Orally Used
by Cindy Swallows njdurtygurl@hotmail.com
Over the years many people have asked me what my fantasies are. And I always respond that I don't have any realistic fantasies anymore, that everything I've ever wanted to do I've done... which is pretty much true.
Granted that I have had unrealistic fantasies over the years, rape fantasies and fantasies about orally servicing horses and dogs for example (for the quantity of cum, of course). But these aren't ones I'd realistically like to happen.
All my realistic fantasies from early years have been fulfilled.
When young I used to fantasize about being out as a girl and over the years I've done all of that, to the point where I'm now living much of my life as a female, both socially and sexually. I go anywhere dressed as a girl and have spent several weeks at a time 24/7
And back then I had fantasies about sucking off guys as well and I've done that in just about every way possible. Bi, gay, and straight guys one to one. Many guys one after another in bookstore booths. Multiple guys one after another in sex clubs with large audiences. I've had guys cum in my mouth, on my outstretched tongue, on my face, and at times I've blown several dozen in a row.
Getting fucked was only a minor fantasy but I did that anyway, had many cocks up my ass from the rear, front, standing up, and sitting on them. And I've been fucked in the ass and mouth at the same time with a large audience watching. And I found that I didn't like getting my ass pounded, the pain exceeded the pleasure.
But then one day I realized that everything I'd done had been from a single viewpoint... one of control. It had always been me allowing everything to happen and I'd always been in control of the situation. I had, of course, let guys think they were in control. By allowing them to fuck my mouth and throat hard, by letting them just push their cock into my mouth and dump their cum without asking, by just playing the submissive role sexually. But in reality it had always been me letting them, and I'd always been in full control of the situation - and on more than a few occasions I'd stopped it and walked away.
And I realized that one thing I'd always fantasized about was being controlled myself. Not raped, but used in ways that I wasn't in control of. Forced to do what the guys wanted whether I wanted to or not... within guidelines, of course.
There was a guy in my regular bookstore, Bob, that I'd been sucking off for years. He always liked to watch me orally service one guy after another and at the very end he'd come in last and I'd blow him and over the years we started talking. Then one night he asked me what my fantasies were. And I told him what I've written above.
He asked me why I hadn't done this I told him there were things I wouldn't do, and didn't see how I could prevent them without control. 'What things won't you do?' he asked.
And on I thought for a few minutes and told him what my list was: No Fucking No Major Pain, Scars, or Bruises No Blood No Scat or Rimming
'Well, maybe someday you can get to fulfill that fantasy' he said. And a minute later I left the booth and went into the bathroom where I wiped some cum off my chin, fixed my makeup, and left to go to my social club.
I completely forgot about our talk, and for the next month or so I did my usual routine... social stuff and stopping by the bookstore once or twice a week to suck off as many palateable cocks as were there. On most evenings Bob was also there, watching and waiting his turn at my mouth and afterwards we'd chat for a few minutes like we had always done.
One evening after I'd blown him and we were talking he told me he had a friend who owned an old fast food stand that was for sale right off the interstate in an industrial area - and while the building itself was closed and locked up, there was a totally private fenced in yard and almost unlimited parking, with a bathroom off the back that was functional, if dirty. There were some guys in a few yahoo groups he was in who were interested in a group thing with a good looking tranny - and was I interested? 'How many guys?' I asked him, and he said probably a dozen, maybe a few more. I said 'Sure' and he said he'd let me know the details and I gave him my email.
2 days later i got an email saying he'd set something up for the following Saturday starting at about 2PM.
I wrote back that I was in, and he sent me directions on Friday and told me he'd posted everywhere and had no idea of the numbers but there'd be pl
As many cocks as I'd sucked over the years, I was still unsure how to dress for this one. I showered and shaved head to toe and started making up. I kept my makeup on the heavy slutty side but made sure I used waterproof eyeliner and mascara and after applying red lipstick I used a sealer over it that made it shiny and claimed it would not come off without a special remover... though I was sure that enough cocks sliding against them would eventually remove it.
I did my nails red to match the lipstick, and for jewelry I only wore 3 pairs of studs so they couldn't be pulled on. Then I pulled on an older blonde shoulder length wig and unlike usual I used tape so it would stay in place.
