Question of Faith

Here is part three of Question of Faith.

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Disclaimer: this story is fiction As far as I know NONE of the members of the Backstreet Boys, Nsync or 5ive are gay. I have No connection or relation with the bands, their families, their management or record companies.

And I'll get to the sex eventually just taking it slow for a bit.

Question of Faith part three

'Oh no.' Nick shook his head and waved his hands to emphasise his words. 'Vitamin shots. They give me enough energy for the show. I know it is not very healthy but I can't let the fans down.' The physician prepared the shots and Nick rolled up his sleeve. Lexie saw Kevin look the other way. She walked to him.

'You are not totally behind this are you?'

Kevin shook his head. 'Not behind it at all but Nick insists to do a show.'

Lexie rubbed his arm. 'Maybe I can find something in my books that can give him energy without taking these shots.'

Kevin looked at her. 'JC has to be a happy man.'

Lexie smiled. 'Or I am a lucky woman.'

'Thanks.' Kevin hugged her.

Lexie looked at her watch. 'I'd better get going again. JC will be worried if I don't show up at their sound check.'

Lexie waved at Nick and left the room. Kevin turned to Nick. Nick sat on the couch and opened his arms. Kevin walked to the couch and sat down. Nick wrapped his arms around Kevin and pulled him close for a kiss. Nick follows the outline of Kevin's lips with his tongue. Softly licking and sucking on Kevin's bottom lip. Kevin moaned. He had longed for a kiss from Nick. Nick entered his mouth with his tongue. When his tongue touched Kevin's it seemed like electricity ran through their bodies. Nick pulled Kevin down so that Kevin was lying on Nick. Kevin sighed. He slowly sat up again.

Don't start anything you don't want to finish Nick.'

'But..'

Kevin raised his hand to stop Nick from saying more. 'I am going to check the other guys. I'll see you at our sound check.' Kevin left and Nick wanted to smack himself. Again he was the one that lost. Again he played with Kevin's feelings.

The concert went well. The fans were wild and very enthusiastic. As they changed the line up daily the BSB went on stage first. The vitamin shot started to work and Nick danced with all the energy he had. The fans seemed to sweep him to higher levels. He had the feeling he was flying. Kevin watched Nick make the fans go wilder. AJ jumped right in and together Nick and AJ lifted their shirts. A deafing scream came from the crowd. Kevin shook his head. Brian sat down next to him.

'He still has the touch.'

Kevin smiled at his cousin.

'Shall we join them?' With a wicked grin Brian grabbed Kevin's hand and pulled him to the edge of the stage. Howie stood next to Kevin.

'One two three.' Kevin waited until Brian and Howie ripped their shirts open. He turned on his mic and said: 'as the only sane person in here I wish you a very good night. Now if you will excuse me I need to cool down some hormones.' with a loud scream Nick, Howie, AJ Brian all dived on Kevin, knocking him to the ground. The fans started to scream even harder. After they ripped of his shirt they slowly let go. Kevin was curled up in a ball; his whole body trembling with withheld laughter. He got up and smiled. 'I'll get you for this.' The guys ran off stage and Nsync ran on stage. Nick sank to his knees backstage.

'God that was a good show.'

Brian helped him to his feet. 'Come on. Let's get you to bed first. We are going clubbing.'

Nick smiled a sour smile. 'What if I want to go clubbing too?'

'You'd be asleep even before the limo drives away from the hotel.'

Nick knew Brian was right. 'Okay, help me to bed than and have fun.'

Everyone gathered in the lounge after the concerts to go to a club just outside the town. The energy of the concert was still pumping through everyone's veins. JC and Justin were jumping up and down. 'God, you make me so tired.' Sighed Chris.

'Come on.' Yelled Scott.

'The limos are here.' J looked at Kevin. 'How do we squeeze 15 guys and one girl in one limo?'

'Make that 14 guys and one girl and two limos.'

J frowned.

'Nick is not coming. Last time I checked he was sound asleep.'

J nodded. 'Let's go before they leave without us.' J and Kevin walked outside. The fans screamed their names and Kevin signed a few autographs before J pulled him into a limo.

'They will be here tomorrow.'

Kevin smiled and leaned back. He was glad he decided to come along. Nick tried to persuade him in staying but Kevin wanted to go out.

'What is that for a sneaky smile?'

Kevin turned to J. 'I was just thinking.'

J smacked him on the shoulder. 'About all those girls who will be throwing them selves at our feet tonight. I am going to score tonight.'

Kevin smiled.

'Go J Go J Go J.' Sang Joey.

