DISCLAIMER: The following story is completely FICTIONAL is does not imply anything concerning the private life of Paul walker or Josh Hartnett. I don't know them and I don't know anything about their lives. This story is only meant as fiction an does in no way describe real occurrences, situations or facts. All other persons mentioned in this story are fictional. Any resemblance to an existing person, business or brand is purely coincidental.
Paul & Josh chapter 5:
The evening had fallen over NY. Josh had been at his apartment for most of the day thinking about Paul. He had thought about how supportive, caring and friendly he had been to him. Earlier in the day the notion had crept in his mind that there might be more to it then met the eye. He played the past week over in his mind and there were moments he started thinking Paul's interest in him went further then just friendship. But he couldn't find anything that really proved this notion...He wondered whether his intuition was right on the money or if he was just seeing things that weren't there. While he was lost in his thoughts his eyes fell on the clock. "Oh shit, I'm going to be late" he thought as he remembered he was supposed to meet Paul tonight. They had agreed to get together to rehears the scenes they were filming tomorrow. They both agreed it was a good idea since the scenes were quite important in the movie and demanded their best performances. Josh decided to ignore his doubts about Paul for the moment cause there was no way he could be sure and he didn't want to do anything that would ruin their friendship over nothing. Since they had agreed it was best for Josh to spend the night in Paul's guestroom he started packing some clothes and stuff. He agreed this was the best idea since there was no way they would get their performances right the first time and it would probably turn out to be a long night of rehearsing. After he had gathered his stuff he left his hotel room. Paul meanwhile, had come home after the filming had been cancelled and had immediately called his manager. He wanted to make sure he would never do an interview or anything else for the tabloid that had ruined the day today. Paul had always been someone that would take drastic measures when it was necessary. After having talked to his manager for some time he had spend the rest of the day memorizing his lines. From time to time he would think back and remember how hurt Josh had been earlier in the day. He was glad he had managed to raise Josh's spirit a bit. When Paul was alone in his apartment with no-one to talk to he often longed for someone who he could talk to, someone that would help him out when he was down, someone that would console him or that he could help out...someone to love basically. He knew Josh would never be that person but he was happy he was able to help out his friend when he was troubled. Soon the evening had fallen and Paul prepared for Josh to arrive. When he heard the bell ring he opened the door and after a few minutes both guys sat down on the sofa and started reading their lines. The scene they would film the next day was one of the key scenes in the movie. Paul's character would open up and tell his best friend, played by Josh, how he felt for him. Josh's character, still struggling with being gay, would turn him down the first time. They read their lines several times from the page but after a while started focusing on other parts of their performances such as expression, mimics, gestures, etc... They used Paul's living-room to perform the scene several times. Finally they decided to act out the scene one more time and then call it a night. Paul was relieved cause he was getting really exhausted, plus acting out the scene was taking its toll on him emotionally. It seemed his characters lines were exactly what he wanted to say to Josh if he could. He wanted nothing more then tell Josh right now how he felt about him, but he knew Josh wouldn't understand and end their friendship on the spot. He didn't want to risk that.
"So you're ready?" Josh asked, referring to acting out the scene.
"Yes I am" Paul answered. They started their final rehearsal.
Josh: ...Listen man, you know I'm your friend, but it seems that every time I turn around...there you are. Why are you always following me around? What is it with you?...and I see the way you look at me, what's the matter with you?
Paul: I don't want to talk about it...not yet.
Josh: But we're going to talk about it...We are going to talk right now. I need to know what is going on with you the last couple of weeks. I know there's something you're not telling me, now what is it?
Paul:...you're not going to like this...
Josh:...Tell me anyway, I need to know what it is right now...
Paul:...Well, we've been friends for quite some time now...You know I'm very fond of you, and I like you...a lot...I guess there's no other way to say this then just say it, I...
Josh:...Don't tell me this is going where this is going..
Paul:...love you
Josh:...What are you thinking...Fuck!...I so NOT need this right now. Come on man, where's your head. What are you thinking!
Paul:..It's the way I feel. I can't help it...
Josh:...You have got to be kidding me...Jesus!...Well stop feeling that way. You can't love me! You just can't!...I don't need this!...I don't want this...It can't happen...It just CAN'T!...fuck...
Paul was sweating when they finished their scene. He was exhausted. Josh was spent as well. They had put everything they had in this one and it seemed it had paid off.
"Man, you were awesome!" Josh complimented to Paul, "for a moment I thought it was real man...that was great acting."
