazed that all of you were able to pull that off."
"We've all had TONS of experience. Trust me." Lane said.
We futzed around with the bike for a while. Everyone except Lane's grandmother came into the kitchen to see it. Connor deemed the bike 'tight'. The grin of happiness that had appeared on Lane's face when we first entered the kitchen did not leave his face for a single second. With dinner finished and the presents opened, everyone settled down and the evening got much quieter. Lane wanted to build a fire in the fireplace that was located in the living room, so he and I carried in some wood from outside and, before long, we had a blaze going.
Lane and I ended up sitting on a couch in the living room in front of the fireplace, watching the fire crackle and burn. We didn't speak to each other; instead, we enjoyed the music...and each other. The lights were all turned out, so the only thing illuminating the room was the fire. I laid my head on Lane's shoulder, completely peaceful, and we enjoyed a very comfortable silence. Unfortunately, our moment didn't last very long because Hunter and Preston came into the room, with George tagging along behind them. The boys dragged Lane off of the couch to play with them. I remained sitting and watched as they wrestled around with each other. George was having so much fun. He really had taken to the boys and I was going to feel bad when we had to leave. Finally, the boys had used up the last of their remaining energy. I realized it was getting pretty late. Lane sat down on the floor and leaned his back against a lazy boy located directly across from the couch. Preston sat down to Lane's left and Hunter to his right. Lane put his arms around the boys and they cuddled with him. Once they were in that position, they drifted off to sleep fairly quickly, Lane included. George was lying down at Lane's feet, also fast asleep.
As I sat there in the darkened room with only the light of the fireplace to see by, I stared at Lane. The orange light from the fire danced over his face, creating an endless stream of interesting and unique shadows to appear. The boys were content and safe in his strong arms. I felt tears form in my eyes. Right in front of me was the most beautiful sight I had ever witnessed in my life, and I couldn't believe my good fortune. After everything I had been through...the sleepless nights, the painful injuries, the agonizing surgeries, the horrific memories, the terrifying nightmares, and the feelings of complete and utter loneliness I had to endure for the past eleven years of my life, all the while wondering if I would ever be able to move past my ordeal...I deserved the happiness that had come into my life. I deserved Lane. I had finally woken up from my living nightmare and, like a dream, the horror of everything I had to go through was (finally) fading from my memory. I knew that it would always be with me, but it would NEVER control me again.
Like I had done a thousand times before, I tried to imagine what my life would be like if I had never gotten into the car with Leon. For the first time EVER, I couldn't think of another place or another situation I wanted to be in. I was here in this house, with Lane, and I was HAPPY. I was done living in the past. Nothing in life is free, and if the price I had to pay in order to be with Lane was 'IT', then so be it. I was finally able to make peace with my past. As I sat in the living room, absorbing the beautiful scene in front of me, I shed the last of my demons. The black cloud of doom, which had transformed recently into a gray mist of worry, evaporated. It COMPLETELY evaporated and I could actually feel my whole being...my soul...get lighter as I let go of my most deeply buried feelings surrounding 'IT'. I felt free and that was an amazing feeling. I was ready...truly, completely, and finally ready...to move forward with my life.
Mrs. McNeil popped her head into the living room. When I noticed her, I wiped the tears from my eyes as discreetly as I could. I saw her smiling at the sweet scene that was Lane, the boys, and George. She walked over and sat down on the edge of the couch. We sat there for a few minutes, neither of us speaking.
"Lane's my baby, Jaden." Mrs. McNeil whispered to me suddenly. I looked over at her and she was staring at the fire. Slowly, she turned and looked at me.
"He's yours now. Treat him with respect and give him all the love he needs and deserves."
This wasn't Sarah or Connor teasing me about Lane and our relationship. I realized that this was a mother letting go of her child, her last child, her baby. It was one of the most beautiful...and heartbreaking...moments I had ever experienced.
This wasn't a time for pretense. I didn't need to feel embarrassed about my feelings for Lane. Mrs. McNeil knew...like only a mother can...that how Lane felt about me and I felt about him was the real thing. I didn't try to patronize her; she didn't deserve that.
"I will, Mrs. McNeil. I promise." I said simply.
"I know, sweetie. Oh...call me Kathy from now on, and Lane's dad is Mike. Okay??"
"Okay, Kathy." I replied, blushing slightly. She reached over and patted my arm. "I want you to come over for dinner tomorrow, alright??" She phrased it as a question, but it was really more of a command. I nodded my head.
She got up quietly and left the room. I had experienced different kinds of intense moments and emotions tonight, and my conversation with Kathy was no exception. She gave me her blessing and I was honored to accept it.
I reflected on last year's Christmas and how radically my life had changed in just one short year. I think the biggest difference, besides the obvious changes I had made, was in my overall feelings about the holidays. Last year, I was miserable and depressed. Another Christmas had come, another year was almost over, and I was still stuck...trapped...in the same spot. This year, my feelings were completely opposite. I had hope and optimism in my life!!
The next few days were going to be very busy for me. Tomorrow, I would be having Christmas dinner with Lane's family, which made me happy because that meant I got to spend more time with Lane. Then, my parents were coming home from their trip and I would get to celebrate Christmas with them. I had a ton of stuff to tell them!! After that was...Wednesday. The day I was looking forward to the most of all. THE DATE!! MY FIRST DATE!! I could hardly wait.
TO BE CONTINUED...