Writer's Note: It is 4 AM on Valentine's Day and for some reason I can't sleep. In my mind I wander back over the past two years of my life. As most of my dedicated readers know, I lost someone who I thought was the love of my life forever in 1999. I thought I was bound to wander this Earth for the rest of my life alone. Then one day, when I had given up on love, love found me. In the Nick and Jonathan series, I have written briefly about him and the reasons for finishing that story after six years. Some of you have asked more about who this person is; who has changed my life. Filled my life with joy and wonder. Below is that person.
Joey
By the Stonewolf
backbayguy@Juno.com
I lie awake looking at your face as you sleep. The gentle moonlight coming in through the window caresses your face and makes you look so peaceful. Ever so gently I caress your cheek with two fingers. You smile in your sleep as if somehow you know that I am there.
I look at the wonder and beauty that is you. I wonder how it is that two years ago you came into my life and took the disarray and disorder that it was and made it into something more wonderful then words.
In your sleep you roll towards me, your body touching mine. Your head now lies on my shoulder. You arm is over my body holding me near to you. With my hand I slowly run my hand through your hair. You murmur in your sleep. Softly I whisper to you that you are OK, that I am here. I will not let anything happen to you. You are my love, my angel, my reason for being.
As you sleep my mind wanders to a peaceful place. Of times that we have spent together. The love that has grown from a chance encounter. Who know so long ago that a simple story would start a friendship that would grow into love and from there into a fusion of two souls, bound ever lasting.
You are my lover, you are my friend, you are my life to the very end.
You bring me comfort, you keep me warm, you give me hope, you make me strong,
You take me away to a distant shore and it's with you that I want to stay forevermore.
You go out in the morning, you're looking so good, people turning as you walk into the room,
When I stand beside you I can feel the pride in my heart to know that you are here with me tonight.
Love unbound fills my heart as I watch you sleep. Tears, silent and joyful, fall from my eyes to trail down my face. Emotion beyond control takes charge of my body. Unbidden, uncontrolled, I continue to cry, unashamed. They are not tears of sadness, but tears of unbridled joy, happiness and love. You have given me a gift more special then all of the gold and jewels in the world. You have freely given yourself to me, your love to me; your soul to me. You have given me more happiness in the past two years then all of the previous years I've lived and loved.
I slowly bend my head to yours, and kiss you. In your sleep you kiss me back, softly at first then as you wake with more intensity. You see my tears and ask what is wrong. I take you into my arms, hold you tightly, my head buried in your hair. "Nothing" I reply. "Nothing could ever be wrong with you by my side"
Happy Valentine's Day my love.