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Playing The Game
Women were my passion. I'd certainly had a few of them in my time. Being in a band and travelling around, there were always plenty to choose from and take home with me and I never said no. I loved my lifestyle, I loved what I did. I didn't want to settle down; it was never a passing thought, until I decided to grow up...
Music was my thing. It's what I did and it's what I loved. No one could take it from me and they'd be damned if they tried. Women were women. They were everywhere, they wanted me, and the opportunity to sleep with me was a prospect they couldn't refuse. They were there for the picking, and I couldn't get enough. The feel of them, the smell of them and the utter sexiness of them always got me off. Watching them move and gyrate, staring into their eyes while I was on stage seducing them with my voice. The feeling was euphoric for me in a way that I couldn't explain.
I loved having my pick of women and never having strings or attachments. Hooking up after a gig; leaving the next morning. A new town and a new legion of women. That was my game, and I always won.
Sitting in the bus on our way to the next town to play, I was talking to my best friend Addie about everything we had done together. Having her with me when I toured around was the best. When I had first started travelling, we missed each other so much that she decided to join the 'roadies' and come along. It was the best decision she'd ever made from my point of view.
"Why do you think we do what we do Lex?" Addie said.
"In regards to what exactly?" I countered back. . "Well I mean we have fun and we do what we do, but have you ever thought that it's just a way of avoiding life in general, and an excuse not to grow up?"
I sat and I thought about it, and to be honest I didn't have an answer for her. "I'm not sure on that one Addie. I love what I do and I love the life that I lead. I'm free, I'm happy and I do what I want. I get to see the country; I get to sleep with whomever I want, when I want. You just can't get any better than that honey."
She looked at me, and gave me her half crooked smile that she always gives me when she's fishing for information. I smiled to myself inside. I loved that look and I always knew that it would lead to an interesting conversation.
"Yeah but don't you want to settle down at some stage? I know you say that you don't but Lex, I just can't believe that. I can't believe that you'll never, EVER want to. I think there's someone out there for everyone and you will know when you find her. You will see her across a room and you will just KNOW."
"Look, I'm happy doing what I do Addie, I don't want someone to settle down with and share my life with. I'm too much of a selfish person to share anything that I have with another person. I share my thoughts with you, and that's enough!" I said with a laugh. Addie looked at me and smiled and nodded. She knew when to stop pushing a subject.
We pulled into town about an hour later, found where we were staying for the next few days and started unpacking our things. I pulled out my suitcases and my guitar, while Addie wandered off to help the roadies pull out the rest of the equipment and lighting. After I had put my things away in my room, I ventured out to find Addie. I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her.
"Hey sexy, doing anything later on?" I whispered in her ear with my sexiest voice.
"Well that depends," she whispered back as she leant into me."Who's asking?"
I walked around to the front of her and burst into laughter. Addie started laughing and shoved me in the shoulder.
"You're terrible! For a second there, I thought you might have actually been someone that was worth taking back to my room."
"Ouch!" I replied, with fake hurt filled eyes. "You've hurt the one feeling I had, bitch!"
We both started laughing then and I was glad that I had such a good friend within her. Addie and I had been friends since high school. She had helped me through some pretty tough times, bad relationships and supported me on my quest to make it to the big time. She never judged and always had an ear when I needed to talk and a shoulder when I needed to cry. She was there for me when I first came out to my family and friends when it was tough and I had done the same in return. I had helped her through hard times and relationships in the past as best as I could and she loved me for it and I her.
Addie had always had a thing for me. Not ever had she voiced her feelings, but I had always known she wanted more. She wasn't obvious in her jealousy, but it was made apparent if I was dating someone she didn't approve of, or I would take someone else back to my room after a night of gigging, instead of her.
I always flirted shamelessly with Addie and there had been times where I thought that perhaps it wouldn't be such a bad idea to see where she and I would lead. Her long legs and wide shoulders, mixed with her dark, glossy hair and piercing blue eyes had always done things to me. My friendship with her had always come first and trying anything with Addie was out of the question. Not wanting anything permanent or long term, I could never see myself spending a night with her and then cutting it off as quickly as it started.
Our friendship would be put in jeopardy if I were to ever do that, and I couldn't handle losing the one stable thing in my life, so it was always pushed to the back of my mind.
"Where are you?" Addie asked me.
"Huh? Oh no nothing, I was no where honey just off in my own little world."
"Well I thought as much, you're just standing there staring off into space. Who or what are you thinking about?" Addie asked.
"No one in particular, was just thinking about tonight." I uttered with a wry smile. "But seriously, are you doing anything with the roadies later on? I was wondering if you wanted to catch up for a drink before tonight?"
"Sure thing!" she said with that half crooked smile again. "Sounds great, I'll meet you over at the bar at about half seven?"
"Sounds good to me Addie. Well I'm going to go have a lay down for a while so I'll catch up with you later on."
"No worries Lex, and don't forget sound check is at six!" she said as I nodded and waved and walked back to my room.
After about an hour or so of restlessness, I decided that having a lay down wasn't going to work. I pulled myself up and headed for the bathroom. I had about an hour before sound check so I decided to draw a bath instead of having a shower.
Sliding into the warm water had never felt so good. My back and shoulders ached from sitting on the bus for 12 hours, so I sat for a little while, enjoying the feel of the water on my back. Soaping myself up, I contemplated what the night would bring. More importantly, what sort of women it would bring. I hadn't been laid since four towns over, and that was about 3 weeks ago. I needed relief and I was determined to get some while I was here for a few days. Thinking about it all brought on that oh so familiar feeling between my legs.
Putting down the soap I ran my hands up and over my stomach, along my side and up onto my left breast. I rested my hand there and shut my eyes. I sighed a little as I felt my nipple rise and harden underneath my fingertips. Moving my other hand down my stomach and between my legs, I felt myself tense up as I let two of my fingers run over my fast swelling clit. I began to pinch my nipple between my fingers, while my other hand worked magic on my pussy, running up and over my clit and then back down to circle just outside of my entrance.
I moaned slowly as I spread myself open and slid one finger, and then a second into myself. Using my two fingers, guiding them in and out of my hot, wet tunnel, I used my thumb to add pressure to my pulsing clit. I was in heaven!
"Hurry up in there damnit! You have to be at sound check in 15 minutes!" I heard Addie yell through the door.
"Damn me for giving her a key to the room!" I muttered to myself as I withdrew my fingers and stood up. "I'm coming for fucks sake!" I yelled back and quickly threw my bathrobe on as I emptied the bath and headed into the bedroom.
"Well well well! And what were we doing in there miss?" Addie said to me with a mischievous smile.
"Nothing now thanks to you." I said.
"I WAS trying to relieve some of the tension before tonight, but you saw an end to that thanks very much!" I laughed.
Addie looked at me and laughed, "Well I could always leave and let you get back to it. Tell the boys that you have a headache or something and you'll be running a bit late?"
"Nah, it's all good Addie. I'm sure I will find someone out there tonight that can help me finish what I had started."
I saw the familiar look flash across Addie's face. Albeit for a split second, but it was there. "Ok then, well as long as you know what you're doing." She sighed "I've got to get back down there anyways, but I'll catch up with you at the bar ok?" And with that, she left.
I headed back to the stage and was impressed at how quickly the roadies had set everything up. Addie certainly knew how to get them all moving.
