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`The tears had been flowing as GŽrald finished his long explanation. But now we were both able to give each other a watery smile. We hugged each other then and just held each other. No words were necessary."
His story had been very emotional, emotional for both of us. I was glad he had shared it. I now saw GŽrald in a new light and understood him in a new way. However, as we held each other, other parts of my body started to get interested in him however. ! And I started to think that it was time for both of us to get rid of these robes, too. His chest hair seeping out from his royal blue robe was too enticing for words. And the rest of him was even better I knew!
However, I also knew he'd have to have my story first. I knew as well that I'd have to be totally truthful if I hoped to do anything else with him ever again. Oh fuck. I'm so not good at talking about myself. I mean, for the most part, I'd rather not even think about me in any serious way. I've developed ways of not thinking about me over the years and living for the day only. But one look at his dark handsome masculine face with his serious gaze and his left, arched, eyebrow, was plenty enough to let me know that would not work with him. I mean he was the CEO of one of the biggest companies in our large city. This man was no one's fool. And he had almost said he was ready to offer himself to me. And that offer was going to depend on what I said in the next few minutes and whether I was ready to offer myself to him. Oh shit, crap, fuck. I was going to have to talk, to really talk, and to really talk about myself. And I was going to have to do this with a man I hugely respected, admired, had had incredible sex with and lusted after amazingly. I decided the best good defense was a good offense and I began with that.
"GŽrald", I began, and looked into his dark blue eyes searchingly. "First and foremost, I am not Alan." I was gratified to see a wince on his part. He started to say something, but I stopped him. " I know you told me your story to let me know why you were attracted to me initially as well as to let me know of your history and that you're a one guy guy completely and always have been." I stopped him from talking again. "I can't tell you how much I was happy to hear all about you. I know we cried together, too, about your story. Well, my story won't make anyone cry, I don't think."
I stopped to gather my courage. "Unlike you I've been gay my whole life. Even though I'm younger than you are, I'm not that much younger than you are!" We both smiled at that. "We're both from the same generation more or less. And even though I knew I was gay, I tried to pretend I wasn't. It was just a stage I thought. Even when little, though, I messed around with neighbor boys, pretending it was all innocent fun, even though in my heart of hearts I knew it wasn't. I had my first cum with a neighbor boy. Soon after that all of us stopped getting together and messing around. It had gotten serious and none of wanted to be called gay or queer. I managed to become celibate and to appear straight in both high school and college. But in graduate school I found the gay hangout in the way down low stacks of the library and was raped by a hot stud undergrad bareback with no lube in a cul de sac. We didn't even take off our clothes. We dropped trow and fucked. What a wonderful introduction to gay life. Fortunately since this was pre-AIDS and since he had no STD, I was fine and didn't get anything from him. However the pain had been so bad I swore off gay sex forever then. I would be celibate the rest of my life. Um yeah. Two weeks later I was back there, looking for sex again. But I did no more anal sex of any kind there. I guess that's one of the reasons why I'm still very healthy now. In fact I'm very particular about anal sex and always have safe sex. So what we did today was very much an aberration for me." He nodded, gravely. "I've had safe sex ever since until today", I repeated. Again he nodded. And again I looked at him quite appraisingly. He gave nothing away. He was in in full "poker mode". I could imagine wearing the same expression in endless meetings as he had made his way to the top of the company. Yeah, this was an impressive man in every respect.
"Well", I tried to begin, "I'm sorry but my story is nothing like yours. I have never had a great love. I've never lost a great love either. My story is pretty gay typical for a guy my age. I've enjoyed sex over the years but I've never fallen in love or, as far as I know, had anyone fall for me. So, while I'm much more experienced in some ways than you are. You're more experienced in ways than I am, too." And damn, where had these sudden tears come from?" Angrily, I wiped them away. "Look, I can give you more details. I can talk about how this guy or that guy did this or that or how this guy or that guy looked like or what their cocks looked like and who was better or worse in bed, but I can't tell you anything about love. I don't know what love is!" I shocked myself with my words. Where the fuck had they come from? And now I was crying unabashedly.
GŽrald came over to me. He took me into his arms and held me. He kissed me softly and kissed my tears off my face. I was so ashamed, but so relieved, too. I had told him the truth, no matter how awkwardly and ungracefully I had put it. As he held me, he said, "Steven, that was a great gift". "What", I said, confused. "You trusted me enough to tell me the truth." Again, I marveled at his ability to read my mind. And very ungracefully, I said, "I'm sorry I'm not Alan, GŽrald." His expression turned stone angry for just a minute and he said, "Never be sorry for who you are, Steven." Again I turned to him confused. In a suddenly weary voice he said, "Steven, I don't want you to be Alan. I don't want another Alan in you. I want you to be you and I would love to enjoy being with you as you are, Steven." I risked crying again. "But why me, GŽrald?" I said. "You are smoking hot. You are the CEO of the Company. I'm just an ordinary dude." He shushed me immediately, became angry again, and said, "Steven, you are not an ordinary dude." He looked at me with lust in his eyes and said, "You are so not an ordinary dude." At this point I sort of melted. Hate to express it that way, but it was true. I started to feel something I had never felt before, that I couldn't put into words. Trying to lighten the atmosphere I then asked, "Will you respect me in the morning Mr. Lemire?" I asked. He smiled and said, "For the rest of our lives."
