Oh MY Blake... MY fucking hot and wonderful Blake... MY man...
I just wanted to put in writing my thoughts and feelings of the last couple of days. Sometimes I can express things so much better in writing than I can by speaking.
When I awoke on Monday morning, I was soooooo very excited. Yet sooooo nervous. I drove to Tennessee and worked for several hours. I was happy when I was getting text messages from you. BUT I was still afraid that our plans would NOT happen. Maybe I am pessimistic... some would describe me that way. I however consider myself to be a realist... neither an optimist or a pessimist. You know the old question, "is the glass half full or half empty?" They always say that the pessimist says it is half empty and the optimist says it is half full. But you see, Blake, my perspective on the question is that the answer depends on another factor. Was the glass full and then half was poured out? Or was the glass empty and then filled halfway? Such would be the first questions of a realist like myself. And so being a realist, I never count on something happening until it happens. I guess you can say I always hope for the best BUT expect the worst. So you begin to understand part of my nervousness on Monday because I was hoping for the best between you and me but at the same time expecting the worst. I was so afraid that you would change your mind and tell me not to come there. I was afraid that I would get down there and you would decide not to meet me. I was afraid that our age difference would put a stop to it all - - you being an 18 year old college guy and me being a married man the same age as your dad. I was afraid that if you did meet me then you would not want to proceed any further. I anticipated your text messages throughout the day, but at the same time there was a certain amount of dread. The drive was long from where I was in Tennessee to where you were in Mississippi, and all the way as I ticked off the four hundred miles I kept thinking that my dreams of being with you might not really be realized.
BUT, my fucking hot wonderful man BLAKE, the instant you showed up at the door to room 117 of the Comfort Inn, my fears began to melt away. I could tell you were nervous too (and you admitted it readily to me!). What I saw there standing at the door and entering OUR room was a gorgeous perfect masculine young man (is that being redundant??? LOL). When that door shut behind you and we shut the world out of our lives at that instant, things began to happen... wonderful things... things that I will treasure forever in my mind!!! That first hug, oh my BLAKE. Feeling your hot body squeezed against me. Your arms, your chest, your shoulders... and I could feel a certain firmness in your crotch area as we embraced. And then that first kiss. I think we were both a little unsure about that first kiss. But then we came back for more... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... and more and more and more... all night long! But standing there at first, oh the feelings, Blake. The feelings of our hands carressing each other and hugging each other through our clothes. The heat, the excitement, the desire... Oh, man, when my hands went downward from your back to your tight ass.... OH FUCK my Blake, I loved the feel of YOUR fucking hot tight muscular ass!!!! And then my hands around to the front, feeling that growing cock of yours, feeling the firmness, the excitement that was making it stir... just like my cock was beginning to stir.
We didn't even get our clothes off before we were on the bed groping, feeling, squeezing, hugging, stroking, loving.... Then our hands began to find their way under the various articles of clothing. Oh, my Blake that was a very very nice feeling. And of course it wasn't long until our clothes began to come off. Our shirts, our pants, our shoes, our socks, our underwear... until we were both completely naked in the presence of each other. Oh, MY Blake, what a fucking wonderful sight to see your nude masculine sexy body in person for the very first time. And I hope you felt the same about me... although you had a sneak peak with the pics LOL!! Oh, man, the warmth of your body as these two hot men hugged in the nude for the very first time. I am talking sizzling hot MY Blake... because you made me sizzle at the feel of your sizzling hot body. Man, I don't know if I can adequately describe the feelings and thoughts and desires that were coursing through my mind at that very instant. My desires were being fulfilled with YOU. We had wanted this, talked about it, written about it, planned for it and it was actually coming true... and we were wide awake!!! It wasn't a dream!!! It was reality and I was loving it so very much.