"Everything's ready when you want to jump up there Bec." I heard Pete say as he was coming up behind me.
"Thanks Pete, I won't be too long. I'll give you the thumbs up when I'm ready to go." I said with a wave.
As I walked towards the stage, I saw Addie sitting on some of the speaker boxes. She was looking down so I went over to see if everything was alright.
"Everything ok honey?" I asked her.
"Everything's good Lex, just thinking is all. I don't get a lot of time to do that so I take it whenever I can" she smiled.
"Well you know I'm here if you want to talk. I worry about you, you know that right?" I said as I kissed her on the forehead.
"I know that, but seriously I'm fine. Get up there and do your thing so we can go and get a drink, I think after today I could really use one!" she laughed.
"Ok then Addie I won't be long. I'll meet you at the bar."
Sound check didn't take too long at all. The sound tech boys were good like that. They knew the sound I was going for and how to accommodate for the different venues we played at, and the settings rarely changed. When we'd finished, I headed over to the bar and was about 10 minutes early. I ordered myself a vodka and orange juice and sat down at a table and waited. Addie walked in about 15 minutes later and I waved at her to get her attention. She ordered a drink and came and sat down.
"All ready for tonight Hun?" She asked.
"Yeah I'm ready. You know what it's like Addie, same shit different town."
"Don't forget different women." She added, with a strange look.
"Hey what's up with you?" I asked. "You're not normally like this. There's something going on that you're not telling me. I know it."
"There's not enough time in the world to even begin to tell you Lex." Addie replied with a sigh.
"Try me."
"I don't start until nine so for the next hour or so, I'm all yours." I said as I winked at her and grinned.
She smiled at me as she said, "You really want to know Lex, because once I tell you, you're going to wish you never asked."
I knew that, whatever it was bothering her; she was obviously uncomfortable confiding in me about it, as the worried look on her face clearly revealed. I thought about it and tried to make her feel as comfortable with me as possible. Addie and I had always been able to trust each other, and I didn't quite understand why she was so nervous.
"Addie, we're the best of friends and have been for so long. There is nothing you could tell me that would scare me away, make me stop talking to you or make me not want to be around you. I hate that there is something hanging over your head that you think you can't talk to me about, that really kills me so just get it out and we'll go from there."
Addie looked at me and then sighed. "Ok then, here goes."
"I've always been attracted to you Lex. I've never flaunted it, but I've never exactly hidden it either. I've never acted upon my feelings for you because we are friends, the best of friends like you said. I've always told myself that our friendship needs to come first and it always has, and I've tried really hard to keep it that way."
I could see the tears welling up in her eyes and I went to speak but she stopped me.
"I need to get this out Lex. I've been holding it in for so long and now is my chance to say something. If you interrupt me or stop me, I'm afraid I might lose my courage and not say anything at all."
I looked up at her and nodded.
"I see what you do Lex and I've always supported you. I see you take woman after woman home with you and I've never said a word because I know that it makes you happy, it fulfils some need within you. If you're happy then I'm happy. That's what I tell myself."
I nodded at her again. I loved the fact that she never said anything about what I did or how I behaved. She supported me no matter what and I couldn't imagine anyone else doing that so unreservedly.
"The thing is I've found that I'm not happy Lex. I know you're content with what you do, but I'm not happy because I don't have you. I have you as a friend, but I don't have you the way that I want you."
She looked down at the table as if she was ashamed of what she was saying. I wanted to tell her that I knew this was coming, and had seen it coming for a little while now, but didn't dare interrupt, in case it threw her off. I knew she had to let it all out. I just nodded again, took a sip of my drink and let her continue.
"I want you as a friend Lex, always. But I want you to be mine. I want you as a lover; I want you as a partner. I want to be the one you come home to, I want to share my life with you and I want to tell you about my day as my lover and partner, not just my friend. I want to share all of my highs and lows with you, and not keep certain things to myself because I can't talk to you about them."
More tears were welling up in her eyes now, and I could see that this really meant the world to her to be able to finally tell me this.
"I see you Lex and I know that I could make you as happy as you make me. I want us to be able to make love whenever we feel like it. I want the chance to show you just how beautiful I think you really are. I'm in love with you Lex, so in love with you and have been for a long time now. I see you wasting your time with these women you take home with you, when all along, I'm here. I'm right here in front of you and I can show you how good and sweet life could really be and you just don't see it. You don't see that I'm in love with you. I know that you don't want to settle down, I understand that, but I just can't keep it to myself any longer."
I didn't know what to say to her. I THOUGHT I knew what was coming. I didn't know it was this. I thought that she was going to tell me that she was attracted to me, and wanted to sleep with me or something. I didn't realise that she was actually IN LOVE with me and wanted to spend the rest of her life with me! And it hit me like a bombshell.
"Say something, please?" She whispered, a look of pure fright shining in her ice blue eyes.
I let out a huge sigh and sat back in my chair and just looked at her. At that exact point, I couldn't think of one word to say to her, I was completely blown away.
"I've totally fucked it haven't I?" she cried, putting her hands over her face and shaking her head. "I knew, I just KNEW I shouldn't have said anything to you...damnit!"
"Don't be like that Addie." Was all I could find to say.
I gazed at her as the look on her face became that of fear and regret. "I knew you were attracted to me, but that's all I thought it was, just an attraction. I had no idea that you felt this strongly about me. I am attracted to you too Addie, I have never made a secret about it, but to me, an attraction is all it is and all it will ever be."
She looked as though her whole world had fallen apart. I didn't think I had ever been so hurt in all my life. To see her so emotionally wounded and heartbroken tore me up inside.
"Our friendship has to come first honey. You're all I have in this world that's stable and safe. You're my rock and my shoulder and I can't risk fucking up our friendship over sex and the rest of it. I can never be more than just friends with you, that's just the way it is. I'm sorry if I've hurt you in any way Addie, I never wanted too."
With that she rose from her chair and walked away. I got up as fast as I could and grabbed at her as she was walking across the parking lot. The devastated look she wore on her face hit me in the chest like a freight train. I had never wanted it to turn out this way. We had crossed the threshold of our friendship and anything that happened from this point on was going to test it for all it was worth. I couldn't bear the thought of losing her.
"Addie, it can't be like this, please don't walk away from me, we can work this out. We work everything out, it's what we do." I pleaded with her.
She looked at me, her blue eyes filled with regret. "I'm not mad at you Lex; I'm not hurt by anything that you have said. I knew that you didn't feel the same way, I always have known that but I just needed to tell you how I felt. Nothing has changed except now you know how I really feel. Everything will be fine and it will all work out, things will go back to the way they were, I promise. We're friends remember?" And with that, she hugged me as tight as she could.
For the first time I could actually feel what she felt towards me in her touch. I could feel her emotions, her want and her need and her love. It was beyond my comprehension that someone could feel that strongly towards me. I broke the embrace and held her at arms length.
"I do love you Addie, you know that right? It's just not like that. I'm sorry."
"I have a few things that I need to do before you start playing so I'll go and get them done. See you after the gig as usual and good luck."
She gave me a half hearted smile and I knew that as much as she would try; things would never be the same for her again.
I stopped her as she began to walk away. "I can give you space if that's what you want Addie, I can leave you be for a little while or something?"
