First off I would like to introduce myself. My name is Nicki and I live in Wisconsin. I?m a 23 year old transsexual. I weigh 127 pounds and am 5?6?. I have shoulder length brown hair and brown eyes. With the hormones, I?m up to a natural B cup. Like almost pre-teens and teens I was fascinated by sex, and of course girls. But I?ll get into that a little later. My story starts out when I was about 8. My cousin, who was my same age came over and said she wanted to play house. I said sure, sounds fun.
?Okay, but I want to be the daddy, and you can be the mommy? she said to me.
I had to stop for a minute, she wants me to be a girl? I was a little uncomfortable at first, but then it was fun. I got to do all of the girly things like wear a cute little dress and care for the baby. I was really enjoying myself, and when it was over I was really disappointed. This got me to start thinking. I started to treat my GI Joe?s as babies and care for them. This is how things lasted for about three years.
For my 11th birthday party my mom thought it would be a good idea for me to have a boy-girl party. So she wrote out all of the invitations and I handed them out at school. The big day came along, and my whole class came. It was great, except for the fact that I wanted to wear a frilly dress like all of the girls, I was so jealous. Later that night, as I was getting ready for bed, I saw a pair of my mom?s panties in the hamper. I grabbed them, and ran back to my room. I put them on, and realized that they felt great. This was the start of my transformation from Nick to Nicki.
By the time I was 13 I was starting to get bolder, and decided for the first time that I would wear a thong to school. That night I could barley sleep because I was so excited, I was finally going out in public in women?s clothing. I finally fell asleep about 2 am and had a wonderful dream about dressing.
6 am rolled around and my alarm clock started to blare. I jumped out of bed and headed for the shower. I said to myself, let?s make this even better. I grabbed my mom?s razor and shaved my legs, and the tiny amount of pubic hair I had grown. I quickly showered, and new that this was the big moment. I slid the thong on and it felt great. The way the strap fit in between my ass cheeks almost made me cum. I looked at the clock and saw that I was running late. I through my pants on and a shirt and rushed out the door. The thing I didn?t realize was that I was used to boxers. With a thong, my pants were loose, and when I bent over you could see the top of the thong.
I made it to school just in time for math class. When the bell rang, we all headed for the hall, except my pencil fell on the ground. I casually bent over to pick it up, not knowing my thong was showing and headed on my way. School flew by, and I felt great. I had a hard on all day long, and I decided I was always going to wear panties. On the way home from school, I decided that I would take a shortcut through the alley. I was about halfway through the alley, when I ran into Tom and Steve.
?Hey guys, what?s up?? I asked them.
?Shut up, Fag!? Tom said to me, ?We saw your fag panties when you bent over in math.?
I didn?t know what to say, I just stood there with my mouth open.
?The little sissy is speechless, maybe we should show the little sissy how to be a fag? Steve said to his accompliss.
What are they going to do to me? I started to back up, and realized I was against a brick wall. I looked around trying to find a way to escape. They advanced on me, and before I knew it, a fist connected with my jaw. I could taste blood and started to cry.
?Let me try? Steve said to Tom. He punched me in the nose and kicked me in the stomach. I couldn?t stay up anymore, and slid down the wall. Steven then kicked me and blacked out. I woke up, not knowing how long I was out, and felt like shit. I tried to yell, but my jaw hurt like hell. I didn?t know what to do. I try to think of what happened and remembered that I was getting the shit kicked out of me for wearing the thong. With all my effort and pulled my jeans down and slid the thong off. I then redressed and tried to stand up, but couldn?t. I crawled out of the alley, and passed out again.
?Doctor, ? he ? alright?? I heard my mom say in a distance. I tried to make sense of what she was saying, and things started to become clearer. I opened my eyes, and everything was blurry, like I was underwater. I blinked a couple of times, and it cleared up.
?Mmmhmm mmhmmm?? I mumbled. My jaw had been wired shut, and my leg was in a cast.
?Oh my God, he?s awake!? my mom rushed over to me, a kissed me about a 100 times on my foreheard. ?Some beat you up, and left you like this. Thank God, one of the store owners saw you passed out. The doctors said you had internal bleeding, and to much longer you could have died.?
