My Secret Love

MY SECRET LOVE By D. Laws

Warning: This does contain material involving same sex relations, if you are offended by this in any way then don't read it. This is only for fun, and not meant for anything else.

Part Seven

The ritual of the 5am alarm awoke us both. I slightly grumbled knowing what the day would bring. Lauri got up and told me to go back to sleep but this morning I laid there watching her get ready as to imprint this last image of her in my memory.

Lauri looked over at me and smiled. "Why aren't you going back to sleep

Samantha? It's early yet."

"I'm just admiring the view," I said jokingly.

"Well go back to sleep, and I'll see you at lunch, okay?"

"Okay, Lauri. I'll see you later."

I didn't know whether I would make it back before lunch myself but I just led her to believe that this monday would be the same as any other day that her and I had spent previous with our usual routines, but today I knew would be different.

After Lauri left for work I got up and went into the bathroom to get ready for my appointment with Dr. Sou. I went downstairs and had a cup of coffee relaxing and trying to figure how I would tell Lauri. Maybe over lunch today I will tell her, I thought to myself.

I called myself a cab and waited for it to arrive while I sipped at my coffee at the kitchen table. I started to write Lauri a note and decided against it. I heard a horn beeping in the background and looked out the window, the cab was parked in the driveway. I put my cup in the sink and headed out the door.

I climbed in the cab, the cab driver looked back at me. "Where your heading

sweetheart?" He said all gruffly.

"To the hospital please" I said as I looked in the rearview mirror

at the cab driver.

He pulled out of the driveway and we headed to the hospital which wasn't far of a drive at all. He pulled up to the front entrance. I handed him a $20 bill and thanked him as I climbed out of the cab with my crutches. Damn, I thought to myself, it sure is expensive to take a cab.

I walked to the front desk and checked in with the nurse for my appointment with Dr. Sou. I sat there in the waiting room trying to read, but my thoughts kept wandering to Lauri, and how I would miss her. "Oh Lauri, I wish so much things could have been different with us." I sat there in my heavy thoughts when I heard the nurse call my name.

"Samantha, Dr. Sou will see you now." the nurse said as she led me

to the examination room.

I sat in the examination room as the nurse took my vitals, and wrote them down in my chart. She got up to leave the room, "Dr. Sou will be in a few moments Samantha, put this examination gown on." She handed me the gown. "You can leave your underwear and bra on though."

"Okay, thanks" I said to the nurse as she left.

After the nurse left I undressed and put my gown on. I sat there twiddling my thumbs a bit nervous as I waited for Dr. Sou to enter. A few moments went by before Dr. Sou. entered.

"Morning, Samantha," Dr. Sou said as he entered the room picking up

my chart from outside the door. "How are you feeling this morning?"

"I'm feeling fine Dr. Sou. I will be anxious to get this thing off."

I said pointing to my cast.

"Well, we'll take a look at that then." He said smiling at me as he

walked over to me and directed me to sit on the examination chair.

He helped me climb up and looked at my cast, and then directed me to lay back as he lifted the gown and examined my stomach where my stiches were and my ribs as well. He palpated the areas for any tenderness or softness and commented on how nicely I had recovered so quickly considering the injuries I had sustained with the accident.

"Your looking really good Samantha. You have recovered very nicely.

I wouldn't say you are 100% yet but your getting there, so I still

don't want you to be over doing too much though, but you probably

can start to be a bit more active now and try to build some of your

strength and muscles back up. As far as your cast, if you feel up

to it we'll remove it today but I would like you to wear a knee

brace to just support your leg a little why you regain strength back

again. During the night you can take it off though. So how does

that sound?"

"That sounds great Dr. Sou. It will be nice to finally have a

shower." I said smiling.

"Well let's get this cast off then so you can get home and have that

shower."

He smiled and patted me on the arm as he called the nurse in for

assistance.

The nurse entered and after a few minutes assisting the doctor my cast was removed. It felt refreshing finally to feel air to my leg. The nurse cleaned up my leg. The muscles did look a little weak from no use, but either way I was glad the cast was finally off. The doctor showed me how to put my leg brace on to help stabilize my leg. He told me that I no longer needed to wear any constriction around my ribs as they looked healed up enough.

