This is a fictional tale of this hot guy I met online. I don't totally remember how i got to his chat page. But I remember at one point finding him on post and then on Twitter. I have chatted with the guy a few times, but not hooked up. James is a bicurious, average guy with average body and a nice bearded face. But it's his cock and balls that make me crazy. Perfect size. About 7 or so inches long and with a nice curve. And a set of balls I could eat for days.
Well as mentioned. It's a tale of fiction as we have not physically met. And I don't see that really happening. But one can hope.
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Me & James O (32)
... After the abrupt appearance of James at my office several days back, I expected to get a constant flow of texts and even maybe a call or two by him. Something begging for reconciliation. Begging me to take him back But no, all was quiet. No calls, no texts, nothing. It was as if he was following my friendship rules to the letter. And that was weird. Almost unsettling. And it made me start to worry that our conversation had not done him well. That he may have dipped over to a darker place after it. And I surly didn't want him to do something crazy because of me. So I called him.
"Hello?" Came his voice on the line "Hi James. Just wanted to see how you were?"
He told me he was okay, then asked me how I was. We talked for a few minutes. I just wanted to hear his voice. To make sure there was nothing in his tone suggesting anything to worry about. And as I listened to his voice I felt that longing for him again. To have his voice at my ear as we made love. God how I missed that. And him. My heart was pulling at me. Telling me to just give in to him again. That I was still madly in love with James and he was the only one for me. I sighed and then decided to at least meet up with him for dinner. Someplace local in case I changed my mind about it all. All I knew is I had to see him again
"Look" I then said to him "Why don't we maybe go out and have a byte to eat this week" "Lunch, dinner, I don't care" "Maybe we can really talk then" "Okay" he said back
We then decided to meet on Friday for an early dinner. Right after work, so we could just go home to our separate places to enjoy the rest of the evening after. Then we hung up after a 'see you then'. Again I sighed as I sat there at my desk. Pondering this meet up. After everything we have been through, all the love, all the pain, I really was not sure what I should be thinking or feeling. Except that I did still love James. It was something I could not shake. Or wanted to. So I stared to tear up as I sat there. Hoping that I was not making another mistake by this dinner. Would I fall back in again, and would I again risk my heart to him. It would surly kill me if he were to break it again. I was almost certain of this.
"Oh God. What is this so hard?" I called out to no one "And why do I still.live him so?" "Please help me figure this out!"
Again calling out to the heavens, or what ever dirty may or may not exist that could help me here. I doubted I would get any or an answer from above. All I knew was that I was set in doing this. Seeing him again. I couldn't help myself. It was James.
Friday came quickly and the day seemed to zoom by. I found it funny as most work days always seemed to drag in. Especially if I was planning on something after. But today the day went by quickly. I wore a nicer shirt and pants as I was going to go to the restaurant right after. We decided to go out to the beach to that place we had been before together. A happy place in our history. So it was a hope for something positive because of where it was. I finished my last projects for the day and grabbed my things to head out. Then drove out to the beach. Hoping there wasn't too much traffic to get there.
"Let's hope it's a good night" I said to myself as I drove
I got to the parking garage up the street from the beach. Then walked the 4 blocks to the restaurant. Getting to the door to see it was busy tonight. I hoped I would be able to get a table. I didn't care where, but hoped it wouldn't be near too many people. I waited a few moments to get to the greeter. Telling her that I was meeting someone here. She looked at her pad and asked if it was party if two 'James'.
"Yes" I said back "Is he here already?" "Yes" she said back "Out on the patio"
She pointed to the opened doors to the left and I headed that way. I moved through the place, seeing people as they are and conversed. Then passing through the opened back doors. There were a handful of tables out there and to the left of the doors was James, sitting there at a table. James looked up and saw me. He smiled a relieved smile. I took that he was probably worried I would not come. He the stood up to greet me.
"Hey" he said "Come, sit"
I grabbed the seat and sat down. I looked at the setting, the table and the beach off behind him. The evening sliding in as the sun was starting to set. It was a lovely sight to see. Almost romantic. Then I looked at James. He had trimmed out his scraggled beard. And he looked dressed nicely. His shirt fitting in his well and ironed cleanly. I sighed again as I looked at that handsome face. He was still utterly beautiful to me. I wanted to just go over there and kiss him.
"Glad you came" he then stated "How long have you been waiting?" I asked "Bout' ten minutes" "Wanted to get here early"
I saw there was a drink in front of him. Half gone already. So I knew he was nervous. Hell I was too. This was a very touchy evening. It would decide whether or not we try and make a go at a relationship again. So it was a big night indeed The waitress came by as she saw me sitting there. She asked what I wanted to drink. I just ordered wine and then she left us to peruse the menu. James couldn't really look up at me now as we stay there. He just started down at the menu. Trying to avoid eyes contact. He was obviously very nervous. So I reached for his hand that was on the table. I touched it and then grabbed it in myne. Squeezing it softly.
"It's okay" I finally said "I am nervous too"
So I then just spilled out all I wanted to say. Stopping inky as the waitress came back with my drink. This I took a hard swallow of it. But then went back to talking to him.
"I love you James" I the simply said "I always have." "And I know somehow. I always will"
He looked at me finally a small smile bending on his face a bit. But ever so slightly. And he told me he also loved me. That I was truly the best thing in his life. And that fucking it up with me was the worst decision he could ever have made. And even though heade no excuse for it. He said that Jaden was unfortunately a persuasive guy sexually.
"And I know that makes me so damned flawed for letting him get to me" he continued "But I just couldn't stop myself"
I again stopped him. I knew that Jaden was almost irresistible. I had fallen to his spell before. My only concern was would James do it again with someone else. A guy, or even a girl. He was bisexual after all.
"Jaden is a whore" I said "I have known this for a long time now." "And up until you he had been a faithful friend" "Not trying anything when I was dating" "But then he did with you"
I stopped and looked at his handsome face again. Oh how I adored this mans face. And his fun and light demeanor. And not to mention his hot body
"I know why he did though" I then stated "I mean you are a beautiful man" "And he knew he fucked up saying no to you initially."
I then continued to say that Jaden realized he wanted the man he had little interest in after he actually met him. After seeing the hit James and knowing what he was missing. So he did what Jaden did, regardless of me and my feelings. I squeezed at his hand again. Then told James I did still love him. But could not afford another heartbreak. 'this one would kill me' I said James was going to again apologize, but again I stopped him. Then grabbed his other hand to feel it in mine. I could not say no to him. No matter what I tried. Because my love for his was deeper than anything. I needed this man in my life somehow. Even if it would inevitably kill me.
"You are the mani love James" I said "Though everything I love you" "And it may indeed be the death of me." "But, I do want you back"
He smiled more. That delightful smile of warmth and happiness. He then sighed as a relief cell over him. He then promised to never ever hurt me.
"You can't promise that James" I said "I can only trust that you will try"
I then picked up his hands and kissed his knuckles. We then finished eating. Heading back to my new place after. I wanted to have him let Ng next to me as I slept. No sex tonight I said. But I just wanted his s body against me.... ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ More to come. The final chapter