I then fell in love for the first time in my life as we began to make love. I'm not sure how to describe the difference, quite. I have had some pretty great sex at times over the years and I thought that I could have died a happy man without ever knowing love, but what began to happen between the two of us told me that I was dead wrong. I realized that I had just given up a bit of my core being to him and felt that bit replaced with a bit of his core being. I suddenly knew he was mine and I was his in a way that would never change. This awesome man had really given himself to me in a way I knew was real even if I could barely fathom it. And I had given him me in a way I never knew I could.
We were holding each other, kissing softly, as I came back to awareness. The world took on new crispness and clarity. All of my nerve endings, all of my senses felt the world differently. His lips were both masculine and lush against mine. His big tongue was making my tongue feel like a new sex organ. My cock went rock hard immediately. I had a sudden need that I had to have satisfied immediately as well. "GŽrald", I got out huskily. "GŽrald, I need you now." He gave me a quick glance and immediately understood. He scooped me up in his strong, muscular, arms as if I weighed nothing and carried me into his bedroom. The smell of our first session was still strong and would have been an aphrodisiac if either of us had needed it. As soon as he laid me down on the rumpled bed, I reached up and pulled off his suddenly offensive robe. He reached down and did the same. Naked as the day we were born, we took a couple of minutes to admire each other. My love, my lover (!) was so handsome. He took my breath away. His hairy barrel chest, his dark nipples protruding from it, his strong shoulders and arms, his masculine face, his dark blue eyes, his thin waist, his big 8 inch cock, his long legsÉ All of him made my cock ache even harder. I saw his eyes light up with lust as he studied my hairless, but strong chest, and pink nipples, my boyish face, blond hair, and light blue eyes and hard as a rock 7 inch cock jutting out proudly from my flat gut. "GŽrald", I pleaded. "I need you in me now." His face lit up with the smile that could light up a room. He took the lube from the nightstand and quickly lubed up his big cock and my butt. He looked at me a bit searchingly. This time I understood what he was asking. "I want you on top of me. I want to see your face as you are in me." Smiling again, he started to lower himself to me. Again, he used his fingers to stretch me out for his big mushroom cock head. He took his time to make sure I was ready for him. However, I didn't want him to. My need for him was so overwhelming that I was ready to scream when he finally decided I was ready for him.
I sighed with immense satisfaction when he finally replaced his fingers with his oversized cock. As he sank into places I hadn't known existed before him, I let out a gasp of delight. His smile of joy made my heart skip and brought out a similar smile from me, too. He lowered his body down so that we were completely touching and kissed me very forcefully. My cock was so hard it hurt as his fuzzy flat gut caressed it. My nipples got even harder as his hairy chest rubbed them. And my totally filled hole spasmed and milked the huge cock inside of it. His sudden moan of pleasure was matched by mine. He couldn't help but say then, "Steven, you really do love me, don't you." Well, to state the obvious. "GŽrald, you fucking hunk of a man, I fucking adore you as well as love you. Now shut up and make love to me. Show me how much you love me. Make me cum while making love to me." His smile was my answer.
Slowly he began to plow me, taking his huge cock out to the edge of my hole before ramming it back in. He raised up from my body so that he could see my face and I could see his as we made true love. His slow pace was agonizingly blissful to me. I knew he was teasing us both and edging us both so that our orgasms would be earth shattering, but damn, this was too much. I reached up and grabbed his small, muscular, butt and tried to pull him into me harder and to quicken up the pace. He chuckled but was not about to accede to my desire. He arched his back even higher in the air and moved even farther away from me so that the only parts of our bodies that were touching were his big cock and my stretched hole. If anything he went even slower then. I knew then that he had decided this would be the fuck I would always remember, that would seal our love, that would show me that he loved me, Steven, and no one else. Despite that, my lust was so strong I kept grabbing and kneading his butt as I tried to force him deeper into me and make him fuck me faster. I was writhing beneath him in need and desire. I tried to pull his body back against mine so that I could feel all of him against me again. I tried to pull his face against mine to taste his sweet, hot, mouth and tongue again. Just as if I had spoken, he said "Not yet". He continued his slow and deliberate pistoning as I turned to jelly beneath him, desperate to feel him against me and to have him really fuck me hard. I tried everything I could to make him speed up. However, I could feel him chuckling, even if he gave out no sound. And then, when I thought I would have to scream out loud from frustration and need, he started to speed up. He sped up slowly and oh so deliberately. But he finally sped up just enough and he slowly started to lower his body against mine finally, too. First of all our balls were in contact as he slowly slammed his balls against mine. Then his strong hairy legs were back in contact with mine. As he rubbed his thighs against mine and our calves and feet together I discovered another new erogenous zone!