"No that's not what I need, I need you to be my friend and pretend that none of this was ever spoken about. Deal?" she looked at me with those piercing eyes and I knew that that was what she honestly needed me to do.
"I can do that Addie, no problems. See you after the gig for a drink." With that I walked away to my room to get dressed for the long night ahead.
I was almost finished. Singing for three hours straight had taken its toll on me. I was worn out and exhausted, yet I was still scanning the crowd for someone to spend the remainder of the evening wearing me out. There were a few women that I had kept my eye on that night. The way that they were staring at me, I knew what they wanted. They always give the same look. The half - puppy dog, come fuck me now look. I love that look, I will never grow tired of it.
Every time I decided on someone that I determined could be the one for the night, my thoughts kept drifting back to Addie. I found myself wondering what I would do, if she happened to give me that same look. I shook my head and put those thoughts aside, it was stupid to think like that. More importantly I should have been thinking about whether she was alright or not, given the events of the evening.
"She needs me to be her friend first and forget about all of that." I thought to myself. "How can I forget about what she said though? It's pretty heavy stuff and it's not something that I can just put to the back of my mind." I thought again. Before I knew it, the gig was over and I was saying my thank - you's and my goodnights.
As we all headed to the bar after the gig, I decided to let things lie and do what Addie had asked of me and be her friend first and forget it. I walked up beside her, threw my arm around her shoulder and kissed the side of her head like I always do.
"How was your night honey? See anyone that was worth looking at?" I said to her as we walked.
"Nah not really. There was one girl that wasn't bad looking. We chatted for a bit after the gig and she said she was heading over to the bar afterwards so I'll catch up with her there and see how it all goes I guess" she mumbled to me while she was looking at the ground.
"Well I hope it all goes well for you, you need to get laid you know it's been so long!" I said as I laughed and poked her in the ribs.
"Yeah, yeah I know, quit it ya bitch", she laughed, and with that, we all walked into the bar for some after gig drinking which was much needed.
I still wasn't used to it. No matter how long I had been doing this, getting swamped by people when I was seen was still something that blew my mind. Addie did the usual and patted me on the back and walked away, as I stood and handed out autographs to those who begged for them, posed for photos with diehard fans and took numbers that I knew I would never call. When all was said and done, I headed to the bar with a swarm of women following behind.
"Vodka and OJ thanks." I said to the barman, and had to smile to myself when 6 other women behind me ordered the same thing. "It never changes." I said to no one in particular.
As I sat down next to Addie in a booth, it was hard to have a conversation. I was being interrupted every five minutes by women that wanted more autographs, and those that just wanted to say "Hi."
"Jeez, it never stops with you does it?" Addie laughed.
"Well no it doesn't, but I can't say that I mind being fawned over all the time. You know what I'm like, I love attention!"
With that we both laughed and sat in silence for awhile just enjoying our drinks. After a little while, Addie spoke up. "There she is." She said to me as she pointed towards the bar.
I had to say Addie hadn't done so badly for herself. The woman she was pointing at was someone that I could see myself going for under different circumstances.
Long flowing dark hair, big full lips and beautiful eyes that called out to you right from the word go. Her legs looked like they would fit perfectly wrapped around your waist and a nice tight arse.
"Well well. Go and see what she's all about Addie. She's obviously here to see if you came in or not so go and get her!" I said as I punched her lightly in the shoulder.
"Yeah yeah I'm going damnit!" She said as she laughed and rubbed where I had just hit her. "You going to be alright here? Pfft why am I even asking that question, of course you will be fine...you're you after all."
"Sure! I'll be fine. I have my eye on a few anyway. Now leave me alone and go and get laid!" I said with mock frustration on my face.
She laughed as she kissed me on the forehead and walked away. "That went well." I thought to myself. I thought it was going to be a little bit uneasy; however it turned out to be the complete opposite.
Scanning the room, I saw her. I knew she would be the one for the night. Across the room she was staring at me with that familiar look and I didn't hesitate. I rose from my chair and sauntered over to sit with her.
"Hey, I'm Lex. Mind if I sit with you for awhile?" I drawled into her ear.
It looked like all her Christmases had come at once, the way she was looking at me.
"Of course." She said. "I don't mind at all. I'm Charlie by the way."
"Nice to meet you Charlie." I said as I stuck out my hand for her to shake.
When she took my hand and shook it, I felt a tiny jolt of electricity slowly move through my body, down between my legs and I smiled.
Staring at her, I felt myself getting hotter and hotter. Her deep brown eyes were like a window to her soul. Her strong hands and nicely tanned arms were sending my brain into a spin. I knew that when we got back to my room, I wouldn't be able to get enough of her lips and her mouth, mixed in with touching and feeling her skin and ample breasts.
"So what goes on around here at night? What do people do for fun?" I whispered in her ear.
I couldn't get enough of the smell of her. She smelt like lavender and wild flowers all at once.
"Not a lot. Being such a small town, we find ways to make our own fun." She replied with a wink as she moved her hand to rest upon my upper thigh.
I felt myself tense up inside as she was moving her hand up and down, closer and closer to where I wanted her to be. She was going to tip me over the edge right then and there if I let her continue her assault on my thigh. I was already horny as hell from earlier in the evening before I was interrupted by Addie.
"Would you like another drink?" I managed to stutter.
"That would be nice Lex, thanks. I'll have a scotch on the rocks if you wouldn't mind?"
"No worries."
"I'll be right back, don't go anywhere." I winked at her and walked back towards the bar.
Waiting for our drinks, I felt someone wrap their arms around me from behind. I leant back into her thinking that Charlie was being a lot more forward then I had expected her to be. That was fine with me; we both knew what we wanted from each other anyway.
"Couldn't wait for your drink huh?" I whispered to her. "We can leave now if you would like? The things I'm going to do to you when we get back to my room, you wouldn't want another drink anyway I don't think." I smiled to the barman who was smirking at me.
"Well if that's what you want, I'm not going to complain. Why don't you tell me exactly what it is you want to do to me on the way?"
I turned around with a look of horror on my face. "Shit Addie I'm sorry I didn't know it was you behind me!"
She laughed at the look I was giving her and shook her head. "Never mind honey, it was just a joke. But for future reference, I don't really wanna know what you're gonna do to someone else ok?"
I nodded in agreement. "I understand but like I said, I didn't honestly know it was you. Anyway how's your night going?" I proffered, trying to take the attention off of myself. There's a first time for everything.
"Couldn't be better." She lied. I knew she was lying but decided to let it be. "I'm having a great time with Sherry over there." She said as she pointed.
It was at that time, when she turned around to face Sherry that I noticed Addie must have gone back to her room and gotten changed. She was wearing a pair of denim boot cut jeans that I had never seen before, settled on top with a one sleeved, tight white tank top. Wearing a black bra underneath that was as obvious as daylight, the top hugged her in all the right places and accentuated all the right curves. Her hair was down and flowed over her shoulders in soft curls and her mascara had been drawn on in such a way as to bring out the piercing blue of her eyes in a way that I had never seen. I had never seen Addie look so god damn sexy and gorgeous in all my life.
"What are you staring at?" Addie said to me with a perplexed look on her face.
"Huh? Oh nothing honey, nothing you just look nice is all." I said to her feeling myself blush at being caught checking her out.
"Yeah I went back to my room and changed. It was hot behind stage and I was looking a bit dishevelled I think." She laughed.
