A Modest Servant
By Steam Train ( steam_t2000@yahoo.com )
Chapter 8: The greatest gift
Marcus and I met each other outside the Administration block and giving ourselves moral support went into the student office and told Mrs Vaness that Mr Norris had requested we report to him at recess.
"Stand over there boys, I will let him know you are here" she replied.
When she came back she instructed us to go straight down the corridor to his office.
This walk was far worse than the one I took when I first arrived at the school as an indentured servant.
Marcus knocked weakly on his offices door and Mr Norris called out almost immediately "Enter"
"Close the door behind you please Thomas" Mr Norris instructed as we entered. I did as I was ordered then stood next to Marcus in front of his desk.
Unbearable silence followed and when Marcus eventually started to say something, Mr Norris cut him off with a sharp toned rebuke of "Silence".
More unbearable silence as we both squirmed in discomfort before Mr Norris our Deputy Headmaster. He had had plenty of practise at putting students through this procedure and was a master in its application.
Eventually he looked up at us and establishing eye contact, spoke "Do either of you deny that what I witnessed was not a homosexual act?"
I was about to try and make an excuse, knowing deep down that it would be useless, especially for a servant as excuses were never allowed or listened too, when Marcus replied "Of course it was a homosexual act Mr Norris, both Tom and I are bisexual, I love him and besides it was my right as a free citizen to use a servant for sexual fulfilment".
Fucking hell, my mind called out silently, what are you saying Marcus, shut up. I could feel the blood rushing from my face; I must have looked very pale. I teetered on the brink of a faint and Mr Norris noticed because he came rushing around his desk and quickly grabbed me before I collapsed and guided me to a chair. Marcus seeing what was happening also came to my aid.
I soon regained my composure but I was in fear of Mr Norris's reaction to Marcus's bisexual love comment. Why had he told him the absolute truth, was he mad?
Somehow my near faint had broken the tenseness and when Mr Norris was satisfied that I was alright, he turned back to Marcus and said "Bisexual and in love are you? How at your age could you possibly be aware of what you truly are, let alone state to my face so confidently that you are bisexual AND in love"?
He went on "I don't care wether you are bisexual, homosexual or heterosexual, nothing SEXUAL is to take place between anyone of your ages and especially not in my house, do you understand me?"
Jumping in before Marcus could get me in even deeper shit, I replied "Sir, yes sir".
To my continuing horror however Marcus went back on the attack "I understand what you are saying sir, but it ignores the facts sir, we love each other sir, it's like sticking your head in the sand sir and hoping it will go away".
My mind couldn't even swear to itself this time, I was totally speechless in mind and mouth. I know that all I was capable of was dropping my mouth wide open in amasement at Marcus's comments.
When my mind began to take in fully what had just been said I thought `Oh God Marcus, you don't talk to the Deputy Headmaster like that!' Not a good move at all, as the anger signals were building in Mr Norris's face.
Mr Norris I could see fought with himself to maintain composure. To assist in regaining his composure, he sat casually on the edge of his desk and took a deep breath, then to my total surprise as I was expecting all hell to break loose, he made a very candid and honest remark, a remark of complete openness to Marcus." I admire your honesty Marcus. That shows a great strength in you. I don't think there is one other pupil in this whole school who would have been as game or as honest with me as you were just then".
He went on "Ok, let me put to you both, the brutal truth in this matter, after your honesty Marcus, I think you both deserve it given to you this way".
"If anyone of the parents, especially those that want Thomas and his brother removed from the school, find out that you have been having any sort of sexual activity together Thomas will be gone. I will not be able to protect him anymore and he may suffer a soul-destroying time in servitude for the next fourteen and a half years. You love him do you Marcus? ... Well if you truly do love him then the last thing you will want for Thomas is to see him sold off to some new Master who may use him for his sexual satisfaction as well as his domestic servitude. Do you really want that Marcus? ... Do you? ... Well I don't! ... You are totally forbidden to do anything with Thomas that will jeopardise his stay here, do you understand, ... DO YOU UNDERSTAND MARCUS !!!!"
Again the deathly silence swept across the room.
Marcus had tears in his eyes and running down his cheeks, I could hear him trying to suppress a sob.
Without giving myself time to think, I got out of the chair and moved over to Mr Norris who was standing in front of his desk, having stood back up whilst addressing Marcus and I hugged him tightly and said "Thank you sir for caring for me". I continued to stand there hugging him whilst in my mind I now knew that unlike my mother here was an adult who truly cared for me, loved me in a special kind of way and wanted to protect me. I felt Mr Norris tense and begin to push me away but he stopped and I heard the sound of a suppressed sob from him as well and felt him lift his own hand and rub his eyes behind his glasses.
We stood there hugging for a short while when I felt Marcus join in the hug and heard him burst out into full crying. Between the sobs, he cried out "Mr Norris, I do love Tom and I would do anything to protect him and that love".
