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"Even if you give me all your love, even if you give me all your kisses, it will be never..." Keyshia Cole
Never Too Much Chapter 11
by JT Poole
// Fernandina Beach, FL -- The Hospital -- JT's Room -- Later Monday Afternoon //
"Well hello there big man. How are you feeling?" Chris asked as he and Ashley walked into JT's hospital room.
"Have you guys seen Dan?" JT asked, looking at the two men with tears in his eyes.
"No we haven't seen him. What's wrong JT?" Chris asked, opening the room door looking outside quickly. "Did you two fight or something?"
"I don't know what happened. He said he was going to take a walk. He needed to get some air he said. That was about two hours ago, I haven't seen him since." JT spoke, crying full out now. "He doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't want me now that I am a loony."
"You are not a loony." Chris replied. "You have stuff on your mind that you don't want to deal with JT. I know you, and you are not a fucking loony."
"I am too a loony, either that or I am the biggest fuck-up on the planet to have two men walk out on him." JT said, turning away from the two men, covering his face.
"Come on JT don't talk like that. Dan has not walked out on you. He probably went to do something else or something." Ashley stated, rubbing JT 's back. "Dan loves you with all of his heart."
"I am not so sure about that. How could you love something like me?" JT stated, turning away from them as there was a knock at the door.
"JT you have a visitor." Chris said, opening the door to let the doctor in.
"Who is it?" JT asked, turning around to see the doctor standing there. "What do you want?"
"Well I came to tell you that you could go home, that I have released you from hospital custody. All I ask of you is that you stay sane and don't do anything else to hurt yourself." The doctor spoke to JT. "Your friends are here and they are going to take you home. Please rest your nerves and don't let anyone or anything upset you."
"I won't doctor." JT stated, truly lying through his teeth. "I am not going to let anything upset me at all. I just want to go home and lounge around the pool."
"Well you do that and take it easy." The doctor spoke, walking over to JT's bed and shaking his hand. "I don't want to see you here again, if I do, I will do what's necessary to have you committed. Do you understand me Mr. Poole?"
"I understand." JT responded, getting up out of the bed, heading over to the closet to get his belongings.
"JT let me help you." Chris spoke to him, hugging him as the doctor walked out of the room.
"I don't need any help, I just need to get out of this place and go home." JT replied to Chris, pushing the man away from him.
"We are going to take you home JT." Chris stated, trying to stop JT from moving.
"I can take myself home Christopher." JT spoke, walking into the bathroom to change into his regular clothes.
"Chris something's wrong with him." Ashley stated, grabbing Chris by the arm. "I think he's not finished yet. I think he has his mind made up and knows what he's going to do."
"What? You think he's going to kill himself?" Chris asked.
"Yeah I think so." Ashley stated, tears in the corners of his eyes. "He's acting like Dan was acting before I caught him."
"Oh man, what can I do?" Chris asked.
"We can't take our eyes off of him." Ashley stated as JT came out of the bathroom dressed and ready to go.
"Is my jeep still outside?" JT asked, looking at Chris.
"Yes it is." Chris answered him
"Where are my keys?" JT asked, holding out his hand, waiting for Chris to produce his keys.
"Here they are. Are you okay to drive?" Chris asked.
"Yeah and I suggest you two get a taxi, I am not in the mood for company right now." JT spoke, grabbing his bag and walking out of the room, leaving Chris and Ashley standing there with their mouths gapping open.
// Downtown -- A Park Near the Hospital //
"What am I going to do? I love him God, but I don't think he really loves me. I know we haven't been together long Lord, but I have always had a crush on him. Since the first time I saw him that day so long ago, I have hoped, wished for the day that we would be together. That day is here, but he's not the person, the man I thought he was. I don't know what to do Lord, please give me a sign." Dan talked aloud, walking along through the park, not noticing Lance following behind him.
"Maybe you should just leave him alone. He's not for you, he's still mine." Lance spoke, stumbling a little bit.
"He doesn't belong to you or anyone else Lance, he's his own person. This whole mess is all your fucking fault. If only you had left him alone, he wouldn't be in the condition he's in now!" Dan screamed, turning away from Lance.
"He's mine, and only mine. He would still be mine if I wasn't stupid." Lance stuttered out. "I know I fucked up, but I tried to make it right after Justin turned me down. I tried, I really tried to get back with him, but I could never reach him. Then he invited the guys and me to come out here. Agreeing, I thought this was be my big chance to put things right with him, but you interfered!"
"I didn't interfere with anything. You might have had him once Lance, but you don't have him anymore Lance, he has moved on!" Dan screamed out. "Leave him alone Lance, let him get on with his life. You have caused enough trouble."