"Samantha, well your set to go here. I'm really glad that everything

turned out really well for you. Try to take it easy for a little

while longer, but everything looks really good. You've done a great

job in recovering and allowing your body to heal." Dr. Sou finished

writing in my chart as he spoke to me.

"Thanks Dr. Sou for helping me here. I owe alot of my recovery to

you as well...well actually I owe you my life." I said smiling.

"But Lauri was so great to have let me stay at her place to heal.

I think that really made such an significance to my recovery.

Anyway, thanks for all your time and effort that you did for me."

"I'm just glad Samantha that things turned out the way they did.

Goodluck with school. I hope all that works out for you."

"Thanks, I appreciate that."

Dr. Sou said goodbye and left the room as I changed back into my clothing. It felt weird not having the cast on anymore, but it felt good to have that freedom back. The leg brace helped a lot with stablizing my weight. I was a bit nervous at first to take my first step without the crutches but after a few steps my body adjusted to my weight and I was walking with no problems.

I left the examination room and checked out at the front desk and called for a taxi to take me to the auto shop. I waited by the front entrance as I saw the taxi pull up. I climbed in and we were off to get my car.

I felt great to finally have my freedom and independence back again, now only if Lauri could be a part of all of that with me I thought. The cab driver pulled up to the auto shop and I paid him and climbed out. I walked into the office of the shop and a man was standing there.

"Hi, my name is Samantha Pearson, I called someone last week about

picking up my car today."

"Yes, Samantha. I have your paperwork right here. If you can

sign the release forms and then I can get your car for you."

"Okay, thanks." I said as I grabbed a nearby pen and signed the

papers.

"I'll be right back. I'll go get you your car, it's parked out

back." the man said as he ran off somewhere.

I stood there waiting for him as I saw him a few moments later driving my car up front. I walked outside to meet him as he hopped out of my car and handed me my keys.

"Wow, finally have my car back, and it looks better I must say then

it was before." I said laughing.

"Yes, your brother had us do a complete make over on it."

"Well, I think it looks great." I turned and looked at the guy.

"So is there anything else I need to do, or sign, anything to pay?"

"Nope, everything is set for to go"

"Okay, thanks." I said as I climbed into the front seat. It felt great to finally be sitting in my car again. I rubbed my hands over the steering wheel, and smiled in amusement. I took a deep breath and started the car. "Well, here goes," I said to myself as I slowly pulled out of the parking lot of the auto shop. I felt a little nervous driving again but I wanted to take it very slow till I got use to being behind the wheel again. So where do I go, I thought...hmmm...there's one place I should go, I said to myself as I steered the car in the direction of the clinic.

It was almost noon so the clinic would be getting out for lunch soon. I was hoping I would catch Lauri before she headed home to an empty house. I pulled into the parking lot of the clinic, this time using the visitor's parking space. I didnt really consider myself a student there anymore and didn't feel I should park where the students do, so I headed around to the front entrance parking lot. Heck, it was shorter walking distance anyway for me and I didn't want to walk too far with just getting my cast off and getting use to bearing weight on my leg again.

I parked the car and nervously made my way to the front doors. I didn't know what I would say but I'm sure Lauri would be quite surprised to see me none the less. I took a deep inhale, hesistated for a few seconds and took the leap and walked through the doors.

I saw our secretary sitting up front and she was quite surprised to see me. I chatted with her for a few minutes, just telling her I wanted to stop by and see how everyone was. They didn't know I was staying at Lauri's, so I just made some story up. Just then Shirley walked around the corner and spotted me.

"Samantha, is that you!" she screamed and came at me and gave me a

great big hug.

"Yes, Shirley it's me." I said laughing as I returned the hug.

Shirley looked me up and down and saw my leg brace and asked me a million questions and what I've been doing and how things were. I could hardly keep up with her in answering one question at a time. I told her a brief summary of my accident and recovery, though leaving out certain parts of where I recovered and who I was with.

"Wow, Samantha. I'm so sorry that this all happened. You know, I

knew you were upset that day, and I shouldn't have let you drive off

upset like that. I could just kick myself when I look back."