I laughed along with her, not sure what else to say.
"Anyway I'm gonna head back over to Sherry now." And with that she squeezed my hand and slipped away.
I couldn't help but watch her as she walked away from me. The way her hips swayed when she walked had all of a sudden out of nowhere, grabbed my attention. Her arse was a picture of perfection in those jeans and her legs went on endlessly. I couldn't help but notice how amazing her hair and face looked.
"What the hell is going on with you?" I thought to myself. I shook my head and let the thoughts fall through. I grabbed the drinks off of the bar and headed back to Charlie. I decided I was going to work on getting this woman back to my room for the night.
"Sorry about that Charlie." I said as I sat down beside her. "I didn't think that would take as long as it did."
"Don't stress about it." Charlie replied. "Now where were we?" She asked as she replaced her hand on my upper thigh.
She had me instantly aroused and interested again. The feeling of her hand on my thigh getting higher and higher until she rested it just below my sweet spot was amazing.
We talked for awhile aimlessly about nothing in particular. We talked about the town and its surrounds, what it was like to be on tour. Where I had been, the women I had slept with and if I ever found myself missing home.I found myself moving closer to her until my head was nuzzled into her neck.
"God you smell amazing." I whispered in her ear.
I saw her smile and I took that as my cue. My tongue darted out of my mouth and drew lazy circles on her skin in the small of her neck. As I took her skin in between my teeth and started gently sucking on it, I noticed that I could see Addie over Charlies shoulder on the other side of the room. I could see that whatever Sherry was saying to her, was making her laugh uncontrollably. Oh my god that smile of hers!
I watched as they moved to let their lips meet. I saw Addie instantly relax into the other woman as she opened her mouth a little to let Sherry explore her with her tongue. I was jealous. I didn't even know this woman and I hated her. I hated her for being able to make Addie laugh like that. I hated her for touching Addie so intimately and I hated her for kissing my best friend. It should have been my lips and my tongue exploring her. I had never felt such white hot rage.
"What's wrong Lex?" I heard Charlie say, bringing me back to reality.
"Nothing honey, sorry about that I was thinking about earlier tonight. Would you like to come back to my room and finish what we started?" I said to her with my sexiest voice.
"I thought you would never ask." She whispered in my ear as she ran her tongue up the side of my neck to my earlobe. I knew straight away she was going to be good with that thing.
As we headed towards the door, I kept my eyes on the ground. I had no idea what was going on with me so I avoided Addie and Sherry at all costs.
"Safe." I thought to myself when we were finally out in the parking lot. I grabbed Charlies hand and linked her fingers through mine.
"I'm going to have so much fun with you Charlie." I said to her.
"I would like to hope so." She replied as a wry smile crept over her lips. We talked a little more as we made our way back to my room.
"Would you like something to drink?" I asked Charlie as I turned to close the door.
"I would rather not Lex. I think I'd just like to do what I've wanted to do all night." She said as she headed towards me.
Her lips met mine and they felt wonderful. I felt her relax and heard her sigh as I ran my tongue along her bottom lip. She opened her mouth to grant me entry. I slid my tongue in past her teeth and found hers. Our tongues danced together and explored each other for what seemed like hours until I finally pulled away and broke the kiss. I leant my forehead against hers and stared into her luscious eyes as we caught our breaths.
"That was amazing." She breathed.
"I know." I replied, a little breathless myself.
"I want more of you." She said as she pulled me by the waist to the bed.
Charlie pushed me onto the bed and began to unbutton her top painfully slow to give me a good view of exactly what I was about to get. I sighed happily at what was in front of me when she finally removed it. Her supple breasts were almost too much for my eyes to bear. As she moved behind herself to unhook her sexy black lace bra, I took a minute to appreciate the site. Gorgeous, firm C cup breasts with medium sized nipples and light pink areolas to match.
She moaned quietly as I took her left one in my mouth and lazily flicked my tongue up and over it. I grunted as I felt it harden under my tongue and found that Charlie was moving her hands to the back of my neck. She pushed my head into her to apply more pressure to my tongue on her nipple. I in turn pushed a little harder and heard her moan in frustration as my tongue flicked faster and faster. I moved over to take her right one in my mouth and repeated the same actions as I had done with the other one, as I unbuttoned her jeans and slid them down her gorgeous tanned legs.
I moaned loudly at the sight of no underwear and a shaved pussy in front of my eyes.
"I need you right now." I breathed in frustration as I moved back on the bed.
I unbuttoned my top and threw it to the floor. I unhooked my bra and let my own C cup breasts fall free. Charlie had the sexiest look on her face I had seen in a long while.
"Now those I wanna touch." She drawled.
"Not yet." I replied. "There's something I wanna do first."
I moved Charlie into a position where she was underneath me. I spread her legs apart with my knees and stared into her eyes. She knew what I was going to do and put her hand on the top of my head to push me down. I didn't need anymore encouragement. I made a light trail of kisses down her neck, in between her cleavage and down her stomach stopping at the top of her mound. I breathed her in and sighed. She smelt appetizing and I was hungrier than ever. I moved lower and kissed and licked her inner thighs. She moaned with want as I was getting closer and closer to her wet slit. I could see how wet she really was. Droplets of juice had started to appear on the outside of her velvet lips and I was totally entranced.
"Lex please!" She pleaded with me. "I need you now; I can't wait any longer damnit!"
I took what she said and went for it. I ran my tongue from the bottom of her hot, slippery entrance to the top of her, stopping to lick ever so slowly over her swollen clit. She moaned loudly with delight as her hips rose to meet my mouth. I spread her apart with my hands and licked each side of her from top to bottom. I dove in with my tongue and lapped at her with all I had.
"Oh god yes!" She screamed as her hips bucked in motion with my mouth.
I pulled in and out of her with my tongue and rode her like that for about five minutes before I felt her tense and knew she was on the verge of coming. I pulled my tongue out of her and sat up.
"Oh god what are you doing?!" She breathed; frustrated that I had stopped when she was so close. I never said a word as I moved up on top of her.
I kissed her long and hard and moaned into her mouth as she kissed and licked my lips and sucked on my tongue to taste herself. I spread her legs again with my knees and looked at her.
"Do you want me to fuck you?" I said grinning, knowing that was exactly what she wanted.
"Yes Lex it's all I want. Hurry the fuck up I need it." She breathed as she closed her eyes.
I stared at her mouth and kissed her deeply as I slid two fingers easily into her. I heard her grunt loudly as I pushed in and out of her as I nuzzled in to bite and suck her neck. Working her up I pushed harder and deeper as she bucked her hips against me, forcing me deeper into her. I looked up at her and lost all line of concentration, when I found myself staring at the beautiful face of Addie.
Her face was contorted in the most wonderful of ways. I loved the expressions crossing her face because of what I was doing to her. Getting wetter than I had ever gotten at the noises she was making in my ear and the way her pussy felt on my fingertips.
"Where are you?" I heard Charlie say, snapping me back into reality.
"Nowhere, I'm right here baby."
"No trust me Lex you're definitely somewhere else other than here." I pulled out of her and sat up.
"Do you mind if we call it a night Charlie? I'm just really worn out and tired from today and I don't think I have the energy to do this right now." I said as I looked at her pleadingly.
She could see in my eyes that it really wasn't what I wanted to do at that exact moment.