I didn?t know what to think, I almost lost my life. Over what, wearing a pair of panties. I knew that my crossdressing days were over, for a while.
My sophomore year of high school was a turning point in my life. I realized that I had to be me. I couldn?t live a lie anymore. I knew I wanted to be a girl. I started dressing in girls clothes again the previous summer, and I knew my decision was made. As luck would turn out, my dad got a new job in Minnesota and we had to move. This was my chance. About a week before the move, my dad, my mom, and I were having dinner and I made my move.
?Mom, Dad there?s something real serious I need to talk to you about. For the last 7 years I haven?t felt comfortable as a boy, and I want to be girl. I have sercretly been dressing as a girl for 4 years now, and I want to be a girl for good. When you register me for my new school, please register me as a girl.? There I had said it, the ball was know in there court.
Both my parents sat there stunned stairing at me. ?What?? Are you sure? Have you thought this through?? My mom started questioning me.
?Yes. I need to be who I really am.?
Surprising, my parents were quite supportive. We had a long talk that night, and if it was really what I wanted, then my parents agreed.
?We?ll go shopping in the morning.? My mom said to me.
I woke up around nine the next morning, and my mom was waiting in my room. ?I was thinking about this a lot last night, and Nick I?m really excited for this. I?ve always wanted a daughter.?
?Thanks mom.?
We left for the mall around 10. I was already somewhat passable as a girl. I had let my hair grow out. So I wore a pair of jeans with a blouse and stuffed bra borrowed from my mom.
?Just curious, how big, chestwise do you want to be??
?I think a B cup.?
So when we got to the mall, we head straight for Victoria Secret. My mom started to explain all the differences in the panties, and I stopped her mid sentence, ?Mom, I?ve been dressing for like 4 years now, I know the differences.? She just smiled.
I picked out 3 pairs of regular bikini cut panties, 3 pairs of boyshorts, and 3 thongs. I thought that was a good variety. I next picked out two 34B bras and the underwear shopping was complete. We then hit a couple more stores, and I got 2 pair of jeans, 3 skirts, and about 5 tops. I was so excited.
As soon as I got home, I tried everything on. I looked in the mirror, and realized that I was hot as a girl. That there must have been a mistake, cause I look to good as a girl.
The day of the big move, I decided that I wanted to come clean with my best friend Billy. So I dressed in a plaid mid thigh length skirt, a pair of red boyshorts with matching bra, and a pink top and headed over. I took a deep breath and knocked. Billy answered, and said, ?Nick??
?Yeah, it?s me, but it?s Nicki now. I?m being a girl now. I?m registered at my new school as a girl, and that?s how I?m going to live the rest of my life. I needed to tell you this before I left. You?re my bestfriend, and I thought that you should know.?
All he could get out was, ?Damn, you?re hot.? We both laughed. He invited me in, and we talked for a long time about my decision and he seemed really cool with it. That made me happy.
?Can I ask you something, Billy??
?Sure, go ahead.?
?Okay, well you know how teenagers are. Horny, and with me being a girl now, I was wondering if I could give you a blow job??
He almost fell of off his chair, and before I knew it, he had his pants down. I was mesmorized by his cock. It was about 6 inches and hard. I kneeled down, and reached out and touched the head. This gave me the biggest hard on I ever had. I brought my lips to the base and started to kiss it. I licked up and down his hard cock. Once I reached the head I opened my mouth and started to take it in. I had practiced this a couple of times with a carrot at home, but this was much better. I took him in about half way and started to suck. I went up and down, finally taking him all him. I heard him moan, and figured I was doing a good job. I grabbed the base of his cock with my hand and started to jack him off rhythmically with my sucking. His moan got louder and faster. He was humping my face by this time.
?I?m going to cum.? He yelled at me, and grabbed my hand and pushed it into his crotch.
I braced myself and felt him cum in my mouth. I gobbled down every last bit, and release his cock. I stood up and asked, ?So how was it??
?Man, you?re a great cocksucker.? He answered. I just smiled.
I left Billy?s house, and realized that this was the start of my new life. I was scared and excited at the same time. My life and Nick was ending, but my new life as Nicki was just beginning.
I?m hoping to write more adventures of mine. If you?d like to get a hold of me, my email address is girlie.6@hotmail.com
XOXO Nicki