Author's Note:
This is my first try at writing a story. Hopefully some of you out there will read this and hopefully like it some bit. This story is not one of those "Pizza delivery. Ooh, hot and steamy, just how I like it. Want to come in for a drink?" stories. It's just about a college guy trying to find the right person. So if that disinterests you, you should stop reading. Otherwise, read on. The story may be a little slow, but it will eventually pick up around the following parts to come. If you have any comments, e-mail me at Streyn@hotmail.com
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This story is completely fictional. So any similarities you may see are purely coincidental. In other words, don't bite my ass off if it just so happens that you're life just happens to be exactly like the one in this story.
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------------------ CHAPTER 5
"Sofia, Dave, meet my brother, Will."
"Will??? What are you doing here? I thought you said you were going out tonight? It sounded like you were being dragged by your family to some reunion."
"Wait, Will? Boston Will?" Sofia was just as stunned as I was.
Will looked at Sofia, then at me. He said, "Well, I was being dragged by my family to some place. My brother IS my family. This is a surprise. Wow."
"Um, Will? Have you met Sofia already?" Jeff must have been confused out of his mind.
"No, not Sofia. Dave. He goes to the same college as me. Wow, this is a really freaky coincidence."
"Yah. Totally." This was great! There was no way in hell I imagined Will would be here, tonight! I mean, when Jeff was bringing someone, I was just thinking his sister or something else. But what now? After my somewhat obvious surprise at seeing Will here, how should I act? Does Jeff know about Will? I would hate to out him right then and there. I decided to play it cool for a while. But how could I help it?? I was so freakin giddy. Not seeing Will for almost a week drove me crazy.
"Why don't you guys sit down?"
"Thanks Jeff. So, this is a small world after all. Jeff, why don't you and I get some drinks. Yah?" Nice one Sofia. Real subtle. Very. Very subtle. But at least that would give me a bit more time to talk with Will.
"Um, ok Sofia. Will, cappuccino, and you Dave?"
"Um, just an espresso. Thanks."
"No problem." Jeff and Sofia walked away to the counter to buy us the drinks.
"Wow. I can't believe I'd meet you here." I was smiling like crazy.
"Yah. I know. When Jeff told me that his new girlfriend Sofia was bring someone, I was expecting her sister or some sort of girl friend. But don't worry, I suppose you'll have to do. I guess..."
"Shut up." I said playfully. "So, does Jeff know?"
"Oh shit. No. He can't find out either. I was just so caught up in the moment, I guess I wasn't really thinking. I know this is going to be hard, but we really have to keep it down if you know what I mean."
"Hahaha, yah I guess. Damn. I wouldn't mind getting alone with you right now."
"I guess that will have to wait for tomorrow. Hey, here they come."
Sofia and Jeff, damn. I wish they took a little bit longer. "Ok then, a cappuccino for Will and an espresso for Dave. So, what were you two guys talking about?"
"Oh nothing much. Just talking about some college stuff."
"Yah." We couldn't help it. We looked right at each other and just burst out in laughter. Yah, this was a great way to keep things low key.
Jeff confused as ever just said, "Um, I'm guessing that's some sort of inside joke. But anyways, this is nice. I still can't believe you to know each other. So, how are you both liking college?"
"It's great!" We both chimed in at the same time. That was it. We started to laugh even more.
"Um, Sofia, is something that funny?" Jeff was way in the dark about what was happening.
Then I felt a kick from under the table. It was Sofia. "Um, no. You know freshmen undergrads. Immature punks. Right Dave??"
"Yah, right. Sorry, we were just remembering something. So, how did you and my sister meet up?" Whew, finally, I changed the subject. Hopefully that would save any further fits of laughter from Will and me.
"Oh, we met in class. The teacher paired everyone in the class to make a presentation about furthering technology in health and living. Ever since, we've just grown on each other, haven't we Sofia?"
"Yahhh..." Sofia must really like this person. Well, I haven't seen him punch him yet. I always thought that the guy Sofia dates would have to be well built, or else he wouldn't survive her.
"Though, let me tell you, though you probably already know, never ever get this girl mad! We had a little argument over the web design and she punched me. And she punches hard."
"Yah, that's Sofia for you." The whole nite was a lot of fun. That night a small band was playing. We just stayed there the whole night talking and drinking coffee. With all the espressos I had, I could stay up for another 6 hours. Whenever Jeff and Sofia weren't paying attention, Will and I would just look at each other. If we could, we would have broken away from the two and try to find some sort of place so that we could be alone. But there were just too many people. As we got up to leave, Jeff went to go to the bathroom, leaving Sofia, Will, and me.
"So, Dave, this was the Will that you were kissing in the bushes I suppose."
I could have killed her right then and there. She put on her stupid smirk and that eyebrow.
Will began to blush like mad. Even though the whole place wasn't that well lit, you could see it in his face."
"Don't worry Will. Dave told me the whole thing. I already know about you two."