"Sure Lex, sure whatever you want." She replied, obviously extremely pissed off at me.
As she headed towards the door I grabbed her and kissed her.
"Don't be pissed at me honey. This isn't over, not by a long shot. I'm just really run down tonight is all. I'd like to catch up with you tomorrow and try again if that's ok with you?" I asked her.
"Yeah I would like that." She replied with a half smile.
"Get some sleep Lex. I'll be at your gig tomorrow night and we'll go from there."
"Good, I can't wait." I said in return.
Truth be told, until I sorted out what was going on with me, I could wait. She headed out the door and I gave her another quick kiss and waved goodbye.
"What the fuck is going on with you?!" I screamed to myself inside.
"Addie is your friend. Your FRIEND. You can't imagine her like that it's not right!" I said aloud.
I made myself a drink and went outside to sit on the balcony. I lit a smoke and lost myself in my thoughts.She's your friend. Nothing more nothing less, you don't want anymore than that. But DO you want more than that? She loves you for who you are, no judgements. If you were to ever settle down, what better person to settle down with?
I imagined her standing in front of me, watching me as I traced my fingertip over her cheek down to her jaw line. Watching the expression on her face change as I moved my hand down and drew my fingertip across the line of her cleavage. I opened my eyes and came back to the present.
"Shit!" I thought to myself. "I need to go and see her and sort this crap out." I thought as I put on a shirt and headed out the door to Addie's room.
Standing in front of Addie's door, I had a flash of doubt travel through my mind.
"What am I doing here?" I thought to myself.
"Maybe I'm just thinking about her because of what she told me earlier. If I leave it be, it may all just die down in a few days and things will go back to the way they were."
I knew deep down that it wasn't true and the only way to sort this entire thing out was to talk to her.I knocked on her door and immediately regretted it. What if she had taken Sherry back to her room? What if they were in there fucking right now and I was the idiot standing outside her door interrupting them? I started to walk away thinking that I never should have turned up there in the first place.
"What are you doing here so late?" I heard Addie say behind me.
I turned around and went weak at the knees. She was standing in the doorway wearing nothing but her bathrobe, her hair was rough and tussled from sleeping obviously and she had a half dazed, sweetly innocent look on her face. I had never seen anything so beautiful in all my life. The thought of wanting to wake up to that every morning for the rest of my life passed through my head and I pushed it away quickly.
"Shit Addie I didn't want to interrupt anything between you and Sherry and I certainly didn't want to wake you up. It's been a long day, go and get some sleep and I'll talk to you tomorrow." I said as I turned to head off.
"Wait right there." Addie said as I turned back around to face her.
"I've known you long enough to know that you don't call or turn up on my doorstep in the middle of the night for anything useless and unimportant. And as for interrupting anything, I told Sherry I was too worn out for anything tonight so she went home. I was sleeping yes, but you know that won't stop me from talking to you if there is something wrong."
"I know." I said as I followed her into her room.
"So talk to me. What's playing on your mind honey?" She said to me with a look of concern that made me melt.
I didn't know what was going on with me, but I knew at that moment I wanted her.
"I need to talk to you about us. Ever since you said what you said earlier, I can't get you out of my fucking head." I said as I sat down opposite her.
"I was watching you in the bar with Sherry and I was so jealous of her. I don't even know the woman and all I wanted to do, was walk up to her and ask her what the hell she thought she was doing touching you like that?!"
I looked over at Addie but I couldn't read what was on her face. She wasn't giving anything away. She made a motion with her hand for me to continue so I did.
"I got out of there as quickly as I could and I took Charlie back to my room. We were fucking Addie and all I could think about was you. All I could SEE was you. I had to call it a night and ask her to leave. She was seriously pissed at me but I didn't care. I just needed to come and talk to you about it. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing it's not right." I said as I put my head in my hands.
Addie walked over to me and put her hand underneath my chin.
"Lex, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't happy that you couldn't get me out of your head. I haven't been able to get you out of mine since I can remember. You know how I feel for you and you know WHAT I feel for you. I know you don't want to think about it, but I think you might just feel the same way."
I looked at her as I stood. She was so beautiful and pure and she loved me so much. I couldn't understand why I had never seen it before. I rested my forehead against hers and stared into her ice blue eyes.
"I don't know why I'm trying to stop what I feel for you Addie. I'm beginning to think I shouldn't."
She looked at me so sweetly and gave me her half crooked smile and I was completely gone. I moved in and brushed my lips against hers. She gasped quietly at the feel of them on her own. She closed her eyes and I knew what she wanted from me. I kissed her softly, more so than I had ever kissed another woman. It was slow, it was sweet and it was out of this world.
She parted her lips for me and I slid my tongue through to dance with hers. I moaned into her mouth at how good we felt together. Did that girl know how to kiss or what! She pulled me closer to her and deepened the kiss. Her tongue was just about as far into my mouth as it was going to get. My own wasn't far from it. I sank further and lost myself in her. I lost myself in her mouth, her lips and her tongue. The way she was teasing me with the tip of it, then almost nothing at all. Then she would kiss me deeply and hard and I couldn't get enough.
I sighed uncontrollably as my hands moved to her waist. Addie wrapped her hands around the back of my neck and pulled me closer. Before I knew it, I was undoing the front of her robe and slipping my hands underneath. I was in heaven as I made contact with her skin. I placed my hands on her waist and slipped them around to the small of her back. Addie moaned into my neck as I lightly scraped my nails half way down her back and then back up.
She gently nibbled on the curve in my neck and sucked the skin in between her teeth. I closed my eyes and just enjoyed her. The feel of her skin under my hands, the feel of her mouth on my neck and the feel of her tongue flicking over my skin.
I opened my eyes and snapped back into reality.
"Shit! What the fuck am I doing?!" I said to myself more so than Addie.
"What do you mean?" Addie said with a look of confusion on her face.
"I thought this was what you wanted Lex. From the feel of your body and the reaction I've been getting out of you, I'd say I'm not too far from being right."
"No. No I don't want this. Not at all. I need to go Addie, I need to go now." I headed to the door.
"For fucks sake stop Lex!" Addie yelled at me. I stopped dead in my tracks.
"Just stop it. Stop running from me for just a damn minute!"
She looked so hurt and frustrated. I hated what I was doing to her.
"I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. What I feel for you isn't going to change and you damn well know it. Either you want what I can offer you, or you don't. Don't fuck with me Lex, I can't handle it."
"I'm not fucking with you Addie!" I screamed back at her.
"That's the last thing I want to do to you. I hate that I'm making you feel like this. I hate that you're making ME feel like this! I've never been so confused in all my life. My life was easy Addie. It was easy and that's how I liked it. Now it's all up in the air and all over the place because you opened your damn mouth! Why? Why did you have to tell me huh? Why couldn't you just keep it to yourself and just let it fucking be!"
I was done; I couldn't think of another word I wanted to say to her at that moment. I headed towards the door and felt myself sink inside when I looked back at her. Tears were streaming down her cheeks and I knew I had hurt her more than she had ever been hurt in her lifetime. I opened the door and slammed it shut as I left. I headed back to my room, tears streaming down my own cheeks at what I had just done. I had hurt my best friend of seven years. I had torn her world apart because I was scared beyond belief.