Paul smiled nervously. Josh had no idea how 'real' this had been for him. During the rehearsal their roles and the acting had slowly faded away and Paul could only think how much he wanted to let Josh know how he felt about him. But he knew Josh's reaction would be the same as his character's. During the scene he had the biggest trouble fighting his emotions. His love for Josh, his loneliness and fears all come to the surface during his performance. Josh thought it was acting but Paul knew it wasn't. He tried to fight it but he knew he would lose that battle. He sighed...just loud enough for Josh to hear.
"Hey...are you alright man?" Josh asked.
"I'm fine" Paul answered "just tired, this scene was a bit too intense"
"I hear ya!" Josh replied "I think it's time to call it a night, otherwise we're going to regret it in the morning."
Paul showed Josh to the guestroom for the second time. He walked out to the terrace for one quick smoke before he went to sleep. The could air felt good on his sweatcovered body. As he leaned against the railing he thought back to the evening that had just past. He was emotionally spent and needed some time to regroup. He knew he was about one step away of totally giving himself away to Josh. He didn't want Josh to find out cause he knew he would hate him for it. Instead he tried to convince himself that at least he had a good friend in Josh, at least that was something. Paul couldn't help but feeling alone. Because of his career he had been to himself for so long now and he was becoming desperate to end his solitude. He didn't want to be alone much longer...getting home to his apartment late at night finding it empty, dark and deserted. But what could he do? The disadvantages of fame were taking their toll on him.
Meanwhile Josh had prepared to go to sleep. he had made sure everything he needed in the morning was ready. He was just about to lay down when he realised he was quite thirsty. He walked to the kitchen to get something to drink before he went to sleep. When he opened the fridge he noticed Paul standing on the terrace.
Since Paul was facing the city skyline he hadn't noticed Josh entering the kitchen. He was so caught up in his own thoughts the rest of the world had escaped his attention. When the cold started to get to him he decided to finish his cigarette and head back in. While he inhaled the last puffs of smoke he tried to shake of the loneliness that had been plaguing him. "Why did I have to fall in love with Josh!" He sighed.
"What?!"
Paul froze with fear as he heard Josh's voice from behind him. He turned around to see Josh standing in the doorway to the balcony. The expression of shock was obvious on Josh's face.
"You love me?" He stammered.
Paul didn't know what to say. He tried to find some excuse or explanation to undo what he had just said, but couldn't. Instead he turned away from Josh. He didn't want to see the anger in his eyes or hear the disgust in his voice. Slowly tears started flowing from his eyes. He had feared something like this would happen and now it had. He waited for Josh to fall out on him, yell at him...or simply to hear the door slamming as Josh left. Instead he felt a hand on his shoulder. Paul was confused. He turned around to see Josh standing right behind him. Josh kept his hand on Paul's shoulder as he saw the tears flowing from Paul's eyes. He looked him strait in the eyes while a little smile formed on his face. He brought his head down and his lips met Paul's. he slowly put his arms around Paul as he continued kissing him.
Paul was shocked. He tried to understand what was happening but he couldn't. Slowly his confusion faded away as both guys lost themselves in the kiss that seemed to last for hours. On that cold NY night, as the wind blew around them, they had found each-other.
Finally they broke the kiss and Paul looked at Josh who could help but smile. Paul felt Josh's arms around him, the warmth of Josh's body but still couldn't understand what happened.
"What's this?" Was all Paul could say in his confusion.
Josh just looked at him and softly said: "I love you too" as he lent in for another kiss.
They made their way back in to the living room where they sat down on the sofa. Josh put has arm around Paul as they both leaned against one another.
"So...does this mean you're gay to?" Paul asked. He still had a hard time believing what had just happened on the balcony. He had expected Josh to lash out on him, to be infuriated...anything but this.
"Yeah...it does." Josh replied. He couldn't help but smile when he saw Paul trying to grasp what was happening.
"I had no idea" was all Paul could say.
"Well...in our business it's not something you want to let the whole world know." Josh replied. He tightened his arm around Paul pulling him closer to him. Paul was happy to give in as he leaned closer to Josh. They both looked at each-other. The love in their eyes was obvious.
"I know we've only known each other for two weeks...and I know this is soon...but I love you Paul." Josh spoke softly "I can't think of any other word to describe it. Every second I've spent with you over the past week has been awesome and when I was alone in my hotel room, all I could think about was meeting you again. I like you...I like being with you."
"I like being with you to" Paul answered, "Ever since we first met you've been all I could think about...I love you".