Finally I dressed in a power thong which would hold me in, and a black bustier with garter straps, which I covered in a slip dress for the drive. Sheer garter stockings and 4" stiletto heels completed me. And I also brought some spare clothes for the ride home, figuring I'd probably need them It was now about by then 12:30 so I left in my van, wanting to get there early.
Following directions I soon arrived at the food stand, parked on the side, and got out... and only Bob's car was in the parking area. He showed me the yard which was a large stockade fenced in area with a few beat up chairs and loungers and a dozen old wooden picnic tables with benches. But the grass had been mowed fairly recently, there was a tree for shade, and the bathroom was unlocked.
I went to my van and got out some things I had brought - a few pairs of cuffs, a vinyl padded exercise mat, and a thick foam pad for kneeling on and put them in the shade. And I pulled out some sheets of paper on which I'd printed my list in large font:
No Fucking No Pain, Scars, or Bruises No Blood No Scat or Rimming
Bob asked me if I was sure that was it, and I said sure (though later I'd wished the list was a little longer)... and we taped them around the yard. I was really nervous, but Bob told me to relax, that he was going to be there, and a short while later cars started pulling up outside and guys started coming into the yard. There was soon about 30 guys there so Bob pulled suggested that we start, and I went over and kneeled on the foam and pad and Bob handcuffed my hands behind me and my ankles together. And we started.
I was in a fenced in yard, kneeling on a vinyl exercise pad on the grass, dressed in a bustier and power thong with sheer garter stockings and 4" heels. My hands were handcuffed behind me and my ankles cuffed together as well.
The first guy walked right over in front of me and dropped his pants, and pushed his still soft cock against my lips. I opened my mouth and he pushed in and I began sucking him wetly and he was soon hard and about 7 inches long. He reached down and held my head clamped between his hands and pushed right into my throat and held it, and I gagged a little. Then he pulled back out and began fucking my throat slowly, his balls hitting my chin on the instrokes, but I kept my mouth wet and relaxed and the gag reflex went away. And then he pushed all the way in and held it and I felt my throat get warm as he ejaculated, and when he pulled out the taste hit me and I finished swallowing his sperm.
And then another guy walked up...
The second guy who came up had a medium hard cock, about 6 inches but thick with a pronounced head. He pushed his cock into my mouth but just stayed there so I began moving my mouth back and forth over his cock, tongueing the head and shaft, and wetly sucking. He moaned but didn't move, and I kept sucking, and it was a little weird not being able to use my hands. But then he moaned and I moved my lips out to encircle his cock head and kept licking the tip and his cum streamed out onto my tongue as I kept licking the end. I heard him say 'Show us' so I didn't swallow, and when he pulled out I leaned back and opened my mouth and heard some camera's clicking. Then I closed my mouth and swallowed.
Before the next guy stepped up I said 'No pictures', but someone replied 'That's not on the list' as the next guy stepped up. And the camera's kept clicking. This guy was very large, a full 8 inches and fairly thick. and he pushed right into my throat. My mouth was slick so he slid right in, and when he started fucking my throat slow it wasn't a problem. But then he began thrusting very fast and irregularly and I felt my stomach turn, and then everything rose from my stomach as he continued to thrust and I vomited.
My mouth filled with puke but I held it in and swallowed it, but when he kept fucking my throat I puked hard and it started streaming out of my nose and the sides of my mouth. He quickly stepped back out of the way and I leaned forward and a stream of vomit spewed out onto the grass. I heard the camera's constantly clicking, and then 2 guys lifted me under my arms and someone else moved the pad back about 10 feet and I was placed back on the pad. And Bob came over with a paper towel and dabbed at the puke on my chin, and stepped away and another guy stepped in.
For the next few hours cock after cock was shoved into my mouth. Some guys let me suck them actively and some wanted to fuck my throat. But after that first puke I got somehwat used to it, and though I vomited a few more times I was able to contain it in my mouth and swallow it back down with only a little bit streaming from my nostrils I heard more guys coming in, and I stayed in that position as load after load of cum was dumped onto my tongue or directly into my throat.