I poured myself a strong drink as soon as I returned to my room. I sculled it down and poured myself another. I sat on the bed and contemplated going back over there, getting down on my knees and apologising like mad for what I had just said to her. I already wished that I could take it all back. I had done the wrong thing and boy didn't I know it.
I thought the better of it and decided to go to bed and let her have her space. Obviously I was the last person Addie would want to see right now anyway. I crawled into bed and took note for the first time of just how utterly exhausted I was. I thought I would be asleep in no time at all.
Four hours later I was still tossing and turning and saw the sun begin to creep through the windows. I decided to get up and make myself a coffee. Heading out to the balcony to sit, I couldn't help but think about the kiss I had shared with Addie.
I had never felt the way that she had made me feel. Kissing her was like a dream come true. It was everything I had ever wanted in a kiss and more. The way her lips parted and felt under my own and her tongue pressed against mine was enough to get me going again regardless of the circumstances. I sat back and sighed as I turned my thoughts to what I had done.
Why had I said all of the things that I said? I was enjoying myself, and her, and I had never felt more at home then I did when I was wrapped around her. Then it hit me. Home. I was not a 'home' person. I loved travelling and being a free spirit. I never EVER wanted to settle down. I had just realised the reason I was so scared. It had finally dawned on me that Addie was my home. She was where I wanted to be for the rest of my life. I wanted everything that she wanted. The highs and the lows, the conversations. Making love to her whenever I wanted to. Feeling her wrapped around me every night that I went to bed. All of it with her.
I finally realised that I didn't need to be scared. I was so comfortable with her and I knew she would look after me no matter what. I also knew that I would look after her. I stood up and leant over the balcony to watch the skyline. I smiled uncontrollably to myself as I finally came to the conclusion that I was as much in love with Addie, as she was with me. I'd never felt so happy and content in all my life. As much as I had been avoiding it, I had finally found my home. I decided to jump in the shower and then head over to Addie's room to apologise profusely for the night before, and tell her that I was ready to begin a new chapter with her. I couldn't wait.
It was like De JaVu. Here I was again standing outside of her door. This time around though, I wasn't confused and I wasn't upset. I knew what I wanted and I wanted her, all to myself. I knocked on her door and I waited. Lord I had never been so nervous! It felt like my first high school crush all over again. I heard the lock click and she was standing before me, again looking as beautiful as ever.
"I came to apologise for last night Addie." I said to her, a little unsteady.
"This isn't really the best of times Lex." She replied but I interrupted her.
"It's like you yesterday Addie, I need to get this out before I lose my nerve."
She stood there and waited expectedly.
"I don't know what was going on with me last night Addie, but I should never have said the things I said to you. It was like I was a whole other person or something." I looked up at her, pleading with her with my eyes to forgive me.
"I need to apologise and make it up to you. I know that what I said, and how I said it can never be forgotten and honestly I wish it could. I wish I could take it all back. I don't know where to start with making it up to you, but believe me I'm going to try my best to do whatever I can for as long as it takes to win back your trust."
"I realised as I was lying there trying to sleep last night Addie, I did what I did because I was scared. I was so scared of how I felt about you and I reacted stupidly and I shouldn't have. You know that I don't want to settle, you know that I don't want anything permanent, until I met you last night that is. We've been best friends for seven years but last night I met the REAL you. The you that I wouldn't mind spending a lot more time with. Say, like forever? I'm just as in love with you, as you are with me honey. It took me a little while to wake up and realise, I know." I said with a little laugh. "I just hope I haven't left it too late to let you know how I really feel."
I held my breath and looked up at her, scared of the reaction I was going to see on her face. I was blown away by how beautiful she was right then and there. Her face was relaxed and had a loving quality to it. Soft, slow tears were filling her eyes and cascading down her cheeks and all I wanted to do was take her into me and hold her for as long as I could. I wanted to take her home.
Just as I went to hold her I heard movement behind her in the room. Sherry seemed to appear out of nowhere behind Addie. Rubbing her eyes from sleep, she wrapped her arms around Addie's waist and stood behind her.
"Who's here this early in the morning sexy?" She said as she leant into Addie's neck and kissed her.
I was wrecked. I couldn't believe I had just done the hardest thing in the world, something that yesterday seemed entirely impossible to me, and now I had to stand there and watch them. Now I knew why Addie had started crying. The whole time I was baring my soul to her, she knew that Sherry was lying in the bed behind her.
"Well. Don't I just have the world's most perfect timing?" I said as I looked sideways towards the parking lot.
"Lex I...I...oh god I'm so sorry!" Was all Addie could find to say as she started sobbing.
"Think nothing of it." Was the only thing I could manage.
"Lex don't walk away from me, please don't we need to talk."
"Maybe when you're not so busy hey?" I said to her with hurt in my eyes.
"I'll see you tonight Addie. If you're not there I won't be looking for you." I sneered as I walked off towards the bar.
"Starting early today are we?" The barmaid said as she handed me my drink.
"After the day I've had already I need it, and a lot more so keep them coming. The damn day has only just started!" I said with a sigh as I walked towards a table at the back of the room.
I drank myself stupid. I didn't know what else to do. I had a million and one thoughts running through my mind and I was angry. Fuck I was angry. I had made the world's biggest idiot out of myself and for what? For absolutely nothing, that's what.
"What the hell do you think you're doing to yourself? You have a gig tonight damnit and you're trashed beyond belief!" I heard Addie say behind me as I was slumped in the chair.
I looked up at her and found myself getting more pissed off.
"What the fuck are you doing here? Leave me be, I have stuff to sort out within myself and this is helping." I slurred as I held up my drink and spilled most of it on the floor.
"The barmaid over there called my room." She said as she pointed to the bar.
"She told me you were pretty out of it, and it might be best if someone came and got you so here I am."
"I don't need your help. I don't need any ones help I'm fine damnit."
With that I got up from my chair, stumbled and almost fell. Addie grabbed my arm and kept me from going all the way over.
"Don't touch me Addie." I slurred.
"I can sort this out. I can get back to my own room without you."
"Don't piss me about Lex. Put all of the shit over the last day aside ok? I'm here to sort you out and get you ready for tonight. I'm doing this whether you like it or not. Shut the fuck up and deal with it." Addie demanded.
I was too drunk to give a damn so I gave in and let her have her way. She threw my arm over her shoulder and guided me out of the bar, back to my room.Next thing I knew, I was being thrown onto the bed and Addie was removing my top.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" I half sneered at her.
"I'm taking your clothes of genius, so I can throw your sorry arse in the shower. You have a gig in a few hours and I need to get you as sober as I can. If you have a problem with that, take it up with my manager." She stated matter of factly.
"I will!" I demanded as I lay there too out of it to protest.
"Well I think you'll find she's a little too drunk at the moment to take any of your calls so you won't get anywhere. Shut up and let me do my thing. Taking care of you is what I do best." She said as she pulled my top over my head and let it flop back down on the bed.
"Ouch damnit!" I complained when my head hit hard.
"Oh, what? You think I'm going to be gentle with you Lex? You wanna go and be a diehard rocker and an idiot and write yourself off, that's not my problem. You're not going to get any special treatment from me here, so don't expect it." She replied with force.
"No need to be a bitch Addie." I slurred.
"If anyone should be being a bitch right now, it's me thanks."
