TWO MONTHS LATER
Ok, ok I know I've gotten a little ahead of myself in this story but ill fill you in on my glorious 2 months with my baby, that is up until today. Well for one Samantha turned to me one day in math class, when I was taking my usual nap, and told me she had very strong feelings for me. Ever since then we have been a couple, right up until her father noticed we were more than friends and didn't want her seeing me anymore. That man broke my heart and dear Samantha's, yet he doesn't know what pain he has caused either one of us. Ok here is how it was.
Samantha was on my way to our school, since I had moved and no longer needed the bus. I found out she never really did need to take the bus, and she only did for me, which was heartwarming to discover. Her parents were both gone to work, so we had the house to ourselves. I opened the door and went on in since no one was home anyway.
"Samantha! Where are you?" I asked in a hurry since I already knew I was last for school.
"Up here.." Samantha exclaimed from the upstairs.
I had noticed that she had a sort of sad tone in her voice as I raced up the stairs, I knew something was wrong. I walked into that familiar room and a new fragrance. And there she was, drying her beautiful silky hair. I walked in the room, with the largest smile on my face, which she had put there for months, and she knew it.
"New shampoo?"I asked, smelling the unfamiliar smell.
"Yeah.." she replied looking up at me with those puppy-dog eyes.
I sensed something was wrong, honestly did she take my for a fool? I knew this girl more then the back of my hand, and everything I knew, I loved. When she looked up at me her eyes were red and puffy, as if someone was crying.
"What's wrong????" I asked.
"Nothing, please just never mind, I'll explain it to you this afternoon. If you really love me Crystal, you will wait until this afternoon so I can explain to you the truth, ok?"
"Sure..." I said, still in shock.
We never spoke the whole walk to school which was a mile.
I wanted to ask her but I remembered her words `if you really love me..' and I did, I did with all my heart, she is the only girl, or person in fact, that I would jump in front of a bullet for. I just walked silently, stealing loving glances at my baby, I knew she was in pain, but I just didn't know how to help her. I wished I could. When I think about it I may have been more careful around her parents, but how can you leave her alone? I found it nearly impossible not to be speaking to her, touching, kissing, just feeling her next to me. When we got to school I handed her back her bookbag which I was caring, kissed her on her cheek and walked away. Before I left I made sure I said "I love you" in her left ear, which made her shudder. The whole day was nearly impossible, having Samantha sit right next to me in most of my classes, and we were locker neighbors. I just wanted to know the truth. To be honest with you I felt like shaking her and shaking her until she told me so I could make it better for her. I hated seeing her in pain, when she was in pain I was in the same pain only doubled. She was my angel and I was her protector, not in this case though which depressed me a little. Finally, we met up at our lockers and she passed me a crumbled up piece of white paper.
"Im so sorry, I want you to know I will always love you, and we will work out this, somehow. There is no way I will leave you, never. You're my world baby and I love you, just rememebr that for me, please?"
I couldn't speak, I was flabbergasted. While she was walking away, she kissing her long and hard, but soft. I will love you so much, always will. She kissed my forehead and I felt her sobbing. She then walked away leaving me so shocked as ever. As I walked home I started to unfold this piece of paper. I can still remember every word from it, it read; To my dear baby,
I know you love me and you should know I love you, with all my heart. I would never dream of not being with you, that is why it kills me to write you this letter. You came to my house this morning and you saw me crying, this is why I was crying and yes I was. The whole day I tried to imagine my life without you, and I just couldn't. I had to face the facts, its either im with you or im just not here, I need you baby. Always and forever. I will miss you so much if you take this letter the wrong way. Remember I love you and I don't want to break up with you, that is the last thing I want, but my parents have noticed us. The way we are more then friendly to each other, the way we touch and hug and cuddle. They had a long talk with me last night. I was crying then also and they said I was too young to be gay or in love. They didn't believe me when I said you're the one and only person or girl for me. I love you so much, don't ever forget it. My father had banned me from seeing you, he Is still letting me go the brooksworth so I guess I would still see you there. He said you aren't allowed to come to my house, or me over to your house. Baby I love you so much and I don't want to lose you, it would be like losing a diamond. You're my precious jewel. We can still she each other. I wouldnt have it any other way. You mean so much to me, I don't know how we are going to work through this and we will have to be very clever, because ... I need you. Im sorry this letter is so long, I poured my heart and soul into it, and you. I love you, all you you, and your eery flaw also. When you see this please don't call me, I wish you could but my parents are home. Write me a letter and we will talk tomorrow in school. I love you so much, never forget it.
I was in shock. I was banned from seeing the only thing that mattered in the whole world to me? What would I do? What do I say? How do I fix this problem? So many questions, so very few answers. I came up with the conclusion, I wrote it in my letter...I know I love her, she knows it too, thankfully.
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