All of the usual disclaimers apply. If it is wrong or illegal for you to read erotic material containing consensual sex between two males, then stop reading now and leave. Otherwise, enjoy!
This is the fifth installment in a series about lost opportunity. If you have ever been certain that you were going to hook up with someone new, but something happens that prevents it, this story is for you.
By this time, I had a pretty long list of guys that I had fooled around with. However, at this stage in the game, if there was anyone in my town that would be a willing fuck buddy, chances are I'd already fooled around with them. Although my little black book was beginning to fill with a lot of big red X's, I began noticing a number of "new recruits" that began to show interest in messing around with guys for the first time. The hard part was waiting for my minions to take the opportunity to introduce them to me. Thus began a considerable dry spell for me.
The only potentially available guys either ran in radically different circles, or had fooled around with guys at one time and now have seemed to choose a different path with straight relationships. The exception to this rule were a couple guys that had fooled around with my best friend and since he and I had this sort of unwritten code of ethics, they were off limits; to a point.
Dirk was one of these people. Now I knew that my best friend Cory had messed around with Dirk, but Cory often spoke about how Dirk used to just drive him nuts! In fact, I got the impression that Dirk was really not worth the effort. Cory and Dirk were pretty hot and heavy for quite awhile, but then what seemed like all at once, they stopped hanging around together almost completely. It appeared, Cory was pretty happy to have told Dirk off and was now done with him.
Not being terribly bright, Dirk still came around despite the fact that Cory and him had stopped messing around together. By doing this, I think Cory really wanted Dirk to stop coming around altogether. It was one of those such days when I rolled up in front of Cory's house only to find Dirk there. When I got out of the car, Cory shot me a look that said, "God, I wish this guy would just leave!"
I joined them on the sidewalk and despite how irritating Dirk happened to be, he was still kind of fun to hang out with. I think Cory felt the same way too. Although he was really mean to Dirk, he wasn't 100% against hanging out with him. After a while of talking. I announced that I was starting to get cold, so I told Cory I was going to drive home (over 30 miles away) to change into some warmer clothes. We talked for a few more minutes trying to decide what we were going to do once I returned.
None of us really came up with anything to do, so like many other times, I suggested that we get some alcohol and just hang out. Dirk seemed pretty happy with that suggestion and Cory really didn't voice his opinion. I headed for my new sports car when Dirk piped in, "Hey, can I ride along with you?" I said he could and then asked Cory if he wanted to come along as well. He said he wanted to stick around home and would get in touch with us once we returned. I had really been wanting to hang out with Cory, but a little voice inside me just kept nagging me about Dirk. I was understandably curious if there ever would be an opportunity to try to get in Dirk's pants, so my allowing him to tag alone with me would be the opportunity I needed to get that ball rolling.
Dirk was an extremely good looking guy. He was about 5'7" or 5'8", probably 115 to 120 pounds, beautiful complexion, longer wavy brown hair, and pretty cut despite his smallish frame. The boy had almost no body fat. Although he was thin, he wasn't so thin that it made him look lanky. He had muscular arms, and killer 6-pack abs. The only problem for me was the fact that he was total hillbilly white trash. Most would take one look at him and lust after him, until he spoke then the desire to hook up with him would disappear. Not me, though! In my experience, those were the type of guys that would do almost anything with you in bed. In fact, some of the best sex I'd ever had was with guys that were just about as hillbilly as Dirk was.
We left for my apartment with an opened case of beer in the back seat. We spent the next 30 miles of driving, sucking down beers. As time passed, the both of us started getting pretty loose. As a result, the topic of sex came up. I was especially surprised when Dirk revealed to me that he and Cory had been messing around together. As a countermeasure, I acted surprised because Cory didn't want to get caught sharing secrets such as these after he'd promised to uphold them. Dirk went on to tell me that he considered himself bi-sexual. He said he had known that I was gay for quite some time and he rather sheepishly told me that he had aways wondered what it would be like to fool around with me. Talk about a double whammy!
What a pleasant surprise for me. I was so flattered by this because I had never had anyone try to seduce me. >From the beginning, I had always been the one that initiated things and frankly, I was getting a little tired of it.
We arrived at my apartment with the partial case of beer tucked under my arm. At this point, I made a promise to myself that I was not going to violate my agreement with Cory. I think Cory felt that any guy he had messed around with today, and in the past; was off limits. I tried very hard to uphold this agreement. But, as the beer continued to flow, I found myself less and less able to resist the temptation. Dirk followed me into the bedroom and stood talking to me while I was changing. I thought this was it. I thought he had followed me into the bedroom to check me out. I was right!
