This story involves members of the bands Backstreet Boys and N'SYNC. This implies,in no way, anything about the sexuality of any of their members. This is a purely fictional story. With that said, Enjoy!
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Justin opened his eyes and looked up at the person he was lying on. Nick was still asleep. 'He's, actually, kinda, cute' Justin thought 'What am I thinking. He's Nick, he's my buddy, he's my pal, he's a guy. I'm not gay.... ....am I. I know we kissed, and it felt so good. But i'm not gay. I can't be, what would mom say.' Justin lifted up, off of Nick's chest. 'What am i doing here, I can't do this. I have to get out of here. NOW!' With that Justin got off the bed, picked up his shoes, and started for the door. He opened the door, and stepped out of the room. Nick sighed a little, and stirred in his sleep, which caused Justin to look back at him. 'I can't do this to him, it would break his heart if he woke up and I wasn't here.' "Hey Justin" a voice called from behind him. Justin turned around and notice Kevin walking towards him. "H-Hi Kev." Justin replied tring not to look at him directly. "What are you doing n Nick's room?" Kevin asked "Oh, umm...we just talking last night, and I g-guess I fell asleep in there." "Oh. Well you need to be more careful when your around Nick." "What is that supposed to mean?" Justin asked defensivly "You don't know?" "Know what?" "Nick's a fag!" "What does that have to do with anything?" Justin asked, more angrily "Well, sissy-boy over here might try to rape you or somthing, that is unless..." Kevin said giving Justin a weird, acusing look "Unless..?" "Unless your a fudge-packer too." Justin gave Kevin a look of disgust "I can't even believe what your implying. Nick's my friend wether he's gay or not. He was upset, and wanted to talk about it-" "Yeah, fags can get so emotionally" Kevin ridiculed Upset by Kevin's comment, Justin pushed him harshly against the wall. "How the hell do you think you are, you fucking biggot. As a matter of fact, Nick told me everything that has gone on in the past few weeks. How he came-outto you, and how you, all of you, deserted him in his time of need. How you beat him up. You have some fucking nerve. I should kick your ass ,right here, for doing what you did to him." Justin yelled "Defending your little boyfriend eh?" "That's it." Justin said as he pounced on Kevin, and started punching him wildly. Nick, awaken by all the comotion outside his room, stepped out to see what was going on. He found Justin on top of Kevin, and it looked like he was trying to kill him. Nick immediateely pulled Justin off of Kevin. "Let me go Nick" Justin protested "Well, at least we know who the man in this relationship is." Kevin said, as he checked his lover lip for blood. "YOU MOTHER-FUCKER, I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!" Justin yelled as Nick pulled him into the room and shut the door. "Justin what were you thinking" Nick said kneeling beside Justin, who was sitting up aganst the door. "He was insulting you." "I know, I heard a lot of your conversation." Nick smiled "Thank you!" Then he leaned in and kissed Justin, but as soon as their lips met, Justin pushed him away. "What's wrong baby?" Nick asked "Nick please don't call me that." "Why?" "Nick........i'm sorry, I can't do this." Justin said as he stood up, and walked away from. " Nick, I would love to be the guy to be with, you but I'm not-" He turned around to see Nick craddleing his face in his hands and his body shivering. Justin immediately ran to his side and put his arm around Nick's back. "I'm sorry Nick. I'm so sorry......... but i'm not gay." Justin said trying to convince Nick as well as himself. Just then Nick grabbed Justin's face and began kissing him. Nick forced his tongue into Justin's mouth, as he used his weight to push Justin to the floor. Soon Nick had managed to position himself on top of Justin, between his legs. Justin paralized in the moment, and soon he began to kiss Nick back. Nick let go of his death grip on Justin, and let his hands play with Justin's curly hair. Justin began to caress Nick, rubbing his sides and back. Somewhere, deep in the back of his mind, Justin knew this was wrong, that he didn't like Nick the way Nick liked him, or at least that's what he thought. But he'd been alone for so long....too long. Justin was now giving himself freely to Nick. This kiss lasted for what seemed like an eternity. The