Note: This is the last of the backlog from the website I had been posting to. I think I'm going to try writing some pieces specifically for Nifty, that are a bit longer and more in-depth. Thanks again for all of the email! It's great to know that people are enjoying what I write.
Just a few things that I want to mention: First, while it's an honor that men want to use my services, I am not permitted to do my work for anyone outside the company, and Mike made it clear that that refers not just to my official job, but to my actual job of cocksucker. I am also unable to put anyone in touch with Mike, even if they live in my area. Second, as for Rick, well, I'm not sure how people think I would put them in touch with him when I'm not allowed to communicate with him myself. I understand how desirable he is and how fortunate I am to be allowed to service his cock and take his load multiple times daily, but I am not going to provide any information about him other than what I post in these pieces. Third, I am not interested in sending out photos of myself.
Sorry if that was a bit of a rant. Enjoy the latest!
Keeping Count
Every week starts off with 15 loads from two cocks. Five loads a week from Mike, and 10 loads a week from Rick. When I get to work every day, I find out whether I am going to be sucking Rick or Mike first. (Rick, being senior, gets priority of course. Mike doesn't like this, I can tell, because he originally set my hours for 8am so he could get his cock sucked first thing in the morning. But Rick's the boss, so he decides.)
There are at least 5 more loads from 5 more cocks, since Mike has me service at least one other person every day. These 5 are from a pool of 6 or 7 regulars, and they all work for the company.
The past few weeks, there have also been about 8 loads from 8 more cocks, whether they're vendors, clients, buddies of Mike's or Rick's. (I'm not sure, but I think a couple of the guys are buddies of theirs; it's none of my business, so I don't ask.) I think that's going to be a pretty steady number, because about half of this group is repeat servicings, and I wouldn't be surprised if some of the others come back. I think I'm servicing just about all of the guys in the little network at the company now, if I understand what Mike was telling me. There will probably be other guys, but not a whole group of new guys like there has been. This is also pretty cool, because it lets me get to know my feeders and learn how each of them likes to have his cock sucked. The more pleasure I can give a feeder, the better of course.
So the total would be about 28 loads from 15 cocks a week. (If you subtract Rick and Mike, it's 13 loads a week from 13 cocks.)
So far there's a total of probably 25 or so different guys I've sucked in my job. That's young guys, old guys, executives, janitors, black, white, indian, asian, hung, not so hung, cut, uncut. I get rock hard thinking about the variety of cocks and servicing styles and flavor of loads I get in a week. I'm a lucky fucking cocksucker.
Last Week's Load Count
Mike: 5 loads Rick: 10 loads Donkey-hung Indian guy (DHIG): 5 loads Fellow employees (8): 9 loads Outside people (11): 11 loads
So that's 40 loads from 22 cocks.
DHIG was invited back to use me every day because Mike and Rick, I think, figured that being made to serve such a huge guy would keep me in my place, and remind me of my misbehavior and disrespect for Rick's cock. They were certainly right. Being used by a man so large that I literally can't be more than a hole for him has given me a good half hour a day of being reduced to my essence and having my ego completely set aside.
I'm still not permitted to look at Rick or speak to him. I have been filled with shame over my rudeness and disrespect. Having to service him twice a day gives me a thrill that only another submissive cocksucker could understand, I think. I don't matter to him at all. The only thing that's important is his pleasure.
Mike had my suck him after he came for quite a bit longer than usual. I love nursing on his cock. It's like I'm being fed his energy and his masculinity. I think that the extended servicing, the large number of outside guys, and the introduction of DHIG as a regular were intended to tire me out and leave me working on my submissive drive alone. They were very effective. My jaw has been a bit sore for a few days, but I don't dare complain. I have advil and I have men who require my services.
Nice surprise was the fellow employee who came twice. He was completely unremarkable, total nerd accountant and not the sort I'd ever pay attention to. His cock was a a totally average cut 5". When he came after about 5 minutes of head, I of course kept him in my mouth. He suddenly started getting hard again, which I somehow didn't expect from this guy--I just never would have anticipated any kind of sexual prowess. I started sucking him again. He went about 20 minutes this time, with me teasing and edging him a bit. He wound up whimpering and bucking as he got closer and closer the second time. The load was nothing to write home about, but it was cool to see this really quiet guy let go and indulge his animal side a bit.
All in all, a good week. Lots of cocks to suck, and ample chance to think about my recent behavior and to relearn my place as a cocksucker.