"We're not going to talk about any of that now Lex, you need to sober up. I won't talk to you about any of this while you're tanked out of your brain." With that she unbuttoned my jeans.
Picking me up by the waist she slid them down my legs. I felt embarrassed that I had no underwear on. I didn't exactly know why. She lifted my shoulders up and unhooked my bra. Removing it she threw it to the floor.
"My god you reek of alcohol!" She said as she wandered off to turn on the shower.
I lay there staring at the ceiling. I couldn't close my eyes as everything started to spin. I couldn't keep them open because it was doing the same thing. I closed my eyes for a bit, regardless of what it was doing I was tired as hell. I opened my eyes to find Addie standing in the doorway of the bathroom staring at me.
The look she had on her face, I knew she was checking me out. I also knew that she liked what she saw. She looked up at my eyes and shifted her feet.
"I thought you were asleep. I was watching you in case you were, I was going to turn the shower off."
"I'm awake, but I don't wanna get up." I slurred.
"You don't have a choice." She replied as she picked me up off the bed and took me to the bathroom.
Addie opened the shower curtain and forcefully pushed me under the water.
"Holy fuck!" I squealed. "It's freezing in here Addie what the fuck?!" I looked at her as I started to shake.
"How many times do I have to tell you? You need to sober up and a nice, relaxing hot shower isn't going to do that so deal with the cold water." She said to me, a look of disappointment in her eyes.
I had never felt so low.
"Leave me be Addie. I can wash myself and scrub up. I'll meet you back in the room." I said to her as I turned away,disgusted with myself.
I turned around again just as I heard the door click and she was gone.
I pulled myself together, washed myself and turned the water off. I threw my bathrobe on and stumbled out to the bedroom. I found Addie lying on the bed with her eyes closed.
"You asleep?" I asked, not really knowing what I wanted the answer to be.
"Nope." She replied.
"Then why are you still here?" I asked.
I didn't want to be this way with her. It suited my mood though, to be a complete bitch.
"Why am I still here?! Why am I still here Lex?! You want to know why I'll tell you why!" She replied, raising her voice more every second. She had taken me completely by surprise.
"I'm still here because you're still rotten drunk. I'm still here because you need someone to look out for you, because you obviously can't look out for yourself. I'm still here because you have fans out there, busting their arse to see you and you need to be there tonight whether you like it or not."
She was moving towards me, frustration and anger in her eyes.I had to admit that her 'third degree' speech was scaring me a little.
She was standing inches from my face, yelling at me and I let her go. I knew she needed to do it and I didn't have the energy or the heart to argue with her. Deep down I knew that I also deserved whatever she felt she needed to say.
"I'm still here because you're so god damn stubborn and wouldn't talk to me when I asked you to!"
With that comment I went to say something in return but she stopped me.
"Don't you dare. Don't you fucking dare say a word to me Lex until I've finished. You will stand there and you will take this. You will listen to this and you will comprehend what the fuck I'm saying to you because for once in your damn life you need to."
I was totally shocked. I had never seen Addie like this in all the years that I had known her. So angry and so hurt and so full of rage. And all of it because of me; because of what I had done and because of what I had said. So I stood there. I closed my mouth and I waited for her to finish.
"I only have one thing left to say to you Lex and then I'm done, you do with it what you will. Most importantly, I'm still here because I love you Lex, more than anything in this world and I now know that you see it too. You totally piss me off more than anyone else I know, you do the world's most stupid things, but I love you and I'm in love with you. I'm going to shut up now because I said I wasn't going to discuss this with you until you sobered up."
Tears filled her eyes and drunk or not, I couldn't help but kiss her. I held her underneath her chin and pulled her to me. I pressed her lips against mine and she sighed. As I ran my tongue along her bottom lip I could taste the tears that had begun to fall down her face. She pulled away from me and I opened my eyes.
"Now it's my turn to say no." Addie said to me as she walked to the other side of the room and sat on the bed.
"You need to sober up Lex; I won't do this until I know you're in control."
I sighed and walked over to the bed and lay down.
"Ok then Addie." I didn't know what else to say to her. I wanted her so badly and the anger that I had felt towards her, had slipped away into nowhere.
She lay down beside me and wrapped me up in her arms.
"Go to sleep Lex, I'll wake you later on."
I went to say something but found myself drifting off extremely fast. Wrapped in her arms like that, I had never been more comfortable in all my life. I was asleep in minutes.
"Time to get up." I heard in the distance as I began to stir.
My head was banging and my ears were ringing. Waking up was the part I wasn't looking forward to.
"Urgh, I feel like shit." I said to myself as I rubbed my temples.
"You look like shit too. Serves you right." Addie said to me.
I looked up. I had forgotten she had brought me home. I couldn't believe she was still here.
"Did you leave when I went to sleep at all?" I looked at her through half closed eyes.
"Nope, I told you I would wake you later and that's what I'm doing." She replied as she was grabbing her things.
"You're awake now and should be able to handle your own headache. I need to go and get ready for tonight." She said as she headed towards the door.
"Addie wait."
I went to get up and had to attempt it twice before I finally slid off the bed.
"Are we going to talk about what happened or not? I kinda need to know where I stand."
"Now probably isn't best."
"I need space, I need time to put together everything that's happened over the past day or so and I think you need to do the same. Just give it time." She said to me as she put her hand on my shoulder and kissed my forehead. "It will all work itself out."
I knew I was hung over, but this girl was confusing the shit out of me.
"Jesus Addie what the hell is going on here?" I said with a look of frustration.
"You tell me you love me, I finally tell you that I love you and this is where we are with each other? What's that all about?" I winced with the pain in my head.
"I don't know where we stand right now Lex. You made a complete arse out of yourself and I'm still trying to deal with that. Now I need to go." She said as she opened the door.
"Wait just a minute I don't understand." I said still as confused as ever.
"I made a complete arse out of myself as you say, because I poured it all out for you, after you had just finished screwing someone else! I didn't know how to deal with that so yeah I had a few too many drinks. Can you blame me?" I asked her, holding my hands up to my temples again.
"Ok so now it's my entire fault?" She asked looking vengeful.
"You got wasted because I was having sex with someone. So there's nothing to say about you screwing some woman from the bar earlier on?" She said sounding a lot harsher in my head then I would have wanted.
"You just don't get it do you Lex? I don't think you're ready for any of this. I think it's too much too soon. You need time and I can give you that if that's what you need."
"You're too much for me Addie. You're too confusing and I have no idea what you're going on about. I don't need time and I don't need space. Don't ever tell me what I need or what's too much for me. Forget it all and just go, I'll see you tonight." I walked away from her and shut the bathroom door. I sighed with regret as I heard her leave.
A few hours and some pain killers later and I was back on my feet. I wasn't feeling on top of the world that was for sure, but I was feeling well enough to do my job for the night. I put Addie and the previous days events behind me and thought about the night as I was getting ready. Charlie flashed through my mind and I remembered what I had said to her. She was most certainly going to be there looking for me again.
I thought about Addie again for a second and decided that if I found Charlie there, I was going to go for it. If Addie wanted to be the way she was being, and if she was going to try to tell me what I wanted, then I wasn't going to waste my time.
I headed down to the stage and walked in behind to put my things away for the night. Addie was sitting at the table with a few of the roadies laughing at some joke Pete had just told. She looked up at me and immediately looked away. I huffed and shook my head. I couldn't believe she was being like this so I let it be. She could have it her way.