A few guys let me suck them for awhile and then pulled out and jerked off into my open mouth, or didn't even try and blasted my face and eyes with their sperm. At one point a guy came over and I started sucking him, then he pulled out and lifted up my chin and spit in my face several times before pushing back into my mouth to unload. And after seeing that a lot of other guys began spitting in my face as well.
Eventually I heard someone say 'Lets move her to the table' and I was lifted up and carried over to a picnic table. My mat was placed on it, and my thick pad was put against the table edge and my head hung over the side. Then my hands were uncuffed, then recuffed in front of me. With my head hanging backwards people began fucking my throat. The angle was such that the cocks easily slid as far into my throat as the guys pushed and balls were slapping against my nose and eyes with every stroke.
I could not swallow in that position, though, and every time someone dumped a load in my mouth I had to let it slide out of my lips, and it streamed down my face into my nostrils and eye sockets, and much continued into my hair which was now wet against my forehead.
After a dozen or so guys fucked my mouth and throat, a few guys came over and slid me back on the table so my head wasn't hanging back and was on the thick foam. Then, slowly, the guys began lifting my legs up and backwards and my own crotch was directly over my face. Then someone slid my panties to the side and slid my cock out. 'Please don't do that' I said, but again I heard 'Not on the list' My cock was now hanging directly over my face, and one of the guys spit in his hand and took my cock in his hand and started stroking.
As usual, I didn't get fully hard, but then I felt a hand along my ass and a finger slid in and began moving in and out as the hand stroked my cock. I did get very hard at this and started moaning and just a few minutes later I couldn't hold back and right above me I saw my cock tip open and I screamed as cum shot out into my face with some landing in my mouth. And then I was slowly let back down onto my back. And the camera's were still constantly clicking.
I was then lifted off the table, the mat was placed on the ground, and I was laid flat on my back, with my hands still cuffed in front of me. At that point guys moved around me and started jerking off on my face. 'Open your mouth' someone said, and I did, but most of the cum missed my mouth and splashed onto my face and hair.
This went on for awhile and then everyone backed away a little and I was pulled back into a kneeling position, and my hands cuffed behind me again. My face was absolutely covered with cum and it now started dripping down my face and some dripped off and onto my chest but there were also globs hanging from my chin. Guys began fucking my mouth and throat again, and at least I could swallow and breathe easy, and I could hear the camera's going and in between cocks I could see that the yard was packed with guys.
Dozens of guys dumped in my mouth, but at one point there was no one in front of me and someone placed a martini glass almost full of sperm in front of my mouth. 'Some of us decided to feed you this way' I heard a voice say. 'Drink it down' I'd never drank cold cum before, but the glass was brought to my lips and as I started gulping it down it really tasted strong, gross and slimy. But I did drain the glass and opened my mouth to show it empty. And then more guys fucked my mouth.
Then I was laid on the pad again and the foam pad was taken and wrapped around my ankles - and someone started winding rope around the foam pad and tied it. And the next thing I knew I was lifted and carried over under the tree where the end of the rope was thrown over a large branch. And my feet were pulled up, then my body, and the next thing I knew I was hanging upside down by my feet from the rope and my head was several feet off the ground.
My hands were still behind me but fell away from my body, and I felt lightheaded. And lots of g uyscame over and began spitting in my face and their saliva mixed with the wet cum started sliding back up my face, though much of the cum was hardening and felt tight. And all of a sudden I got over the lightheadedness.
A guy walked over and squatting down just a little pushed into my mouth and throat. His cock easily slid up into my throat in that position, and he grabbed me by my thighs and began fucking my mouth hard, exactly like it was a pussy. His balls were slapping my nose and forehead hard, and just seconds later I felt his cum warm my throat and when he pulled out I had to let it slide from my lips and down my face into my eyes and hair again. I stayed there hanging upside down for quite awhile as guy after guy fucked my mouth hard and dumped their cum, and I just had time to push it out before the next guy moved in.
I couldn't really see anymore, both my eyes were thick with cum, and most guys either held me around the hips or held my thighs as they used my mouth as a pussy. But then one guy pushed into my mouth and the next thing I knew I felt my cock slide out and I could feel his mouth on my cock. He thrust slowly as he sucked my dick and I started moaning softly. And my moans got louder as the mouth moved over my cock and the cock slid in and out of my mouth with his balls slapping my forehead. And then I felt myself at the point where I couldn't hold back and screamed softly through my stuffed mouth, and ejaculated into his mouth just as my own throat filled with his cum.