Rick's Good Graces
I always go to Rick's office to service him. I think I mentioned it before. A friend suggested to me that maybe I could look around Rick's office to see what he likes and get him a gift, or maybe I could just leave him a note thanking him for allowing me to service him. But attempting to give Rick a gift or leave him a note would get me in more trouble than I could even begin to describe. My failure wasn't in offending Rick, so I can't really apologize. My failure was in forgetting my place as a cocksucker. I commented on the cock of a superior man, whether joking or not, and I insulted that cock. I was never in Rick's good graces, per se. I was just permitted to greet him and look him in the eye like any other service employee. I'm sure I'll be allowed to do so again but only when Rick feels that he has made his dominance clear and that I am behaving like a proper cocksucker.
It would be completely inappropriate for someone of my station to cross the social barrier between a senior executive and the lowest underling. I may be highly-paid, but Mike has made it clear that while he and some others are friendly or kind towards me, it's the same way they're kind toward the guys who take out the trash. Employees who are not in the know about my real job treat me like a senior researcher. The men who use me do not.
I think I put it best when someone said something about seeing a picture of Rick's cock: You'd have to ask someone who was on intimate terms with him. I'm just his cocksucker.
Nobody but Rick, Mike, and DHIG is allowed to use me on a whim. Everyone else goes through Mike. They're not allowed to talk about the availability of cocksucking service with anyone. If they know of someone who they think might like to use me, they have to go through Mike, who approaches them discreetly. (Hard to believe but this entire cocksucking operation is totally discreet.) I know that Mike has denied my services to guys who haven't met a particular work target, or has delayed some guys' first sessions until they accomplished a certain goal. Seems like a pretty strong motivator to me. Too bad that companies couldn't use cocksuckers as a public incentive in hiring and managing their employees. Part of the interview process for desirable candidates could be a sample blowjob, so they could compare that amenity to other companies, just like they do with salary, benefits, or even the company fitness center.
I did the guy who shot the double load again today. I'm convinced that he's never had a remarkable sexual moment in his life before, because he came swaggering in like he owned the fucking world. It was like a totally different man. I took it easy at the beginning so he could really build up and enjoy his first orgasm. When he got close, he held my head and told me not to move. He took a minute to let the urgency subside and then he sold me to suck again. He got close again, and had me stop again. He told me to start sucking, and said that this time I was going to get his load. I started to speed up and boost the intensity, and he said, "No, go easy". I slowed down and gave him the kind of slow, steady cock-caressing that not a whole lot of guys go for, but the ones who do seem to have stronger, more intense orgasms.
Holy fuck, did this guy shoot! It was one of those head-to-toe orgasms, and he shot an incredible, salty sweet load in my mouth. It was a privilege to be the tool that allowed this guy to gain sexual confidence and start to take control of the kind of pleasure he wanted to receive. I wonder if that confidence is going to find its way into other parts of his life. Rick has been making it clear through his punishment that I need to know my place, and not act as though the men who present for service are a source of pleasure for me. If he'd let me get away with insulting his cock, I might never have seen this guy, with an average sized cock and average looks and personality, as an opportunity to provide excellent service. Mike will get a report from the guy, I think, and I will bring it up in my weekly performance review. Whether it will bring Rick to permit me to look at him again, I don't know, but I do know that he'll find out that I've been doing the best work possible for every man I am allowed to service. I can only hope that pleases him as much as I think it pleased Mr. Double-Shot.
I don't mind the way Rick treats me in the slightest. It's helped me become a more attentive, better behaved, more skillful cocksucker, and if that's what it takes, then I'm glad he's chosen to take the effort to teach me.
My official job is in a very secretive department in a very secretive company in a very secretive industry. When Rick found out from Mike that he had hired a cocksucker and arranged the new office, he also arranged for me to be transferred to a new project under him and Mike. Really, there's no way that anyone but my bosses would know how productive I am in the job I am supposed to be doing. It's also not that unusual for a high-level researcher to meet with a seemingly random set of people (OK, maybe I take more meetings with janitors than most people, but I also have a two-room office suite with a bathroom). This situation is like being struck by lightning; it could only happen once in a million years. I have no doubt that people are talking, but it's probably more along the lines of wondering how I became the golden boy researcher of the golden boy executive. I suppose it's possible that people might be curious, but it's more likely professional curiosity and/or jealousy than wondering how I get away with what appears like not doing any work.
Or maybe, as another friend of mine said, they think I'm sucking the boss's cock.