"Hey Lex there's someone here looking for you." Joe, another of the roadies said as he walked up to me.
"Anyone I know?"
"Says her name's Charlie or somethin?" He said to me.
"Yeah ok I know who that is, let her back Joe, it's fine."
"No probs, be right back." He said as he walked off.
"Hey you." Charlie said as she walked up and gave me a kiss.
I wasn't expecting her to do that. I looked over at Addie and noticed that she wasn't at the table any longer. A look of relief floated across my face.
"Hey yourself."
"Hey look I'm sorry about last night; I was just on another planet for a little while I think. I'd had a huge day. Forgive me?" I said with mock pleading in my eyes and a wry smile.
"Of course I forgive you. I understand that it's not easy doing what you guys do. Always on the road and travelling. Always in a strange place, it has to take its toll sometimes I'm sure." She replied as she put her arm around my waist.
I didn't push her away.
"Listen, I have to go and check my sound and stuff before I start. Meet me back here when I'm finished for the night? I'll let Joe know to let you back through here when I'm done if you'd like?" I said to her, not exactly sure what I was doing.
All I knew was it would make me forget about Addie for a little while.
"Sure, I'd like that." Charlie replied. "See you real soon." She drawled as she winked at me.
The night was hard, but it was over. It seemed to go so quick. I went back out to do my encore and couldn't get enough of the crowd. I never liked my last night no matter where I played, but it was time to move on to the next town. It was all part of the job. I headed back off the stage and grabbed at my bottle of water. I downed it in one gulp.
"Great show Lex!" Pete said as he walked past to start packing up leads.
"Thanks Pete, it took it out of me tonight!" I replied walking to the back to get changed.
"Great show tonight Lex, you were better than ever." I heard Charlie say behind me.
I turned around and stumbled back a bit as she kissed me. She wrapped her hands around my waist and pulled me closer to her. I parted my lips to let her in. Her tongue found mine and she kissed me long and hard. I fell into her as I kissed her back. I pulled away and opened my eyes to catch my breath. I saw Addie standing behind Charlie with a look of devastation on her face.
"What?" I said to her sarcastically.
"It's too much too soon remember Addie?" I said and I immediately regretted it.
She shot me the most vicious look I had ever seen cross her face as she stormed off.
"Shit!" I said to myself.
"What was all of that about?" Charlie asked me.
"I'm going to say sorry now Charlie, because I have to go and get her. God I'm sorry." I said as I ran off and left her.
I felt terrible but I needed to sort this out once and for all, and being a bitch about it was getting me nowhere.
"Addie wait!" I yelled at her across the parking lot.
Crowds of people swamped me for autographs and photos while I was chasing her.
"Not now damnit! Pete take care of it please." I rushed past them to get to Addie.
By the time I caught up with her, she was in her room and just about to slam the door. I stopped it with my hand.
"Ouch! You've got an arm on you!" I said as I shook my hand to stop it throbbing.
"What the fuck do you want?" She said to me as she threw her bag down and turned to look at me.
I didn't know what to say to her, but I knew at that moment what it was I wanted to do. I walked towards her.
"This." I said as I pressed my lips against hers. She went to pull away from me but I held her there.
"No Addie, I won't let you get away from me this time. We both want this, you know it. Stop fighting what we both need. I love you; you love me so let's stop the shit for once."
I kissed her again, this time with more force. She tried pulling away again but I forced her mouth open with my tongue. She let me in as tears were streaming down her cheeks. My tongue moved with hers as after a little while I felt her relax. She kissed me back hard. I could hear her breathing hard through her nose and knew she was just as hungry for it as I was.
I pushed her backwards against the wall as I put her hands above her head. I pulled her shirt up and over her head and undid her bra with what seemed like little effort. I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist. I kissed her hard again as I walked over to the bed with her. I sat on the bed and looked into her eyes as she sat in my lap. I brought my lips to hers again. She moaned as I ran my tongue around the outside of her lips and then into her mouth.
She began to grab at my top, ripping it open from top to bottom so she needn't waste time undoing buttons. She unhooked my bra and let my breasts free. I picked her up and laid her on the bed, as I ran my tongue from her bottom lip, down her chin and jaw to the side of her neck. She grunted in pleasure as I bit her gently and then harder, burying my face into the side of neck. Her hands were wild on my skin, she smelt absolutely gorgeous and I couldn't get enough of her. I still wanted more.
She grabbed at my left breast and I moaned as I felt her tweaking my nipple. She took it in her mouth and rolled her tongue over it. I felt it growing harder and I moaned loudly as she bit it gently. I pushed her back on the bed and undid her jeans. I loved foreplay but I just couldn't do that with her at that stage. I wanted her so badly, like no one before her and I couldn't wait to be inside of her.
Pulling her jeans down and throwing them on the floor I leant over her.
"I've wanted this for so long Lex." She said breathlessly.
"I know baby." I replied.
She let out the most beautiful sound I had ever heard when I entered her. Her eyes closed and her head moved back. I pulled out of her and watched her back arch as I slowly slid two fingers back into her. Oh my god she felt wonderful, she looked wonderful and until this moment I hadn't realised just how much I had also wanted this.
I moved her on the bed and sat down. I pulled her onto my lap and kissed her hard and deep. Her tongue was magic and I could feel how wet I was sitting there. I needed her so badly it hurt. I moved my hand back down to between her legs. She raised herself up and yelped as she slammed herself back down onto my fingers. I raised my hand up to get as deep as I could. She was moaning in ecstasy as I pumped in and out of her, riding her with my fingers for all I was worth. I raised my hand again and slid in as deep as I could go. I watched her face contort beautifully and a small scream escape her lips as I curled my fingers over her g spot repeatedly.
I alternated between fucking her and curling my fingers inside of her until I felt her tense.
"Lex you're gonna make me come! Oh god make me come please!" She pleaded with me.
I gave her what she wanted. I pulled out of her one last time. I slammed my fingers back into her and fucked her hard and fast while I ran my thumb back and forth over her swollen clit. It was more than enough to send her over the edge.
I felt her muscles clamp around my fingers as her juice flowed down past them.
"Oh god yes!" She screamed out as her nails dug into my shoulders.
I moaned loudly at the feel of them in my skin and the sight of her as she orgasmed for me for the first time. I kept riding her and manipulating her clit with my thumb and felt her tense again.
Her muscles were contracting around my fingers like nothing else I had ever felt. More juices were flowing down to the palm of my hand and all over her inner thighs. It was sexy as fuck to watch her come for me, knowing I was doing this to her.
She cried out as she threw her head back and leant on her hands. I held her there until she calmed down. I gently pulled my fingers out of her and pulled her to me. She took my fingers and licked and sucked herself off of them slowly and seductively, staring me in the eye as she did so. I was completely lost in her.
She kissed me with so much passion and I couldn't help but moan in pleasure. Her tongue traced a line around my lips, to the corners of my mouth. I slid my tongue over hers and they danced together beautifully. She broke away and held my face in her hands.
"I love you Lex, so very much." She said, still a little breathless from our kiss.
"I love you too Addie."
"So where do we go from here? I'm kinda new at this." I asked her through short, subtle kisses.
"Oh baby." She smiled. "We have all the time in the world..."
To be continued.
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