Again they couldn't help but look in each others eyes. Josh flashed his beautiful smile as he saw the spark in Paul's eyes. Again their lips were drawn to each other as they kissed. Both guys enjoyed the feeling of finally be so close together, feeling each others body heat and being able to let all bottled up feelings loose. Josh slowly leant back, lying down on the couch. Still locked in a kiss he pulled Paul with him. Paul adjusted himself placing himself over Josh who was now laying down on the couch. Paul ran his hand through Josh's hair, from the first day he had seen josh he had wondered what it would feel like. The hair-gel had worn out returning Josh's hair to its natural light-brown color. Josh couldn't help but smile. Paul moved his attention from Josh's head to his upper-body. He remembered seeing Josh's exposed chest in the hotel-room. He looked at josh, just to make sure they both wanted the same think. Josh smiled as he stretched his arms allowing Paul to pull the black T-shirt he was wearing over his head. In-between two kisses Paul absorbed the site of Josh's exposed torso. 'perfection' was the only word that came to his mind as he let his eyes gaze over Josh's well defined chest and the strong outlines of his abs. After letting go of Josh's lips he slowly kissed his way down Josh's chest; He tasted the little sweat that had formed on Josh's smooth skin. He gently kissed Josh's nipples enjoying to feel them harden between his lips. Josh softly moaned as he felt Paul's lips explore his chest. Paul made his way to Josh's abs, covered with a trail of raven black pubes, which contrasted beautifully with his tanned skin, leading down to his blue jeans. Paul looked up to Josh who simply nodded as to give permission. A smile formed on his face as he raised his hips a little to allow Paul to pull his jeans off. He raised himself to steal one quick kiss from Paul. Meanwhile he pulled Paul's shirt over his head. He admired the well sculpted chest he remembered so well from 'joy-ride'. Slowly he fell back in the couch as his eyes met Paul's. Both guys noticed the shine in each others eyes. Paul turned his attention back to Josh who was now only wearing his black boxers. The bulge was more then obvious. Paul brought his hand down and began massaging Josh's package through the fabric of his boxers. Josh let out a soft moan as he felt Paul's hand on his crotch. Paul could feel Josh's member harden under the palm of his hand. He kissed Josh while his hand kept rubbing the bulge that had taken his attention. Carefully he let his fingers slip under the elastic of Josh's boxers, feeling Josh's pubes against his fingertips. His fingers went further until they found the head of Josh's hard cock. Josh was leaning back against the couch. He had his eyes closed while he was enjoying Paul's attention. Paul slowly pulled down Josh's boxers, revealing his erect cock. Paul took his time to appreciate the view. Josh's naked body was even more perfect than he had imagined. He let his eyes glide over Josh's hard uncut dick nested in a subtle bush of black pubes. He let his fingers slide down over the shaft. As he brought his head down he used one hand to further explore Josh's body. He had been longing for this ever since he first met Josh but had never held any hope he'd find himself in the moment he was in now. Even though he had never done anything like this before he seemed to know exactly what he was doing. Encouraged by Josh's soft moans he brought his head down and closed his lips around the head of Josh's cock. Josh gasped as he felt the warmth of Paul's mouth around his dick. Paul ran his tongue down the shaft, tasting every bit of skin in his mouth. He was lost in the moment but it seemed his body knew where to go. He put one hand around Josh's balls, slowly rubbing them while he took more of Josh's dick in his mouth, gently sucking it as he went deeper. Josh's breathing intensified as he felt Paul's tongue and lips work his cock.
For Josh it was the first time as well and it was everything he imagined it to be. For weeks fantasies about Paul had plagued him, and now those fantasies were coming true. He enjoyed every second of it. Meanwhile Paul intensified his assault on Josh's member. Josh's moans encouraged him even more to increase the rhythm in which he was sucking Josh's dick. Soon enough he felt Josh's cock tense up in his mouth. Josh's let out a louder moan this time warning Paul he was about to come. Paul closed his lips tighter as Josh blew his first of five shots into Paul's eager mouth. Paul felt the warm fluid fill his mouth, sending a wave of warmth over his body. He tasted Josh's cum before swallowing it down. He let Josh's softening cock slide out of his mouth as he gently laid down on Josh's naked body. Josh looked at him, flashing his bright smile. Both guys still couldn't grasp completely what had happened between them but they both felt an intense happiness. Something they had never felt before, but something they knew was right. Their lips met again and as the warmth of each-others body spread over their skin they realized they had found what they had been looking for for so long.
~ to be continued ~
That's it for this one. Hope y'all enjoyed. Let me know what you think and keep tuned for the next chapter. Greetz, beer4myhorses@hotmail.com