"Please, Shirley, don't think that way. You had nothing to do with

this and believe me, neither you or I had any idea that this would

happen. You know Shirley, I just think somethings are just meant to

happen for a reason sometimes. Now why this happened to me, well I

don't know that one yet." I laughed when I said that.

"But anyway it happened, and I think I have learned something from

all of this." I paused for a few minutes. "Anyway, I still get to

graduate with the class, and then who knows? " I said shrugging

my shoulders. "I'll figure something out and where I might finish my

clinical requirements. So you see, everything always works out in

some way or another." I said smiling.

"Well still I just wish I could have done something."

"Well, Shirley we all wish for a lot of things and wish we could

change our past mistakes, but maybe in a way this whole ordeal

taught me something about life, about me, and just how we really

can't take anything for granted for we just don't know when it can

be taken from us at any moment. In any event, I think I appreciate

life and things so much more now, and I just hope I always remember

how I got here."

"Wow, it seems like you have done some growing there as well

Samantha. Well I'm just glad that your still here with us. I heard

that it was touch and go at the beginning, and I'm so happy that

things turned out this way," Shirley smiled and squeezed my hand.

"And I'm so glad you'll be graduating with us in a few weeks!"

Shirley squeeled.

"Wow, graduation. Scary thought!" I grimaced but then smiled at Shirley. We both cracked up and started to laugh out loud and hugged each other in excitement over graduation being so close and the excitement of me being back in the game again.

Shirley pulled away. "So Samantha, I'm heading to go to lunch in a

few minutes, do you want to go grab some lunch with me?"

"Thanks for the offer Shirley, but I have plans to meet someone

already for lunch. But thanks though. I hope you don't mind.

Maybe we can meet up sometime before graduation."

"Yeah, that would be great Samantha. Well, you have a good lunch

and give me a call when you want to meet up. I better get moving

here cause I have to be back in an hour for clinic."

"Okay, Shirley. I'll talk to you soon."

Shirley rushed off to go to lunch. I remember that feeling of always having to rush home and eat lunch and be back to set up for clinic all within an hour. We didn't get much of a lunch break, and that is one thing I don't miss that much. But I am anxious to get back into it again. These past few months of recovery have made me itchy to be busy again, and to get back to school again. I never thought I would hear myself wanting to be back at school but I did miss it. Though spending time with Lauri through all of this made my time apart from school and my recovery go almost unnoticed. And it will be her that I will miss the most. But I guess I should have known it wouldn't have last, for all things end at some point, I'm sad to say.

I snapped out of my thoughts. I turned to the secretary and asked her if Lauri was around. She told me that Lauri was finishing up with a patient in the clinic still and that it would be alright for me to go back there. So I walked around the corridor and walked into the clinic area. Most of the clinic was deserted, only a few were left finishing up cleaning and heading off to lunch. I heard Lauri talking to one of the other instructors and said she was heading off to lunch. Some of the other students saw me and came up to me and started to chat. Lauri must of heard me talking with someone for the next thing I saw was her giving me a puzzled look of why and how I was there.

The other students said goodbye and told me how nice it was to see me again and that I was okay after the accident. Lauri waited for them to leave before she approached me. She stood there with her arms folded.

"So Samantha," she said looking me up and down, "So tell me, what

is going on here?"

"Umm...hi Lauri," I said innocently enough.

"Don't hi me all innocently Samantha. I can see you got your

cast off. Why didn't you tell me you were going to get that

done today?"

I paused for a few seconds, "Um..well you see" I stopped myself

and got my barings again. "Lauri, I wanted to tell you about

today, but I didn't want to ruin our weekend together. Damn, this

is not coming out the way I want it to." I pulled Lauri to the side

and talked more quietly to her. "Lauri, Dr. Sou called me last

week, and I made the appointment for today. I also went and got my

car today."

Lauri interrupted me, "You drove here by yourself!"

"Lauri, please lower your voice. Yes, I drove here by myself, I'm

quite capable of taking care of myself now and driving. Dr. Sou

gave me the go ahead. But, anyway, I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but

I thought it was best. We were having such a nice time these past

few weeks and this weekend, I didn't want my impending leaving to

ruin that."