I pushed his cum out of my lips and felt drained, but the guy then kneeled before me and leaned over and kissed me on the mouth. And my mouth filled with my own cum - which I had to push out and ran down my face. And then some more people fucked my mouth in that position before I was lowered - and the left me on the ground for a few minutes to get back oriented.
I was moved back onto the mat and pad on my knees and guys started moving in to dump their cum in my mouth. And I stayed there for a really long time as many, many guys used my mouth for relief. And in that position I was swallowing every load and after awhile my belly was feeling tight. And then I looked up to see there was still a good sized crowd around but no one obviously waiting - and then Bob stepped over and said 'Here I am, last as usual' He stood in front of me and I gave him the blowjob he always likes, soft and slow, with lots of tongue, and finally he groaned and my mouth filled with the familiar taste of his cum.
I gulped it down but Bob left his cock in my mouth and it softened a little. And I very softly licked the end. And then, a few minutes later, my mouth got wet again and I started gulping it down before realizing it was piss, not cum, And then I loosened my lips and the piss streamed out the sides of my mouth and down my chest. And finally done, Bob stepped away.
'I fucking hate that' I said, but Bob replied 'Then it should have been on the list. And then guy after guy walked over and pushed into my mouth, but instead of thrusting they just stayed there and pissed in my mouth. And the urine was constantly running down my chin and down my body, and the smell of urine was strong. Many of the guys didn't bother pushing into my mouth, they just pissed on my face and body, or urinated in my hair. I was now soaking wet and everything tasted and smelled like piss. But finally that was done, and everyone stepped away, and Bob came over and unlocked my handcuffs and ankles and I started rubbing them back into circulation.
I had to pee really bad and was going to get up but I was covered in piss anyway, so still kneeling I just moved off the pad and went in my panties and the urine flowed down my thighs onto the grass. And then I stood up.
Most of the guys were leaving, and Bob came over and asked if I'd enjoyed it. I thought for a moment before replying 'Mostly... but I should have tightened up the list a little. Do you have any idea how many guys were here?'. Bob pulled out a little notebook and looked at it and said 'There were 140 guys who showed up. Many went for seconds, but I wrote down that about 80 fucked your mouth while you were kneeling, and twenty or so jerked off into that glass of cum you drank, so there were about 100 or so loads of cum you swallowed. Another 60 fucked your throat on the table, about 20 jerked off on your face, and 50 or so fucked your mouth while you were upside down. So about 130 loads of cum ended up mostly on your face, hair, and body. You should see yourself now.
I went into the small bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. From the chin up I was absolutely covered in cum, much of which was drying or crusted. My hair was drenched in sperm, my eyes were red and cum was thick on my eyelashes. Cum lay thick on my cheeks and there were numerous globs hanging off my chin.
I left and went out to my van and brought in a large container of wet wipes, a roll of paper towels, and a spare wig, an old cotton dress, old slides,and bra and panties. Back in the bathroom I stripped naked and pulled off the wig. I splashed water on my face over and over and the cum eventually rinsed off my face. I used many wipes on my body to get the piss and cum off, and I quickly repaired my makeup and pulled on a different wig. Then I slipped into the clean bra, panties, and dress, and stepped into the slides.
When I came out only Bob was still there so I went over and said goodbye, then got in my car and drove home. And once home I showered and scrubbed and fell into bed and a dreamless sleep.
About a week later, though, a tranny friend of mine emailed and sent me a link that she said I'd better see. When I clicked on the link I came to a website called 'Oral Abuse' and there was my name over a thumbnail. And when I clicked on that there must have been a hundred different pictures of me. Sucking cock, getting mouthfucked, puking, getting throatfucked hard, drinking a glass of cum, close ups of my face totally covered in cum, even one of me cumming into my own face as I was jerked off. And the final pictures were a closeup of my face, a cock in my mouth, and piss streaming out of my mouth from around the cock.
'Shit' I thought. But my cock had already gotten hard and I just went through the pictures again masturbating, finally exploding with a scream.