Orchids in the Sun, Chapter 2
Orchids in the Sun
© by The Lavender Quill, 2002
Warning: the following story contains graphic descriptions of male/male sex between consenting adults. If that sort of thing bothers you, or you are a minor, or it is illegal for you to read this type of content under the laws of your area, don’t read any further.
This is a work of fiction. Any similarity to actual people or events is purely coincidental.
Chapter 2.
We knew the trail well, but it was very dark in the woods at night, nearly all moonlight or starlight blocked by the dense canopy of leaves overhead. We had to be careful of our step. A lot of frogs came out just after darkness fell, when they would be cooler and safer from predators. I had to walk pretty close to Nick so I could see by his flashlight. Not too close, mind you. I didn’t want to send the wrong signals. Close enough, however, that I could smell the combination of the floral scent of his orchid lei and the base male scent of his body.
When we arrived at the grotto, Nick dropped his pack and dug out a lighter. He lit the tiki torch that Kenji had brought out earlier in the afternoon, then flipped off the flashlight. He pulled out an oversized towel and set it on the ground for us to sit on.
“Is there enough light for you to play, Trevor?” asked Nick.
I opened my case and pulled out my guitar. “Sure, brah. I don’t really need any light at all unless I need to read sheet music.”
He looked at me sideways. “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever seen you read sheet music.”
“Prolly not.” I started to play something from Peter Clapton. At least I think that’s what it was. “I learn mostly by listening and copying what I hear. Dad taught me basic chords and da kine when I was real little. I took a guitar class in ninth grade, but by then I’d been playing for years already, and it was way too basic for me. So I never really got much formal training.”
“Really?” said Nick. “You’re so fuckin’ good. I thought for sure you must have taken lessons or something.”
He took the carving I had made him out of his pocket and unwrapped it. He looked at it for a minute, then stood and placed it on a shoulder-height rock to the right side of the pool.
“You’re so creative, Trevor,” he said. “The guitar, this carving, all that design stuff you do for the nursery. Even the way you surf.”
“Yeah. I’m also lazy and irresponsible,” I joked.
It feels good when people compliment me, but it also embarrasses me. I never know what to say. Plus, it was true. I was lazy and irresponsible. Nick was half way through getting a business degree. He went to AUH (American University of Hawaii). His parents had been mildly pissed at that. They wanted him to go to Stanford, or some other big name college on the mainland. He wanted to stay here with Kenji and me. In the one year he had been working with us at the nursery part time, he had come up with more ways to make the business more profitable than I had thought of in the last five years.
Nick came back over and sat beside me on the towel. He pulled a baggie out of his pack.
“Pakalolo?” he asked, almost not even needing an answer.
Pakalolo is the Hawaiian name for marijuana. The baggie contained a small wooden pipe and some pot. We discretely grew a few pakalolo plants at the nursery, out of public view. Like almost any other plant, marijuana is incredibly easy to grow on Maui. Throw it in the ground, and the next thing you know it’s taller than me. My father says it is much stronger than the crap he used to smoke when he was my age. Nick seemed to know just the right amount to pack in the pipe to get us nice and buzzed, but not out-of-our-minds high.
“You shouldn’t talk bad about yourself,” said Nick. He lit the pipe, took a hit, and held it in. When he blew it out he continued. “Maybe I’m good with numbers, but I can’t even draw a straight line. There isn’t a creative cell in my brain. Who says one is more important than the other?” Nick held the pipe to my mouth so I could take a hit without having to take my hands away from the guitar. “See? You can even smoke pakalolo without missing a note.” He grinned.
“It’s a special talent,” I said. We both giggled. He always seemed to be able to cheer me up. We both took a couple more tokes and then let the pipe go out. Neither of us wanted to get really ripped.
For a while we just sat, listening to the sounds of the night, the insects and frogs and birds, the waterfall and the stream, and my guitar. The combination of the setting and being a little high was incredibly soothing, and for a time neither of us moved.
Naturally, Nick was the first to get naked. He stood and hung his goofy aloha shirt on a branch. He dropped his shorts unceremoniously to the ground. In the dim amber light of the single torch I thought he looked better than ever, a young bronze god with Kenji’s lei around his neck. I sighed as I watched him wade into the pond.
I kept playing my guitar softly for a few minutes, trying get the image of Nick naked out of my mind. Finally, I set my guitar down, slipped out of my clothes and waded in to the water. The three of us had been skinny dipping together like that for years, yet I still felt sort of strange about it. It just seems weird being naked in a pond with two other gay guys who were my best friends and who both turn me on, yet are unattainable. I always get a little horny seeing them in the nude. I tell myself I shouldn’t get aroused, and I try not to. But how could I not? In my mind at least, these were two of the best pieces of boy flesh on Maui. Whenever I was between boyfriends, one or the other of them occupied many of my dreams.