'Ha! At least I don't have to try.' Said J.

'Oh right. Wanna make a bet out of this?'

'Sure.' J pulled out his wallet. '100 say I get a chick before you.'

Joey topped that. '200 I get one before you.'

They both looked at Kevin. 'What about you?'

Kevin pulled his wallet. '200 say the both of you get no woman at all.'

Scott, Sean and AJ started laughing.

'He has got you both there.' Joey smiled. '300 bucks say Kevin will get laid tonight.'

AJ grabbed his wallet. 'I am in for that one.'

Sean took all the money. 'Well gentlemen the bets are on.'

'Hey wait a minute.' Said Scott. 'How do we know if Kevin gets laid?'

Everyone in the limo frowned.

'I know.' Yelled Joey. 'We all keep an eye on him.'

'Oh yeah, smart ass and how are we going to get some women than?' J smacked him over the head. Kevin just sat back and smiled. They would lose that bet. He had no plans except to snuggle close to Nick and sleep.

The limo stopped in front of the trendy nightclub. The guys got out and walked inside. The nightclub was divided into three different bars. Scott, AJ, Howie, JC, Justin and Abs walked to the dance floor and started dancing. Richie, Kevin and J walked to the quieter bar on the third floor. The rest of the group managed to get a free table and ordered drinks. Kevin looked around the bar he was sitting at. Several couples danced on the dance floor. To his surprise he saw two men dancing with each other to the slow rhythm of the music.

Richie and J stood up again 'We are going downstairs.'

Kevin nodded. 'I'll just relax here for a bit.' Kevin ordered a drink and was deep in thought. The hand on his shoulder startled him.

'Sorry.' A man sat down next to him. 'You looked very lonely. I don't mean to scare you.'

Kevin smiled. 'I was just thinking about stuff.'

The man reached out his hand. 'I am Glenn.'

Kevin shook the hand. 'I am Kevin.' They started talking about general things. Kevin couldn't help but stare at Glenn. He was the opposite of Nick. Kevin had to oppress the urge to run his fingers through the man's dark hair. Glenn occasionally touched Kevin's hand and Kevin could feel his body respond. He shifted in his chair trying to hide his arousal. Glenn looked at him.

'Would you like to go to my place for some coffee?'

Slowly Kevin nodded.

Glenn lived close to the club. Kevin felt nervous.

Glenn pulled him in his arms. 'Is this the first time you've done this?'

Kevin shook his head. 'No, I had guys before. I am just a bit nervous.'

Glenn handed him a glass of red wine. 'Come with me.' Glenn walked to his bedroom. Kevin followed him, sipping of his wine. Deep down inside a voice told him to leave. But Kevin ignored it. Glenn led him in to the bedroom. Kevin gazed around the bedroom. He admired the big bed and the dark brown furniture. He looked at Glenn again. Glenn stepped closer and took Kevin's glass. Kevin closed his eyes and felt Glenn's warm lips on his. He sighed and opened his lips inviting Glenn in. Their tongues played hard to get and Kevin laced his fingers through Glenn's hair. Glenn pushed him slowly towards the bed. Kevin felt the bed push in his knees. He broke the kiss and looked at Glenn.

'I know. Normally I don't do this but with you.... I feel like I've known you forever.' He came close to kiss Kevin again but Kevin turned his head. Glenn sighed. 'You love him don't you. He hurts you but you love him.'

Kevin nodded. Glenn sat up straight and pulled Kevin in his arms.

'Well I am a good listener so if you want to talk.'

Kevin took a deep breath. 'I am scared. Scared that I will loose him to the disease that is destroying him.' Glenn gently stroked Kevin's arms. 'I can't talk to him about my fears. It will make him more worried. He always puts on his happy face but inside he is going through more pain than he wants to show me.'

'What is it that he has?'

Kevin shrugged. 'The doctors don't know.'

'Is he HIV-positive?'

'Oh no.' Kevin sat up straight. He had a look of panic in his eyes. 'They never tested him for that. They don't know he is gay and sexual active.'

Glenn pulled Kevin back to his chest. 'Don't panic. It was just a question.'

Kevin told Glenn of all his fears and love for Nick. Kevin rubbed his eyes. 'God it is 7 am. I better get back to the hotel. Nick will be worried if he wakes up without me there.'

Glenn gave Kevin a piece of paper with his name and address on it. 'If you ever need to talk or a shoulder to cry on, call me.'

Kevin hugged Glenn on the doorstep and waved a cab.