I keep thinking of Exile's song "Kiss You All Over." WOW, my Blake, that is forever OUR song. The song starts out, "When I get home, Babe, I'm gonna light your fire. All day I have been thinking about you, Babe, you're my one desire." Oh, man, it wasn't when I get home (although the welcome sign to Mississippi said "It's like coming home!") but when I get to the Comfort Inn, I am gonna light YOUR fire Blake. All day I had been thinking about YOU man... and not just all day that day but all day every day for weeks now. And the song continues... "Gonna wrap my arms around you, hold you close to me, oh Babe, I wanna taste your lips, I wanna fill your fantasy yeahhhh." Oh Blake, that happened as soon as you got there. We wrapped our arms around each other and held each other close and tasted each others lips and WE began to fulfill our fantasies with each other... oh FUCK YEAHHHHHH!
Oh MY Blake, then from there everything continued to mimic the lyrics of "Kiss You All Over." "Can't believe it is true, when you're laying in my arms and you do the things you do." Oh Blake... I couldn't hardly believe it was true. We were laying there in each others arms... and you began to do the things you do... and I began to do the things I do... and we began to drive each other absolutely wild with desire. Mmmmmmmmmmmm. Blake! Wow, I fucking enjoyed everything we did. I loved finding those magic spots on your body that made you go absolutely fucking wild with desire. Playing with your nipples and finding out that your right nipple is a little more sensitive than the left! Licking you and kissing you on the neck and around your ears and feeling YOU surge with wild desire, so fucking turned on by it. Touching you all over your body, even on the areas that are sooooo very ticklish to you, and even getting to the point where you weren't so ticklish in those spots and were enjoying being touched there too. Oh, Blake, feeling your hot body from head to toe. Playing with your ass, sucking your cock, licking up and down your cock shaft, letting you fuck my mouth with your hot cock, tasting your precum, tickling your balls (oh how I love your bat and balls... we do love things associated with baseball don't we???), oh man, finding that nice hair you have in your ass crack. YOU fucking know how excited that made me.... mmmmmmmmmmmmm.... so masculine... so fucking hot to play with that hair, running my fingers up and down that fine masculine ass crack, playing with your hot ass hole... licking it, blowing air on it, tongue fucking it some and finger fucking it too. OH, MY BLAKE, I don't know if I can list all the fucking wonderful things about your body and the exciting things I liked doing with it and liked you doing to me... So good, so great, so... well, I don't think there are words that can adequately describe how extraordinary it all was.
Exile's song continues... "You can see it in my eyes, I can feel it in your touch, you don't have to do a thing, just let me show you how much, I love you, I need you, Babe." Oh, Blake... your fucking gorgeous blue eyes. They melt me just like your smile does. I loved looking into your eyes. I loved seeing your smile. They made me feel so good. So desired. And your touch... wow, your touch, your excitement, your heat, your thrusting, your rubbing against me in every position, oh, man, everything about you made me want to show you how much I wanted you, and needed you... how much I LOVE YOU!
They continue to sing, "I wanna kiss you all over and over again, I wanna kiss you all over till the night closes in, till the night closes in." Oh Blake, that is exactly what we did. My dream come true with you... I told you how all these years I have never had the opportunity to spend a night with a man. YOU are the first man I have ever spent the night with in the same bed all night long. Oh, man, I can't begin to tell you how special this night was for me with YOU. All the things we did all night long, till the night closed in on us and then we were sleeping together for awhile and then waking up and making passionate love again and again and again all night long. Our arms and legs entwined, feeling all our body parts against each other, your hot and hard cock against me and mine against yours, the heat of our bodies coursing between us. As Exile puts it, "Stay with me, lay with me, holding me, loving me, Baby, here with me, near with me, feeling you close to me, Baby." Oh, my Blake, that describes it exactly. You staying there with me, laying with me, holding me, loving me, while I did all of that to YOU as well. Wow!!! YES! OH FUCK YESSSSS!!! MY BLAKE... YOU DID ALL OF THAT TO ME and I got to do all of that to YOU.