My cock continued to throb, naked, pulsing on my gut. I glanced up at GŽrald's face to see a smile of satisfaction as he continued to make love to me, thrusting inside me, ever so slowly going faster and faster. I continued to scream silently inside of me as his pace quickened along with my need and my lust.
I don't know how long he took, but he certainly did know how long he needed to take and that was exactly what he was doing. When I looked up at him, I could tell he was gauging my reactions, my pants, my moans, and my animalistic writhing beneath him and using all I was signaling in how he made love to me. However, he was not immune from his desire for me either. He was now sweating and his face was now grimacing from lust, too. His muscles were standing out from the effort it took to keep his upper body distant from mine.
Finally his thrusts came fast and hard. However, I knew he wasn't giving me all he had yet. My ravaged hole wanted that. If this was the fuck that was going to seal our love for each other, there would be no holding back of anything from either of us. I again grabbed his butt and tried to pull him into me to force him to give me all he had. Our eyes locked onto each other's. Dark blue to light blue. My pleading, needing gaze to his masterful, lustful, gaze.
That was all it took. He lowered his body completely onto mine. I lifted my legs up and wrapped them around his waist and butt. I lifted my butt to give him the angle he needed to go even deeper into me. And he did.
His hairy chest chafed against my smooth one. His hard hairy gut fucked my cock. His mouth ravaged mine and he suddenly was fucking me harder than I had ever been fucked before! My moans and gasps got louder and louder. Our bodies slammed against each other. The sweat poured off of them. Suddenly the scream that had been building in me seemingly forever erupted! I was glad nobody was there to hear it as the primal scream continued for minutes on end. When I finally stopped, my throat was sore, but I could finally hear GŽrald's moans and gasps and he continued to use every muscle in his body to give me the fuck of our lives. Finally, I couldn't take it any more. Every nerve was overstimulated, every synapse was firing. I started yelling uncontrollably. The cum boiled up in my steely hard cock. My yell got even louder as I finally came in buckets all over both GŽrald and me, sealing us together even tighter with my sticky cum! That was all it took as he finally let himself go and dumped his own buckets of cum into my needy hole, too! And I swear to God, I could feel him fill me up and loved the sound of his still pistoning cock now squishing his cum inside of me. The obscene sound of him fucking his cum into me gave me another shudder of delight.
He finally ran down and had his fill of fucking me. He collapsed totally onto me and held me in his strong arms. We both shed tears of joy from our lovemaking. And it truly was lovemaking. For the first time in my life I knew what it was like to love, be loved and make love.
And then I also realized neither one of us had gone soft. We were just as hard as before we came! GŽrald slowly started to fuck me again. I think then I lost consciousness and I entered another world of tantric sex. The odor of sweat and sex entered my nostrils and the feeling of GŽrald's hot, masculine, body against mine overpowered me as his huge cock squished his big load of cum in my ass as he picked up where he had left off. His big chest chafed mine and our nipples rubbed at times as he and I writhed against each other, trying to get even closer to each other, trying to enter each other's body, physically, in ways that our souls already had.
This time he refused to speed up. His fucking was deliberate and steady. A few minutes ago he had sealed our love, this time he was sealing our relationship, our partnership, our lifetime together and beyond, as souls bound forever and ever.
I don't know how long our lovemaking continued. All there was was him and me, bound together, every inch of us plastered together in love, sweat, and cum as his soft fucking of me was as regular as the beats of our hearts. I know I cried more tears of joy, but can't tell you when or how often. I know he did, too, as I felt them on my face. Our tantric sex continued and continued for who knows how long. However, finally, inexorably I could feel his cum overflowing from his huge cock buried inside of me. My cum flowed out in return, coating us once again and sticking us together forever.
He finally stopped his pistoning and lay on top of me motionless. I was in total bliss then. The man I loved beyond reason was bound to me in every way possible. My heart seemed to burst with joy, as every sense in my body was overwhelmed by this new feeling of love.
I was finally able to speak and I said, "My love, my GŽrald, stay inside of me. Stay on top of me. Fall asleep with me just like this and wake up with me just like this, too. And do this every night for the rest of our lives."
Even though I couldn't see his face I could feel him smile, the smile I loved so much, and he replied, "My love, my Steven, I will. And every night we will be bound together in love, only sometimes you'll be on top!"
I couldn't help but chuckle then. He chuckled back and soon we were both laughing out loud, crying out new tears of joy and laughter.
And we did fall asleep like that. And we did wake up like that, too. Even though GŽrald had finally gone soft during the night, he woke up hard and soon was back in me, giving me another incredible ride! Once again our orgasm was earth shattering! As I looked up at him after he collapsed on me, I knew that I had finally found happiness and love and I gave thanks, as I basked in our shared glow.
The end and the beginning, tooÉ
Love to all, Steven and GŽrald.