"I have only begun to cause trouble. If I can't have JT, no one can!" Lance screamed out as Dan punched him in the stomach and walked away.
// Back at the House //
"Where the hell is JT man?" Justin asked, walking into the kitchen with Nick following him.
"He basically took his jeep and left me and Ash at the hospital." Chris replied, picking up the phone calling for someone.
"Hello?" A familiar voice spoke into the phone.
"JC we need your help man." Chris spoke. "It's Lance, he's gone off the deep end again."
"What's he doing?" JC asked.
"Well for starters, he has started drinking and God knows what else he's doing and he's caused JT to hurt himself." Chris answered him.
"What?!? Oh no, what happened to JT?" JC asked.
"He tried to kill himself." Chris spoke. "He and Dan finally got together, only to have Lance cause problems for them."
"Oh he needs his ass whipped." JC stated, groaning as he sat up in bed.
"He needs more than that, he even got arrested." Chris said, tapping his fingers on the table.
"Okay have you or someone talked to Johnny?" JC asked.
"I haven't talked to Johnny, but Serena called and said we need to get back so we can get started on a project." Chris responded, as Ashley sat in his lap. "Hi honey."
"Hi Ash." JC stated, loudly hoping that Ashley would hear him.
"Hi Josh, how's it going?" Ashley asked, wrapping his arms around Chris' neck and placing a kiss to his cheek.
"Everything's cool here." JC answered him, leaning back into Robin's arms. "Do you need me to drive there?"
"No, not at all Josh. We are going to find JT, Lance and Dan and we are coming home. Serena called and she wants us all in the studio to lay down some new tracks." Chris explained.
"Work? Already? We were told that we had the rest of the month to relax and stuff." JC spoke, sitting up now.
"I don't think it's going to take too much time, but we need to do it and get it over with." Chris said, kissing Ashley quickly.
"So when should I expect you guys?" JC asked.
"Expect us?" Chris asked.
"You expect you. When do you guys expect to be back here?" JC asked.
"I don't know Josh, we have to find them, make sure they are okay and the such and then we can leave." Chris answered him.
"Well how long is that drive back going to take?" JC asked.
"I think about six or seven hours. It took us longer to get here because Lance was fooling around." Chris replied.
"Well keep me updated of what's going on `kay?" JC spoke.
"Will do. I will call you back when we have located everyone and get ready to go." Chris said, telling Josh goodbye, wondering of what the noise in the background was.
// A Few Hours Later -- Orlando, FL -- JC's House //
"Is there something wrong baby?" Robin asked, getting out of bed and walking up behind JC.
"Seems Lance had screwed things up for JT once again." JC answered him. "Chris said that JT and Dan finally hooked up and Lance interfered."
"Why would he do that? Isn't he dating that guy from O-Town?" Robin asked.
"Yeah he is, that's why I am wondering the same thing." JC said, wrapping his arms around Robin. "Baby they are coming back. Do you think we should tell them about us?"
"That's up to you Josh. I stand by you 100 percent. I am quite sure they will figure it out sooner or later, you have a ring on your finger and I am not letting you go anytime soon Mr. Chasez-Dunne." Robin spoke, placing a gentle kiss to JC's lips. "Whatever you decide to do, I am okay with it."
"Okay baby. I think we should tell them. I need to apologize to Justin, Chris and JT for not telling them." JC said, laying his head on Robin's shoulder.
"What about Lance baby?" Robin asked.
"He's starting to act crazy again, I might not need to tell him." JC answered him. "I am quite sure he would take knowing about us badly."
"Why would he?" Robin asked.
"Well it's complicated baby. Lance developed a crush on me after he and JT broke up. He was always in the dumps and I did what I could to try to cheer him up. A few months later it's like he latched on to me as thought I was the only thing he needed to live. He later told me that he had fallen in love with me and I turned him down." JC explained.
"Oh, well that might cause a problem then." Robin stated as the doorbell rang. "Who could that be now?"
"I don't know, but I'll go see." JC responded, pulling his robe on, leaving the room to go downstairs to answer the door. "JT? What are you doing here?"
"I needed to go somewhere so I came here." JT answered him falling onto the floor.
"Are you okay JT? What's going on? Where are the other guys?" JC asked, kneeling down in front of JT.
"I don't know. I haven't seen anyone but Chris and Ashley and I left them earlier this afternoon." JT replied. "What am I going to do Josh...I don't know what to do...Dan left me."
"Dan left you?" JC asked.
"Yeah he left me. He left me at the hospital and he didn't come back." JT answered him, crying now.
"I don't think he left you. Are you sure about what happened?" JC asked, regretting his words as he said them.