After composing himself and our group hugging ending Marcus went on "Tom, if that means I have to abstain from loving you to protect you, of course I will do it Tom".
Facing Mr Norris he went on "I am so sorry I have offended you Mr Norris. I know your beliefs find my actions wrong but it was love Mr Norris, something wonderful and beautiful not sordid or horrible. I mean no disrespect to god, I just can't live without that type of love and Thomas has had a life almost totally lacking in love and responded to my feelings. Please understand that Mr Norris, please!!, please!!!. I don't want to be punished for something so special and beautiful that I will cherish for the rest of my life, something that I am prepared to give up, to protect the person I love. That is by far a greater punishment than anything else you can administer to us both. Please, please, please ... Mr. Norris?".
I was now the one bawling my eyes out. No one had expressed his love for me like that before. Marcus loved me, Mr Norris in a different way loved me. I was overwhelmed by love. I looked at Mr Norris and he too had tears streaming down his cheeks.
"I am a sentimental old fool," Mr Norris said noticing me looking at him. "I should order you both thrashed for your behaviour. I don't approve of it, but put the way you have stated your feelings this morning Marcus I understand how you feel. When Jesus said "Love thy neighbour, he didn't mean it like this, but still I believe love is the greatest gift of God".
"Go on, get out of here before I shed any more tears and if one word of this session gets out, that thrashing I promised will be swift and painful" he said with a smile and a wink of the eye. "You two could completely ruin my stern reputation amongst the students, quickly now go, but remember I never want anything sexual to happen again whilst Thomas is a servant at this school".
With that Marcus and I gave each other a quick hug then walked out of Mr Norris's office closing his door so he had time to recover before anyone saw him.
I am sure that with our red eyes everyone in the Administration building thought that we had received a severe punishment from Mr Norris and we had, but not of the kind that they all thought had occurred.
That very evening after Marcus and I had seen Mr Norris in his office, I was standing naked before Mr Norris for my usual inspection after showering when he raised again a comment Marcus had made during our session with him at recess.
Mr Norris said " This morning Marcus said `it was his right as a free citizen to use you a servant for sexual fulfilment', do you agree with Marcus on this?"
I immediately thought he was softening his stance on Marcus and I never having a sexual relationship whilst I was a servant at the school, so I replied, "Yes I suppose I do, we were told and trained specifically before we were sold so that we could perform this duty if required".
"Mmmm you really think that do you?' Mr Norris asked.
"Sir, yes sir" I replied.
"Ok then lets put this to the test" Mr Norris stated. "You are to remain naked tonight and shall share my bed with me as your master tonight, you shall service me sexually as you have been trained".
I was shocked and I don't think I managed to hide my shock, but then I thought, `this is a test, he won't do this I am sure, he's not like this, go along with it and maybe Marcus will be allowed back".
"Master, yes master" I replied.
I stayed naked in the lounge room whilst Ed showered and presented himself for inspection. When Ed asked why I had not dressed and was just standing there by Mr Norris's chair, he too was shocked by the answer. I could sense he wanted to say something to Mr Norris about this, but knowing his place as a servant he bit his tongue, however I am sure Mr Norris got the feeling of utter disgust that Ed felt about what he was making me do.
Mr Norris sent Ed to bed for his sullen and disrespectful attitude and told him to be careful, as Mr Lindrum would be calling first thing in the morning.
He then turned to me and said "I'm impressed Thomas, you are turning into an excellent servant. You were going to go to bed with me as I had ordered, weren't you?"
"Yes sir" I replied.
"Well I don't want it Thomas, it was only a test on my part to see how obedient you really are as a servant' Mr Norris replied.
I silently breathed a sigh of relief, I was right about his request. My opinion of Mr Norris just not being the sort of guy who would use any servant for his sexual gratification was reinforced and this got me thinking, "Sir, may I ask you something private?"
"Ask Thomas, I will soon tell you if it is inappropriate" Mr Norris replied.
"Sir how do you manage to control your sexual desires like you do? I can't even see a bit of bare flesh and I get an erection, you inspect us and Samantha too when she was here, totally naked, you could if you wished have Ed and I sexually service you, yet you choose not to and show no sign of being sexually aroused. How do you do it sir?"
"That is almost inappropriate to ask, but I will answer it honestly Thomas as it is a good lesson for you to learn. I was once like you Thomas, a teenager with a rampant sex drive. I choose to follow a Christian life style and have prayed long and hard about sexual temptations. I still get them Thomas I am human, but I can control those urges and channel that sexual energy into my work and life. Sex can be all consuming like tobacco, alcohol, drugs or the Internet. You have to learn as you grow in life how to deal with all these things. I have I guess to some extent succeeded Thomas."