two pulled away from each other, breathing deeply, and stared into each others eyes. "I love you Justin" Nick said "Nick...." Nick closed his eyes to keep his tears from comming, but it didn't work. Seeing this, Justin's heart melted. He couldn't bear to see his friend cry. He loved Nick. Nick was the only one, other than J.C., that he felt he could ever connect with. He loved Nick enough to at least try to make him happy. He sat up and looked Nick directly in the eyes. "Nick, I don't know if i'm gay or not, but I'll try....for you." Then without giving Nick a chance to respond, he pulled him into a kiss, then gave Nick a tight hug. "I love you Justin" Nick said "I.....I love y-" RRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGG! Justin is cut of by the phone ringing. The Nick left out a heavy sigh. RRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGG! The phone rings again. "Are you going to answer that?" Justin asks "Yeah" Nick said as he reluctantly let go of Justin, and got up to answer the phone. "Hello, is Justin there?" the voice asks. Nick turns to Justin with a surprised look on his face, and says "Yeah hold on a minute, Justin it's for you." Justin gets up and takes the reciever from Nick, and Nick mouths the words "I don't know who it is. "Hello" Justin asks tensely "Justin?" "Yeah J.C." Justin says as he lets out a sigh of relief "What the hell is wrong with you. Why were you fighting wih Kevin?" J.C. asks "Damn, news gets around quick doesn't it." "No, I saw you fighting in the hall, but Nick pulled you away before I could get to you." "Oh. Well we were fighting because he was insulting Nick." "What, is Nick your boy friend now?" There was a long pause between the two. "Hello, Justin?" J.C. questioned "J.C. lets not talk about that right now." "Justin what aren't you telling me? Are you and Nick..." "J.C., I don't know. We kinda are, god I don't know. Lets just not talk about it now O.K." "God Justin, Kevin was right." "Right about what? What did he tell you?" Justin asked. "He told me you were gay." "J.C." "He was right wasn't he?" "J.C., I don't know, I'm not totally sure about it." "But Nick's helping you find out isn't he?" J.C.'s words struck Justin like a wip. "J.C. we'll talk later okay." Then Justin hung up the phone, and sat on the bed. Nick came up behind him and wrapped his arms around Justin's waist, then laid his head on Justin's shoulder while letting out a slight moan. Sniff "Justin what's wrong?" Nick asked Justin had started crying. "What's wrong?" Nick was getting more worried "It's J.C.....Kevin told him that I was Gay. He's probably going to tell everyone else too. I don't want everyone knowing this, i'm not totally sure my self." "Justin" Nick said pulling Justin closer to him "Kevin may be a jerk, but he wouldn't do that." "Why wouldn't he? Besides that's not the problem anyway. When I was talking to J.C., he sounded like he was disgusted with me, like.........he hated me." "Awww sweetie, J.C. doesn't hate you." Justin was crying harder now. "I hope your right." "I am. Now stop crying. Everything will be okay." Nick then laid back on the bed, and pulled Justin on top of him. Nick looked down at justin and leaned forward to kiss him. As their lips met, Nick parted his and let his tongue enter Justin's mouth. They massaged each other's tongues very slowly. Unfortunately the kiss was ruined when Nick felt a tear run down his cheek, but it wasn't his. Justin was still crying. Their lips parted and Nick pulled Justin close to him, letting Justin's head rest on his shoulder. A thousand thoughts were going through Justin's mind. 'J.C. hates me now. What will my parents say if I tell them I'm gay. God, I don't even know if I'm gay. Why is this happening to me. Why me, of the billions of people in the world, why me? I was happy before this, why am I here. Why am I here if this makes me so unhappy ........because Nick makes me happy. I can't do this, I have to get out of here.' Justin then jumped up off of Nick's chest and said "Nick I'm sorry...have to go." "But why?" Nick asked "I can't be here right now, I need to be alone...I have to sort some things out." "But Justin...." Justin wasn't paying any attention to Nick, he was focused only on getting out of Nick's room. He walked out the door, and down the hall, just in time to get onto the elevator, as Brian and Howie got off. "Hey Justin" Brian said "What's up man?" Howie asked But there comments were only met with silence from Justin as he entered the elevator and the doors closed. Justin pushed the number for his floor, and leaned against the wall as he he continued to think. 