"What?" Lauri said shocked. "What do you mean about leaving"

"Lauri, we both know I wouldn't be staying at your place forever,

and that I would be leaving as soon as I was well enough, well the

fact is, I'm well enough now to take care of myself. I didn't want

to tell you last week cause I didn't want to ruin our time together.

I knew with me getting my cast off and being almost completely healed

now, that I couldn't keep staying at your house. Besides you have

your own family and life to get straightened out, and I can't be

there when that all takes place. Your kids will be back soon

in a few weeks anyway, you said yourself, from their grandparent's

place, so how would you explain them to me? You see, it was

inevitable this day would come. And I guess it is now. I am sorry

for not being up front and telling you." I lowered my head and

softly spoke. "I guess I was afraid. I'll miss you and

miss being around you"

Lauri didn't know quite what to say. She cleared her throat.

"I understand Samantha why you didn't tell me, I really do. I wish

you had of told me though cause I would have wanted to be with you

when you went to the doctor. And despite you saying how well you are

and capable are of driving, I can't say I feel really at ease with

that. I just want you to still take it easy and not rush things."

"Lauri, I understand your concerns, but please, I really am able

now. We can't keep making excuses for me to still be staying at your

place. We both know it would never work." I said saddly.

Lauri turned away from Samantha trying to hold her tears back. She

felt an overwhelming need to just grab Samantha and hold her and

never let her go, to tell her that she loved her and didn't want her

to leave. But her own fears held her back. Lauri got control of

her thoughts and emotions and turned and looked at Samantha.

"Samantha, can we discuss this at home, please. Please can we

go back to my place and talk there?"

"Okay Lauri, I'll meet you there."

"Will you be okay to drive Samantha?"

I turned and looked back at Lauri and gave her a look.

"Okay, okay" Lauri said half smiling. "I'll see you there in a

few minutes."

"Okay Lauri," I said as I walked out the front door to my car.

A few minutes later I was pulling into Lauri's driveway and she pulled up behind me. We both got out of our cars and walked to the front door. Lauri opened the door and we both entered and went into the living room. Lauri walked over to the couch and sat down.

I walked up to her and asked her what she wanted for lunch.

"Samantha, lunch is the furthest thing from my mind right now."

"Lauri, whatelse is there to say. We both know I can't keep

staying here." I said all flustered.

I went and sat down on the couch with Lauri. Lauri turned and faced me.

"Samantha, I understand that. How bout you stay till the end of

the week. I mean, there's no rush for you to leave just yet.

I know your feeling better now, but I kind've like your company

and besides my kids won't be back for a few weeks yet, so why

don't you stay for another week." Lauri said all pleadingly.

"Well, I suppose another week wouldn't matter that much," I said

feigning delight. Secretly I was pleased she wanted me to stay on,

if even that was only for one more week.

"Great, Samantha. I'm glad. And you know what, how bout we

celebrate tonight. Let me take you out to dinner to celebrate you

getting your cast off and getting your car back again. I'm sure that

feels great again I imagine having that all fixed up. Your brother

John had told me he was getting it fixed for you."

"Yes, he had it more then fixed." I said smiling. "In fact, it looks

better then it did before the accident. I'll have to thank him next

time he calls. He sure takes care of me."

"Well, you are his baby sister you know," Lauri said smiling.

"Yes, I am, but I also am his only sister. I guess after our

parents died when we were younger he became not only my big brother,

but also like another parent to me. He was always there for me.

Anyway, I don't know why I'm talking about the past." I shook my

head. "Well, tonight huh?"

"Yes, how bout it? Let me take you out for dinner to celebrate, and

I bet you can't wait to take a real shower?"

"Yeah, that is on my top list of things to do right now." I said

laughing. " Well, dinner sounds nice Lauri. Okay, let's do that."

I said excited. This would be our first time actually going out

together, and I felt a little excited and nervous about it.

"Okay, Samantha, we'll have a fun time tonight. Let's get dressed

up. We'll go somewhere special to celebrate."