I just had to raise his ruling on Marcus and I and I saw a faint glimmer of opportunity here so I said "Tell you the truth sir, I thought you were testing me out when you asked me to go to bed with you. That's why I was so willing; I thought you might have been going to soften your stance on Marcus and I never having a sexual relationship. I would do anything, anything, including giving you your deepest desires, just to have that opportunity with Marcus occasionally in the privacy of this house, where no one would know except you".
"GET TO BED NOW!!!!" he sternly answered.
"Sir, what did I say, please sir I did not mean to offend? You and Marcus are the most special people in my life I don't want to hurt or offend either of you, please tell me what I did or said?"
"Giving me my deepest desires? How could you presume to know my deepest desires, you're a boy I am a man, I don't have any sexual perversions, I lead my life to a Christian ideal, and you have offended me greatly by offering me your body as a bribe to get your so called boyfriend in my house and having sex. That's why I am upset at you. You're a servant; don't presume to know anything about me. GO TO BED NOW!"
Mr Lindrum was there the next morning to administer two strokes of the cane to me and one to Ed, to punish me for my rudeness and Ed for his sullen behaviour.
It was so hard after that. I wanted Marcus and he wanted me but we both new the risk was too high. We maintained our friendship but over the next months it became obvious that our sexual desires, now ignited for each other were driving us slowly to taking that risk. It was either break Mr Norris's rules or see less of each other.
Marcus was so strong in his character, he began dominating our relationship, but I was happy for this to happen. It was what attracted me to him. I didn't know he had made an appointment to see Mr Norris at school. When he dragged me along unexpectantly, one lunchtime to a meeting, I was as nervous on that short walk to his office as I had been the last time.
Again like our recess meeting he told Mr Norris the truth. That our desires could not be quelled, though we had tried very hard he said. He told him either we would have to cease seeing each other all together and that for me, that would be very bad. He could get other friends and even find sexual partners here at school he openly told Mr Norris. I however I would be forced into a life of total solitude with no close friends or love. At least if a normal master had bought me, I would have learned to serve that master and feel fulfilled mentally, physically and sexually. The alternative was to allow us some quite time alone in my room where no one would know anything.
True to his honest approach to life Marcus went on and told Mr Norris, did he really want me and Marcus sneaking off to some toilet cubicle to have a quick sexual release because we had no means of quenching our love and desire?
My mind was again racing. After my poor attempt at gaining a similar result the night after our recess meeting I felt this was a very risky approach. I was sure Mr Norris would consider that ending our friendship was in my best interest. The fact that I would have no close friend as a servant, well who would care certainly not Mr Norris he believed I was sure in that famous saying `You can't be friends with a servant'.
Mr Norris replied to Marcus as I had expected. "Marcus you know my beliefs in this matter, how can you stand there and ask me to allow you and my servant to use my house as a brothel for some sexual perversion?"
"I can sir because you love Thomas, I can see and feel that sir. You may pretend to hide it by referring to him as a servant and not as a person but I know deep down you want the best for Thomas and if that means turning a blind eye to some aspects of your moral beliefs then that is what I am asking of you sir. Thomas has had his life shattered; you and Mr Riley have helped pick up those shattered pieces. A servant's life is very frustrating, you can sense that sir. You can't do anything you want to do, only what your owner commands. Thomas no longer has any of the pleasures that all the other teenagers at this school enjoy, nor can he be seen to have those little luxuries and pleasures as it could jeopardise Ed's and Tom's continuing existence here. Some occasional time alone in the privacy of his bedroom will at least give him something to look forward too amongst the hard routine and drudge of a servant fife. You yourself have told me that Thomas is an above average servant, give him this reward please sir, please don't force us apart!"
It was a heart felt plea and I was again a bit teary-eyed standing before Mr Norris. Marcus would have to go into politics I was sure. He spoke so well for a year ten student.
Mr Norris was silent.
Marcus was silent.
I was silent.
You could hear the breathing in the room and in the background the noise of the students in the playground during lunchtime.
Mr Norris took off his glasses and sucked on the end of the ear frame. He looked at Marcus and with a sigh said "Your welcome to continue to come over one Sunday a month Marcus. If when your there and Thomas has spare time from his duties because you have helped him save time, then if you choose too, you can close Thomas's bedroom door and I won't disturb you for an hour, but no longer. I will knock if I need you before the hour is up and certainly I will knock if you haven't emerged once an hour has passed. I don't want to know what you do and nothing about what you do is to leave that room. It is your responsibility to get Ed's agreement to this secrecy as well. I have never approved this and know nothing about it, if you are ever caught out, don't turn to me, do you understand boys?"
"SIR, YES SIR" we replied with huge grins on our faces and before Mr Norris could protect himself we were both jumping up and down with excitement, whilst hugging him tightly again.
End Chapter 8