"Oh. ok. That makes me feel better. You kind of took me by surprise there."
"Sorry. Anyways, let me tell you both. Cool your jets a bit. If I didn't know better, you would be madly kissing each other right at this moment." We both kind of looked down at the ground. Then Jeff came back,
"All right. Will, ready to go home? Huh? Did I miss something?
Sofia said something before either of us said something stupid. "No, no, I think they're just a bit tired. Anyways, Jeff, I had a really great time. See you soon?"
"Yah. Of course. I'll call you up tomorrow." And then he took her into her arms and kissed her.
I wished so much that I could do that to Will. But it would be way too risky. Will just sort of looked at me with a puppy dog face. He was so cute.
"Ok then. We will be on our way. Dave, it was nice meeting you. Ok, Will, we better get going before mom gets too worried about our whereabouts."
"Ok. Bye Sofia. It was nice talking. Dave, see you tomorrow."
"Bye." And they walked out. It wasn't soon after we got into the car when Sofia just started laughing her head off.
"Well, aren't you glad you came? I'm glad I did. I finally got to me your boyfriend."
"Yah." Boyfriend. Did I use the word before? I'm not exactly sure I did. The thought popped all these ideas into my head. Was he my boyfriend? I mean, we've been together for what, a week?
"Hmm...well, even if you guys aren't seriously going out yet, you both sure act like you do. You really really like him. I can tell. Well, it was pretty obvious."
"I suppose. You don't think Jeff is figuring it out, do you?"
"I doubt it. Unlike you, Jeff is a normal guy. It takes him a bit longer to analyze people's feelings and all. Heck, it took him nearly a week to figure out that I liked him."
We both laughed. "Sofia, thanks for dragging me along."
"No problem, little brudda."
I guess the real problem with espressos is that it keeps me awake for a few hours then knocks me dead. It was a good thing my mom woke me up in the morning or I might have never woken up. I was meeting Will by the Washington Memorial at 11 a.m. I couldn't wait. I took a quick shower, dressed, and was out of the door at 10. I got to the Memorial around 10:45. I wasn't going to miss this date this time. But where was Will? I couldn't find him anywhere. Maybe I shouldn't have met up with him here. This area is so big, he might not see me. Man, where is he? It's already 11:10. Maybe he didn't come. Maybe he doesn't like me anymore. Then somebody came up behind me and put their hands over my eyes.
"Guess who?"
"Um, my knight in shining armor?"
"Very funny. I'm sorry I'm a bit late. Actually it was sort of fun watching you from a distance. You kept looking at your watch, and you frantically paced around looking for me."
"You!" And I nudged him in the stomach. I didn't care if he was late really. I just care that he was there. And finally we could just be ourselves. Well, except for the fact that we were in a completely public place and there were tourists surrounding us.
"Let's get something to eat. I'm starved." So we stopped by a hot dog vendor. It was a simple. But it was nice. I just wanted to spend more time with him. There were just so many things I still didn't know about him.
"Let's go to the park. It's not that far from here. It's actually not really a park. It's the Gallery of Contemporary Art. I just guess they figure it should be able to withstand all the elements. I went skating there once. With some of my family. It's really nice in the area. There are flowers everywhere. But I guess now that it's November and cold, there won't be much of that there. And also..."
"Dave. You wanna stop talking for one second?"
"Sorry. I'm just a little nervous I guess."
"You know, you don't have to be. I guess I'm just as nervous as you are."
We didn't really say much as we walked about four blocks to the park. There was the occasional glance and smile, but I guess we were both nervous as hell. We found a bench and just parked there. It took a little bit of time for us to start of another conversation. Just looking at each other, smiling; we needed more than that. We needed to know each other more deeply. But neither of us was brave enough to say anything. So I just blurted out, "So, Will, does anyone else know that you're gay?" How's that for an ice breaker.
"Not really. I guess it's just you. My family doesn't know. My friends sure as hell don't have a clue. I went out with some girls in high school so they think I'm straight as a line. I don't really know when I became gay. I guess I knew it the whole time, but I was just in denial. I really wanted to like girls, for everyone else's sake. My parents. My friends. I just wanted to fit in. So I denied to anyone that I liked guys. I just went on pretending that I like girls. But deep down they just didn't do anything for me. I didn't feel a real spark when I was with them. There was no real excitement. But when I met you, my mind started to go crazy. First I finally get out of my original environment. I could explore for myself. And you were the first guy I had ever met that...that I just went crazy for. Ever since I met you, I couldn't tear my eyes away from you. I was hoping that you would pick up on this but when you didn't really reciprocate, I just figured `eh, he probably likes girls. oh well.' Then I sort of took a chance asking you out to go with me. Then, ever since that time up in Boston before we came back, I guess I'm sort of riding the wave. I'm really new to this. I've never tried a relationship with a guy before."