"Yeah I am sure! I know when someone leaves me, or have you forgotten that Lance left me!" JT screamed.
"What's going on down here?" Robin asked, walking into the main room.
"Who the hell are you?" JT asked, standing up on shaky legs.
"Well...ah...JT this is my husband Robin." JC stuttered out.
"Your What!" JT screamed out.
// Back in Fernandina Beach, FL -- JT's Beach House //
"Where the hell is JT?" Dan screamed at Chris, getting upset.
"I don't know, I haven't seen him since he left the hospital!" Chris screamed back.
"Left the hospital? He wasn't supposed to leave the hospital!" Dan screamed again.
"The doctor came in and released him. After promising the doctor that he would take things easy and rest, he got dressed, took his keys from me and left me and Ashley at the hospital." Chris explained. "He left by himself, told us to take a taxi back here."
"You let him leave the hospital alone? Are you crazy?" Dan asked, tears running down his face. "That just gives him the opportunity to try to kill himself again! He could be dead somewhere and we would never know!"
"Dan honey calm down." Ashley spoke, trying to comfort Dan. "Have faith, JT's alright, I just know he is."
"How do you fucking know he's alright? Huh? How do you know? You saw how he was here and you have seen him at the hospital. He can snap at any minute. Where the hell is Lance?" Dan asked, turning around, looking around the room.
"Where is Lance?" Justin asked, looking outside. "His rental car isn't out there."
"Oh great, he went after JT again." Dan stated, standing up as Jacob walked into the room.
"So my suspicions are correct, he's left me and gone after him again." Jacob stated, sitting down in the nearest chair. "Why me, why is he doing this to me. I thought he loved me, but I guess I was wrong."
"You were not wrong, he loves you Jake, he's just fucked up in the head right now." Ashley spoke, walking over to Jacob to try and comfort him.
"If he loved me so much, why isn't he here with me? Why did he cause so many problems? Why? Why?" Jacob asked.
"I can't tell you why Jake, I just know that Lance really does love you, he just has to get through this current situation." Ashley said to him just as the phone rang.
"Hello?" Chris spoke into the phone.
"Chris, it's me. Calling to let you know that JT is here." JC spoke into the phone.
"JT is there? What's he doing there?" Chris asked as Dan got up and walked over to Chris and the phone.
"He said he didn't have anywhere else to go that Dan had left him and basically that's all I got out of him. He went on and on about Lance doing things and wouldn't let him be, he started crying again and so I put him in one of the rooms and let him fall asleep." JC explained.
"I don't know what to say about that, I am not involved with that, but Lance has caused some problems." Chris spoke, as Dan kept motioning to him for the phone. "Josh, Dan would like to speak with you."
"J...Josh is he okay physically?" Dan asked.
"Yeah he seems to be physically fine at the moment, its his emotional well being that I am concerned about." JC answered him.
"Can I talk to him? I need to know that he's okay." Dan said.
"He's asleep right now, I don't think I should wake him up right now. He's basically upset about you." JC stated.
"Upset about me? Why me?" Dan asked.
"He says you left him. Did you leave him?" JC asked.
"As in I left him at the hospital or leave leave, like break up leave?" Dan asked, already knowing what the answer was.
"He thinks you left him that you didn't want to be with him." JC expressed, getting angry at the man on the other end of the conversation.
"I didn't leave him. I wanted to get out of the hospital and walk around. I needed fresh air. I told him I would be back in a few minutes." Dan explained.
"Well apparently he didn't see it that way." JC stated, as he felt someone behind him. "He's really torn up and right now it's not Lance that's causing the problem it's you."
"Damn!" Dan shouted, dropping the phone. "We need to go. I need to get to him."
"We can't leave yet, we have to find Lance." Justin stated.
"Fuck Lance, it's his fault all of this happen. Let him get back to Orlando by himself. JT is more important to me than waiting on him."
"We can't just leave Lance here. We don't know where he is. He could be hurt." Chris stated.
"Right now I don't care if he is hurt." Dan stated, going up the stairs to his room.
"Okay this is going to be a long night." Justin spoke up.
"Well where could Lance be right now?" Nick asked, joining the conversation.
"Well he knows the area, he could be anywhere." Chris stated, as the phone rang again. "Hello?"
"Chris, I need help...I'm hurt, I'm hurt bad." Lance spoke into the phone as the phone went dead.
"That was Lance. He said he was hurt bad." Chris stated, pressing some numbers on the phone.
"Where is he?" Justin asked.
"He didn't say. He hung up before he said that." Chris spoke, listening to the information from the phone. "Well I have the number from where he called from."
"Call the police, he needs help." Jacob said getting up.
TO BE CONTINUED...
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