As I continued changing, Dirk began to be more and more direct with his intentions with me. Instead of the usual metaphors used to discuss touchy sexual conversations, he was blatantly telling me that I had a nice body and he was looking forward to experience sex with me. Once that was said, my desire to uphold my agreement with Cory began to strengthen. I told Dirk that I would love to take him up on the offer, but I had agreed with Cory that I would just go home long enough to change. If I had allowed myself to become involved with Dirk at that moment, there was little chance that we would make it back to Cory's house if we had decided to get it on. And so, with regret beginning to form in my thoughts, I turned down that current offer and suggested we get on the road back to Cory's.
We were still nursing the beers as we made our trip back to Cory's. Once we arrived, it was probably pretty obvious that Dirk and I were starting to get pretty drunk. Cory came to the door after a rather spirited knock. It didn't take me long to notice that he was not in a very good mood. I wasn't certain why, so I went ahead and invited him to come with us. He rudely told us he wasn't interested and closed the door behind him. I think I was a little shocked by this at first, but the more I thought about Dirk and I messing around, the less I cared that Cory was going to pout. A little disgusted, Dirk and I returned to my car and set out to find something else to do. While we were driving around town, Dirk suggested that we could go get some more beer then go to his house to hang out. He threw in that he wanted to do this because he claimed to be concerned for me. He didn't want to see me get busted for drinking and driving.
We began our moderate drive to his house. Along the way, he became more and more assertive about what he wanted to do with me. He added that his girlfriend was not going to be home and if the beers kept going down as good as they were, he just may start getting more and more curious about messing around with me. He also added that although he had been messing around with a couple guys in the past, it wasn't until he had sex with his girlfriends little brother that he sucked a dick and swallowed cum for the first time. Despite being very buzzed, I was starting to get really excited.
We sat down in the living room and talked some more as we started going through some more of the beer we brought with us. In those few short minutes we sat and talked, I think both of us were trying to build up the nerve to fool around. Just as we both stood to go to his bedroom, we heard some commotion on the porch and low and behold, his girlfriend stepped through the door. I felt my heart sink! They talked back and forth for a few minutes and allthewhile, I was sitting there trying to come up with some way we could still make this night happen for us.
His girlfriend excused herself and went to the bedroom. Once the door closed, I leaned over and in a whisper, suggested we could still go back to my apartment and pick up where we left off. He disappeared into their bedroom and after just a few minutes, he returned with a look on his face that told me this thing weren't going to happen. He told me his girlfriend was a little miffed that he had brought someone home with him for the purpose of just getting drunk. With a measure of regret in his voice, he politely asked me if I would go. I could tell he didn't want me to go. He said he still wanted to mess around with me, but it was just going to have to wait for another time. Unfortunately, never again would there be this type of opportunity for us again.
A short while later, Cory and I had a pretty bad falling out and from that time forward, we stopped hanging around altogether. I think I was most affected by this. After a couple weeks, I got over being angry at him and when I thought we would be able to sit down and discuss our friendship rationally, I was disappointed to learn the he wasn't interested.
About a year later, I was living in Florida. I got a call from a mutual friend of mine and Cory's who told me he was on his way to visit me. Jason moved in with me and because I was still interested in reconciling with Cory, I asked Jason to help me understand why Cory didn't want to fix this. Knowing full well that Jason was going to know Cory's side to the story, I thought it would be only fair that he listen to my side of the story. Once I finished, I asked him if anything I said rung any bells with him. Cryptically, he gave me a kind of generic explanation. This information allowed me to eliminate a number of possibilities.
Then, as if a light bulb turned on above my head, I asked him about the whole Dirk story. He told me he had heard the story about Dirk through Cory. He mentioned the whole unwritten rule issue as one key thing that might be bothering Cory. I was a little puzzled by this. Was I to believe that Cory was angry at me because Dirk and I had talked about hooking up? I told Jason that nothing happened!! Then it dawned on me. Why would Cory be this mad over something like this? How could he be that mad at me all because he assumed something had happened between Dirk and I.
Then Jason told me. Apparently, Dirk went to Cory that next day and told him that he and I had messed around the night before. Why would he do this ? He did this to make Cory jealous! It all started to make perfect sense to me. Dirk did this to him to get even with him for treating him so poorly. He apparently told Cory all of this as a means of getting even with him for all of the evil things Cory had said and done to him. To this day, Cory still believes that something happened that night. Although I wish there would still be a way to patch things up with him. But, if someone is willing to ruin a relationship over an assumption, then I guess I'm not interested in being friends with him either. Sorry about your luck, Cory!