"I know what you mean. My previous relationships were complete failures. So now that I am with you, I have no clue what to do. I can't exactly go to anyone for help. You're pretty much the only other gay guy that I know." And it was completely true. Being with a girl, getting used to their body. I mean, I've seen what gay men do. It's just, I am not sure if I am ready for all of it. I knew I really liked him, but I don't know how ready I was to take the next step. We've hardly even kissed that much.
"So where do we go from here?"
"I don't know. All I do know is that I really like you. And I really want to explore where we are headed to." I hoped he felt the same way.
"So do I. I hope you know that. Don't even think to question our friendship. I really want to get to know you." He got closer to my ear and whispered softly, "I want to get to know All of you." He sat back and just smiled.
Oh I liked him so much. I could have kissed right there. We just sat there. I noticed we liked having each other with us. We didn't care about the silence. We knew what the other wanted to say mainly because it was the same thing. But we just had no way of expressing it other than holding hands on the bench, smiling at each other. It could have lasted forever. I looked at my clock. "Shit, it's already 4:00. We've been sitting here for our hours. I need to get back to the house. My parents will kill me if I'm not home for dinner tonight. I'm leaving back for Boston tomorrow."
"You too? Well then Mr. Cordais, I guess we'll just have to pick this up when we get back to Boston. I really enjoyed this. I hope you know this."
Of course I did. Oh, I wanted to kiss him so much. His lips were just calling me to kiss him. "Of course. You know, with finals coming up for the fall term, we might be a bit busy with things when we get back to Boston. But I just want you to know, I'm not avoiding you or anything. I really enjoy the time we spend together. And I'll try to see you as much as possible, but if we can't, there is always winter break." Winter break. I forgot about that. Four long weeks without any school? And I would also be free to do whatever.
"I can't wait." He walked me to the subway. He had brought his car into the city. "Are you sure I can't give you a ride? I don't mind you know."
"No, it's ok. My house is a bit out of the way for you. It's ok. You need to get home too anyways."
"Yah. ok. I'll miss you."
"Will, we'll only be away from each other for two days."
"I know, but still. I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too" I didn't care. I needed to kiss him. When nobody was looking, I just grabbed him into a darker area and kissed him. It lasted but a second, but it was all that I needed. Just the sensation I had when his lips were on mine. "I'll miss you." And so I got on the subway and left. The whole time, I just smiled. I smiled all the way home, replaying what just happened in my head. I'm sure the woman sitting next to me thought I was some weirdo freak. But I didn't care.
Dinner with family was ok. Just a normal dinner. We talked a bit about what we would do for Christmas break. I told them I would be off until mid-January and then I would have to go back to Boston. It was planned that my aunt and her family would spend Christmas at our house. A yearly tradition not to be messed with. And then my parents would go to California and spend New Years with my dad's parents. Allison said she already had plans to go out with her boyfriend to New York, and Sofia and I would be left here.
My dad asked, "So do you think you guys are ok with that? Or do you want to come with us to California?"
Sofia didn't look too happy with the idea of going to the West Coast for New Years. We both loved the cold of January. So we both decided to stay here. It's not like there wouldn't be a party to go anyways. Sofia said she had plans to go out with friends anyway, and I could come along.
My flight left early in the morning. I hate those flights. I guess I would just stay awake so I could sleep on the plane. As short as the ride would be, I'm not much for flying. So I went to Sofia's room.
"So, happy with my decision to stay here for New Years?"
"Absolutely."
"I knew you would like to spend time here. And now, with mom and dad out of the house, you can spend a little time with you know who?"
"Shut up Sofia. We haven't gotten that far. We wouldn't even know what to do when we got there."
"I'm just kidding. Anyways, I didn't really feel like going to Cali anyways. I'm not a real big fan."
"I could tell by the look on your face. Which by the way, did Jeff call you?"
"Oh yeah! I forgot to tell you. He wants to get together sometime real soon. I can't wait to get where this is headed."
"I'm glad. You look almost as excited as me."
"No one could ever look excited as you do. It's like someone took some glue and pasted that expression onto your face. It gets pretty sickening at times you know. Anyways, it's getting late. You better get to sleep or you won't wake up in time for your flight. Just in case I don't wake up tomorrow, have a safe trip and a good time in Boston. I'll see you in three weeks?"
"Yah. Three weeks. Good night!" I went to sleep, dreaming about Will. Just the idea of him put me at ease. The next morning I didn't feel to well. In fact, it was the same feeling I had when I was about to arrive in D.C. at the beginning of the week. Anxiety. But what was I anxious about? Oh yeah, I still hadn't resolved the thing with Xavier. I really hadn't thought about him the whole week. But one thing was for sure, I wasn't going to leave for Christmas break without straightening out of few things with him.
----------------------------------------------- Endnote: Ok. I might take be a little slow on writing some more. Schoolwork is getting crazy now. With all the snow, I've kind been cooped up in my room here. And work loads are increasing as well. I still want to hear some more comments! E-mail me at Streyn@hotmail.com Thanks.