'How can i do this to Nick, he loves me. We kissed........his lips were so soft and warm. It was so nice. But i'm not gay.......am I?' Then the doors of the elevator opened on his floor and Justin began to walk towards his room. As he walked to his room, he was so caught up in his own thoughts, he didn't notice lance walking towards him. The two collided, and Justin fell back on to the floor. "W-what happened?" Justin asked, comming out of his trance "Ugh.....you ran into me curly." Lance stated "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't see you." "Yeah, well it's hard to see when your not looking" Lance said with a slight giggle "Got somethin' on your mind curly?" "Nothing important." "Oh well, anytime you want to talk, i'm here for you man" "Thanks Lance." Justin trying to squeeze out a smile. "Oh, that reminds me, J.C., he......ahhh....he wanted to talk to you." Lance said trying to remember if he had to tell Justin something else. "Oh, well, I don't want to talk to him." "What...Justin doesn't want to talk to J.C., thats like Charlie Brown not wanting to talk to Snoopy." "Snoopy doesn't talk, he's a dog." "O.K., then Charlie Brown not talking to Linus. Anyho', go talk to J.C., he said it was important." "O.K. whatever" Justin said as he walked pass Lance, to J.C.'s room. He knocked on J.C.'s door, and was met by J.C. opening the door, soaking wet in a towel. "JUSTIN!" J.C. said, startled "You wanted to talk to me?" "Yeah, I did." "I can come back later, if you want." Justin said "No, no this is important." Justin entered the room and sat on the bed. J.C. shut the door and walked over to his dresser. He then took off his towel, and proceed to dry off. Justin couldn't help but stare at J.C.'s naked body. "Jus..."J.C. started then walked over to Justin, "Justin, my face, look at my face." Justin blinked, and then looked up to see J.C. standing above him. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to stare."he said. "Whatever. What i wanted to talk to you about is why you were in Nick's room, earlier, and what Kevin, told me earlier." J.C. said as he walked back to the dresser, took out some clothes, and got dressed. "What did Kevin tell you?" "He said you and Nick are a couple now, more frankly, he said you two were fuckbuddies. Is this true?" "J.C. how can you ask me that?" "Justin, I know that's your private life and everything, but Justin, I need to know." "Why?"Justin asked "For the good of the group........and also because your my friend and I don't want you getting hurt." "Or maybe so you'll know if your friend is a fag, huh? "I didn't say that Justin." "But you were thinking it." Justin said spitefully "Justin, what did I tell you earlier today when you called me?" "I don't remember." "I told you that you were my friend, and I would support you no matter what!" J.C. walked over to Justin and put and arm around his shoulder "Josh......I don't even know if i'm gay or not. It's just that i've never been with a girl, or guy, and I've never had a girlfriend. I...I might be gay." "Or you might just be shy." "That too, I don't know." "Well, sleep on it, this is hard decision, its a life choice-" "It's not a choice Josh, if i'm gay, i'm gay" "True, but only you can decied if you want to follow that route." Justin looked at his friend. "I'll sleep on it." he said with a faint smile. "Good! So are you coming with us or not?" "What, where?" "We are all going out to dinner, are you coming or not." "Isn't it allite early for dinner grandpa?" "No, Justin it's six o clock, were have you been all day?" "Geez, I've must have slept later than I thought." Justin said under his breath "No, I don't think i'm gonna go out tonight, I'll probably just order in, and go to bed early." The truth was that Justin just didn't want to be around anybody now, he just wanted to be alone for now. Justin left J.C.'s room and went to his own. Despite the fact that he'd slept the day away, he was remarkably exhausted. When he got to his room, he stripped to his BVDs, and laid down under the blankets. He put his head on the pillow and closed his eyes. ______________________________________________________________________ Well what do you think of the second part of my story. If you have any comments or questions, feel free to write me at Horus209@hotmail.com