Oh Blake, I don't think I have even begun to put into words what I feel about the other night. So many thoughts, so many feelings, so many good memories. Our cocks going from soft to HARD, and then retreating for a bit, and then getting FUCKING HARD again and again. Just our hands and mouths all over each other. Mmmmmmmmmmm! And feeling you shoot your fucking hot load of cum all over me... the steam... it was sooooo fucking good. And me unloading my cum on you. Oh what a sight to see... my cum hitting all over MY Blake, my lover, my dream cum true. I feel like maybe I didn't perform enough for you with my cock. Maybe we expected to have more orgasms than we did, BUT it really could NOT have been any better than it was. I thoroughly enjoyed myself all night long. And I enjoyed pleasing you, loving you, holding you, teasing you, kissing you, sucking you... all night long. Oh the feelings of having a man in bed with me for the duration of the night. Waking up together, playing together, pressing against each other.
There are sooooo many good pictures in my mind of you and your hot body. You are so sensitive, so caring, so loving, so sweet, so sexy, so masculine, so gorgeous, so perfect... MY BLAKE!!! And then I think of seeing you in the mirror across the room from the bed... You were lying on top of me and I could see your gorgeous body and your fucking hot ass in that mirror. The reflection reminded me so much of that hot pic of the guy on the phone... the one that you said is like you when we talk..... OH FUCK THAT MADE ME SO FUCKING HOT TO SEE YOU LIKE THAT in the mirror and seeing in the reflection that it was ME that you were lying on top of... and my hands carressing that hot ass of yours, feeling that ass crack, playing with that manly hair that trails through there.... OH BLAKE I AM SO FUCKING HARD thinking about that right now!!!
And then it came to the parting time. You know I don't like goodbyes. So difficult. Especially not knowing how soon we can get together again. I miss you so much. I missed you as soon as you left. I hated seeing you drive away. And I regret one thing as we parted. I regret that while you were at the car about to get in it that I didn't give you a better a hug... a real hug... like we did inside the room. I regret that I didn't go right ahead and kiss you goodbye right there beside your car. I wanted to so badly. I couldn't hardly stand it. BUT I guess I was too afraid that someone would witness that. And as I think back now, I wish I had just gone ahead and done that. Sometimes maybe we worry too much about what others think. Oh, BLAKE, my Blake, I wished I had given you the passionate goodbye kiss I wanted to right there beside your car!
It has been almost 24 hours since we parted. That has been the most difficult 24 hours I can remember. I think it is worse than the hours leading up to our getting together. It is so much harder now because we enjoyed our time together so very much and want more of it. Blake, we need to get back together again very soon... I don't know exactly how or when but we need to work on doing that. I so want that and I hope you want the same. I hope that as you reflect back on everything now that there are no regrets... I hope that everything was just as perfect for you as it was for me.
I do have to tell you something very strange though. You know when my wife called Tuesday morning. That was extremely odd because she rarely calls me at that time. But she was concerned because of what she had dreamed during the night. She dreamed that I had left her for someone else and that someone else was a man! Seriously, that is what she told me. Oh, Blake, I don't ever want to hurt my wife... I do love her and love my kids and don't want to hurt any of them. But it is so weird that my wife had that dream about me while I was with YOU! So that is the reason she called, to check on me... and she can tell by my voice when something is a little strange. She told me that I sounded like I was with someone and that I wasn't alone. (IF she only knew who I was with and what a fucking gorgeous male body I was staring at and touching while talking to her...). She senses something... I don't understand how women can sense things but she does.... But that is an aside, Blake, and it doesn't take away from my feelings and desires for YOU. I hope my telling you about this doesn't frighten you or make you want to give up on US. That is not my intention. I don't want US to end, Blake. You are my dream cum true.
I love you Blake!
And MY fucking hot man, thanks for making the other night soooooo absolutely perfect!