Kevin walked to his hotel room hoping he wouldn't see anyone. If he could just get into bed and snuggle close to Nick and tell him that he loved him he would be happy. Kevin softly opened the door and stepped inside the room. The room was still dark and Kevin sighed with relief. He jumped when somebody turned on a light. Kevin turned around. Nick was sitting at the window with his back to Kevin.

'I always thought we would be together forever. That death was the only thing that could break us up but I was wrong.' Nick said with a tear-filled voice.

'Nick.'

'Brian told me you left with another man. I woke up when they came back and asked where you was. Scott told me you had a bet.'

'Nick I am sorry.'

'Sorry that you promised me you'd wait until I was better of sorry that you ever loved me.'

Kevin sighed. 'I am sorry that I hurt you.'

Nick stood up and walked to Kevin. His eyes were red. 'Your stuff is at the door. And I don't want this anymore.' Nick dropped the bracelet Kevin gave him on their one-year anniversary.

'Nick, please.'

'Go back to him. I don't care. Just leave.'

Nick walked to the bathroom and locked the door. Kevin called his name but Nick didn't respond. Kevin grabbed his bags and walked to the spare room they always booked. He dropped his bags and fell on the bed. He looked at the bracelet he had in his arms. His token of undying love. A love he just killed.

Scott nearly bounced into the breakfast room. 'I won.' He screamed. 'I won.' Everyone looked up, some grabbing their head.

'Can you keep it down?' Snapped Joey.

Scott shook his head. 'No I can't. I won.'

'Won what?' Asked JC with a smile on his face.

'Well.' Said Scott. 'I got a girl last night! And Kevin got laid.'

Howie, Brian and AJ stared at him.

'How do you know?' Asked Brian.

Scott sat down on the table. 'I was seeing my chick out this morning at 7.30 as she had to go to work and when I walked back into the hotel I saw Kevin sneak in. His clothes were all wrinkled and stuff.'

AJ jumped up. 'The bloody bastard.' And he ran out of the room.

Scott looked surprised. 'What was that about?'

J shrugged. 'Maybe he is pissed off that you got a girl.'

Lexie rose to her feet.

'I'll be right back.' She whispered in JC's ear.

'Are you alright?' Lexie nodded. 'I forgot to take my insulin this morning. I'll be back in a minute or so.'

Nick stared in the mirror. A pale, tired man stared back at him. Nick just lost his reason to life. The reason why he woke up every day and at least tried to get out of bed for. Nick reached out for the bottle of painkillers. He looked at the bottle. 'One every 6 hours.' Mumbled Nick. 'Let's see how a few dozen of them work together.' Suddenly a hand covered his. Nick looked up.

'This is not an option Nick.'

'How did you get in, Richie?'

Richie looked at him via the mirror. 'The door was ajar and I heard you sob.'

Nick slowly turned around.

Richie eyed him up and down. 'Want to tell me what is wrong?'

Nick shook his head. 'I don't want to talk about anything. I just want out. I am no use to anyone. I am sick and..' Nick sighed.

'And you are boyfriend left you?'

Nick's eyes grew big. 'You knew? He asked.

Richie nodded. 'I know that there was someone for you. I don't know whom. Scott calls it my gaydar.'

Nick smiled a faint smile. 'He left me.' He started sobbing.

Richie carefully wrapped his arms around Nick. 'Come on. Let's get you to bed first.'

ick leaned heavily on Richie. Richie pulled back the covers and Nick crawled in bed.

'Now let's start from the beginning. You don't have to mentions any names.'

Nick stared at his hands. 'He cheated on me last night. I kicked him out.' Nick started sobbing hysterically now.

Richie pulled him close and pulled Nick's head on his shoulder.

'Is it this bad?'

Richie looked up. Lexie stood in the door opening. Richie nodded. Lexie walked closer and sat on the bed next to Richie. Nick slowly stopped crying and Richie lifted his head.

'He is asleep.' Richie whispered to Lexie.

Richie carefully pushed Nick back on the bed and turned to Lexie.

'I caught him with a bottle of painkillers in his hand planning to kill himself. According to Nick he is no use as he is sick all the time.'

Lexie sighed. 'I just know him for a few weeks and already feel like he is my younger brother.'

'Did you know about...?'

'Nick being gay?' Said Lexie, finishing Richie's question.

Richie nodded.

'Yeah, since yesterday.'

Richie sighed. 'He can't perform like this.'

Lexie nodded in agreement. 'I'll ask Justin to take over his place tonight and I'll have a talk with the Backstreet Boys.'

To be continued

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