"Sure Lauri, that sounds great. Well anyway how bout some lunch now

though?" I said getting up walking into the kitchen.

"Alright, let's not eat too much though, I want us to save our

appetite for tonight." Lauri said with a smirk on her face.

"What do you have planned for us tonight Lauri?" I said looking

back at her.

"Ahh...you'll have to wait and see. But make sure you dress for the

occassion. "

"I will Lauri...don't worry!"

So we both ate a light lunch saving our appetites for tonight, though I didn't know what I was saving my appetite for. She must have a huge banquet prepared for tonight, I thought to myself smiling. Oh well, I guess I'll find out tonight. After lunch Lauri got up to leave to go back to work.

"I'll see you in a few hours Samantha"

"Okay Lauri," I said yelling from the kitchen as I cleaned up the

dishes. "You have a good afternoon at the clinic"

"I will. Enjoy your afternoon as well." Lauri said as she headed

out the door.

I finished up the dishes and flopped on the couch for a few minutes and flipped on the tv. Before I knew it I was dozing in and out of sleep. I guess the afternoon's events had worn me out more than I had realized and my little dozing on the couch would be beneficial anyway so I would be rejuvenated for the night, so I let myself relax and fall in and out of sleep.

I must have been a sleep for a couple of hours. I yawned and stretched and looked over at the clock. It was almost 4pm. "Shit," I said to myself as I quickly got up and ran up the stairs to take a shower. I went into the bedroom and searched through the drawers for anything nice to wear for tonight. I had more of my things sent over from my apartment a while back so I had quite a bit of my clothing at Lauri's now.

I grabbed some nice sexy black lacey underwear and bra, and threw them on the bed, and then searched the closet for anything decent to wear. Since I didn't know where we were going I wasn't quite sure of what to wear, but she did say something dressy. I looked through my clothes but the only really dressy thing I had was my long black silky dress. I wore that on very formal occassions, so I wasn't sure if this would be a bit too much. It cupped my figure, showing every curve of my body, right down to the crevice of my breasts, even making my size "B" look even enticing. "Well," I said to myself, "I suppose this will be okay...I think."

I grabbed a bath towel and headed to the bathroom. I ran the shower and discarded my clothes on the bathroom floor as well as my leg brace and hopped into the shower. I let the water run all over my body, it felt so nice and refreshing. I stood there for awhile under the water just enjoying the relaxing and soothing feeling of the water over me. I must have been in there for awhile for the bathroom was becoming pretty steamy in there. I finished up washing my hair and shaving my legs before getting out.

Lauri came home from work and yelled out to Samantha, but there was no answer. She then heard the shower running upstairs and thought to herself that Samantha must be in the shower. Lauri headed upstairs to the bedroom to grab some clothes herself to start getting ready for the night. She noticed the dress and lacy underwear and bra on the bed. "Hmm...very nice," she thought to herself. "Well, what will I wear," she said as she looked through her closet. She noticed a long slim red dress of her own hanging in there. "Yes, this will be the one," Lauri said smiling to herself. She also grabbed some sexy underwear and bra of her own to wear. "This will definitely be a night to celebrate," she thought to herself. "Okay, since Samantha is using the upstairs bathroom, I'll head to the downstairs one, though all my makeup is up here." Lauri grabbed a towel and some of her things to take down stairs and was about to leave when the sight before her took her quite off guard.

Samantha finished up her shower, dried her body off and hung the towel up on the rod, but kept one towel wrapped around her hair so water wouldn't drip over her. She didn't hear Lauri come up so presumed she was still alone in the house and figured it would be okay to walk out into the bedroom naked since Lauri wasn't back yet. Samantha walked out in the bedroom and was taken off guard and shocked to see Lauri standing there. She was speechless and for a few moments couldn't move. She then realized she was standing there naked and ran back into the bathroom and grabbed a towel and wrapped around her body before coming back out again. All Lauri could do was think, "wow," and wasn't able to respond verbally either at the time to Samantha.

Samantha walked back out into the bedroom. "Um...sorry about that

Lauri. I hadn't realized you were back yet, otherwise I would have

had myself covered up."

