Suddenly my mind was on straight and I realized I had flown across half the world in search of a new lesbian relationship and now here I am staring out the window, ignoring the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. As I turned, I looked her over with a critical eye, mid thirties, short sassy hair and well whatever she was wearing did not matter; I could not think any further than what her body would look like. I suddenly felt like such a slut, but found myself very aroused. "Hello, I am American, are you Hungarian?" I asked with slow deliberate words hoping she spoke some English. Her smile answered all my questions; she showed me the most delightful smile, bringing sunshine to our drab train car. I quickly asked her name before the moment evaporated. "Ana, I am Hungarian but I travel very much and understand many languages."
"Ana, you have the nicest hairstyle for your face I have ever seen. With a slight blush she answered," Thank you, I just cut it short last year, I think it shows off my neck. Yes?" "Yes" I answered perhaps too fast. But I was rewarded with a sweet smile. Damn this woman is as close to perfect as it gets, I was beside myself with just physical attraction. "Have you been to the USA?" I felt stupid the minute I said it. "Oh yes, I have been there many times to make movies." She was totally involved with my shabby conversation. Now I was stymied, was she a movie star I was unaware of? I felt stupid once again, inadequate and inferior. "I am afraid I am not familiar with your
work!", Going with the truth for once. "Do you follow lesbian porn? Perhaps not, I am very popular in that scene."
Be still my heart, did she just say lesbian porn? "Ana I have been out of the game for a couple years since my girlfriend and I broke up, am I to understand you are a lesbian?" The words just dribbled out of my mouth without my permission. Ana did not blush but looked completely involved in our conversation. "Yes and with men as well, I am married." She paused for a moment then added, " I do prefer the company of women." Embolden now, I decided to come on stronger. As the wheat and hay fields clipped by, I decided to go for broke. "Ana, forgive me if I am out of place but, I have to tell you I am a lesbian,, and I find you quite erotic. Again I received the most charming smile without a hint of self consciousness This was one self assured woman of the world, yet showing no indication of anything but class.. I suppose I always thought lower of porn stars, they were all just junkies and a sex addict, this woman was not only charming but worldly. She had average breast for her size, full and firm for her age, her neck was long and shapely and her body although she was not that tall projected height beyond her size, Ana knew how to dress and would no doubt look good in anything she threw on. I suppose if I were masturbating to an imaginary woman, Ana would outshine any one I could dream up. With no ceremony, she crossed the car and plunked down next to me. I was nearly startled, and found myself breathless. Her thighs were touching mine lightly and I could smell her scent. I nearly swooned and dropped over in a faint. Ana smiled and took my hand in a business like handshake, bringing me out of my self torture. I could not get over her posture and poise. Let me tell you when she smiled, the world lit up around her, I felt so inferior yet drawn to her like an insect to a summer light after dark. "So you have never seen one of my movies? She asked inquisitively then said, "I suppose mostly men watch them, women are more likely to find another woman instead of watching porno." I was beside myself trying to keep the conversation going, so I finally said, I have watched a few porno films, but I would not go so far as to say I recognize the stars," "I suppose not, in the industry we are so self centered, we think we know everyone and everything, I should not have mentioned it, please forgive me."
She watched me move my head in forgiveness, because it was all I could manage, then she asked, "So where are you headed in Europe?" My face reddened and I looked directly at her and told her about the map and my blind choice. We both laughed in unison. "I am just taking time out of life to find myself before I am too old, so I am going to blow with the wind for as long as it takes." Ana seemed to like that, she gave me one of her smiles and looked me over as if I were a painting before saying, "You have very nice features, are you mid thirties?" There was no offence in her question but more of a business approach to the subject. "Close enough" I said, then she took my hands and pulled me to my feet, she sat back down and looked me over with a critical eye, with her finger to her lip, she asked me to turn around slow. I complied, like a twenty year old applying for a job, just hoping I was good enough for whatever she had in mind. I noticed the corners of her eyes were smiling when I made my full revolution.