My Confession My Dreams
by Layla
(F/F, bd, humil)
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This is for Janey.
This is so difficult to write. You can't know how hard it is for me to lead this double life.
i dream about being the whore that i am. i dream about wearing a collar and leash and crawling on my hands and knees like the bitch i am. i dream about how i took off my top and how i almost came like a slut when she slipped her finger into my mouth. i dream about how i let her rub oil all over me like i was her property and blamed it on being drunk - but i wasn't that drunk, i just loved hearing her call me a good girl while her fingers slid all over my slutty body.
i dream about being so scared when i realized i was tied and naked. i didn't tell you this because i was so afraid that you would think i was such a slut, but i was so turned on when i woke up and realized that she had tied me down that my nipples hurt - they were that hard. i dream about knowing that it was the truth when i said i was a whore and knowing in my soul that this was the reason that i came so hard. More than anything i dream about the feeling of my tongue on her rosebud, feeling her shudder and hearing her moan that i was her bitch while i licked her.
i dream about watching myself on that video and knowing.
i dream about her forcing me to do all the other things that she did to me for the rest of the vacation. i dream about going home and seeing my friends and almost crying because i knew i was such a slut. i dream about being so ashamed when my boyfriend fucked me later and it was awful - realizing that he is a terrible lover. i dream about waking up lying next to him and masturbating while he slept - masturbating to the knowledge of what a slut i am.
i dream about being caught when she used me at the party.
And now i dream about being your whore.