Lauri cleared her throat, "No, don't worry about it Samantha, it

didn't bother me. If you want to walk around here naked, well that

is your business." Lauri said jokingly. "Besides Samantha, we're

both women and grown ups here, and its not like we haven't seen

each other before."

I smiled and laughed, "Yeah, I suppose your right Lauri. Anyway,

I am sorry though. Hey do you want to use the bathroom? I'm done

in there now "

"No, it's alright Samantha. I'll use the one downstairs, that way

you can get ready up here with some privacy."

"Well, it doesn't bother me if you did want to use the one up

here."

"No, I think I want to be surprised by the end results of seeing

how beautiful you'll look in that hot looking dress of yours," Lauri

said as she pointed to my dress on the bed.

I laughed at her remark, "Hot looking, huh? Okay, Lauri, I'll see

you downstairs when I'm done getting ready here. And by the way,

I'm not the only one who's dress is hot looking, the little red

one of yours there is one hot one as well." I said laughing.

Lauri turned back and gave me a look and smiled before she headed downstairs with her things to get ready herself. Lauri never did take long to get ready, so I imagined she would probably be ready and waiting for me downstairs I thought to myself.

I finished up as quickly as I could cause I knew Lauri would be done before me. I finished my hair and makeup and was pleased with the results and then grabbed some body perfumed lotion and rubbed that all over my body. I lightly powdered my body and then finished up with some light perfume that I applied near my crevice and behind my ears. I put my underwear and bra on and silky stockings before I slipped on my dress over my head.

The dress fit every curve of my body and I was pleased to see that I was still able to wear the dress. I wasn't sure if it would after the accident since I had not been able to be as active and work out as I had done before the accident. But the dress fit wonderfully, and hung perfectly over my shoulders filling out every area of my body and leaving everything to be desired. I smiled to myself. "Hmmm, maybe I really shouldn't be wearing this tonight." Just then I was interrupted with my thoughts, Lauri had called out to me and asked me if I was almost ready. I called out telling her that I would be down momentarily.

I slipped on my shoes. I saw my leg brace on the bed, but decided tonight with this dress I wasn't going to ruin the image and wear it. I would take it easy, and walk slowly and careful if I had to. I grabbed my purse and slowly headed around the corner leaving the bedroom and down the hall to the stairway. I came to the head of the stair way and saw Lauri down there waiting for me. She absolutely looked beautiful. She was wearing this lovely slim red dress that also hung on her every curve. She looked magnificient. She definitely took my breath away. "This was definitely going to be a hard night. I have to remember, we're just friends Samantha, we're just friends." I repeated to myself in my mind. I took a deep inhale and nervously walked down the stairs to where Lauri was waiting.

Lauri sat there and looked up at Samantha with awe in her expression as she watched Samantha come down the stairs. "Oh my God," Lauri thought to herself. "She looks so beautiful. This is definitely going to be one hell of a night." Lauri thought.

I came down the stairs and approached Lauri. "Hi, Lauri. I must say you

look really nice tonight. Well actually you look beautiful. That

dress really looks wonderful on you. So do you have some type of a

hot date or something?" I said smiling.

Lauri laughed and smiled at me, "Well I could say the same thing about you

Ms. Pearson. You look really beautiful as well Samantha. So are

you ready to go then?"

"Yes, I sure am." I took a deep breath. "I'm a bit nervous to

tell you the truth."

"Why, Samantha? You have nothing to feel nervous about. Come, on"

Lauri grabbed my hand and pulled me along. "We're going to have a

fun time tonight."

We headed out the door to Lauri's car and climbed in. "So where are we

going Lauri?"

"It's a small place outside of town. I hope you like seafood?

My husband would take me to this place on special occassions, well

more like our anniversary, but I think tonight is a special

occassion." Lauri said smiling at me as she buckled up and started

the car.

"Mmm..Well seafood sounds great Lauri. So your husband use to take

you here huh? Well it must be a really nice place then."

Lauri pulled out of the driveway and we were on our way to the restaurant with the hopes of a wonderful night to come, I had thought and wished secretly to myself.