I was somewhat embarrassed that I was aroused by our skinny dipping, so I tended to stay well out of arms reach. We had an unspoken hands-off policy when we were together in the pond, which I was thankful for. I am pretty sure Nick knew that he had an effect on me. No doubt he had the same effect on a lot of guys. Sometimes he caught me looking at him, or noticed I had a half a hardon, and he smiled knowingly at me. Kenji was either oblivious of my attraction to him, or too stoic to let on that he knew.
I waded over and stood under the waterfall. The flow was very light since it hadn’t rained much recently. The water beating on my neck and shoulders was soothing. It also distracted me and helped cool my ardor. My anxieties washed away. After a few minutes, I moved from the falls and sat near the edge of the pond, again not too close to Nick. He sat in water up to his neck, and his lei floated around his neck like a halo. He looked pretty blissed out. He glanced at me periodically with a funny look, and I wondered what he was thinking.
During the day when it was warm, the water felt cool and refreshing. At night, when the air temperature was cooler, the water actually felt warmer. It was deceptive, though. The water wasn’t really any warmer; it just felt warmer. After a while, we would start to get cold, and have to get out. When we did get out, the air felt warmer. Logically, I understand why that is, but it still feels weird.
After watching me for a while, Nick got out first. He plopped himself down on the towel. My initial self consciousness usually fades after we have been naked for a while, so I sat down next to him like we usually do. With a corner of the towel, I dried enough of me so that I could play my guitar for Nick without getting it too wet. I sat cross-legged and played. Nick lounged back, propped on his elbows with his eyes closed for a while. Then he sat up and looked at me.
“Trevor,” he said. “You have to dump Ed.”
Just like that. Out of nowhere comes the one topic I did not want to talk about. Especially that night. This must have been what he’d been thinking about.
I stopped playing. “Nick…”
“I know. I hardly ever tell you what to do. Mostly, it isn’t any of my business. But I’m telling you now, you can’t go back to him.”
“Nick, it’s your birthday. I don’t want to wallow in my problems on your birthday. Can’t we talk about this some other time?”
“No,” said Nick. “You guys threw me a nice party, and you gave me one of the nicest things anyone has ever given me. But I can’t stand to see you like this. It won’t wait until another time.”
“Nick…” I pleaded.
“Trevor…” he mimicked my pleading tone, then smiled at me.
God, he was exasperating! He could piss me off, dig right in to my soul, and make me feel okay about it at the same time.
“I don’t understand why you’d even consider going back to him,” said Nick.
I went back to strumming my guitar softly. “You know me, brah. I want what Kenji had. I’m no good at being alone, and I don’t get into that casual thing you do. I want someone to settle down with. I want to be married.” Even saying it, I knew I sounded pitiful.
“I know you do.” There was true understanding in his tone. “But Ed ain’t the one. He’s no good for you. He’ll hurt you. Break your heart in the long run. I know you well enough to know that for sure. I know that, deep down, you know that too.”
I sighed. I was unable to play any real music at this point. I plucked a chord or two just to occupy my fingers. Nick was right, of course. I couldn’t make things perfect with Ed simply by wanting it so. Ed didn’t just make a little mistake. He intentionally dated another guy for a month behind my back. I knew I could never trust him. That meant I could never have the type of relationship I craved with him.
“It’s better than being alone,” I confessed miserably.
“No. It isn’t,” said Nick. “You’ll be unhappy as long as you’re with him. You’ll be giving up on your dream in order to have something because you think that’s better than having nothing. But, you can’t have your dream unless you move past him. You are a great guy, Trevor. If it wasn’t for you and Kenji, I would have gotten island fever a long time ago. You guys are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are a special guy. Ed is a fool for not knowing that, not seeing that. But I know it. Kenji knows it. If you can get past Ed, I know you’ll find a guy who can see it too. Someone who will treat you right.”
“Wow,” I said. Nick isn’t usually so deep.
“Too much?” He smiled at me.
“I hate you,” I said, though of course I didn’t and we both knew it. “You know that right?”
“I know.” And he kissed me a peck on the cheek. Grinning, he picked up the pipe we had set aside earlier. He lit it again, and took a hit.
I started playing my guitar again, thinking of what Nick had said. He seemed to have a way of helping me see things when I got all wound around wrong in my head.